\\Shikamaru\\
The three days I spent home alone were agonising. I didn't want to force anyone to look after me, but the realisation that I'm on crutches is killing me.
I feel useless. I sit or lie down all day, physiotherapy won't start for another two weeks if everything goes well and the stitches heal properly, so there's not much I can do.
I know I'm being dramatic, I only spend about five hours a day on my own, but I haven't depended on someone this much since I was three years old. At least Tema has been sleeping over, although we can't have any adult entertainment as I can't make the effort.
On the other hand, I've suddenly got a lot of helpers, people do everything I ask and I even get help bathing as I can't move my knee much. And food, I get lots of food that I love to make up for my horrible hospital diet.
My mum and sister call every day and several times to make sure I'm still alive and ask if I'm better, even though they know I'm not. But I thank them for taking up my free time. I think I'm missing school, but that's a shame because I'll be back on Monday.
- We're back! - Sasuke interrupts my thoughts and the basketball game he's watching.
- Good afternoon, how were your lessons? - I ask, receiving a welcoming kiss from Tema, who came in just behind him.
- Tiresome and boring as ever! - Kiba says before closing the door behind him -And you survived the day okay?
- Yes, sir, I heated up my lunch just as you asked! - I say like a proud child - I can wear my crutches like a big boy now.
- Good! - he squeezes my cheek and I take his hand.
- That's enough of that, but seriously, I feel like I'm adapting better and the pain isn't so bad, I'll survive.
- Are you ready for your exercises? - my personal nurse, aka Temari, asks attentively.
- Always ready to have your hands all over me, Miss Sabaku! - I say, lying down on the sofa - I walked today and it didn't hurt, the drugs must be killing my brain!
- How dramatic! - she rolls her eyes and starts to move my leg - Let me know if it hurts.
- I told you I don't feel anything, I'll be fine in no time.
- Let's hope so and that you keep up the positivity. In 10 days' time, if everything goes well, you'll be able to forget about the crutches and start walking on your own.
- And you'll start physiotherapy, so much for your nice nurse. I bet the middle-aged ladies are looking forward to another handsome footballer in need of a lot of attention – Sasuke says as he sits down in the armchair next to me.
- For all you know, they could be beautiful young trainees, very caring and with beautiful smiles! - I say and I get a punch in the stomach that makes me almost jump off the sofa - I'm sorry, I'm sorry, none of them are going to be as good a nurse as you!
She puts my leg down on the sofa without saying a word and after I sit down I pull her to my side and hug her, her face almost breaks into a smile, but she keeps her brow furrowed in irritation.
- What's for dinner, Mr Cook? - I ask Sasuke.
- We're back to fitness, it's going to be chicken and vegetables.
- Good, if I keep this up I'm going to put on 30 kilos in a month! - I say and go back to watching the game on TV.
As the evening draws to a close, I hear Tema say she's going up to my room and shortly afterwards I go up to say goodnight to the boys who have stayed up watching some film.
I climb the stairs too slowly as I have a useless knee and two pieces of metal slowing me down. However, it's all worth it when I open the door with a frustrated sigh. I stand in the doorway with the sight before me.
Tema has put on some black underwear that looks great on her and I think I'm drooling like an idiot teenager.
She approaches me calmly and whispers to me as she locks the door
- I'm going to show you that I'm the best nurse you can have, today's exercises are going to be very different. I let the crutches fall to the floor and throw myself on the bed with anticipation.
My God, tonight is promising.
Carefully she sits down right on my most sensitive spot and I grab her perfect arse by instinct. When she starts to move slowly, the air seems to run out and I kiss her hard.
Her hands take off my T-shirt and start to undo the drawstring of my tracksuit trousers. Just seeing her like this makes me more than ready for whatever she's going to do to me. If I'd known that jealousy was the solution to a good night of sex, I'd have used this tactic many times before.
She doesn't even blink when my member pops out of my boxers when she removes them along with my trousers. She carefully leaves me completely exposed.
Her tongue licks my entire penis and I inhale in surprise. So this is how it's going to be?
She begins her incredible work and all I can do is grab her beautiful hair as she stares at me with those green eyes. Every second it gets harder to contain the sounds of joy that are stuck in my throat.
- Ah, I'm almost there, you'll miss out on the fun if you carry on like this! - I warn, but the look in her eyes tells me that this is the least of her worries at the moment.
I collapse in pleasure and watch her swallow it all. Damn, this woman is incredible at everything she does.
- This is already my amusement, a reminder that nobody leaves you like I do! - she smiles mischievously. Fuck, the jealousy card is so valuable.
- I love it when you do it like that! And when you're closer you give me the shivers. - I say to her as I regain the slightest breath to speak - Come here and sit on my face and I'll show you how I'll leave you. - I'm not going to leave her like this, but I really can't take any chances with my knee, knowing our type of sex it wouldn't be very pleasant for the recovery from the recent surgery.
She takes off what little she had on and follows my request. All my focus at the moment is on giving her as much pleasure as possible. After these months together, I can tell that my tongue and hands already know what to do and she doesn't last long. Naughty, she must have been as eager as I was.
She lies down next to me and I hug her with my whole body while we recover.
For the first time in a few days, we sleep in each other's arms, without any clothes on, under the warmth of the sheets and without any worries.
The weekend went smoothly, the adaptation is still strange, I'm much more used to my new walking style, but at the same time this new kind of life makes me sadder. I feel like I'm in a body other than my own and half the day I think about running out of here. But I can't.
On Monday school starts again, so here I am sitting at the canteen table waiting for Sasuke to arrive with my food. I can't walk with my crutches and carry my tray at the same time. At least in just a week I'll be rid of them.
But then the physiotherapy starts and I stop taking my medication. I'm afraid I'll feel too much pain trying to walk, it doesn't hurt now, but the medication doesn't allow it.
- Here you are. - Urrea wakes me up from my daydream.
- Thank you very much, waiter.
- That's funny, I hope this reduced mobility thing doesn't go to your head! - says Naruto, which makes everyone laugh except me. Reduced mobility, that hurt.
After lunch I had one more lesson and I was on my way to Naruto's car, which was kind enough to take me home, but not without first saying goodbye to Tema, who was chatting to Rin and Tenten. She still has a dance class, but she promised me we'd go out for dinner.
- So, how are you feeling now that you've been exposed to your mere mortal side? – yhe Uzumaki asks as we start driving down the road.
- Honestly, it's awful, but it could have been worse. At least I've gained a lot of employees, I feel rich. And you're a great driver.
- Well, thank you Mr Nara! - he says cordially and gives me a smile - I know you mate, in a couple of weeks you'll be as good as new, you've got an amazing willpower!
- I hope so, but I'm scared shitless. I'm not ready for the physio and to never play football with you again. If I'd known it was going to be my last game in the team, I'd have tried harder! - I release all the weight I've been carrying, Naruto has always had this superpower of getting me to talk too much.
- Are you kidding me? You were incredible on the pitch, you always were! You're a source of pride for everyone in the team and we're all rooting for you, don't ever forget that! - he says in his captain's voice and stops the car in my driveway.
- See you tomorrow and thank you! - I say with a smile on my face and walk back towards the entrance.
I have about five hours of free time and a knee that prevents me from any physical activity. It looks like I'm going to spend another afternoon being useless on the sofa.
Time seems to drag while I wait, but soon I have to get ready to go out. I've gained enough mobility to be able to look and smell good on my own, and strangely enough, I'm proud of it. A few minutes later I hear the horn honking and I know it's my princess waiting for me.
- Wow, you look amazing! - she says as I sit down next to her and kiss her cheek.
- So do you. Thanks for taking me, I know you don't like driving.
- With a good reason I don't mind, and dinner with good company is always worth it! - she smiles without taking her eyes off the road.
- Good to know! - I say without hiding my smile.
The restaurant she chose looks very nice and has alternatives for both, she said she loves the salads here, but the steaks look great.
We are taken to a table for two and choose our food. When we received the dishes, my theory was proven, the steak was delicious.
– So how was your day? – she asks.
– It was good, being able to manage on my own was a good achievement and, strangely, going back to school cheered me up, I missed putting up with Ino in class, even more so now that she's back with Sai! – I say happily – And yours? How was the dance class?
– It was great, now that the studio is gaining more members we can do group dances, it's been a really cool experience. Now we even have some boys taking classes with us. - she says with a very happy look and I realize how long it's been since I let her relax like that, without even realizing I've put a lot of weight on her shoulders.
– I hope none of them are targeting you! - I say with false jealousy.
– Oh yes, one of them happens to be very handsome and muscular, he came to ask me out, but I told him no, I like to play hard to get! - she says and I understand exactly what she is trying to do.
– Just because the jealousy card worked on you doesn't mean it has the same effect on me! I know you, I know you're lying! - I say and cross my arms over my chest.
– Oh yes, and how can you be so sure?! – she asks, offended.
– You have an oversight that quickly gives you away! – I admit it because it's true.
– I don't know what you're talking about!
– You know, you're doing it now! – I say and she makes a sad face that makes me laugh
– It's okay, I like you even if you don't know how to lie.
We moved on from the topic and ordered desserts after the divine dinner. We split the bill as she insists several times and head to the car to my house, where once again we satisfy our desires and sleep in each other's arms.
I wake up to the alarm clock in the comfort of my bed. Now without training I can sleep later which is an added advantage.
Tema is no longer by my side, she has classes before me so she has already left the house. For my salvation, my cousin takes me to college so I don't have to walk, since I can't go there on a motorbike either.
The day drags on like all the others, now that I can't do anything I have to find something to entertain myself or I'll go crazy. I'm alone at home so I decide to do something I haven't done in years.
At the bottom of my closet, stored in its bag is my acoustic guitar, in classic light wood, it is beautiful despite the painful memories it brings back. The last time I touched her I wasn't in a very healthy state of mind, but I couldn't come to college without her.
My fingers still remember the chords and I start to sing while I play, I try to remember songs with positive memories and so I lose myself in the happiness that I forgot music could bring. I sank into negativity and remembering these good feelings is almost like relearning how to play an instrument.
– Wow, I didn't believe it when you told me, but you play beautifully! – Temari scares me with her entrance.
– Hey, it was a private thing, don't you know how to knock on the door? – I ask angrilly and hurriedly put away the guitar.
– Don't put it away, I'd love to hear you play, and I'm sorry, I knocked but you didn't answer, I thought I could come in and you wouldn't react like that! - she says with a friendly smile that only irritates me more.
– You thought wrong, okay?! And no, I won't touch it again, I should never have picked it up!
– Calm down, you don't need to...- I push her arm when she touches my shoulder and that scares her slightly, thankfully, it's good that she understands that I'm serious.
– You don't know that, you don't know the weight this has on me!
– I'm going to go home, give you a chance to calm down! - she says with watery eyes and leaves my room without saying another word. I just slam the door in an act of revolt. Picking up the guitar was a mistake.
The week continued and on Friday I still didn't have the courage to apologize, despite missing her. My chest still tightens just thinking about what happened, it was a big mistake to touch that object.
But a tighter grip falls on me when I remember her scared look. I know I made a mistake, but I don't know how to apologize.
– So have you already apologized? – Ino disturbs my thoughts by sitting next to me in the room.
– It's not that easy! – I say, tired of the question that has haunted me for the last four days.
- Of course it is! You know how she is, if you apologize properly she will understand! - her sentence makes me think again.
Today I'm going to get the stitches removed, not having them in this new phase will hurt. I really have to change things.
– Pay attention to class and don't forget that you have to take me to the hospital today. - I remind her and pretend to turn my attention to the teacher, even though my mind is far away.
When the last class ends, just before four, I go with my cousin to the hospital.
I am seen shortly after and hear the doctor's words, on Monday I start physiotherapy and this weekend's goal is to be able to walk without help. The stitches are taken off, but it seems that a new difficulty has been added.
I return home shortly afterwards with all my contacts and schedules, and still with my crutches, even though I now try to rely less on them. In the last few days I've been taking small trips without them in the house. But thinking about leaving them frees me and scares me at the same time.
– I promise, I'll apologize tomorrow, I just need some more time to get my ideas straight! – I say to Ino before getting out of the car and heading home.
– Good afternoon, independent boy! – says Kiba when he sees me place my crutches next to the door and lean on the wall to walk towards him on the sofa.
- Good afternoon! Do you know if Temari is going somewhere tomorrow afternoon? - I ask him because if anyone is going to know, it's either him or Tenten, and he's the option with the least chance of hitting me.
– I think she'll stay at home, but you won't die if you ask her.
– My fear is getting slapped! I was going to ask Tenten, but she's going to kill me.
– And rightly so! But if you explain that you want to apologize, maybe she will spare you.
– How do you know that's what it's for?!
– I already told you that you are very predictable! – he laughs as I start to think about my plan.
I slept very little between yesterday and today, I'm a nervous wreck, but I already have everything ready, I spoke to Tenten on call for my safety. After much insistence, she answered and agreed to keep Tema at home for the afternoon and I asked Sasuke to bring me the bouquet. I'll try to make things right, and a bouquet will melt any heart.
Urrea takes me by car to Temari's house, he's aware of the plan and I'll call him if I need a ride home if it doesn't go as I hope.
I ring the doorbell in fear, I had difficulty just climbing the two steps, I don't know if it was due to nerves or the fact that I was going without crutches, I'm going in faith that this will make her proud.
She opens the door, confused to see me and I take the bouquet off my back – Sorry for being an idiot! – I say hesitantly. She remains astonished but accepts the flowers with trembling hands.
– I should also apologize, I shouldn't invade your space, I just didn't have the courage to tell you that. - she admits hidden among the flowers
– No, I was the idiot for reacting like that, I don't deserve you, but if you forgave me I would be much happier! - I say and approach excitedly.
– Of course I forgive you, but I'm going to need some time to recover from everything that happened! – she says and lets me in, which I do more easily than I expected and leave a smile on her face – It's incredible to see you're already doing so well!
– Honestly, I didn't expect it to be so easy! – I say and see her put down the flowers to give me a hug.
– Of course not, you don't trust yourself enough! – she says before kissing me tenderly with longing.
– I'm glad we're better now, I already miss Indian films, come on, I'm already waiting. - I leave the hug and head to the sofa, sighing with relief as I sit down, my knee was already getting tired.
May the little happiness I have in these current sad days begin again.
The following week gives me the happiness what the last two didn't, physiotherapy isn't as difficult as I thought, it's tiring and painful, but just the fact of being able to do things is already a victory and Tema's proud face when I tell her everything makes my day.
I'm on my way to the parking lot so Tenten can take me to her house since on Fridays I leave at the same time as her and Tema, but I'm surprised when I realize that near the car is a guy with a bowl cut hair and a blonde that I know well.
– Good afternoon! – I say irritated when I approach to break the hug they started.
– Nice to meet you, I'm Lee! – he says with a smile that irritates me as he moves slightly away from Temari.
– I don't remember asking! Tema, when is Tenten coming? - I ask in the hope of getting away from that annoying playboy smile.
– You don't need to be like that, I met Lee at the hospital and he's a great person! – she says confused.
– I bet he is! – I say with irritation consuming me.
– Well, I felt the atmosphere from miles away, hello Lee! – Tenten comes to my rescue, it's good to know that everyone knows this Lee guy except me.
They all say goodbye and I sit in the car frustrated, the journey is made in silence and I continue into the house in the same way to the bedroom where I sit on the edge of the bed.
– I didn't imagine you would react like that, especially after last week's stupid argument. - she says with a disappointed look.
– Right back at you, I bet he helped you a lot while I was suffering!
– You must think that the world revolves around you. He's a father, and he loves his girlfriend, something I'm starting to think doesn't apply to you! - she accuses and irritates me even more, forcing me to get up.
– You can bet I don't, may I remember you that we were never even in a serious relationship, I thought I knew you, but now I can't even trust you!
– I say the same, it was a mistake to think that appearances are deceiving, after all, you are as stupid as you seem! Don't think that a bouquet will be enough this time, much less sex! - she says with her hands on her hips in irritation.
– Good, because I'm starting to think we're too different to work out. I'm leaving, I don't know what to think about this conversation! - I say as I leave the room - Ten, please take me home! - I say in the living room.
She accepts without questions, but when she sits in the car she doesn't hold back – Do you want to talk about what happened?
– No! – she just nods her head at my answer, shortly after leaving me at home and heading back.
I go up the stairs towards the bedroom, the sight of the guitar torments me, I see it in the closet and I remember how this started, I think I'm going to lose myself in my sadness again, but at the moment I'm too angry to think about it.