Oh Lord, what have I done? John's thoughts were a rush as his eyes snapped open. He looked down at Lin's unconscious form in something akin to horror. He winced and clutched his chest as foreign feelings crashed through his chest. Feelings that weren't his. When he opens his eyes…what will he feel? I don't…I can't…He stumbled from the bed, hurriedly pulling on his top and hoodie before stumbling towards the door. His head was still heavy and spinning as he hurried down the hall. He felt weighed down, crushed. The whole world was pressing in around him. Worst of all was the intense second set of emotions running through his head. He couldn't think straight, and it terrified him. He covered his mouth as he stumbled into the elevator, desperately pressing for the ground floor. Air…I need air!
"John!" John looked up as the doors closed to see his alpha running towards him. I can't face him…Not when I feel like this…He bent over and clutched his head in the small metal box. He was so confused. He could feel his own fear and guilt mingling with Lin's confusion and worry, as well as his hurt and desire. As soon as the doors opened, he was running out into the street. He was afraid, desperately afraid. What if he doesn't feel the same about me? What if he does?
Usually, he knew this area, but at that particular moment, he didn't know where he was. The city roared in his ears and he almost doubled over. Everything felt more sensitive, especially his sense of smell. He was lost in a sea of unfamiliar alphas and betas, with the occasional sweet hint of omega. He stumbled off the main street and into an alleyway, almost falling a few times as he staggered further away from the bustling street. Terror rose in his chest as a second set of feet pounded the concrete behind him.
"John, stop!" He felt his legs tangle as his body and mind fought over what to do. His body wanted to obey Lin, while his mind wanted to run as far as possible. The result was his body slamming hard into the concrete. He pushed himself up with a whimper, managing a few more stumbled steps before a strong hand grabbed his arm and pulled. He grunted as his back hit the wall, curling against Lin's chest as he cradled him against the rough stone. "Why did you run?" A crushing wave of hurt and worry washing through John's vulnerable body, making him tremble.
"Koujo…I-can't…It's-too-much!" John cried as he clutched his head, watching Lin's brow pinch at the intensity of his distress. Lin surprised him as he captured his lips in a heated kiss, gentle hands stroking and caressing his body in soothing circles. He felt like he was going to pass out again. He gripped Lin's shirt as he tightened his hold. "Noise…smells…bright…" John whimpered as he tried to bury his head further into Lin's shoulder.
"Don't be afraid…I'm here." Lin felt John's body stiffen before relaxing at his words. He breathed in John's sweet scent, unsurprised to find it much stronger than usual. His heat was imminent. That's why his sensory intake had increased. Their newly formed bond hadn't even settled and his heat was intensifying everything further. John whimpered with desire as Lin pressed their foreheads together. His skin was already hot. His heat could start at any moment. "Quickly, we need to get home." Lin tugged John after him to the main street, placing a hand over his mouth to quiet the screech of distress as the noise pressed in.
"Jo…help…" John wasn't sure what his alpha could do at this point. Lin pulled him closer and leaned down, burying his tearful face in the crook of his now marked shoulder. John's eyes widened as he picked up their mingling scents. It was a familiar, reassuring smell, and Lin's presence started to ground him. He gripped his blazer tightly and leaned in closer, closing his eyes tightly against the bright morning light. Why did I ever want to run from this? A sense of contentment and security washed over him as he nuzzled closer.
Lin hailed a taxi, the driver understanding the situation as soon as he caught John's scent. Lin gave his address and buckled himself in beside John. He sat by the door with John curled up against his side in the middle seat. The drive was taking too long. Despite keeping his face buried in Lin's shoulder, John was picking up too many other scents. It was making his head pound. He whimpered miserably, enjoying Lin's cool touch as he fingered through his hair.
"Almost there…just hold on a little longer." John didn't think he could. It's not like I can control this…John whimpered urgently as he felt warmth pooling in his passage. He heard Lin grunt as sharp nails dug into his arm through his tailored blazer. Lin wrapped an arm around him tightly, squeezing his shoulder in comfort. John tightened his passage as much as possible, determined not to let the slick seep out. He felt so embarrassed. "Shhh…I'm here," Lin soothed, pressing a kiss to his temple.
Upon arriving, Lin hurriedly pushed a few notes into the driver's hand before climbing out and lifting John into his arms. John sniffled quietly, feeling the slick finally seeping through to his underwear. He shuddered at the unwelcome sensation and buried his red face in Lin's shoulder. Lin hushed him as he hurried to the front door and stepped inside, locking it securely behind. He put John on his feet, watching him quickly scuttle up the stairs on all fours before disappearing into his living area.
He stripped off his tie and blazer before following, surprised to find the front room empty. It was strangely quiet, but he could feel John's fear and discomfort radiating from the heat room. He sighed softly as he made his way to the smaller bedroom and stepped inside, pulling the white curtains around the bed as he watched John tearing off his clothes, sweat already coating his pale skin. Lin turned on the AC before kneeling on the bed and helping John, who was currently tangled in his own jeans.
"Why are you so afraid?" Lin asked patiently as he took one of his wrists, trying to stop him from squirming so much. He could feel the fear and insecurity, and his heart was racing in the pulse against his fingertips. John's cheeks flushed as he looked away, unable to hide his vulnerability as he lay naked beneath Lin's piercing gaze. Part of him wanted to bury itself further inside the nest and hide from Lin's sharp eyes. The other part was flooded with heat and desire, burning for him to plunder his body.
"What if it was a mistake? What if-" John was abruptly silenced by Lin's mouth, a whimper escaping his lips as he was devoured. It was more intense than usual. Along with his own hazy desire, he could feel Lin's passionate need, and the affection he felt. His cheeks flushed at the intensity. He'd never imagined anyone could feel that way about him, least of all his stoic Chinese co-worker. It made him feel like something precious.
"Never doubt my feelings for you." Lin poured his devotion into their bond and watched John's cheek flush at the intensity. He felt his heart racing for a new reason and smiled softly as he released John's wrist and stroked up his arm. He enjoyed the shivers that ran through his body at the sensation. "I want to make love to you now." Tears fill John's eyes as he stared up at him.
"Jo…" John sighed as he stretched his arms up and latched on, pulling him down needily. Lin followed the hands clutching his neck and lacing in his ebony locks, moulding their lips in a slow, lingering kiss. He felt him shudder in pleasure, his own skin prickling as he felt it through their bond. Since he'd already mated him, he'd had a sense of John's feelings already, but now that he'd been truly mated, the link was even stronger. "Koujo…" John murmured as he stroked Lin's skin, feeling the prickles of pleasure run across his own. He can feel this too, right?
"I can feel you…" Lin sighed, almost in response to his question. Although he couldn't hear the words, he sensed the curiosity and wonder. He'd never imagined a true bond would feel like this. He'd been devoted to John before, but now he was unquestionably besotted. His eyes widened as the intensity of John's feelings washed over him. The need. Desire. More than anything he could feel the first flowers of love blooming. It was warm and pure. Lin wished more than anything that he could return that feeling, but he'd lost that a long time ago. His own feelings were slower, and more mature, like a seasoned rose just starting to bud at the end of winter.
He kissed his way down John's slender neck, enjoying the way he shivered and clutched the sheets. He was using their bond to root out his sweet spots, working him like a clockwork doll. John raised a hand and covered his mouth, trying to keep the sounds in as he squeezed his eyes shut. Lin's lips on his skin felt so good, especially as he dropped to his ankle and started kissing his way up one leg. He flushed and looked down at Lin as one of his moans escaped, feeling embarrassed. His blue eyes widened as a trill of pleasure ran through their bond. John let out another moan and felt the same tingles of pleasure from his alpha. I-if he likes it, then is it okay? Can I be selfish?
"Let me feel you…Don't hide what you want from me…" Lin urged as he nipped his way up his pale thigh. He felt his cock twitch as John finally removed his hand and moaned, opening his thighs wider. Lin growled in approval at the sweet offering. He teased his shaft with his tongue awhile, amused as he felt John's need and frustration. "Where do you want my tongue?" he asked teasingly, wincing at the wave of mortification that radiated from his mate. He wasn't so far gone that he could say such things yet. Lin kissed his thigh apologetically, deciding not to tease too much.
John thought he might rip the sheets he was squeezing, fisting and pulling them so hard. He felt Lin's warm tongue working circles on his perineum, gradually sliding back until he reached his slickened entrance. Lin moaned hungrily as he started eagerly lapping the sweet release. John was stunned as he started to taste sugar on his tongue from Lin's pleasure. He couldn't help it as he gripped Lin's hair and pulled him closer, raising his hips to grind his face. Lin's moans of approval only spurred him on more.
John was slowly losing his mind as Lin's mouth moved up to greedily suck on his sensitive shaft, while his fingers started probing his loosened entrance. He rocked his hips greedily against the first finger, but was slowed by Lin's hand on his hip as a second finger joined it. Lin didn't want him to hurt himself by stretching too fast. John wasn't sure how many times he'd cried his name, but he was suddenly silenced as insistent lips claimed his. They broke apart suddenly as Lin entered him in one smooth thrust.
"Fu-uh-ck!" John cursed, blue eyes wide. His throat was stuck. He couldn't breathe. He'd never felt anything so intense. Lin's cock was buried deep inside, as deep as it could go. He could feel it pressing his sensitive walls, rubbing his prostate. At the same time, he could feel Lin's pleasure at being hugged in his tight warmth. The twinned feelings were overwhelming. It was like experiencing both sides of sex at the same time.
"John, are you alright?" Lin asked worriedly, feeling a little overwhelmed himself. He couldn't recall hearing John swear before. It was somewhat erotic. He reached up and caressed his slender neck, resisting the urge to squeeze as John slowly remembered to take in a shuddering breath. John's nails dug into his shoulders, and they both hissed at the pain.
"I-I can feel…" John trailed off with heated cheeks, pressing a hand to his abdomen as he curled closer. Lin nodded his understanding and paused, stroking his hair in soothing strokes. "I think it's too much!" He was almost crying, not finding it any easier to breathe. Lin hushed him with a gentle kiss, enjoying the way his whole body shuddered as he moved.
"It's our bond…It's still fresh…I might never be able to make you feel like this again, so bear with it." Lin rocked his hips despite John's urgent objections. It felt good enough to make him swear. That meant it was the most intense it had ever been. Lin didn't waste the moment. He was slow and gentle as he rolled his hips, making lazy circles that massaged John's prostate slowly. John was a dazed mess. His alpha worked slowly, drawing out the pleasure for as long as possible.
His oceanic eyes were glazed and unfocused as he lay on the bed, hands resting limp on either side of his head. He was having trouble panting, too dazed to even worry about the wetness of his lips from Lin's soft kisses. He followed Lin's silent instructions, gripping lazily with his thighs as he circled his hips in a deliciously slow rhythm. Large hands laced their fingers, holding him down against the mattress as he rocked. A loud moan escaped with every thrust, each more urgent than the last until he came.
"Jo!" He felt Lin's skin tingle at the sound.
"Johnathan!" John's cheeks flushed at the sound of his full name. Lin said it like it was something special. It felt good to hear it, probably the same way it felt for Lin to hear his first name instead of his last. He liked it. He was John to everyone else, but at times like this, he was Johnathan. The only other person who called him that was his father, but it differed completely from the way Lin purred it. "Johnathan," Lin almost whispered in his ear, holding back a chuckle as John tried to curl up, mortified as his cock twitched.
"Koujo…I'm sorry…" There were so many things he was sorry for. He'd rejected his alpha, shunned his affection, overlooked his feelings, and underestimated his devotion by a mile. Not to mention the trouble he'd caused, his pettiness, the way Lin always had to chase after him like a child. Almost letting Rei take his place was the thing he was most sorry for. He shuddered in dread now as he thought about what it would feel like for another alpha to sink their teeth into his neck and overwrite Lin's mating mark. He gripped Lin tighter, scared by his own thoughts.
"I've got you…No one will take you from me." Lin's voice was so firm it was almost a growl. John's thoughts were unsettling him, too. Although he wasn't happy about Rei's advances, he couldn't help but feel just a little grateful. John would never have opened up without that push, and they wouldn't be truly mated right now if it hadn't happened. The sight still haunted him though. He could picture it vividly, John's flushed cheeks and hazy eyes as he'd tilted his chin up to accept Rei's kiss, hands quivering as they'd slowly risen to embrace him.
"Sorry…" They reassured each other in a warm embrace. Lin's cock was already slowly hardening in his slick passage. "Sorry…mmm…I'm so sorry…" John repeated as Lin kissed him again, the heat slowly working him into another passionate frenzy. Apologies quickly turned to lip biting and shoulder nipping, both shuddering and whining as they teased their still sore and sensitive mating marks. Within moments, the wounds had reopened, and they were tasting blood mingled with their pleasure. John raked his nails down Lin's spine in ecstasy, throwing his head back to offer his bare throat. Break me! Ruin me! Mark me so deeply I'll never stray again!
"John!" Lin almost stammered, cheeks flushed and eyes wide in shock. John felt mortified as he realised at least part of his thoughts had leaked through their bond. He hurriedly covered his face and looked away, slightly disappointed and vulnerable as Lin pulled out. He felt empty and alone as he shuddered with embarrassment. "If that's really what you want, then get on your knees…I'll show you why I'm your alpha." He isn't…laughing at me? John uncovered his face a little and glanced up, drowning in chocolate as he locked eyes with his alpha.
Lin's desire was scorching, and John reared up to meet it. He threw himself into Lin's arms and devoured his lips, losing the battle for dominance before drawing back. His body shuddered with need as he turned around and settled obediently on his knees. He could feel his cock twitching as he lowered himself on his forearms and arched his spine in offering, looking back over his shoulder to find Lin admiring him. He watched with a smirk as his previous release trickled down John's milky thighs, biting his lip as he squeezed the rounded flesh.
"Please…P-punish me?" John's cheeks flushed a deep shade of red and he could barely keep the embarrassed quiver out of his tone. Lin's emotions cascaded through his chest like a waterfall, forcing a gasp from his kiss bitten lips. He was barely holding himself back. He wanted him. Passionately. John's words made his cock twitch and his stomach tumble. John whimpered as a hand laced in his hair and gripped. It almost hurt as he pushed his face further into the blankets.
"As you wish." He sounded cold, but John knew he didn't mean it. He just knew it would make him shudder. John settled on his knees, widening his stance a little more to make it easier for his alpha. He wasn't expecting it as Lin gripped one hip and thrust his way into his tight heat. John yelped into the duvet, hoping the heat room was also sound proofed. To anyone outside, it would probably sound like a murder was taking place. It was rough and intense. Lin's thrusts were teetering on the edge of painful, but each rub caressed his prostate and made him melt. Each slap of flesh was so hard it almost sent him sprawling on his face. It would have if not for Lin's hands still gripping his hip and hair.
Lin was still looking down in disbelief as he fucked John into the mattress. The words that came out of that innocent mouth left him in disbelief. He was also having a hard time believing John could be so loud. Despite thinking he had explored every aspect of his mate during his previous heats, this one was different. He'd had John on his knees, but never like this. Never with him so willingly opened up, accepting his thrusts, begging for the pain as much as the pleasure. It almost felt wrong, and he was ready to stop at any moment if John showed signs of real pain and distress.
Lin was hungry for him, and desperate to see his face. John yelped as he was tossed onto his back, blue eyes wide as Lin raised his thighs and slammed back inside. He desperately clutched Lin's shoulders, trying to meet and ride out each rough thrust. Lin's breath was almost taken away as he looked into John's eyes to see that he had fully merged with his omega. Usually he would only see one or the other, but right now John and his omega had combined into one gorgeously needy being that only had eyes for him. Lin released the hold on his alpha, trusting his stronger, more animalistic side to be delicate with John's smaller body.
Jo! John was incapable of forming anything besides loud, screaming cries from his abused lips. Lin was no better as he pounded him into the mattress. John could see it. Lin and his alpha had merged, just as he could feel himself becoming one with his omega. It wouldn't last, but moments like this were rare and precious. His thoughts were interrupted by a blinding rush of pleasure that left him screaming for Lin and clawing skin until white filled his vision.