Chapter 8- Making Amends pt.5

ANGELICA'S POV

"I forgive you." Dean said on the other end, voice hoarse and tight.

Those three words were like a ton of bricks that had been lifted from my heart. I felt so much relief at hearing those words. They came from my best friend whose feelings were crushed in a way that could possibly never be repaired. He was the one person in my life who has always been there. The one who I failed to notice. The one who had genuine feelings for me and me alone. Sitting down at the desk where the letter I wrote for him, I couldn't help reminiscing on all the good times we had growing up.

Dean, age thirteen, had given me my first valentine's day card and chocolates since he knew chocolate was my top favorite candy amongst all others. I still kept the card to this day. Dean, who could make me laugh no matter how I was feeling when others couldn't. Dean, who I had endless amounts of movie marathons with and stupid arguments over which one was best. He was the one constant in my life that never changed. I guess the reason why I didn't notice him is because he had girlfriends and I thought he only saw me as either strictly a sister and or best friend, but I was dead wrong.

"Angel..."

"I'm here. I was just thinking. Where are you?"

"I'm back at my old house. Do you remember where that is?"

I nodded before realizing he couldn't see me. "Yeah. I'm on my way."

Two hours later we had finally arrived where Sam and Dean were and parked in the driveway. Cas and I got out almost in unison before I grabbed his arm pulling him back into the car.

"Are you sure about this? Will you be okay?"

Castiel's eyes fell away before he placed them on me again. "I'm fine if I still have you. I love you so much that I'm willing to let you go to the one who can make you happier than I can. I'm very sure."

"Oh Cas. You do make me happy. I love you too."

Castiel just nods and we get out of the car. As soon as he got out, I went around the front of the car and crashed into him giving him a hug, my nose brushing his neck letter in my hand. Although startled he returned the embrace, not seeming to want to let go of me.

"I'm going to miss things like this," he said before letting me go leaving a kiss on the side of my head.

"You're not going anywhere. I want you in my life and my future child's life. I just want you there."

"You know what I mean."

"Yeah, I know but I still mean what I said," I responded giving him a smile of reassurance before I decided to drive my point across. I cradled one of his arms right above the elbow and the side of his face with the other one and he tilted his face into it closing his eyes. "I promise you're not going to lose me."

He opened his eyes and nodded. "Okay. Let's get this show over with. You go first."

I walked ahead of him and knocked. Sam answered the door and once he saw the both of us his expression went from surprise to anger.

"Get away from here." He then shut the door in our faces and then we heard arguing on the other side of the door.

Dean answered the door next but before he could even draw a breath to say something Sam ducked under his arm and began to speak. "If you ever hurt my brother again there will be some serious consequences. I'm going to let him let you in but if you even upset him, you're gone. End of story!" He then disappeared back into the house only to sit on the couch as I waited for Dean to invite me in.

"Angel, come in," he said but then his eyes met Castiel's. "What is he doing here?"

"Same reason I am," I responded pulling out the letter from my back pocket and handing it to him. "I'm really sorry."

He takes the letter and opens it hesitantly. He unfolded the page and began to read. What he reads makes tears come to his eyes. Happy tears.

Dean-

Sitting here to write this letter makes me feel like the worst person to ever exist. I feel like I have to write this letter even though I apologized over voicemail. The way I hurt you doesn't deserve a voicemail that's liable to get deleted. This is something you can keep forever so you can go back to it. With this letter I want you to realize I didn't and still don't really mean to say such horrific things that I've said in the past and more that I may say in the future.

I can never forgive myself for the way I hurt you. You're my best friend and I never want to lose you. If I knew or at least had an inkling that you like like me (that sounds childish but who cares if it means that it makes you laugh or smile) then maybe things would have been different. Now that I know I'm willing to make it work so we can be together. To tell you the truth I always did find you attractive but never did anything since you had several girlfriends before me.

Castiel and I have talked it through and he's giving me up so I can be with you. I have one question for you but first you have to answer the question in this letter. Do you forgive me?

Love always, your best friend and better half

-Angelica

By the end of the letter, he had started smiling, which then turned to laughter then tears and he looked up at me nodding his head yes.

"I hope those are happy tears because I have one more question for you."

He cleared his throat before speaking. "I- um, ha- I already forgave you though. Go-go...go ahead and ask."

"Will you be my boyfriend?"

Instead of answering, he came closer and kissed me like there was no tomorrow and like if he stopped, I would disappear, and it was only a dream. As if I could sense his thoughts, I kissed back for however long he wanted and needed this moment.

I hugged him really tightly after the kiss ended and then put my forehead on his once we finally separated. "Is that a yes?"

"Yes."

"Am I chopped liver?" Castiel said with a pout. "It was my idea."

"... yeah, and I let him let the two of you in," Sam said as he got up from the couch.

I had almost forgotten they were here too, but Dean and I hugged them both. Dean and I hugged each other again and let Sam and Castiel join in. We were going to be okay.

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