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Chapter 14: Courage
(Amara POV)
When Iroh mentioned that a storm was approaching, I was not certain what he was talking about. Standing on deck, I had seen blue skies and calm waters. Zuko was filled with disbelief and told Iroh that the man was crazy. Iroh argued though and told Zuko we needed to make landfall. He could not convince the young prince. Instead of arguing further with Zuko, Iroh encouraged me to go to my room and stay there until the storm passed.
"Don't need you falling off the ship," Iroh said. "It may get pretty dangerous. I'll feel better knowing you're safe and not out in the mess."
I knew better than to argue with him, so as the dark clouds started to show themselves on the horizon later that evening, I made my way to my room to ride out the storm. While I was alone in my room, I thought back to the last two days.
Zuko had confessed to me that he loved me. While his words filled my heart with warmth, I still didn't know how to react to his reveal. He had told me to just be myself, but I felt guilty for not giving him the same affection back. At firebending training the day after his confession, I told him that I hoped he could be patient with me.
"I do like you, Zuko… A lot… But I don't know how to be in love. Everything I learned was from stories my mom or Tu Lan told me. I've never seen two people share affection in a romantic way before." I hung my head and crossed my arms. "I'm sorry… I want to make you happy."
Zuko stepped over to me and hugged me to him. "You're doing just fine. As long as you're with me then I am happy. I don't expect anything else from you."
I hugged him back, resting my head against him. "Thanks… for understanding."
The storm hit about an hour after I went back to my room. As the rumble of thunder echoed through the steel, and the ship rocked with the waves that crashed against it, I sat on my cot praying the crew were all safe. I did not want anyone to get hurt, especially Iroh and Zuko. I did hope that maybe once the storm passed Zuko would be in a better mood. Before I had gone below deck, Zuko and Lieutenant Jee had an argument and were about to break out into a fight. Thankfully, Iroh was able to stop them from hurting one another.
The storm seemed to rage for a good hour. My heart was pounding painfully as I grew more concerned for the men I had come to care for immensely. However, just when I feared the ship would not be able to take the waves any longer, the rocking of the vessel calmed at last. Once the ship was steady again, my heart slowed and I felt I could breathe.
After another hour of waiting for an update, Zuko arrived to my room to let me know that we had survived the storm and reached it's eye. We were safe. He had also let me know that they caught sight of the Avatar, but they did not follow him. I was glad to see Zuko was using wisdom and not putting us in further harm's way.
"I know it was hard to let the Avatar go, but you did the right thing for the crew," I reassured. "They'll respect you for thinking of their safety."
He nodded. He stepped into the room and asked, "Are you okay? I'm sure that wasn't pleasant."
I stared at his dripping body and wet hair with amusement. "I'm dry… You're the one who looks like you got in a fight with a waterbender."
He smiled. "Yeah. It was messy out there. I should probably put on some dry clothes. Uncle's still up on deck if you want to go out for some air. He'll be glad to know you're okay."
"Wait," I said, stopping him from leaving. I used my bending to take the water off of him and moved it over to a bowl I had in the room. Crossing my arms once I was done, I joked, "There… At least now you won't make a river on your way back."
He smiled with gratitude. "Thanks. You've gotten so much better at that."
I blushed. "Well… Iroh is a good teacher. You are too when it comes to firebending."
"It helps that we have a good student," he complimented. "I'll be in my room if you need me."
As he went to turn to leave, I said softly, "I was worried about you, Zuko... I'm glad you're okay."
He looked back at me. His gold eyes pierced into my gaze and I felt my heart skip. "Thanks, Amara. It feels good to know someone cares..."
The next day I could see that Zuko and Lieutenant Jee had smoothed things over since their dispute the day before. The storm appeared to have brought them together, and I was relieved the tension was gone. We were now drifting beside the Earth Kingdom coast, keeping an eye out for any sign of the Avatar.
Iroh was playing a Pai Sho game up at the helm, while Zuko and Jee looked over some maps to try and figure out our next course of action. I sat beside Iroh, watching him play Pai Sho trying to learn the game. I had seen him play in the past, but now I was really interested in learning. As Iroh moved another piece, I furrowed my brows confused even more by the game. I felt I was never going to understand what each tile and move meant.
As Jing made his move, I overheard Lieutenant Jee say, "We haven't been able to pick up the Avatar's trail since the storm. But, if we continue heading northeast –"
He was cut off though, because something suddenly overtook the light from the windows causing the room to dim. I looked out of the helm to see that a giant Fire Nation vessel was pulling up beside us. A shiver raced through my spine as I suddenly felt unsettled. I wasn't sure why, but I had a bad feeling come over me.
Zuko did not sound pleased by our sudden guest. "What do they want?"
Iroh tried to keep the mood light. "Perhaps a sporting game of Pai Sho!"
I stood and stepped over to Zuko who was looking at the ship that stopped beside us. As they received permission to board our ship from the captain, Zuko said softly, "Stay beside me. I don't like this." He seemed as nervous as I was.
A few moments later, a man from the other ship in fine red armor stepped into the helm. He was followed by two other soldiers. As they stood before us, Zuko moved in front of me to slightly block me from view. He asked with frustration, "What do you want?"
The man placed his hands behind his back. "The hunt for the Avatar has been given prime importance. All information regarding the Avatar must be reported directly to Admiral Zhao."
My breathing hitched. I felt my blood go cold. Admiral… Zhao had been promoted? I grabbed the back of Zuko's shirt to steady me. He did not react to my touch, but that was probably because he was outraged by this news.
Iroh spoke with false content. "Zhao has been promoted? How wonderful for him…"
Zuko answered with a flat tone. "I've got nothing to report to Zhao. Now get off my ship and let us pass."
The man shook his head. "Admiral Zhao is not allowing ships in or out of this area."
Zuko stepped forward which caused me to let him go. He yelled at the man, pointing to the door, "Off my ship!"
The man did not move. His eyes darted to me, and then back to Zuko. "Actually, I have another message from Admiral Zhao. He heard you were in the area. He is willing to make an exception and allow your ship to pass if you fulfill a request of his."
Zuko's fists tightened. "What request?"
"Admiral Zhao requests his sister's presence for dinner," the man stated. "He wishes to see her before you depart."
There was a slight pause as the room fell quiet in shock. My whole body felt like it was turning to liquid. My mind thought back to the last time I had seen Zhao. The pain… The fear… The hopelessness of never being able to escape him…
Zhao had put scars on my back. He had sent a bounty hunter to try and capture me, only to injure my friend Tu Lan. Zhao had hurt me so much, and now he wanted to invite me to dinner? There had to be a motive… What was he planning? Was he going to take me back? Was I going to be a prisoner again?
As I started to fall into a state of panic, Zuko's voice brought me back.
"What?!" Zuko stepped back, blocking me again with rage. "NO! Absolutely not! Tell him he can forget about it!"
My eyes were blurred by tears from the fear, but I tried to calm my racing heart. I didn't want to show Zhao's men my fear. I wanted to try and stay strong. I had Zuko and Iroh… I hoped that was enough to keep the monster from getting me back.
The soldier spoke again to Zuko. "Unfortunately, he said either you take his request or we take the girl by force. Of course, he wanted me to add that you and your uncle are welcome to attend."
Iroh stood from the table at this point and stepped over to Zuko. He faced Zhao's messenger with frustration. "I understand that he has been promoted, but Zhao has no right to take a member of my crew by force. Amara is under my care. She was released to me by her brother. He cannot just take her back when he desires."
The man did not waiver. "He said you would argue this. He wanted me to reassure you that he has no desire to harm the girl, or take her away from you by force if you cooperate. He only wishes to see her and speak with her. He hopes you will do this in a civil manner, and that he does not have to take other means to get what he wants."
Iroh did not seem at all pleased, however he knew better than to argue. Since Zhao was an Admiral now, he had much more authority than before. Also, the threat Iroh had made to him about telling Fire Lord Ozai the truth about my origin had been a fib. Iroh was honest the day he told me that he didn't want Ozai learning about me because he feared for my safety. The threat had been to only scare Zhao from trying to get me back.
Clearly it wasn't working...
Iroh looked over at me, and I knew from his expression he was asking me what I wanted to do. As much as I wanted to refuse, part of me also wanted to face the monster of my past and show him how strong I had become. Also, I knew Iroh and Zuko would face consequences if we ignored Zhao's request. I could not let this happen.
I was scared. I was uncertain. But I did not want to cower from him for the rest of my life. I had become stronger mentally and physically. I could face him. I was ready. I wanted to look Zhao in the eye and show him how strong I had become.
With a deep breath, I gave a small nod to let Iroh know I was willing. He nodded back, and then looked at the messenger with narrowed eyes. "Let Admiral Zhao know that Zuko and I will be accompanying Amara to meet with him for as long as she is comfortable. The moment she desires to leave though we will be departing."
The man bowed and turned to leave. He stopped before he walked through the doorway, saying, "A carriage will be on shore in two hours to retrieve you all and bring you to Pohuai Stronghold." He left then without another word. Once he was gone, silence filled the room. None of us really knew what to say.
After a long pause, Zuko finally found his voice. "Are you mad, Uncle? This is a terrible idea! I don't want Amara going anywhere near that monster after what he did to her!"
Iroh returned to the table and sat down. He let out a heavy breath. "Unfortunately, now that Zhao is an Admiral he has the authority to request whatever he pleases. If I defy him and refuse to let Amara go, then he could have you and I both arrested for treason. We must play his game and remain on his good side for now."
"He's going to hurt her! Amara won't be able to handle this! The bastard tortured her for sixteen years! We can't take her to him! This is definitely not happening!" Zuko towered over Iroh and continued. "I thought you were her guardian! This isn't protecting her! This is throwing her in the line of fire!"
I finally spoke up. Although my voice was slightly hesitant, I tried to sound brave. "Zuko… It's okay." He looked over at me with bewilderment. "I'm scared to face him, but I want to. I'm stronger than before. I can defend myself better now. And… I want to look that terrible man in the eye and show him that he failed to destroy me. I want to be brave and show him that he can't control me anymore."
He turned to face me, then stepped back to me grabbing my arms with disbelief. "This man abused you for sixteen years, Amara… there's no telling what he might try to do to you."
I gave a tight smile. "I don't think he'll hurt me this time… as long as you and Iroh are with me then I know I'll be okay. I need to do this, Zuko… if I can show him that he's lost, then hopefully he will leave me alone from now on. Plus, I don't want anyone to get hurt again because of me."
My thoughts went back to Tu Lan. Zuko frowned, knowing that's what I was talking about.
He let out a heavy sigh, and then dropped his hands. "Okay… but if he makes any move towards you then I won't stand back. I won't let him hurt you again."
I grabbed his hand and gave it a squeeze. "Thanks, Zuko."
Iroh spoke from where he continued to play his game. "I am not certain what Zhao has planned tonight, but as long as I am breathing he will not lay a hand on any of my children."
His comment warmed my heart. I smiled at Iroh, grateful that he cared for me so much.
A few moments later, I sat in my room at my low table brushing my hair as I let my thoughts take me over. It had been over a month since I'd seen Zhao. In that time I had become healthier physically and mentally. Once a scared and broken girl, I was repaired and made whole.
Was that all going to end though? Was Zhao going to find a way to convince Iroh to give me back? My eyes burned with tears as I thought about being a prisoner again. My body trembled and I shut my eyes. I tried to breathe to calm my pounding heart. Placing my brush down, I let my finger touch the charm of my mother's necklace.
"I won't let him hurt me," I whispered, trying to convince myself. "He won't cage me again."
After a few more minutes of trying to calm my heart, a knock sounded at my door. I told the visitor to come in, and Zuko stepped inside. I stayed at the table, staring at the candle in the center.
Zuko stepped over and knelt beside me so he was facing me. "Amara… you don't have to do this… we can handle Zhao."
I let out a heavy breath. I turned my body so I was sitting and facing Zuko too. "I… I'm scared… but I want to be brave. I want to face him. To tell him that he failed in destroying me. I want him to know that he's lost."
Zuko took my hand in his. "I know… I just… I hate the thought of you having to face the man that caused you so much pain. When I first met you, I saw the scars on your back… your flesh was ripped off by that monster. I… don't like you being in the same room with him."
I squeezed his hand to give myself comfort. "If I don't go, he will go after you and Iroh. I can't let that happen. I won't let him hurt you two just so he can get to me. I can do this, Zuko… and I know you'll be with me, so this time I'll have someone to help me if he does try to hurt me."
Zuko nodded. However, his eyes narrowed as he stated, "If he touches you though, I won't hold back. I'm not letting him hurt you again."
My eyes teared up again. "Thank you, Zuko."
HIs golden orbs softened once more. They seemed to spark from the candlelight. He moved forward and cupped my cheek. His touch was so gentle and warm. "Just promise me if it gets too much you'll tell us… we'll leave as soon as you need to."
I nodded. "I will."
He moved forward more. "I don't want to lose you… especially to Zhao…"
I placed my hand over his. "You won't… I'm not going to let him win."
He nodded. Then suddenly he moved forward so his face was an inch away. Our noses touched. "I just care about you… more than you know…"
I let out a shaky breath. He was so close. I felt my body warm and my heart pounded loudly. "I… care about you too," I promised. "That's why I'm doing this… to protect you…"
"It's my job to protect you," he argued.
"You… do… everyday," I reassured, although my voice was soft as his face moved closer. "Zuko… wha—"
He pressed his lips to my own, cutting me off. I was stunned by the shocking sensation. My heart accelerated and my body warmed more. My eyes shut as I felt his breath mix with my own. This was a kiss… like I had heard about in the stories my mom and Tu Lan told me. His skin was so soft against my flesh as he caressed my lips with his. I could feel his hand go behind my neck so he could hold me to him better.
Just as I had gone stiff from the surprise of his touch, I relaxed and moved my hands to his arms. I melted into him, enjoying the new feelings shooting through me.
I felt safe… I felt elated… I felt loved...
When he pulled away, he whispered, "I won't let him win… no one is hurting you as long as I'm near."
I slowly opened my eyes and stared into his golden gaze. My lips tingled from the remaining feel of his touch. My first kiss…
His cheeks were a tint of red, and he seemed suddenly embarrassed by his prior action. "Sorry… if I made you uncomfortable… I just… I've been wanting to kiss you since the day I told you my feelings…"
I finally found my voice. I could still taste the mint tea from his touch. "No… it's… okay." I pushed a strand of hair behind my ear, my hand shaking slightly. "I… liked it…" My face burned. "That was my first kiss…"
He rubbed the back of his neck and smiled slightly. "Yeah… mine too…"
I stared into his gold eyes again. I felt a tad guilty. I didn't know how to return his affection. "I wish I knew how to react. I feel so confused when it comes to… having feelings for you…"
He gave a small smile. "I only know from watching others… I could be doing everything wrong too."
I smiled back. "Then I guess we'll learn together."
He caressed my cheek with his hand. "Amara… about the other day. When you weren't sure about finding your family… if you do find them… will you stay with me?"
I put my hand over his and gave it a squeeze. "I want to…" I frowned. "But I'm afraid of your father… Iroh told me he doesn't think Ozai will be easy to convince about me not being a threat."
Zuko frowned as well. He let out a heavy sigh and dropped his hand. He thought for a moment, and then finally stared back into my gaze. "Then as long as I'm chasing the Avatar, will you at least stay with me?"
I smiled at this. "That I can do… I don't see myself meeting my family anytime soon anyway… we're miles from the South Pole."
He smiled and pulled me into a hug. "Thank you… I just feel so at ease when you're near… I don't want to lose you… this is the happiest I've been since my mom disappeared."
My eyes burned, and I shut them letting my cheek rest against Zuko. "Me too."
An hour later we stood on shore waiting for the carriage to arrive. I wore a fine red shirt, some black pants, and some black shoes. My hair was up in a ponytail. I was ready to defend myself if I needed to. If Zhao attacked me, I would be ready to fight back.
The carriage arrived, pulled by two ostrich horses. I had read about the feathered beaked creatures in one of the books Zuko had given me. They were so tall and so cute in person. I had to resist the urge to pet one. Iroh noticed my interest in the creatures and smiled with amusement. I blushed from being caught.
The armored man who was steering the carriage, jumped down from his bench at the front. The carriage was wooden with a door on one side and a window on the other. He grabbed the door and opened it to gesture for us to get in.
Zuko took my hand as I started to follow Iroh to our transportation. I looked at him with question as he stopped me from moving forward. He let out a heavy breath. "You sure?"
I squeezed his grasp and gave a small smile. "I know you and Iroh will protect me… I don't want to be afraid of him anymore. I want him to know that he doesn't have power over me…"
He nodded. "Okay… I'm with you."
The carriage ride was bumpy and tense. Zuko sat beside me, his arms crossed tight as he worried for my safety. Iroh had his eyes shut as he thought about the meeting to come. My heart was pounding painfully as we lessened the distance between me and Zhao. I could do this though. I could handle whatever he threw my way. The old Amara was gone. I was his prisoner no more. I would show him that he messed with the wrong dual bender.
It took half an hour to arrive. We passed nothing but forest and swamp on the way. Eventually I saw a large dark building in the distance with a huge wall around the perimeter. Iroh caught sight of the massive fortress as well. He let out a heavy sigh. "Pohuai Stronghold… I haven't been here in over a decade. I hear they have established an elite team of archers. They never miss their shot. What were they called again…?"
Zuko answered softly, "Yuyan Archers… I heard my father talk about them once."
"Yes. That's the name," Iroh responded. "Quite skilled in their craft."
Eventually the carriage pulled up to the large metal wall. Iroh explained to me that the material was used so earthbenders could not break through. Once we passed through the gate, I started to feel my body shake. Zuko noticed my hands trembled, and took the one closest to him. I relaxed from his touch.
Iroh spoke to try and calm me as well. "Don't worry, dear. If he tries to hurt you then I will stop him myself. The only reason I am letting him see you is because of his threat to have us arrested. If he tries anything though, I will not hold back my wrath. You are under my care, just as I promised the day I met you."
I let out a heavy breath and gave a small nod. I met Iroh's sincere gaze. "Thank you… I owe you so much for your kindness and care…"
He smiled at me. "You owe me nothing, Amara. I am the one who chose to save you. You are a daughter to me. Zhao will not touch you as long as I am near."
"No… he won't touch you again," Zuko promised.
My shaking calmed. I knew as long as Iroh and Zuko were with me then I would be okay.
The carriage came to a stop then. Silence fell over us. I heard my heart pound inside me. I tried to keep a steady breath. Zuko squeezed my hand again, and whispered, "It's going to be okay. Don't let him see you afraid. Make him fear you instead."
I nodded and whispered, "I know… He won't win this time."
We got out of the carriage then. I saw we were in a large open area with soldiers all around us. The entrance into the giant towering fort was before us. The large steel doors opened, and three figures stepped out into the yard.
My body shook involuntarily.
Zhao stood before me. He wore fine red Fire Nation armor. His hair was in a tight topknot. His sideburns were trimmed and even. His gold eyes burned into my gaze with sick pleasure. He put his hands behind his back as he walked towards us. The carriage pulled away leaving us to the monster.
Zuko moved closer to me as Zhao and his two guards approached. Iroh stood on my other side, his hand on my back to let me know he was with me. Zhao looked at Zuko and Iroh with tight lips, but remained civil.
"Prince Zuko… Retired General Iroh… It has been too long," Zhao spoke. "I hope you have been having a pleasant journey since your escape from Fire Nation waters."
Zuko scowled. "I was pursuing the Avatar. I did nothing wrong, Admiral Zhao."
Zhao smirked. "I see you got news of my promotion. Good. I don't have to announce it to you." His eyes moved back towards me then. "I also see you have taken great care of my darling sister."
My fists clenched. I narrowed my eyes. I was no longer afraid. I was angry. As I looked at the monster who had tortured me for sixteen years, I resisted the urge to show him my true strength then and there. I pictured my mother. Tu Lan. If I wasn't concerned about Zuko and Iroh, I would boil the man with the hottest water I could make.
"Amara…" Zhao spoke directly to me with a sick grin. "It's been a while."
He stepped forward, and his two guards followed behind. As he approached, Zuko moved in front of me, pushing me slightly behind him. "That's close enough, Admiral Zhao."
Zhao's lip twitched as he resisted the urge to show his fury at Zuko's interference. Iroh spoke up to try and keep the situation calm. "We appreciate your invitation. We have not had a fine meal off a ship in quite some time."
Zhao kept his eyes on me as he said, "I heard you were in the area and I had to check on the welfare of my sister. Make sure she is being cared for now that she doesn't have her brother to watch over her."
Zuko growled and stepped forward with his fists clenched. "She's better than she would ever be under your care!"
I placed my hand on his arm to calm him down. Then I stepped into view again and found my voice. I spoke to Zhao for the first time in over a month. My heart was pounding, and I could feel the discomfort within me, but I kept strong. Despite remembering all Zhao had done to me, I knew he couldn't touch me at the moment with Zuko and Iroh nearby.
"I was surprised by your invitation," I began, finding my voice. "I expected you to send more bounty hunters after me. Have you decided that method is a coward move?"
The boldness and courage behind my voice caused Zhao's amusement to fade away into shock. Then his eyes narrowed. "Well… What a brave girl you've become. I can see that freedom has definitely changed you. I barely recognize you anymore, Amara."
I crossed my arms. "You just don't recognize me because I'm not bloody and caged… so sorry you lost your entertainment."
He sneered. "Just like your mother when I first met her… a sharp tongue. I can see you truly do have her blood coursing through you. Freedom has brought out a side of you I am not too fond of."
I dropped my arms and felt my body warm from my hate towards the demon before me. "Sorry to disappoint you. But the Amara you remember is gone. I'm not scared of you anymore."
He smirked. "I see. It seems we have a lot of catching up to do." Then he looked over at his guards. "Escort our guests to the dining hall." His eyes shot back to me. "I will be with you all momentarily."
He turned and headed back into the building. As soon as he went through the doorway, and I was certain he wouldn't hear me, I felt myself gasp. I hadn't realized my breathing was next to nothing. My body trembled. I had felt brave, but I also knew that I was scared too. Zhao being so nearby had every part of me on edge.
Iroh placed a comforting hand on my shoulder. "I am so proud of you… you are being so strong. It is not easy for one to face the demon of their past."
I shut my eyes, trying to calm my racing heart. "Seeing him again, I can't help feeling scared… but I'm so angry it's helping me stand... I'm doing all I can to not attack him right now."
Zuko spoke up. "Give me the word, and I'll gladly do it for you."
"Let's do our best to keep level heads," Iroh suggested. "We do not want to anger Zhao and give him any opportunity to take Amara into custody… we must play his game for now."
Zuko let out a deep breath. "Fine… but if he tries anything I'm not standing back."
Iroh gave a nod. "We will all be back on our ship and making our way shortly. Patience."
The guards walked us into the building a moment later. We went up an inclined hall that wrapped around the inside of the structure, and stepped into a doorway. We found ourselves in a large room with a long wooden table and some chairs. There was already a dinner spread out with fruit and meat. We sat on one side of the table, with me being placed between Zuko and Iroh. As we waited for Zhao to come, I stared at my empty plate feeling the anger rise again.
Zhao thought he was in control right now. He felt that he was pulling the strings. However, he could no longer do as he pleased to me. I had tasted Freedom… I had learned of friendship and love… I had breathed fresh air for the first time in sixteen years. He wasn't taking any of that from me.
If he tried to take me back I would not go down without a fight. He would see the true strength of a dual bender.
The two guards who had escorted us remained at the doorway to keep an eye on us. As we waited for the host, I looked over at Zuko who I knew was worried. I took his hand which was in a tight fist. "Thanks for being here," I whispered.
He returned my grip. "I'm worried about you… I don't want him to hurt you… Even with what he may say. We can still leave now..."
"No," I whispered. I shut my eyes, picturing my mom and Tu Lan in my head again. "I'm not running. I won't break in front of him again. I can't give him the satisfaction of thinking he still controls me. I refuse to let him win this time. I want him to see my strength."
Iroh sighed. "I know this is a big step for you. But there is no shame in showing fear if you need to. Zuko and I will be your strength if we must."
I smiled over at him. "I know… that's why I know I'll be okay. Because you both are with me."
A few more minutes passed and finally Zhao entered the room. He came over and sat in the chair directly in front of me. He smirked at me, and I glared at him.
"Sorry for the wait. I had to check on one of our new prisoners. Please… help yourself to the food."
He piled food onto his plate, acting like there was no tension in the room even though the tension was great. We filled our plates, and Iroh quickly started to eat. I picked at my food, my eyes staying on Zhao who sipped his wine with ease. He had a devious look in his gaze I couldn't decipher. He was definitely up to something. Zuko barely touched his food too, staying alert in case Zhao tried anything.
Zhao and Iroh spoke for the beginning of the meal. They discussed strategy and news from the Fire Nation. Zuko and I both remained quiet, knowing if one of us spoke we would risk angering Zhao with comments we really wanted to say. Zuko wanted to hurt him as much as I did.
Eventually, Zhao turned his attention to me again. "So… I hear rumors that you are learning firebending, Amara… tell me… how long have you hidden this ability from your family?"
I met his piercing gaze with courage. "I told my family. I've hidden it from my captors since I was five… my mother and I knew what would happen if you learned about me."
He shook his head. "Dear sister… I would not have punished you for firebending. I would've punished you for deceiving me."
I gripped my chopsticks tightly. "Either way, I would've faced some manner of punishment. After a while it just became a pass time to you and Uncle, didn't it? My torture was just for your pleasure."
He sighed and placed his chopsticks down. "I am glad we brought this up. I have had much time to think since your absence, Amara. I realize that I was too hard on you. I wish to make amends. Right my wrongs. You are my sister, and I should not punish you for what our father did. Let me take you back to the Fire Nation. We will give you a nice room at the estate and treat you well. You should be with your family. Not with a banished prince and retired Fire Nation general."
Zuko slammed his chopsticks down. He stood from his chair with steam coming from his fists. "Are you mad! What makes you think she will trust anything you say?! You abused her for sixteen years, locking her in a cage like some captured animal! If you think Amara will be so easily persuaded to trust you then you don't know her at all! She's smarter than you believe! And she doesn't need you anymore! She has us!"
Iroh sighed. "Prince Zuko. Calm yourself and remain respectful. He was not demanding her to return. He was suggesting. There is no need for a quarrel."
I grabbed Zuko's arm which I felt was shaking. "Zuko… Iroh's right. Calm down. You know I won't go with him."
Zuko stayed tense for a moment, but then finally let out a heavy breath and sat back down.
I responded to Zhao with resolve. It was difficult to look him in the eye without some unsettled feeling inside me, but I held myself together. "I'm staying with Zuko and Iroh." I placed my chopsticks down and crossed my arms. "This is the happiest I have been my whole life. I don't need you to take care of me anymore." I looked down at the table feeling my heart ache as I thought about my past. "I'm never going back to that terrible place with you. And I know the only reason you're even trying to get me back so desperately is because you're scared of father's crimes becoming known to others. You fear if people learn about my mother and I that you will be disgraced and lose everything." I met his gaze again. "I have no desire to ruin your reputation, Zhao… Let me go in peace, and no one will ever learn about what dad did to mom. I'll cut all ties to my Fire Nation family so you can keep your image. I don't want to be a burden on you anymore… I just want to be free."
Zhao scoffed. "Free? You honestly think you're free?" He looked over at Iroh, then at Zuko, and back to me. "If you were free then they would've taken you straight to your mother's people at the South Pole the day they took you from my harbor. You were only a day's journey from the coast. But they didn't… because as long as you're Water Tribe you are a threat to the Fire Nation."
Iroh smashed his palm on the table in protest. "We did not take Amara to the South Pole because she needed medical treatment, Admiral Zhao. I do not appreciate you accusing my nephew and I of such ill acts."
Zhao rolled his eyes. "My apologies, General Iroh. I should not make assumptions." His attention shot back to Zuko then. "I may be able to convince you to turn her over to me though."
Zuko crossed his arms to try and keep from burning Zhao alive. I went stiff though. What was Zhao planning? What did he have that could convince Zuko to give me back to him? My heart started to pound heavily.
Zuko spoke with disbelief. "You will never convince me to do such a thing. Amara is not yours, Zhao. She is never going to be your prisoner again."
Zhao got up and stepped away from the table. He turned his back to us with his hands behind him. He stood for a moment in silence. Then he calmly said, "Let's see how much you truly care about her, Prince Zuko." He turned back to face us. "I would like to propose a trade. This is a once in a lifetime deal… I do not know if you are aware, but I have captured the Avatar, and he is here under my custody."
My eyes widened in horror. Zuko's breathing hitched. Iroh was horrified.
"I will hand the Avatar over to you, in exchange for Amara," he said. "I get my sister back and you get your honor. You can finally go home and earn back the birthright you have been trying to restore for almost three years."
My heart skipped. My breathing stopped. Panic filled inside me. My eyes burned with tears. What? No… The Avatar… he was captured by Zhao?
The world's last hope…
Zuko was amazed. "You… have the Avatar?"
Zhao nodded. "Yes. Since becoming Admiral I was granted the privilege of being able to utilize the Yuyan Archers that are stationed here. They were able to apprehend the boy as he was in the woods alone and he is being held here. Agree to return Amara to me, and I will have the boy brought to your ship. Your journey will finally reach its end. You can go home at last."
Zuko was quiet. Iroh had shut his eyes in disbelief. My body felt frozen.
No… it couldn't be… It was over... my freedom… my chance of getting to live… it was all about to end.
I knew Zuko needed this. He had been struggling for years, and he missed his home greatly. With the Avatar, he could finally get his life back. And Iroh could go home as well.
There was no other choice… I had to turn myself over. Aang stood a better chance of escaping Zuko than he did Zhao. I feared what Zhao would do to me, but I knew I had to make this decision. The world needed the Avatar. And Zuko couldn't lose his one chance of going home to Zhao.
Also, I knew that hearing Zuko accept his offer would break my heart. I had to accept it first so I could return to my prison and possible death without feeling betrayed.
With tears and loss, I shakily went to stand to accept for everyone. However, Zuko grabbed my arm and forced me back down. "Don't even think about it," he whispered. He released me, but only so he could stand instead. He stared at Zhao with disgust.
"You clearly know nothing about me… I would never do something so selfish… there's no deal!" Zuko raised his voice. "I will not let you hurt Amara ever again. Keep the Avatar! I'll find another way to go home!" He looked over at Iroh. "I think we've heard enough! We're leaving Uncle!"
I was stunned. What? He… He would really sacrifice this opportunity to protect me? He would give up the Avatar to save me? More tears fell as relief washed through me.
He truly did care about me… he loved me...
"Zu-"
He pulled my chair away from the table, grabbed my hand to force me to my feet, and started to guide me out of the room. We just reached the door when Zhao's guards blocked our exit with spears.
"Move!" Zuko demanded. "We are done here!"
"Admiral Zhao has not dismissed you," one of the guards explained.
"I do not need permission to return to my ship! We were brought here as guests! Now we are leaving!"
Zhao spoke with astonishment from behind. "I truly cannot believe what I am hearing! You would be willing to sacrifice everything for this freak?! Have you lost your damn mind! She isn't worth your time! She is nothing but a mistake! Do not let her destroy your life like she destroyed my father's!"
My fists tightened. My tears spilled more than before as hot anger shot through me. I jerked from Zuko's grasp and turned to Zhao with fire inside me. I saw a pitcher of water on the table was steaming, but Zhao thankfully did not notice.
Finally, I let the hate out of me. "How did I destroy father? I didn't do anything to that man! He's the one that kidnapped and raped my mother for his own entertainment! He's the one that left her to care for me in a dusty attic! You blame me for everything that's happened to your family, but I never did anything wrong! Why?! Why do you hate me so much?! What is with you?!"
Zhao was stunned by my defiance. He grit his teeth. Then he yelled back, "I don't have to explain myself to you! If you know what's good for you then you will cut this foolish act out and walk back this way! You go with them and it will truly be the end! I will destroy your whole family! I will melt the South Pole until there is nothing left!"
"You are nothing but a monster and liar! You've made threats so much to me in the past, but I won't let you manipulate me anymore!" I heard the sound of water boiling. I knew I was losing control. I knew that Zhao discovering my dual bending was a risk. However, I hated him so much in that moment that I no longer cared. I was finally letting him know the true me. "Just leave me alone and let me be! Stop hurting people I love! Stop trying to trap me just so you can feel like you are in control! You've gotten everything you've ever wanted, so I don't understand why you're so desperate to get me back. Are you really that obsessed with me?!"
He could not believe what he was hearing or seeing. The scared child he had once beaten daily and locked up like a caged beast was no longer there. This was the new Amara. And I could see for a brief moment that he feared me.
I lowered my voice slightly but spoke firm. "You can't have me, Zhao. I am not yours."
There was a pause for a moment. Then fire ignited in Zhao's eyes. "You think you're so brave now. I'll show you that you should always fear me!"
He went to move forward to grab me, but he never got the chance.
Fire suddenly rose between us, creating a wall that separated Zhao from me. He gasped and stumbled back, while Zuko pulled me away back to his side. Iroh stepped over to Zuko and I, his hand extended to keep the flames between us. Zhao's eyes widened as he saw who was the cause.
"I have heard enough, Admiral Zhao. This behavior is in no way how a newly promoted Admiral should act. Release Amara and allow us to depart in peace, or I will challenge you to an Agni Kai this time and we'll see how much you fear me!"
Zhao was shocked. He knew he couldn't allow that to happen. He knew he would lose to the man. Zhao growled and his fists sparked. "Let them through," he ordered his men. He looked at me again through the flames. "This isn't over, Amara. You haven't seen the last of me!"
I kept as composed as I could and spoke with determination. "If you try something like this again, I will show you my full strength. And don't ever call me your sister again!"
We took our leave then. The fire died behind us as we made our way back into the hall and out of the building. Adrenaline was pumping through me. My heart was pounding loudly in my ears. My senses were heightened. It took all I could to keep a hold on Zuko's hand as he guided me away from the monster behind me.
When we got outside, the carriage was already waiting for us and the three of us boarded. As we were carried away from the monster behind us, everything started to replay in my mind.
I was shocked and bewildered. I had done it. I had really done it! I had faced Zhao. I had faced my lifetime captor and showed him my new strength. I had overcome my fear and stood up to him.
Iroh let out a heavy breath across from me. "Well… That was definitely worse than I thought it would be. I was not expecting Zhao to try so hard to get her back."
Zuko spoke beside me. "The man is psychotic…"
"He definitely is," Iroh agreed. "And Prince Zuko… I know it was hard for you to give up the Avatar to Zhao, but I am grateful for you choosing to protect Amara. You made me proud tonight."
"It wasn't a hard decision. Zhao doesn't know who he's messing with. He thinks he's won, but I'll be sure the Avatar is free from him so I can continue the chase."
Quiet fell over the shaking carriage. Iroh said after a long pause. "Whatever you are planning tonight, please be careful. I feared losing Amara just now. I cannot fear losing you either."
Zuko reassured him. "I'll be fine, Uncle. Just have the ship prepared to leave by tomorrow morning. Once I'm back, I want us headed north and away from Zhao."
As the two men spoke, I was quiet. I didn't know what Zuko was planning to do, and I honestly couldn't think too much about it. My adrenaline was starting to wear off. My body started to shake, and I felt perspiration on my skin. Chills shot through my spine.
I had stood up to Zhao after sixteen years of abuse and imprisonment. Yet, even after telling him that he lost I could see he still did not seem ready to give up. With the Avatar captured and under his control, I feared he would only gain more favor in the Fire Lord's eyes and find a way to get me back from Zuko and Iroh. I knew as long as Zhao was breathing he would not stop until he got what he wanted.
He would come for me again. He would probably try to hurt Iroh and Zuko now out of spite for my defiance. And he would most definitely desire to kill me now. He had lost control over me, and he would see me as only a threat.
"Amara!" Zuko suddenly shouted in my ear, and I was shocked to find he had turned me so he could grasp both of my arms. "Please, calm down! You're okay!"
His plea made me realize that I was shaking and breathing heavily. My senses had blurred as panic took me over. His gold eyes held concern, but my tears blurred the image of them as my emotions started to escape. A sob came out, and I broke down. Zuko pulled me into a hug quickly and I sobbed into his shirt as the emotion spilled out of me.
I heard Iroh speak over my breakdown. "She is just exhausted. This was a stressful task for her. When we get back to the ship we need to take her to her room immediately so she can rest."
Zuko hugged me closer, stroking my hair to sooth me. "Shh… It's okay, Amara. You're safe now. The danger is over. Calm down."
I wasn't sure how long I cried against Zuko. My mind was a mess. My body suddenly felt hot. The rest of the carriage ride was a blur. All I can remember is that Zuko's arms never left me. He held onto me the whole way. Eventually, my crying stopped and I shut my eyes in exhaustion. I don't remember what happened after that.
When I opened my eyes again, I was back in my room on the ship. A damp cloth was on my forehead. A blanket was over me, and I could sense that the sun was starting to rise. I had been out through the whole night. My body had gone through too much stress. I could tell I was sick.
Carefully, I took the cloth off of my head and sat up. I immediately regretted it. My body hurt so much. I knew it was from the fever that I had. I saw I was in the same clothes from yesterday, but the ribbon had been taken out of my hair to let it hang loose. I tried to get to my feet, and as soon as I did everything tilted. I fell on my knees, shutting my eyes as the room spun. My body burned.
The door opened as I struggled to try and stand again. I heard a gasp. "Amara… no child. Get back in bed," Iroh suddenly spoke. I felt his familiar hands grab my arms to help me up to my feet, and he supported me as he got me back on the cot. Everything was so hazy. I felt so hot. I shivered again.
"Your body went into shock yesterday on our journey back to the ship. You've had a terrible fever all night. You need to rest today," Iroh encouraged. He returned the damp cloth to my forehead, and helped pull my blanket back over me. "Jing should be here soon with some tea and soup. And Physician Ju is going to check on you soon as well."
I shut my eyes, and felt a tear slide down my cheek to my ear. Even when I had been so strong yesterday, my body couldn't handle the tension inside me. I wasn't as strong as I had thought.
"Zuko…" I whispered. "Where's… Zuko?"
Iroh brushed a strand of hair off my sweaty forehead. "He'll be back soon… He went to go take care of something."
I opened my eyes slowly again and looked over at Iroh who was kneeling beside me. The events of yesterday replayed once more in my head. "Is… he helping the Avatar?"
Iroh sighed. "Yes. I believe so. Don't worry, dear. He will be back soon. You just focus on rest today."
I gave a small nod. I recalled Iroh's actions yesterday and knew I needed to show my gratitude. "Thank you, Iroh," I whispered. "For keeping your promise and protecting me yesterday. I was worried that Zhao was going to make me stay no matter what…"
He frowned. "If Zuko's freedom had not been at risk, I would've never agreed to let you see that terrible man yesterday. I could not allow myself and Zuko to be arrested though... I'm sorry I could not protect you more. But I am so proud of your courage. You did something many could not, dear. I know your mother is proud of you for what you did yesterday as well. You were so brave."
I shut my eyes again. "I got to see Zhao scared of me for the first time ever… It felt good…"
Iroh chuckled softly. "Yes. You definitely showed him what the real Amara is capable of. You are truly amazing, my child."
I met his gaze once more and smiled. "I couldn't have done it without you and Zuko…"
Third Person POV
Zuko groaned as he came to. His head was splitting from the impact of the arrow hitting him on the blue spirit mask he wore. He had just helped the Avatar out of the fort and they had crossed the bridge. The Yu Yan archer had struck Zuko hard though and he had been knocked unconscious. He wasn't sure what happened after that. He wasn't chained up, and he felt dirt beneath him, so he clearly had not been apprehended by Zhao.
Opening his eyes slowly, he saw the sun was shining on him from above. He felt his mask beside his hand, and he could see through blurred vision a figure sitting on a log in front of him. After a moment of adjusting his sight, he could see that the figure was the Avatar.
He blinked. He couldn't believe it. The Avatar had helped him after he was knocked unconscious? Why?
The boy started to speak when he saw Zuko was conscious. "You know what the worst part about being born over a hundred years ago is? I miss all the friends I used to hang out with. Before the war started, I used to always visit with my friend Kuzon. The two of us, we'd get in and out of so much trouble together. He was one of the best friends I ever had – and he was from the Fire Nation, just like you. If we knew each other back then, do you think we could have been friends too?"
Zuko could not believe what he was hearing. The Avatar was considering the possibility of them being friends? The boy was insane. They were enemies, and it was Zuko's duty to capture him and take him to his father. However, at the moment Zuko was too tired to try and capture anyone. He also worried Zhao would be searching the woods, and he needed the Avatar to go before the kid was captured again.
He shot a blast of fire at the boy, and the airbender jumped out of the way landing on a limb nearby. Aang sighed with disbelief. He was going to leave, but he had to do something for his friends.
"Before you scare me off again," Aang said to the prince below, "I need to tell you something."
Zuko managed to get to his feet, grabbing his mask as he did so. His black shirt and pants were covered in dirt. "Make it quick," Zuko said. "Before I do capture you."
Aang rolled his eyes. However, he kept focused. "That girl… the one named Amara… Give her a message for me. Tell her that the Water Tribe kids I travel with are her cousins. Sokka and Katara are her aunt Kya's children… and they want to meet her."
Zuko was shocked. Aang saw he received the message. He got ready to leave, but stopped at the end of the limb he was on.
"Oh. And thanks for saving me from that place. I know you did it only so you can capture me instead, but I appreciate the help." He turned then and used airbending to hop away from Zuko, using the trees to push him out of view and back towards his friends. Zuko stood in the forest in silent disbelief. He couldn't believe what the Avatar had just told him.
Amara… Those Water Tribe kids were her cousins after all. The necklace he had in his possession… It must've been her grandma's like he suspected. He immediately felt guilt. He was chasing after Amara's family. This was the last thing he had wanted.
He let out a heavy sigh. It had been a long twenty-four hours.
About an hour past sunrise, Zuko returned to the ship where it was still docked on shore and ordered for them to depart. As the ship started to head along, Zuko made his way down to the hall where his room was. He stopped in his room to drop off his mask and his broadswords, change into some clean clothes, and then headed to the room he was eager to enter. As he went to open Amara's door, he heard a voice behind him.
"Prince Zuko… I see you have returned safely. Was your mission successful?"
He let out a heavy breath and turned to face his uncle. "Yeah," he whispered. "The Avatar is free again."
Iroh nodded. "Good. And Zhao doesn't suspect?"
Zuko shrugged. "I don't think so. He seemed to not know who I was under the mask."
Iroh sighed. "Good."
Zuko glanced back at the door. "How is she?"
His Uncle walked over. "She fell asleep again about an hour ago after I got her to drink and eat something. Her fever has gone down since we got her back on the ship last night. She will hopefully be recovered by tomorrow. Facing Zhao was just too much on her body. While she has healed over the time she has been with us, the damage of her past will not be easy to repair so quickly."
Zuko sighed. "Yeah… I know."
Iroh noticed a look of great agony on his nephew's face. He placed a hand on his shoulder with concern. "What is weighing on you, Prince Zuko?"
He shut his eyes and let out a heavy breath. "I… found out something from the Avatar… about her family."
Iroh was surprised. "What is it?"
Zuko answered. "Those Water Tribe kids the Avatar is traveling with… turns out they are her aunt Kya's children… they are Amara's cousins…"
Iroh was bewildered. Then he understood. "Ah… I see... You are conflicted about telling her this news. You worry she will want to find and be with them."
Zuko gave a small nod. "I… I don't want her to go… but I also don't want to keep this from her. It would be wrong to not tell her, right?"
Iroh squeezed his nephew's shoulder. "Unfortunately, you have to make that decision yourself, Prince Zuko. If I were you though, I would tell her. I have a feeling she isn't leaving you any time soon anyway. I can see she loves you just as much as you love her."
Zuko gave a small smile. He knew his uncle was right.
"Why don't you go in and see her, and then get some rest? You look like you could use some sleep. I have a feeling Amara won't be back to herself until tomorrow, so it's best we all just rest today and recover from this experience." Iroh grabbed the door and opened it. "I'm going to the helm to check on our course."
Iroh headed away, and Zuko stepped into the room shutting the door behind. He saw Amara was laying on her cot. She was definitely still feverish from the tint of her skin. However, her pained expression the day before looked at peace now. She had definitely calmed and was relaxed.
Zuko walked over to her and knelt beside her. His eyes shot to the necklace she always wore, and he could see now the similarity between it and the one he had in his possession. It was true… Those Water Tribe kids were her family...
He grabbed the rag from the bowl beside him and wrung it out. Then he gently pressed it to her forehead. She sighed as the cool sensation gave her relief. Her eyes slowly opened as she regained consciousness. Her tired blue eyes moved towards Zuko. He was surprised to see her awake.
"Sorry," he whispered. "I didn't mean to wake you."
"No… I'm glad you did. I wanted to know you're okay," she spoke softly. "I'm so relieved."
Zuko took the rag away and put it back in the bowl. "Sorry for being gone so long. I was able to help the Avatar escape, but got a little sidetracked. I'm back now though."
"The Avatar… He's really safe?"
Zuko nodded, brushing his thumb against her hot cheek. "He's fine. You don't have to worry about him anymore."
Her eyes burned with tears of relief. "Good… I'm so glad to hear. I was worried Zhao would hurt him."
Zuko fell quiet for a moment as he recalled what happened at dinner. When Zhao had told them he had the Avatar, Amara was going to sacrifice herself…
"You were going to turn yourself over to Zhao for the Avatar, weren't you?"
She shut her eyes, but gave a small nod. "I… I care about the boy… he kind of reminds me of myself… We're both different from others. We were both thrown into a life we didn't want." Her voice went softer. "We both just want to live in peace…"
Zuko frowned. He let out a heavy breath. "I guess so…" He sat in silence for a moment. He thought about telling her what the Avatar had revealed to him, but he was afraid. She made him so happy… he didn't want to lose her.
Instead, he asked, "How are you feeling?"
She gave a small smile. "Better…" She sat up slowly. Zuko placed a hand behind her back to help steady her. Once she was sitting up, she stared down at her lap in dismay. "I'm sorry about yesterday… I guess the emotions inside me could no longer be contained… I was afraid, but I didn't want to show Zhao… I guess I couldn't hold it in anymore."
Zuko frowned and dropped his hand from her. "Don't apologize… you had every right to react that way. I'm sorry you had to go through that."
She took his hand to feel his touch. "I had you and Iroh… I knew I would be okay."
He nodded. He brushed a strand of hair from her cheek behind her ear. "We're both proud of you. But I hope you never have to do that again."
She let go of his hand, and then moved it to her necklace. "I just wish I could've made him pay… for what he did to my mom and Tu Lan… but I knew attacking him would not be good for you and Iroh." She shut her eyes and grit her teeth. "As long as Zhao is alive, he's always going to try and get me back. We won this one, but what if he tries again in the future… I'm so scared he's going to try and hurt you."
Zuko sighed heavily. He suddenly moved so he could get on the bed beside her. She scooted over to give him room. He laid down then, making her lay against him. He held her in his arms protectively. "He won't," Zuko whispered. "And I won't let him get you. You're safe with Uncle and I."
As Amara started to drift to sleep, Zuko shut his eyes too. He knew the right thing to do was to tell Amara about her family, but he couldn't say it. He knew it was selfish. He knew it might hurt her if she learned the truth later on. But Zuko couldn't lose her… he needed her just as much as she needed him.
"I'll protect you, Amara…" he whispered. "Forever…"
As he fell asleep to the sound of her gentle breaths, he dreamed of being back home at the Fire Nation Palace with Amara by his side. He'd find a way to fulfill all of his hopes and dreams… He wouldn't give up on his honor or the girl he loved.