Laurel 2011
Padmé phoned Sabé almost every day, she wanted to know how she was doing and what was new in the world of politics.
*You have to reveal your security code if you want to know all the dirty details.*
*Oh, now I'm being checked out like a stranger.*
*Regulation is regulation.*
*OK. , then tell me about Saturday. You left at the same time and….*
*Yes. Imagine he has a new BMW, just like mine, the same type, the same color.*
*Really?*
*You'll never guess what we have made on the way to Washington D.C.*
*Uh…..made a quick stop-over in a parking lot?*
*Nothing like that…" She laughed *…we made a little race …and got caught, it will be expensive.*
*You…raced... with Ben? Uh…was that fun?*
*Pure adrenaline kick, it was better than sex.*
*WOW, did you feel like…..*
*No, but he called me later that evening and asked if we could go out to dinner together.*
*And….?*
*I told him that I didn't think it was a good idea as long as he was looking for his late wife in me, and that he should basically think about what he want. He said it recently became clear to him that he couldn't find his late wife in any other woman, it would be hopeless and wrong at all. He said he was ready to move on...and then he said I was the only woman he had a good feeling with...well, we'll see. I'll let him fidget a bit, you know.*
*I like Ben a lot…let it come to you, girlfriend.*
*What are the little angels doing...and your Lord glorious? How much longer until he can fuck you?*
*The angels eat, sleep and grow and the Lord has to be patient for another week...or two.*
*Poor man, you mean…. he could…..*
*Sabé ! He's not the type of man, he would never...*
*It's okay, it's okay, you understand no joke when it comes to My Lord, what?*
*No, otherwise you would gossip endlessly.* She laughed.
When Anakin got home that evening, he told Padmé about the conversation with Ben, who called him that morning, and she talked about the conversation with Sabé.
"We both want our friends to be happy, perhaps with each other, but, Ani, don't you feel like we're sticking our noses too deep into their affairs, where they don't belong?"
"You're probably right, we should leave them alone, they're old enough."
The month of July passed as usual, except that she often spoke via Skype with her parents, who were guests of Anakin's father in London.
Padmé was still breastfeeding. The midwife didn't come as often now, she felt well, the postpartum period was coming to an end, and after six weeks she stopped bleeding. She often thought about sex with Anakin, about his needs, but she didn't feel any desire. She will have to talk to him about it because he examined her and now, he saw that the bleeding had stopped.
"So, you're ready to conceive again." He grinned.
Anakin!"
"Just joking, my Angel. Your body needs to recover from childbirth and this twin pregnancy. That will definitely take longer than six weeks. I guess your body doesn't crave sex."
"No, not really. I thought I had to talk to you about this, I didn't know this was normal. Please don't laugh, but I'm concerned about your…..needs."
"You don't think I could get my needs met somewhere else? No Angel, never. You have hands… and…"
"I'd be happy to do that for you, Ani…. " she winked "...you are my husband."
And so it started again, after two months he got another blow job. She only wanted a little caress. He wanted to give her time to say when she was ready, but it might take a while, he knew that.
"Padmé, it's a serious topic and no matter when we revive our sex, you may not feel like it for a while, we have to think about protection, we don't want to risk you getting pregnant again. You need to make a full recovery, you were pregnant with twins. They put a lot of strain on your body. Now what I wanted to say as Dr. Skywalker, you shouldn't take the pill while you're breastfeeding."
"What then, Dr. Skywalker?"
"Condom."
"OK. , for me it's as good as without…but for you…."
"It's not the same but I'll be patient, it's only for a few months."
"What good things have I done in life to deserve you, Ani?"
"I often ask myself the same question. I love you so much, Padmé."
"You can never be sure of other people's feelings…. but I believe you."
After Padmé's parents returned from England, they often had Skype conversations with each other. They were obviously thrilled by everything they saw, but most of all by Clieggs' hospitality. They even took him on a trip to Edinburgh for a few days. All in all, they were so excited that they accepted Cliegg's invitation to come back and Cliegg promised to visit them in Boston beforehand.
Anakin was happy because that meant Cliegg would come to Laurel too.
The entire month of August, Padmé talked to Anakin and thought about what she should state the reason to Senator John Kerry for her leaving the world of politics. He was a good boss, she wanted to tell him the truth, but ultimately decided against it. The truth will not benefit anyone in this case. She also decided to quit before the end of the agreed six-month break and made an appointment with the Senator Kerry; she wanted to hand him the resignation personally and thank him for everything.
"It's a pleasure to see you again, Lady Skywalker."
"Oh!? You know about my title?"
"Sure."
"I thought it had no relevance here."
"It doesn't...I just thought you'd like it."
"No, that's not why I married Lord Skywalker."
"You love him?"
"That's how it is and I've decided to only be there for my children for the next while, there are two of them and they need me."
"It's a shame, you're perfect for this job, for politics. I thought I could count on you when I…."
"…if you become Secretary of State?"
"You know something that even I don't know...I mean don't know for sure. How did you find out, it's only vague in the conversation, the president's intentions. How did you find out?"
"Abroad."
"Impossible."
"Let's put it this way: Secret services can be very efficient."
"As far as I know, you've only been to Great Britain. MI6 then."
"They're good, aren't they."
"However…and you are perfect for getting exactly this kind of information, and you also maintain contacts. If I'm not mistaken, her late mother-in-law was an MI5 agent."
"Yes, exactly… deceased. Exactly and that's why I'm leaving….." she put the letter of resignation on the table "… I want to live for my children… if you understand, but you will definitely find someone. Every young aspiring person will want to work for you….no offense. Absolutely, it was nice working for you, but being a mother is a higher calling. Thank you for everything."
"Thank you…and if you change your mind, just give me a call. Until then, I wish you and your family all the best."
They shook hands and Padmé left the senator's office. She was free, free from pressure, from lies and manipulation. Before, she wouldn't have called it that; back then she was determined, focused on her career, but now, once she recognized the higher goal, she felt satisfied with her decision. She had children and a husband who supported her by every decision. She didn't know exactly what she was going to do in the future, not exactly, but no matter what she decides, Anakin will like it.
He was waiting at home, Luke next to him and Leia in his arms.
"Overcame, Angel?"
"Yes Ani, I'm free."
"Have you thought about what I suggested to you the other day?"
"No, we still have time, Ani."
"Why delay when we can move towards the final solution now?"
"Because of you. You do so much for me, always making sure that I and the children are well…I want to think about your career now."
"That's nice of you, but I'm not a career-oriented person. It feels good to climb a few rungs for the hard work, but for me that's not my top priority. I missed my mother a lot when I was young and as a child. I don't want my children to only see me on weekends, if at all. I want to spend as much time as possible with you and my children. I wish to travel with you, to maintain contact with our families and friends, I wish that our children grow up well protected, seek security in the company of their parents and not spend their time with nannies or in boarding me, I know how it feels ."
"I'm sorry, Ani."
"I suffered through it, but I seem to have come out unscathed, so I want to do things differently with my family."
"Okay Ani, I'll think about it, I promise."
Padmé spoke to Sabé on the phone almost every day and was also interested to see if anything had happened with Ben after they made a little race on the way to Washington D.C.
*Yes, imagine, he called me yesterday and asked if we would go out to dinner together, he thought we could have a race like that again later, he enjoyed it. He doesn't want to fuck, he wants to race, is that normal?*
*Maybe something else will happen when he's on adrenaline after the race.*
*I don't know...and he's so good at it.*
*What, race or fuck?*
*Both. Shit Padmé, I want him so bad.*
*O-ooooh, that sounds like...how should I put it...*
*No, I'm not in love.*
*What did you say to me back then: you'll be the last who notice that.*
*That's what I said, maybe...and now you're using everything against me.*
*What's the point of having friends?* Padmé laughed.
*Bitch.*
*Always at your service.*
*Hey, something else…. There are rumors in the Capitol that you have resigned.*
*True. I went to Senator Kerry and handed him the resignation personally.*
*So officially and finally…and what are you doing now, getting bored?*
*Besides two children and a man like Anakin? I have both hands full.*
*…and your mouth.* Sabé giggled.
*Who's the bitch now?*
*Whoever gives it out must also be able to take it.*
*Sure, there is no other way I could satisfy him.*
*The bleeding has already stopped, right?*
*Yes, but I don't feel like it, I'm still breastfeeding and I got cut, it's sensitive, damn it.*
*Shit, Padmé, grit your teeth and let him do it, otherwise he is going to…..*
*No ! He doesn't do that but I know I should make it soon. Sometimes I close my eyes and imagine…..*
*You better open your eyes and do it.*
*You're right, girlfriend.*
*I am always right.*
*Yes, yes, smartass…..hey, we're going to take the kids to Boston for Christmas and staying a week, and you?*
*I will spend Thanksgiving and Christmas in Boston, see you there OK. ?*
*I often think of Boston...and long for it...sort of.*
*Me too, actually. There's nothing holding you here, why don't you go to Boston?*
*Anakin does a great job here.*
*He also finds a good job in Boston.*
*Yes, but not like that. Johns Hopkins Hospital is one of the best in the USA, it is a privilege to work there and he was promoted to junior chef in a very short time...although he claims that it doesn't mean much to him.*
*Padmé, stop! As far as I can tell, and I'm sure I'm not wrong, he's not a career type. He is a family man. Let him look for happiness where he thinks he can find it and it is you and the children. Whenever I called from my office in the late afternoon, he was already home. He can't wait to get home to you….and no matter how I used to find your decision, strange to have more children, I see it differently now, give him as many children as he wants, that will make him happy.*
*Oh, what a sermon, but yes, you are right on many points.*
*On what point am I wrong?*
*Uh…not in any.*
*See, I'm always right, you just don't want to admit it.*
*OK. , girlfriend, you are always right. Are you happy now?*
*Well, it wasn't that hard after all.*
*Why don't you come again?*
*If you invite me, I can't just barge in.*
*Then next Saturday at 1:00 p.m. If the weather permits we will have a barbecue.*
*Perfect."
*We're inviting Ben too, let's see who backs out.* Padmé laughed loudly.
*Definitely not me.*
*Maybe you can have a race on the way home.*
*Let's see.*
*See you then.*
*So long girlfriend.*
When she told Anakin about her conversation with Sabé, he was enthusiastic about the idea of inviting them both, although they agreed not to interfere further. Well, a little nudge can't hurt.
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Best regards from Germany