Author's Note: Happy birthday to the erased twin, Orihara Mairu. Who is Kiki? You might meet her either during Camp Nano or Nanowrimo. I have ideas for her and Mikado. This is just a sample of their relationship. (Yes, I just had to give Mikado another girl. I have no shame. Let the boy have his harem!) Meanwhile, I will post up the other chapter in a few minutes. For now, enjoy part one of two for the new chapters.
Insecure
-Kiki-
He could have any girl that he wanted. He chose me. I don't understand it. Why me? What have I done to deserve his attention on me?
"Does there have to be a reason?"
I stared at him. He looks at me like he's got all of the time in the world. I don't know whether to be annoyed or find it endearing.
Ryugamine Mikado.
I still don't know anything about him. I can't remember when and where we met. He just appeared in my life and won't leave.
Tonight, he has me in what looks like a hotel room. I sat on the bed, staring at him. Mikado sat at the foot of the bed in a chair. What does he plan to do with me? We've had sex before. It was good. I mean it. Better than good. It was just…
"What are you going to do with me?" I asked. I felt so small in his gaze. Now, he's not bulked up like a grizzly. He isn't that tall over me. But he could still take over me just by talking. Right now, there was nothing in his eyes. He was just staring at me and saying nothing.
You're so tense.
What? Mikado kept his eyes on me. He didn't say a word. What was that? Don't tell me…
"I want to give you something," Mikado said. I watched as he reached into his pocket. He held a small tin in his hand. I watched him twist open the lid. What is that? He put a flat red strip on his tongue and crawled onto the bed. He kissed me on the lips. I didn't resist. I let him kiss me before I kissed him back. He gently pushed his tongue past my lips. A small shiver ran down my body.
What… What is this?
Mikado slowly pulled away. He sat back in his chair again. He acted like nothing happened. I didn't get off of the bed. What did he just do? What was…? Wait… What… What is this?
A strange tingling crept up my spine. It felt like a wave of happy was washing over me. I could feel myself smiling. My brain started to pick up what Mikado had slipped me in that kiss. Dopamine. Serotonin. Oxytocin. Endorphin. My heart wasn't thundering in my chest before. What is this? I laid back on the bed. I might as well be floating around in that pool outside the hotel.
This feels good.
"What did you do to me?" I asked.
"Shhh," he said. I hate when he does that, but I can't be mad at him right now. I'm just… Wow. You ever feel like you got high or drunk without even trying? This is amazing.
He was the one who invited me out here tonight. We ended up at this small Honeymoon Resort he conjured up. There wasn't anyone else around. I'm used to this by now. That is how the program is designed. I didn't have to check in or anything. Just go to the elevator and come up to the room.
Hm? I think he just said something.
"What?" I asked. Mikado was saying something but I can't make out what he is saying. I began to ask him again.
It's so strange… Why do I want him to… do things to me? Why do I want to do things to him? I looked up at him. There was no emotion on his face. His eyes stayed locked on me. Wait… Did he just…
I breathed out heavily. My face felt so hot. It's his smell. I closed my eyes and took in that sweet, musky smell that he had. My head filled with dirty fantasies about him. I don't understand it, but damn he's hot. I arched my back as I took another breath.
I gulped. What is he doing to me? I lifted my head and caught him staring at me. Still no emotion in his eyes. I started to feel nervous again.
I knocked on the door when I made it down the hall.
"I'm here," I said.
"Come inside," he said. That was all it took. I walked into that room. To my surprise, it looked so much better than the lobby. It with the rest of the first floor looked like it hadn't been loved in decades. I was amazed that the heart-shaped tables still looked good. I had to walk across the bar to the elevator.
My right hand moved between my legs. The juices ran down my thigh. I started to picture him doing naughty things to me. My fingers brushed up against my lower lips. I bit down on my lower lip. He still sat in his chair, watching me. It felt like I was on display. Was he making me do this? How?
Relax.
My mind went back to the pleasure I started to feel. I've done this before. Never pleasured myself in front of someone. I can't tell if he's enjoying it or not. It's like he's judging my… "performance". But yet, it's so hot. He's just sitting there, watching me. Is he taking notes? Maybe that's how he's so good at sex.
Mikado was always the one taking control. He's always patient with me.
"I won't do anything you don't want me to," he told me when he took me to a random bedroom one night. His words drew me in. Even then, I felt small in his gaze. I had sex before but he made me feel like a virgin.
I closed my eyes as I arched my back. My moaning started to get louder. Is this all that I am doing tonight? Is he just going to watch me play with myself all night? Is he going to do something? This can't be it tonight, right?
Relax.
My focus drifted back to my fingers. I started to move in deeper. I think I might have hit a sensitive spot. Oh god. I think I'm close!
Stop.
I opened my eyes and froze. He was still watching me. Okay, he's talking in my mind somehow. I don't know how to deal with this. How is he not doing anything and still have control over me?
Relax.
I let out a small whimper of resistance as I stared at him. He stood up. He looked like he was straining in his jeans. When did he get so toned up? I gulped as I could feel the room heat up.
"Who are you?" I heard myself ask breathlessly. "You're some sort of a demon sent here to tempt me, aren't you?" Mikado chuckled at me. He knelt down on the white heart-shaped bed. His lips lightly brushed against my ear.
"I will be anything you want me to be," he whispered. His lips moved down to my neck. That little nip with his teeth induced a loud moan from me.
"You like that, huh?" he whispered. I started to speak but he put his finger to my lips.
"Save your words for those sweet, sweet moans that you will make," he said. I have no choice but to obey. I have to surrender myself to this beautiful demon.
His mouth moved down from my neck to my breasts. He's become my drug. I don't know how to quit him. I don't think I want to. Suddenly, I lost the ability to think straight as the tip of his tongue caressed my nipple.
This isn't the first time we've done these… sessions. It's been escalating for quite some time now. I was scared I had to admit at first. Mikado didn't push me into anything. He took his time with me. It started with a kiss in a bedroom of whatever place we ended up in. Then more kisses followed. Soon, the clothes started coming off. Now, I always haven't been in love with my body. I've had issues with my weight. I have the scars on my stomach to prove it. But Mikado is starting to make me fall in love with the way I look.
"You are beautiful the way you are," he said. I didn't believe him at first. But over time, I began to think that I started to believe him.
Once I got over that hump of body image, things started to heat up more. This might be the third time that we have intercourse.
Mikado started to kiss on my abdomen. He took tender care of my scars. I looked down to see him looking up at me. I have no choice but to surrender. My mind started to drift away.
Yes.
He slipped his head between my thighs.
"You're really wet, aren't you?" he asked. I didn't get a chance to answer. I moaned as he pushed his tongue inside. Peaches. He says I taste like peaches. I felt like I was floating. I closed my eyes and let myself go. I grabbed onto the sheets underneath me. How does he keep getting better with his tongue? He kept hitting me in the right spots.
He pushed his tongue in deeper. I let out a loud moan. He stayed focused on me. My hips started to move on their own. Mikado tried to keep up as he pulled me in closer. Oh god! I'm… I'm… I'm so close!
But then he slowly pulled away. I opened my eyes as I started to whimper. Mikado sat up over me. He held up his hand before I could say anything. He unzipped his jeans and slid them off. His boxers followed behind. He pushed my hair out of my eyes. This time, Mikado didn't say anything as he pushed himself inside of me.
The sex is better than it has any right to be. Was it even possible for someone to keep getting better each time? I held onto him with all my being. My eyes rolled into the back of my head as I moaned. He wouldn't let me focus on anything else. I thought I had gotten clean but he came back. Mikado's like my dealer.
"I love you so much!" I screamed. What was I saying? Did I really mean it? Those weren't my words. It doesn't even feel like I am saying that. I don't get time to think about that. My mind floated away in bliss as he pounded faster. He held onto me as tightly as he could.
"I'm going to come. I'm going to come," he said. My heart leaped in my chest. What if I get pregnant? I can't raise a child by myself. And what about him? Is he willing to pay for child support? Would he want anything to do with me or the baby after that?
Relax.
That was all it took for my mind and body to let go as he released inside of me. I moaned as I gave into my climax. I lay there, panting but I wouldn't let him go. This was always the worst part. We will have to leave soon but I don't want to go. Mikado leaned down and kissed me on the lips.
"Can we stay like this for a while?" I asked.
"Of course," he said.
"Thank you," I murmured. I slowly drew my eyes closed. The last thing I remembered was Mikado silently covering me with the blanket.