Hanna and Caleb walk back to the party area. They are holding hands but Hanna takes her hand away from his as soon as they reach the place. There are far fewer people than before at the party since it's 5 am… time flied for Hanna and Caleb while kissing.
Mona approaches them. "Hey, Han! I thought you had left already… come get your Camp Mona t-shirt" she says, pulling from her arm. "You too, Caleb"
Caleb smiles amused while recalling the comments that their friends made while making fun of Mona's t-shirts.
They get to a table full of t-shirts, pink t-shirts for girls, black ones for men, all of them have a huge "Camp Mona" printed in white letters.
Mona "Okay, this is for you" she tells Hanna while handing her a t-shirt. Then she grabs a black one and hands it to Caleb "And this one is for you" she smiles at him.
Caleb "Thanks" he smiles back.
Mona turns back to Hanna. "Well, thanks for coming, I'm glad you did… let's get together any of these days"
Hanna "Sure" she gives her a smile. "Thanks for inviting us to come, I had a great time… see you around" she says her goodbyes and they head to the parking lot.
Hanna "You don't really have to keep the t-shirt" she tells Caleb while smiling amused, once they get to Caleb's car.
Caleb "Are you kidding? Of course I'll keep it… I love my Camp Mona t-shirt, I'm a fan of Camp Mona"
Hanna laughs out loud. "You are such an idiot"
Caleb "And you are beautiful" he says while trapping her between his arms, against the car, and before she can say something, he's already kissing her again.
Hanna smiles against his lips and wraps her arms around him as she kisses him back. But the kiss only lasts a few seconds, it is not even long enough for their tongues to meet again, because they hear the door of the car next to Caleb's open and they pull away.
Hanna is relieved of seeing that it's Sean. From all the people at the party, the car next to Caleb's is Sean's, but she's glad it is, because they already made him believe that they were together, and he has no idea that Hanna is actually engaged to someone else. But the situation only makes Hanna aware of the fact that she should be more careful about what she does in public. She's cheating on Jordan after all.
Fortunately for them, Sean gets into his car without saying a word to them, and they do the same. Caleb gives her another smile before starting the car and pulling out of the parking lot. Hanna takes his phone and puts some music, the drive is quiet, but unlike the drive from Alison's to the party, this is a comfortable silence.
Hanna "Caleb…" she says to him at some point when they get back in the town.
Caleb "Yeah?"
Hanna "I think it would be better if you took me home… I mean, to my mom's" she clarifies, recalling their whose-home conversation at the woods.
Caleb "Okay" he simply says and places his hand on her knee, without taking his eyes off the road, he gives her a squeeze there. He knows that he is already lucky enough for what just happened between them and he can't ask for more, he doesn't want to push her.
Once they get to Hanna's, Caleb parks the car in front of the house.
Caleb "Well, we're here…" he only says, and turns to her, unsure about if he should kiss her goodbye or not.
But Hanna gets closer and takes his face in her hands. She places a brief soft kiss on his lips herself. Then she pulls away, releasing his face but she places one of her hands on his forearm and makes eye contact, as if she wanted to say something.
Caleb stares at her, unsure of what's going on. But then he realizes. "You changed your mind?" he smirks.
Hanna smiles, but it's a shy smile. "Kind of…"
Caleb "You know you can come with me"
Hanna "Yeah… I just don't want to… you know" she sighs. "I can't give you any more than I already did right now" she says and looks away.
Caleb "Hey, I won't assume that we are gonna have sex just because you come home with me…" he says, going straight to the point, and takes her hand. "It's me, Han… you know there's room for you in my bed even if nothing happens" he assures her.
Caleb is a lonely man who rarely spends the night with someone, he's not used to that, not even after sex, but somehow, he doesn't feel the same way when it comes to Hanna.
Hanna "You don't mind?"
Caleb shakes his head. "I would love that you stayed with me again" he squeezes her hand.
Hanna "Okay, let's go"
Caleb pecks her lips before turning back to the wheel.
/
Once they get into Caleb's house, Hanna is surprised to find out that the place is just as empty as it was the last time she was there a week ago. There's no furniture in there.
Hanna "I thought you had moved back in here" she says amused.
Caleb "I told you I needed your help to pick the furniture and decorations"
Hanna chuckles. "And where are we sleeping then?"
Caleb grins and takes her hand. "This way" he says and leads her to the living room, and although it's just as empty as the rest of the house, there's a huge king size bed placed in the middle of the room.
Hanna "Well, this is way better than the mattress you had before" she says and lays her purse and their Camp Mona t-shirts on the bed.
Caleb "Yeah… I'll move the bed upstairs in a week. We are still working on the first floor… anyway, make yourself at home" he says and places a kiss on her cheek, but Hanna wraps her arms around his neck before he has the chance to move away and she starts another kiss, a passionate one.
Caleb places his palms on her waist and kisses her back, more than happy to mess with those soft lips of hers again, not to mention the amazing feeling of her tongue invading his mouth once more. He still can't believe how his night has turned out, he never imagined that such a thing would happen, first of all, Hanna being jealous of him, then she admitting that she is confused about him, and the icing on the cake, her mind-blowing kisses.
Hanna "We better get ready for bed" she says seconds later when she breaks the kiss.
Caleb "Yeah" he smiles, but he leans forward again and presses his lips against hers a few more times before he finally releases her.
Hanna goes and grabs her Camp Mona t-shirt from the bed, she needs something other than her clothes to wear for bed. But when she takes the garment out from its plastic bag and unfolds it before her, she realizes that it's not even long enough to cover her underwear.
Caleb notices it and hands her his Camp Mona t-shirt. "Use mine, I'm sure it's larger"
Hanna takes it with a smile on her face, he's so thoughtful. "Thank you" she says and then grabs a toothbrush from her purse. "I'll go use the bathroom"
Caleb only nods and she disappears through the hallway.
When she gets back, Caleb is just in boxers and lying on the bed, but not under the covers. Hanna can't help licking her lips at that sight.
Caleb turns his glance toward her. "Now I love my Camp Mona t-shirt even more" he jokes while checking Hanna out from head to toe. The t-shirt barely covers her thighs. She has removed her make-up, and still looks beautiful.
Hanna flushes and smiles, without saying a word, she walks there and lies down on her back next to him.
Caleb rolls over to lie on his stomach and wraps his arm around her waist to pull her closer to him. He also moves his face close to hers and after placing a tender kiss on her cheek, he remains there, resting his cheek on the same pillow, inhaling her rich scent, and he closes his eyes.
Hanna rests her arm on the arm that he keeps wrapped around her waist. She closes her eyes as well and they remain like that for a couple of minutes before all of a sudden, Hanna starts to feel soft kisses on her neck. She instinctively tilts her head to the side where he's placing them.
Caleb chuckles. "It tickles?"
Hanna doesn't answer, she only smiles and tilts her head to the opposite side now, exposing her neck for him. Caleb opens his mouth now and instead of placing pecks on her skin, he changes his strategy and starts to place open-mouthed kisses instead.
Hanna's lips part right then and she lets out a deep breath.
Caleb smiles against her skin. "Better?" he asks between kissing.
Caleb places a few more kisses there before lifting his chest from the mattress, and holding his weight up on his free arm, he leans over her and connects his lips to hers in a sweet slow kiss. Hanna takes her free hand to his nape while kissing back. And then again, the kiss grows deeper as they open their mouths to meet their tongues. Hanna takes both her hands to his back and runs them up and down, brushing her fingertips on his bare skin, which gives him goosebumps. Caleb wants to touch her as well, he wants to cause her the same sensations that she's making him feel, but at the same time, he doesn't want to make her feel uncomfortable, or make her think that he's seeking to get into her pants despite the talk they had earlier in his car, so he just unwraps his arm from her waist and places his palm on her hip where he starts to stroke her with his thumb through the material of the hideous Camp Mona t-shirt that she's wearing, and which somehow, she still manages to rock.
Hanna takes one of her hands to his front, she didn't miss his abs when she checked him out before, they looked hard and hot and she just wants to touch them, feel them. She brushes her hand there and her gentle touch causes him to let out a soft groan into their kiss. Hanna kisses him more intensively in response, sucking on his bottom lip before giving him a brief bite there and right after that, she caresses that spot of his lip with the tip of her tongue. All that interaction, Hanna's soft hands messing with Caleb's bare skin, along with her very hot way to kiss him, is causing his blood to flow straight to his crotch and he knows he should stop, but he just can't, not just yet. He's grateful that he's lying on his stomach, so nothing can be seen. He presses his fingertips into her hip and allows himself to keep kissing her for another long fifteen minutes, before he finally breaks apart from her lips, ending the make-out session. He stares at her, hovering over her.
Hanna bites her bottom lip while giving him a shy smile. Caleb gets lost in her blue orbs. He places his hand on her face and caresses her cheek with his thumb a few times before running his hand back into her hair, where he keeps stroking her.
Hanna is lost into his chocolate eyes too now and only the sound of Caleb's voice brings her back to reality.
Caleb "I'm going to take a shower, okay?"
Hanna gives him another smile. "Okay, don't take too long" she says and pecks his lips.
Caleb "I won't" he smiles back.
Caleb moves away from her, always being careful enough to hide his painful arousal, he gets up from the bed with his back to her and heads for the hallway.
/
Caleb gets into the shower, still unable to believe his current situation, Hanna is actually waiting for him in his bed. He smiles at the thought as the warm water hits his face. He can't wait to go back to her, he can't wait to hold her until they fall asleep, something that he thought was impossible and now it's just around the corner. But first, there's something he needs to take care of. He lowers one of his hands and wraps it around his massive erection, he starts to stroke himself, running his hand up and down on his length while giving himself some relief. Although he has done it many times before, and more often since he met Hanna, this time is different, because his only goal is to get off and empty himself so then he can go back and cuddle with her with no worries about getting a boner again, or at least for a while, he just hopes he can be able to relax and be close to her, trick his body so that it doesn't respond so quickly this time. She drives him insane.
/
Caleb gets back to the living room and he is disappointed to find Hanna already asleep. She has gotten under the sheets and she's sleeping peacefully on her side. He goes and gets in the bed as well, he lies down on his side too, facing her. He stares at her while deciding whether to wake her up or not. He is ecstatic to have her there, because even though they have shared a bed before, this time is different, she's not there for Chocolate, she's not there because she's drunk or sad, she's there because she wanted to be there. He finally decides to go for the selfish option and allows himself to disturb her sleep.
Caleb "Hey, Han" he whispers into her ear and places some kisses all over that exposed side of her face.
Hanna "Hey…" she says, sleepy, and opens her eyes to look at him, but he's still pressing kisses against her skin, now on the soft spot right under her ear, so she just smiles and closes her eyes again. "I'm sorry, I just fell asleep"
Caleb raises his head and looks at her, Hanna opens her eyes once again now that she's no longer feeling his lips on her.
Caleb "Yeah, I see" he gives her an amused smile. "Let's go to sleep" he says while lying down on his back next to her.
Hanna "You just woke me up to go back to sleep?" she says while getting closer to him. "Now give me another kiss at least" she says while placing one of her arms on the mattress at the other side of him to hold her weight up. Hovering over him, she leans forward to meet his lips, which are already curled into a big smile.
Caleb kisses her back, it's a gentle kiss, a relaxed one. He wraps his arms around her and pulls her down to him, making her lie down on him. Hanna rests her palms on his shoulders now that she doesn't have to hold herself up. This time the kiss is so soft and slow that the touch of their tongues feels like a caress.
Hanna "Okay, now we can go to sleep" she says some seconds after, happy with their tender kiss.
Caleb nods while giving her a smile.
Hanna moves away from him to lie down back on the mattress.
Caleb "Hey, stay here" he reaches out and pulls her back to him from her arm.
Hanna grins. "You don't mind? I don't want you to sleep uncomfortable"
Caleb "Come here" he repeats and Hanna is more than happy to lie on her side against his body and rest her head on his chest. He wraps his arm around her back, placing his palm on her hipbone, pressing her to him.
Hanna "Okay, just move me away if you get uncomfortable or if you can't feel your arm anymore" she smiles while shutting her eyes.
Caleb chuckles. "I won't… why do you think I just woke you up? I wanted this…" his words slip out before he can even think about if he wanted to say them out loud or keep that information to himself, but he relaxes as soon as he feels a soft kiss against his chest.
Hanna "Good night, Caleb"
Caleb "Night, beautiful"
Hanna smiles once more, probably for the hundredth time in the day, cuddling with Caleb feels really good. Everything feels amazing, indeed anything with him feels that way.
/
Next morning.
Hanna wakes up and it takes her a few seconds to comprehend that the weight and the grip that she feels around her body are Caleb's arms keeping her against him. She's not used to wake up like that and it feels just as good as it felt while falling asleep. She finally opens her eyes and looks up at him. He's still fast asleep, his face is so relaxed and he's so quiet that if it weren't for his chest rising up and down, she would wonder if he was still breathing.
She doesn't even know what time it is but her phone is not close enough to reach out for it, and she doesn't want to move away from Caleb's embrace, firstly because of the amazing feeling of being held between his arms, and secondly, she doesn't want Caleb to wake up yet, so she decides to just remain there, quietly, a little longer. She knows that she will have to face the music when he wakes up. Although the night before she let herself go and she did what she felt like doing, her common sense is getting back to her now. She's still sunk in her thoughts when she starts to feel Caleb move under her. She attempts to lift her body a little up from him so he can move freely but his arms tighten their grip around her right away, as if it were an instinctive reaction to keep her close, since he's not even fully awake yet. Hanna's thoughts vanish as a big smile appears on her face. She rests her head back on his chest and starts to brush her fingertips on his skin.
Caleb "Hey…" he says a few seconds later, still half asleep.
Hanna "Morning"
Caleb "How did you sleep?"
Hanna "Great… you?"
Caleb "Same" he says and squeezes her against him.
Hanna raises her head from his chest now and presses several soft kisses on his cheek, but just when Caleb is about to move his mouth to that side in order to connect their lips, she pulls back.
Hanna "I'll go use the bathroom" she says while moving away from him and then gets up from the bed.
Caleb "What would you like for breakfast?" he asks her as she grabs her clothes from the night before and her toothbrush.
Hanna "I'm not so hungry… Just a coffee will be fine"
Caleb "You sure?" he asks while getting up as well.
Hanna nods and heads to the hallway.
/
Hanna gets into the kitchen some minutes later, already dressed and her hair up in a messy bun. Caleb has put on a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt, and he's making breakfast. She takes a look around and the large kitchen looks very different from the last time she was in there, the floor has been replaced, the kitchen counters are new, and the modern appliances like the dishwasher, the kitchen where Caleb is making the pancakes and the enormous fridge are new too.
Hanna "Wow, I love your new kitchen" she says while walking toward him. "I love the granite color" she runs her hand on the kitchen countertop.
Caleb "Yeah, it's pretty cool, isn't it? Spencer and Toby helped me picking it" he says, focused on flipping a pancake.
Hanna "So you changed me for them?" she says playfully.
Caleb shrugs. "You were busy"
Hanna "I don't recall you giving me a call to ask for my help…"
Caleb "It was a week ago, you were with Jordan"
Hanna "Oh" she only says and they fall silent.
Hanna knows they need to talk, and although she's not sure about what to say, she also knows that this is the moment to bring it up, so she breaks the awkward silence herself.
Hanna "Caleb… we need to talk"
Caleb looks at her now. "Yeah… I know…" he lets out a very small sigh. "But can it wait a little? Let's have breakfast first"
Hanna gives him a slight smile. "Yeah, sure"
Hanna stands behind his back and wraps her arms around his waist as she watches him finish with the last pancakes, then he places them on two different plates.
Hanna "Hey, I told you I was just having a coffee"
Caleb chuckles. "Yeah, but I know you better, I know you would have ended up eating my pancakes anyway"
Hanna grins knowing that he's right, she wasn't hungry before because she was a little nervous about how their morning would go, since unlike the night before, they need to stop acting impulsively, get back to reality and face their current situation, but seeing that he agrees with her about their need to have a talk and that he's in a good mood as always, she's more relaxed now, and his pancakes look and smell delicious.
Hanna releases him from her grip. "Well, you don't have a table, or even chairs for us to sit and have breakfast" she teases him.
Caleb gives her a smile. "Here" he says and gestures to the kitchen countertop, then he wraps an arm around her waist and places the other hand on the back of her thigh and helps her up to sit there.
They have breakfast there, Hanna sitting on the countertop and Caleb standing before her, talking about nothing in particular, just random stuff like the furniture that Caleb would like to buy for the house, and some other things, but nothing about whatever is going on between them.
Right when Hanna is finishing her cup of coffee, her phone starts to ring next to her, so she places the now empty cup on the countertop and grabs her phone, grateful to see that it's her mom and not another person.
Hanna "Hey, mom" she answers the call. "Yeah, sorry I didn't let you know, I got pretty drunk last night so I just crashed on Alison's couch" she lies. "Uh huh, I'm going home for lunch, see you later… fine… bye"
Caleb is already loading the dishwasher when Hanna ends the call.
Hanna "Can we talk now? I need to go back home"
Caleb nods. "Sure, just give me a minute, I'll go use the bathroom first. I'll be right back" he says while leaving the kitchen.
Hanna goes back to the living room and makes the bed before she sits down on the edge of it to wait for Caleb, who shows up over there a little after.
Caleb "Well… let's talk" he says and goes sit next to her. "Hey, you didn't have to make the bed" he gives her a smile.
Hanna only smiles back in response.
Caleb "So…?" he asks, trying to start the conversation that he doesn't want to have, but which he also knows is necessary.
Hanna "I don't know where to start" she confesses and looks down and away.
Caleb "How about starting with what you do know" he takes her hand in his.
Hanna "Well… what I do know is that I have no regrets about last night… and that I obviously can no longer say that I am confused about you, because it's pretty obvious that I have feelings for you too, I can't deny it after everything that happened last night" she says, still without making eye contact with him.
A huge grin appears on Caleb's face at hearing her words, but then he hears a sigh coming from her mouth, and she still keeps looking away, and that can't be a good sign.
Caleb "But…" he encourages her to go on.
Hanna "But I can't ignore the fact that I'm in a relationship… I'm engaged… I can't cheat on Jordan, he doesn't deserve it… well, I already did, but still… fuck, this is harder than I thought" she says, a little frustrated, seeing that she can't even get to a point.
There's a silence, since Caleb is not sure if he wants her to go on, and Hanna still doesn't know what to say, because she doesn't know what to do either, what to ask him, because she doesn't even know what she wants either. But then she decides to ask him what he wants, maybe his mind is clearer than hers.
Hanna "What do you want?"
Caleb "I want to be with you, Han… like… something serious"
Hanna looks at him, a little surprised, because although he was pretty honest to her about his feelings the night before, she didn't know how serious he wanted to take their thing, whatever it is.
Hanna "You sure?"
Caleb nods while starting to draw random patterns with his thumb on her palm. "Yeah… I mean..." he makes a pause and then goes on. "I told you, I suck at love, relationships, it never worked for me. But this is different, I never felt this need to be so close to someone before, I'm a lonely person, and I've always been better off being on my own. But you… I don't know what's with you, but I want you around as much as possible" he says although there are so many other things that he would like to tell her, but he doesn't want to push too much, he doesn't want to make her freak out, so he finishes with a simple, but still clear phrase. "I would like to give this a shot"
Hanna takes a few seconds before answering, his honest answer just melted her heart, he has no problem to admit his feelings, and she loves it. But she also knows that what he wants with her is not possible at the moment. "You know I can't give you that right now" she says on a very low voice, while looking down to the floor.
Caleb "Yeah, I know…" he only says.
Hanna "But you also need to know that things would have been pretty different last night if it wasn't for my current situation…" she squeezes their joined hands.
Caleb "Different how?"
Hanna "I wouldn't have held myself back from going further with you" she confesses, still without making eye contact with him.
Caleb grins, and since she keeps avoiding his look, he takes one of his hands to her face and makes her look up at him. He opens his mouth to say something, but Hanna speaks again before he can even say a word.
Hanna "The point is… I need time, Caleb… I know what I have to do… but I just don't know how to do it, it's so hard"
Caleb "And what is it that you have to do?"
Hanna "Well… first of all, I can no longer be with Jordan" she says very convinced, because she knows she can't be with someone for whom she doesn't feel anything, she confirmed it the night before, when Caleb made her feel things that she had forgotten she could feel, things that Jordan wasn't able to make her feel even during their perfect weekend together, even when they did more than just kissing. But she's not telling that to Caleb, it wouldn't be fair to Jordan, she already fucked it up enough by cheating on him.
Caleb "You are breaking up with him?"
Hanna sighs. "Yeah… but it doesn't have anything to do with whatever is going on between us. I don't want to mix everything up. My relationship with Jordan and our thing are two completely different things. I'm not breaking up with Jordan because of you, I have my reasons to do so. And I'm not here with you right now because things between Jordan and I aren't good either, I'm here because I want to be here"
Caleb nods. "I'm so glad to hear that, Hanna" he says in his very honest way and gives her a smile.
Hanna smiles back and closes the distance between them, taking her mouth to his and they share a brief, but still very sweet, kiss.
Hanna "It's just the truth…" she starts to say after breaking the kiss. "I wish things were different, I wish we didn't have to hold anything back"
Caleb "We don't have to, Han… If you tell me that you will break up with him, then that's enough for me… I don't mind keeping this a secret for some time as long as you are with me"
Hanna stares at him for a few seconds, he's proposal sounds so good, being with him the night before felt just so great that she considers taking his offer for a moment, but then she shakes those thoughts off and goes back to her point.
Hanna "I can't do that, baby" she pulls him into a hug. "Believe me, I want to give this a chance and see what happens, but I need time" she adds, but he pulls away and sits up straight.
Caleb "How long?"
Hanna "I don't know. I want to do this right, Caleb… My relationship with Jordan deserves to end well, it needs time, I can't just grab my phone and end things with him just like that, I need to see him, I need to have a talk with him… and it won't be easy, I don't even know how to do it, I've never been in such a situation… he's not just another guy that I dated, he's my fiancé."
Caleb only purses his lips.
Hanna "Can you give me some time? Would you wait for me?"
Caleb "What if you change your mind in the meanwhile?"
Hanna "I won't… I know I'm such a denier, but I'm not idiot... I just need time"
Caleb nods.
Hanna "Is that a yes?"
Caleb "I guess it is… I don't have much of a choice"
Hanna "Hey, I promise I won't take too long… I'll give him a call today, maybe I can go see him one of these days…"
Caleb "Okay" he only says, sounding not so convinced. He really doesn't like the idea of Hanna going to Washington, not after what happened the night before. He can't stand the idea of her being with Jordan.
Hanna "You will have to take care of Chocolate" she says, trying to convince him a little bit more. "You will have him all for you for some days"
Caleb "I want you all for me" he says while making eye contact with Hanna.
Hanna smiles. "That's why I need to go to Washington"
Caleb only nods, not more convinced than before, but more understanding at least.
Hanna "Well… I should get going" she says while standing up from the bed and grabs her purse.
Caleb "I'll drive you" he says, since she doesn't have her car. "Don't forget your Camp Mona t-shirt" he smiles amused.
Hanna chuckles and takes it.
/
They get to Hanna's place and Caleb parks the car in front of the house next door, since Ashley is at home and he knows that Hanna told her that she was at Alison's.
Caleb "Han… How am I supposed to act around you now?" he asks as soon as he stops the car.
Hanna "Like always… just don't push me away like you did during the whole week… but no more kisses either, for now" she makes that part clear. "Let's get together later so you can see Chocolate"
Caleb nods. "And you are coming with me to buy some furniture for my house tomorrow"
Hanna smiles. "Deal"
Caleb "Can I kiss you one more time at least?" he asks, already getting closer to her, anticipating her answer.
Hanna grins and she kisses him herself, taking his face in her hands to make sure that their last kiss, only for now, of course, it's passionate enough to make him remember how bad she wants him, how much she cares about him, and what she feels for him until she sorts her things out and comes back to him.
Hanna "See you later" she says, smiling, when she parts their lips. "Give me a call, okay?" she opens the door and gets out of the car.
Caleb "I will… see you, Han"
/
Caleb gets back home and he goes straight to the living room to plop down on the bed. He is really tired since he and Hanna didn't get much sleep during the night.
He lies on his side, facing the side of the bed where Hanna slept and spots his Camp Mona t-shirt extended on the duvet. He smiles and grabs it, taking it to his face and his smile becomes wider the moment he smells Hanna's perfume on it. He definitely loves his Camp Mona t-shirt.
Now that he has some time alone, he gets to think about the previous night's events, pictures of Hanna invade his mind, and he comes to a conclusion: Although he won't push her into anything, he will fight for his girl, he is not so convinced about that 'time' that she asked him for. Fuck stupid Jordan, he already had his chance and he blew it up.
