Hey Rushers! Sorry for the looooooooooooong wait, it was partly because of school work, and partly laziness. I'll tell ya, I'm pretty lazy cuz I mostly am stuck on Spotify, Youtube, SongCraft, and my sketchbook, but I'll try to be stuck on Fanfiction. I'll try to give U guys an update for chapter 4 as fast as I can (which would be about 20 wpm). I'm am very STUPID. Ya'll are the best people that I have had so far, cuz I haven't gotten any "what's taking U so long?" comments. THANK U FOR WAITING.

Chapter 3: RAGE

As the boys were walking home in grief, they came across many stores and restaurants that Logan loved. Each time they saw one, they'd look up, sigh, and then put their head back down in unison. They all couldn't believe that their best friend/bandmate had died. Carlos was bawling the whole walk back to the Palm Woods.

James was crying, but not as loud as Carlos. He would pull back his oncoming tears and would try to calm Carlos down, but only to fail and go back to crying. James was usually strong with his feelings, he can try to control them, but he can't help it when it comes to a friend's life being in danger, he just has to protect them.

But he couldn't do that this time, he was too busy being captured by an old man. He even wanted to punish himself for not saving Logan. He wasn't doing it for fame, he was doing it to protect his friend's lives, by putting his life in danger. Logan did exactly that. He jumped in front of Kendall so the knife wouldn't pierce him square in the chest, it would go through Logan.

Kendall, oh Kendall wasn't crying, he was fuming with anger. He was angry at himself. Logan's death was his fault. He should have thought about the shorter boys in the group, who never got a chance to sing lead in any of their songs, just James and him. If Carlos hadn't had that outbreak, he would have never known what was going on with the two boys, he would have thought that they were happy the way that they are.

But no, they were not, they wanted to quit Big Time Rush. He should have said no to Gustavo a long time ago, then they wouldn't be here, working their butts off all day, sweating from the unbearable heat, they would be in Minnesota, playing hockey, and going to school with skates on in the winter. They would all be there, including Logan, but now the boys have to live the rest of their lives without the smart one in their trouble-making, mischievous group.

And no one liked that.

Usually, whenever a school project came up that included partners or groups, the whole class would go crazy, just to be with Logan. Everybody loved Logan, even if it was not school-related. And when they came back from one of their tours, Camille would break the apartment door and tackle-hug Logan. But now that Logan was gone, everybody would be crushed, especially Camille.

Oh those two were great together, even if Camille is a bit crazy and slaps a lot. They were the exact opposite to each other. Camille is an actress, slaps people a LOT, and would agree to any plan that the boys might need her for. Logan is a singer, VERY smart, panicky, and tries to not get the boys in trouble. All though in the end, Logan has to go along with them.

Oh no. What were they going to tell Camille?

She would freak. No, she wouldn't freak, she would cry her heart out because of what happened.

It was only a few hours ago, but it felt so long. Kendall thought that it was days, months, or years after Logan died. Kendall hated himself just saying the word die. It hurt him too much, not just him, but everybody.

"Kendall, are you okay?" he heard a voice come from beside him. He turned his head to face a teary-eyed James.

"Kendall, are you okay?", he asked once again, only now his voice became more fearful.

Huh? Oh yeah, just thinking of what to say to everybody back at the Palm Woods", came his reply

James's eyes widened, "Oh God, I was so shocked about Logan's death I didn't give a thought to the people back home. I did the exact same thing I did at the concert. I truly am the worst friend. I don't even know why Logan became friends with me. He's better off with you and Carlos."

Kendall's eyes watered, "No James, Logan couldn't ask for a better friend."

"And what about me?", came a small reply beside James.

James and Kendall shared a look with each other.

"You helped Logan become more brave. You care for him, you make him feel equal to us. Who do you think introduced Logan to us? You did. When you first saw him, you ran straight up to him and instantly became friends with him. He was lonely until you came. You don't have a SINGLE reason to blame yourself Carlos. Okay?"

Carlos nodded. Just then, another one of Logan's favorite shops came by. Carlos took one long look at them, and then returned back to crying.

James immediately went back to calming Carlos down. Kendall helped James, knowing that he would break down as well. When the boys came in front of the Palm Woods, they opened the doors, a swarm of Palm Woods kids crowded them, asking why their concert flunked, why Carlos had an outbreak, and the most depressing question of all that was asked by Camille.

"Where's Logan? I really need to tackle hug him!", she asked playfully

And that was all they needed to hear. The three boys broke down in tears. Camille knew what happened the instant the boys broke down. She started crying too. Jo came and held her, tears silently falling down her cheeks. Everybody look sullen and depressed. Not because they would fail their school projects, because the members of Big Time Rush had lost their brother.

It was hard for Camille. It was hard for Kendall, James, Carlos, and Jo. It was hard for everybody.

Well? This story is going to be VERY sappy and IDK Y. I might have about 15-30 chapters in this fanfiction, but this is my only fanfic! If U review, Plz give me ideas for my next fanfic! It can either be Big Time Rush, Percy Jackson, or The Dragon Prince. Thank U all and Love ya!