So many of you are going to be so disappointed, and to those of you… I apologize.
Admittedly, the idea to cancel these stories and start anew has come to me many times. I want to integrate John into this world properly, and it seems like I can never do it. Sometimes I have a decent start, sometimes I'm happy with what I wrote… and then I'm sorely disappointed after a certain point and it just never gets better.
Maybe it's because I don't properly plan my stories out. I come up with a general overview and focus on specific plot points, but that's it. Just about everything else is just random stuff I've come up with on the fly.
I don't want that.
As of writing this, a complete overhaul of my Hazbin/Helluva series is being worked on, as I have found that I no longer have the motivation to write for those stories.
A big reason is because most of my motivation depends solely on the reviews I get. Which unfortunately has a habit of influencing story decisions in my head and making the story veer wildly off track.
Unexpected Help was my first attempt after I feel in love with the show. Unexpected Family was my attempt at bridging the gaps and far too many plotholes I left in that story. Sinful Savior was a last desperate attempt to fix the series by labeling it an alternate universe, and hoping my increased writing skill would help even out the smooth edges.
See, the biggest issue with every single one of my stories is that I get too excited, and I let myself be far too influenced by reviews and end up either changing something I didn't want to or rushing far too quickly to a plot point I want to cover.
I'm honestly struggling to write this, because fanfics or not, these stories mean a lot to me. Writing them has helped me through some dark times, and I've always wanted to provide a little more light in the series overall rather dark tone.
The thing is, after a certain point… it stops feeling like the actual characters of the series aren't that important anymore. I don't just mean my OCs either, but actual characters like Angel, Husk, and Carmilla because I want to speed through the story.
I know overall where I wanna go and what kind of story to tell… but I put way too much into the stories and end up feeling obligated to address little details that shouldn't really matter.
The biggest issue, and the one I've been hesitent to address, is that I put so much focus on John and trying to let the readers know more about him, that I basically speed through his developement and put too much effort in prioritizing his presence.
But I want to actually focus on the characters themselves, and I fail to do that way too often.
Not this time.
So, we're doing things completely differently. I want to go to the basics, establish the characters and their place in the story, and i want to be willing to let myself write without trying to put a limit on my stories or feeling like I've jumped the shark.
So, that's what I am going to do.
As of this moment, all three stories are being canceled, and will have OUTDATED added to the titles with the update of this message.
Considering this is the second time I've rebooted the series, I understand if people are no longer interested or care anymore, and that's fine.
But to those of you who actually stick around, I thank you for your patience, and hope I can deliver something that's worth the wait.
The Oneshots collection on Ao3 will remain up and active, and I will still occasionally throw a new idea in every once in a while. But above all, I want John's journey to feel earned, and though I'm aware that I'm just writing fanfiction, I still want John and Vanessa to feel like actual characters, not just roles being filled.
Which means if I have to step-back, re-examine the characters and what I know about them, I will.
I've debated on following along with the story as I've tried or simply taking what's there and making my own, but each of those come with it's own problems. As a continuity Nazi, anything new that comes up that essentially contradicts story elements I thought were accurate tends to make me question and rewrite way too much after a certain point.
For example, despite my bluff, Vaggie wasn't supposed to be an angel when I started Sinful Savior, but I started writing it fresh off the show's release, and had two chapters out before episodes five and six even came out.
So when I use something established and then everything I know about it is turned on it's head, that causes problems.
So here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to plan out the story, the characters, and actually create a roadmap. I want to single out each character and their respective arcs, and I'm going to toss away the ones I do use for the future.
I want to write these stories so that they make sense, without feeling like new things are being injected every other chapter.
I'll admit, this turned into a far longer rant than I intended, but the bottom line is that while these three stories are over, the Sinfulverse isn't, and if you're still interested, I intend to have something much more worthy of reading.
With that said, I bid all adieu, and I hope to see in the next stories.
Thank you all for the support you do give, and have a good day.
