A/N: Thanks for all the reviews everybody, I really do appreciate all of them! It's your reviews that keep me going, and give me some direction. Now on to the story; if I haven't said it before or if it is just not clear enough to you, this story takes place after Liz reveals that she knows the truth. Anything and Everything that happened after that point will not be happening….at least not in this story :) Also because this is my version, and I am just evil, I am going to play with the recurring characters lives. So ignore GH on tv, and keep reading!

Oh, and I may jump around as far as my timeline...don't know how all of this is going to play out. Also if you like what I have written, keep checking for when I post One-Shots that I am writing and let me know if I should continue them or not. Got a lot of ideas and a lot of Liason lovin' to write 3

Chapter 16

Forgotten Apologies Part One

Intro: As we are giving Jake Webber a break, it's time to focus on two big apologies that need to happen. Part One will be this chapter. The other parts will follow. Elizabeth's outspoken thoughts are going to be in italics.

Michael (Sonny) Corinthos II was not a man to be trifled with, even in his wheelchair he was a commanding force. Sometimes, he felt weak and when he did he would visit the Queen of Angels. Today was one of those days. After a grueling physical therapy session with Epiphany, he was exhausted. They had argued more than he thought he moved, mostly about how stubborn he was. Sonny snorted, if he was the king of stubborn, then she was the queen. That woman was just as infuriating as Carly and that's saying something. However, Epiphany had given him some albeit sound advice. 'Sometimes asking the Lord to help can do wonders for a person.' She had told him, so here he was praying for the use of his legs again. Sonny hated feeling helpless, and he had a lot of experience with it. From his abusive stepdad who used to beat him, to have to live through shooting his wife while she was delivering his son Morgan; to his son Michael being shot and then having to watch his own daughter struggle to survive an abusive boyfriend. Every one of those circumstances had him feeling helpless and it was not something he did very well. He begged and pleaded. He tried to bargain but figured that would be useless. So he just asked God to give him a sign, so that he could understand why at least this was happening to him and in walked Elizabeth Webber. Sonny was going to go talk to her until he heard her muttering to herself. Figuring he would wait until she was done, he got more of an ear full and insight into the woman that he thought he knew. Guess he was wrong?

Elizabeth walked into the Queen of Angels after the end of her shift from the hospital. Her gram was watching the boys so she had time to decompress. The snow had started to fall, coating Port Charles in a sea of white and as beautiful as it was, she needed a break. The QOA had become her refuge in the last few weeks. Ironic that this was the place that her life fell apart and now it was her safe place. She laughed aloud. No one even knows I am here. No one, not even Jason knew where she went and it bugged the hell out of him. He could have probably tracked her down if he really wanted too but he promised her space and he was trying to keep to that promise. Elizabeth was grateful for that space, she needed the time to think, and to hear out loud her own thoughts so she could make sense of them.

Ever since I exploded at the hospital, things have changed and sometimes I wonder if it was for the best. Jason has kept his promise. He has been there and don't get me wrong, I appreciate his help with the boys because I do need it but I don't know how much more of this I can take. I keep trying to move forwards toward him. I know he wants us back together and as a family but I can't seem to get my feet to move. I feel like I am drowning, trying to keep my head above the water, and the water is this place and this town. I just want to let it all out...everything I am feeling but I can't. She gestured with her hands. As if there really was someone up there listening. Everybody wants something from me. Jason wants me to remember him and wants me back. Jake wants my undivided attention. Griffin wants me to go deeper into my past to understand my present. Epiphany wants me to get laid. Patrick wants me to take some time off and get a second opinion. Carly wants to hug and kill me at the same time and Sonny just wants….' She trailed off. Well, she wasn't sure what Sonny wanted. 'Sonny probably wants me gone.'

In the back of the church, Sonny's eyebrows shot way up but he didn't make a sound. He didn't want the brunette gone, he just didn't know what to say to her after everything that had happened so he avoided her. Was it the coward's way out? Absolutely.

'I mean after what I said at the hospital, I wouldn't blame him.' Sonny chuckled silently at that. Yeah, that remark has spiked his anger but looking back on it now it kind of amused him. He didn't think she ever had it in her. He didn't think he would ever tell her but he had thought highly of her for a long time. So secretly he was a little proud. Elizabeth sighed sadly, but only for a second because it was if an invisible hand had just reached out and shook her. Startled, all Sonny could do was watch.

NO!' She jumped off the pew and started to pace. 'There you go again, Elizabeth. Putting it all on yourself...Again! This is what you do. You hide your feelings because you don't want to hurt people or worse make them angry, but all it does it makes it worse, GOD it's like living through it all over again! " She turned to the cross. "Is this funny to you? Do you like torturing me, making me feel like this?

First, you give me to my parent's who are too focused on their careers and their two other perfect children to give a damn about me, the misfit. Then you send me to my Gram's to live in this stupid town. This stupid town where I was raped, abused physically, mentally and emotionally from people and don't even get me started on all the parties involved. And what's the one constant with all the abuse? That I am not good enough. I am not a good enough daughter or granddaughter or girlfriend or wife or mother or even friend and I AM SO SICK OF IT! When is enough going to be enough? When am I going to catch a break? It's just one thing after another. One person after another and what's worse is now I am starting to feel like maybe they've all been right all along. How can I be a good mother when I blame myself too much Hell, Jake wouldn't even be having these headaches and issues if I hadn't turned my back. He wouldn't have slipped out the damn door without me knowing. Elizabeth took a breath as she pushed her soft hair off of her forehead. She was getting so worked up that beads of sweat had popped out on her forehead.

I have three children with three different fathers. One died because I killed him. One didn't want me or the kids affected by his lifestyle, and I made it easy for him to walk away and Lucky, lucky apparently didn't think he could be a father if I was involved as the mother. So once again, my children suffered because of my stupid mistakes.

Sonny had heard enough. Especially after she mentioned Lucky. That guy was a jerk and never deserved her, at least not after he came back from the dead.

"Elizabeth" He called out.

She turned to see Sonny wheeling towards her and a wave of embarrassment flooded through her. How long had he been back there, and how much did he hear? Her cheeks were growing warm and she was lucky that there were only low lights on.

"Sonny. I didn't…"

"Know I was here? Yeah, I am sorry about that. It is impolite to eavesdrop."

"How much of that did you hear?"

"Honestly?"

"That would be a change." She said bitterly but then she went to cover up her mistake.

"I deserved that." Sonny stared quietly into her blue eyes. "Honestly, I heard all of that. I saw you when you came in."

Elizabeth was speechless, she didn't know what to say. Sonny rolled over to one of the pews and gestured for her to sit down next to him.

"So"

"So"

This shouldn't have been this hard he thought. It is not like the two hadn't talked before, but they definitely hadn't talked in a long time.

"Lucky's an ass for ditching you and the boys." He said simply. Starting off easy was probably the way to go. "And Zander's death was an accident. The blame for both of those men not being there for your boys is on their stupid shoulders. Not yours."

"What about Jason? Whose shoulders should take that blame?" Elizabeth was quick to snap back.

"Everybodys"

"Do you include yourself in that?

Sonny opened up his mouth to respond, but before he could she jumped down his throat, "You should. If it weren't for you and your wife Carly, and your best friends Sam and Courtney; Jason and I may have stood a chance, but you couldn't do that could you Sonny? You just had to stick your nose in where it didn't belong. My relationship should have been none of your business, but apparently you thought differently. Tell Me Sonny, why was that? She raised her voice again.

"I don't have any answers for you that you are going to like." Sonny admitted.

"Try me." She bit out.

"It was fine when you two were friends. You were a calming influence on Jason. That much was clear, but you were too young to be a part of this world. I hoped Jason would figure that out, and he did. It took him awhile though." Sonny was trying to not be harsh, but she wasn't having it.

"So What? It's too dangerous? Is that it? That's a load of bull, and you know it. You've had many girlfriends involved with you and your life, why was it okay for them and not for me?" Elizabeth stood up and turned to face him.

"Because I didn't think he was serious about you! Not until these past few years."

"HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE? He was your partner. He spent more time with you and your family than he did with me."

"Jason keeps things close to the vest, you know that. I respected him enough not to push."

"So if that's true, why would you try and keep us apart?"

Elizabeth was breathing heavily as she stood in front of him. All of the years of anger and hurt that she had towards this man were finally emerging from her inner shell and she didn't know how much longer she could hold on to the calmer part of herself.

Sonny was trying hard not to wince at how cold her eyes had turned towards him. He had see the lady angry and he had seen her scared and heartbroken, but he didn't think he'd ever seen her this calm. It was eerie. Her eyes had turned to a steel gray and he could feel the anger radiating off her in waves. Sighing, he rubbed a hand over his eyes, this was not going to be easy and this conversation was far from over.

"You didn't belong in this world Elizabeth. He would have been doing you a favor if he had just kept you out of it. You didn't need to be hurt any more than you already had been. As friends, that was risky but more? Not to mention the debacle between, the three of you. You obviously couldn't make up your mind. It was a hard decision I'll admit, but you couldn't stick to a decision. Hell, you agreed to try and then walked away when I faked my death and he didn't tell you. So he moved on to my sister and then with Sam. That's not my fault. I still don't understand why you were so angry. You knew there were things…" He trailed off.

"Wow! You don't UNDERSTAND? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? JASON PROMISED TO BE HONEST WITH ME AS MUCH AS HE COULD. I UNDERSTOOD THAT. THERE ARE THINGS THAT YOU JUST CAN'T KNOW. THAT YOU LEARN ALONG THE WAY."

"THEN WHY DID YOU GET MAD WHEN YOU WEREN'T KEPT IN THE LOOP?"

"BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T TRUST ME….AFTER EVERYTHING I HAD DONE TO PROVE MY LOYALTY TO THE TWO OF YOU, YOU STILL DIDN'T TRUST ME TO TELL ME THE TRUTH AND BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T TRUST ME. JASON STOPPED TRUSTING ME." Elizabeth hadn't actually struck him but it felt like a slap on the face anyway.

"Woah, wait a minute." Is that what you think? That I didn't trust you? Or that Jason didn't trust you?"

"What else could it have been Sonny? Really? You didn't trust me and so he stopped. He stopped coming home. He ignored me when I asked questions, and if he didn't want to answer, he just left.

All of a sudden, we went from being honest with each other to lying to each other. The night he was on Alcazar's yacht, he came back to the penthouse and I waited up for him. We talked about everything and agreed to be honest. He said that there were somethings he wasn't going to be able to tell me, and I told him that it didn't matter to me what he did out there, only how he treated me when we were together.. He agrees to try, you decide to fake your death and not tell me and he starts spending his time with your sister. Your sister who belittled me, who called me names and who lied to my face on a daily basis. Not to mention the one who got behind the wheel on drugs and ran me over. "

Sonny had to think about what she had said before he could respond. She blamed him and he could see why, but she didn't have all of the facts. It was a one sided argument.

"It's not that I didn't trust you Elizabeth, I just had a one track mind and I thought that if the window of people who knew were smaller than it was safer. Not to mention, I wasn't really in the right mindset. Obviously I didn't know I was bi-polar then but I had horrible mood swings and I wasn't easy to get along with. So when I issued an order, my men followed including Jason even if he didn't want too. As for my sister, I guess there were things going on there that I wasn't aware of. You were kind enough to not press charges but I never said thank you. Jason did trust you, that is why he asked if he could tell you back then and I told him no."

Deflated, Elizabeth sat down again. "I didn't know that."

"That wouldn't surprise me. If anything Jason probably thought that it would just be better if you didn't know he had tried. Less complicated. He was and is all about the simplicity of things."

"True. Did you not trust me or was it your illness?"

"I would like to say that it was just my illness but I can't Elizabeth. I didn't make a lot of good decisions back then. I made a lot of mistakes. Pushing my sister on Jason was one of them. She couldn't handle the life. I certainly didn't want her involved but she was friends with Carly. She used to say that the four of us were one perfect team. I guess I started to believe Carly, obviously that wasn't the case once Courtney and Jason broke up.

"So what about Sam. Why was she good enough for Jason but I wasn't?"

"Because she was good enough for me."

To be Continued.

A/N: …..Yup…. So there's that. Are you ready for more? Do you even want to read more?

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