BPOV

"Look... I'm not going to sugarcoat anything..." he said.

I wasn't sure why I was doing this!

I knew I was going to regret this, but at the same time I knew that I'd also regret it if I didn't have this conversation with him!

He had been sending me messages for three days asking me if we could meet. He said he wanted to meet and have a 'talk'. I said there was no point, but he literally begged!

"You know how I was..." he said, "How I wanted everything to be under my control... How I had planned out everything... When you told me that you were pregnant, I just... didn't know what to think about it! I went crazy... I panicked and started thinking about where that baby was going to fit in any of my plans, and it didn't fit anywhere!"

"As I always said, you can't control everything..." I said.

"I know..." he said, "I'm just trying to tell you what was going on my mind at that time... People tried to explain, but I didn't listen to everyone... I just knew that it was a mistake... And that mistake was going to ruin everything!"

I fumed with anger again.

"Edward... I don't think we should be having this conversation..." I said.

"You know how proud I'm of my Dad... When people say what a great Doctor he is... It just makes me extremely proud! I wanted my kid to be proud of me... And I just couldn't think of how a kid would be a proud of a father who have had it without thinking what sort of future he's going to provide!" he continued without caring what I just said.

"Edward... I know it was overwhelming..." I said, "But we might have figured it out..."

"I know..." he said, "When I think with a calm mind, I know that I don't love my father only because he is rich or successful... I know that... But I couldn't think like that at that time..."

"And what I'm about to say.. You're going find it extremely insensitive and downright horrible... You might hate me forever..." he said.

What?

"When I heard of about the... miscarriage, yes, I was shocked at first..." he said, "But then... I was relieved... I thought it happened for the best! I thought... I thought someday you could see that this was the best possible outcome of the unplanned and unwanted pregnancy..."

"Just leave!" I shouted.