FASCINATION, FIRE AND FEAR
Hi everyone. Yup, it's me again. I'm coming back on track. At least I hope so. Last week story was my warm up after the break and now I would like to introduce you to the new story. Those of you who know me and my writing, won't be surprised with the topic od the story, cause I simply love to write about this side of Chelsie's life.
Story summary: Charles and Elsie are both reminiscing most wild moments of their marriage and pre-marriage intimacy and they are wondering, why the initial heat has vanished. Is it still possible to go back and restore the passion?
Legal note: I still don't own any of DA characters (how is that possible?). This is going to be rated between strong T and M. Consider yourselves warned.
Charles sighed deeply, looking through the window. Beautiful sunset didn't make him feel better at all. Cottage was so quiet and empty without Elsie, he missed her, but at the same time he was glad, that they were parted for few days.
She decided to go to her family in Scotland and he didn't protest. He thought, that few days away can help to mend problems, which recently appeared in their marriage. He didn't quite understand why the love of his life and the reason of his existence, has suddenly become so distant and emotionally unavailable to him.
Marrying Elsie, was the greatest happiness of his life. He was sure, that she felt the same way and that he was able to make her happy. They were both very impatient to start their life together and when they finally did, it was more beautiful then he could have ever imagined.
Elsie was ideal wife. She loved him, she was taking care of him. Leaving out the cooking issues, all other aspects were like a dream come true, a dream that he was waiting for so long, that when it came true, he simply couldn't believe his luck.
He was pampered by Elsie and he fully reciprocated with the same thing. God knows, that this was all he ever wanted to do, always- to love, adore and cherish this wonderful woman, a woman who he loved, for as long as he could remember.
Just as he told Mrs Patmore, in the memorable conversation before his wedding with Elsie- he wanted to share with her all the aspects of life, to be as closely as two people can and he had to admit, that their closeness, for which he fought so dearly, was the best thing of their marriage.
Everything else was wonderful too, but before they got married, he was already used to all other good things coming from Elsie- like her calming presence, common sense, good advices, when he had problems, everyday care, which often came unnoticed, as he was so used to it, that he didn't appreciate it enough.
This was the Elsie that he knew and loved, but now, in their marriage, there was new Elsie, Elsie that he was crazy about, mostly because in spite of her initial inhibitions, she very quickly overcome her doubts and fears and become such passionate wife, as he could only dream about.
Actually, when he was thinking about it, he didn't have to wait till the wedding, to see that side of her. Very soon after the conversation, in which they explained to each other the terms of their future marriage and their first, shy and innocent kiss, they started to develop the kind of closeness, which was extremely promising to both of them...
What was the most precious and unique, was that it came so naturally, so freely, it wasn't forced or imposed by any of them. They both wanted this equally and they both quickly broke down intimacy barriers.
It started from Elsie's gesture one night, when instead of simply saying: "Good night Mr Carson", as she used to do it for years, she unexpectedly got closer to him on the sofa, during their Sherry evening and kissed him on the cheek, causing instant shivers down his spine and a feeling of warmth going through all of his body...
She kissed him very tenderly, which made his heart beat so much faster...
Her love for him was palpable and he felt that, with every fiber of his body, but there was something more than love, there was a hint of passion, of expectation. He noticed, that she didn't move away, after giving him that kiss and that her face was still near his, like she waited for this moment to be continued. She only needed some kind of a signal from him, that what she did was accepted by him and that he was not appalled, or outraged by her gesture.
After all, he was a great Charles Carson, a man for who rules of propriety meant much more, than anyone living under the roof of Downton, so Elsie's hesitation was understandable...
He quickly realized, that she wanted this to go on and he really didn't need any more encouragement to continue...He didn't have the courage to make such gesture first, he was already embarassed, that he kissed her so eagerly after her statement that: "If he wanted her, he could have her". He was fully aware, that she didn't have that kind of experiences and this was all new to her, he simply didn't want to frightened her.
Fortunately, she wasn't aware, that through the years of working with her, when he already had very deep feelings for her, his mind was playing all kind of different scenarios, not always the decent ones. Most of the time, they were rather not decent and very naughty.
She couldn't have known, that in his mind, they were kissing, touching each other and making love in various places of the Abbey, that sometimes, even when he was very tired after another exhausting day of work, he let his mind wonder to those forbidden areas, imagining, that she was naked, with her hair released, caught in the throes of passion with him, making moans and whispering naughty things into his ear...
Often, he scolded himself for those thoughts, but most of the time, he was happy to have them... He was even more happy, about his ability of hiding those feelings so well, that even in a million years, she would not guess, what was going on inside his head.
So now, when she was the one who initiated such moment, he gladly used it, to let her know, that he was as willing as she was, to be closer with her...He touched her face gently, looking in her eyes with love, love that filled her heart with indescribable joy...
His lips quickly landed on hers and their initially shy kiss, similar to the one that they had during the conversation, soon transferred into the one, that made them both dizzy, more dizzy that it could be expected, after little amount of alcohol, that they had this evening.
Charles put his hands in her waist and she was touching his face, letting his lips devour hers, more and more eagerly...She has never felt such a mixture of feelings in her life like now, she wanted this to never end and she completely lost all, usual self control...
It was like he had some kind of magic power over her, his touch and his kiss turned a strict housekeeper, in a woman who was like a clay in his hands. She didn't have many thoughts in her head in that moment, but her only thought was, that he could make her do anything now..Even if he wanted to undress her here and make her all his, withouth getting married, she would have let him.
She could never understand, how was it possible, that he had such a powerful efect on her...She went through most of her life, thinking, that those kind of feelings will never become her experience. How many times in her professional life, she was scolding maids, who got themselves into troubles, just because they let themselves feel, like she was feeling now?
If some of those situations happened now, she would probably react in a very different way, finally understanding what love and passion means...
Next days only brought more of those kind of experiences for both of them...Encouraged by this one evening, gradually, step by step, they let themselves feel freely in their own company...Neither of them was hesitating, when it came to showing their growing passion...
When Elsie was in her living room, in the middle of the day, cleaning her desk, Charles was unexpectedly visiting her, surprising her with a lazy kiss on the side of her neck, which made her tilt the head on the side, to give him better access...His lips marking his way from the top of her neck, towards her shoulder, caused, that she was tingling all over and again, she knew, that she would let him do anything...
He was standing behind her, her back was in close contact with his front and he felt her arising passion very distinctly...
Just like Elsie, he knew, that it wouldn't take much for him, to go further with this, to loose control...He was holding hands around her waist and he could barely stop himself, from touching her breasts...Squeezing them in his hands, like he always wanted to, like he always dreamed off...
If he felt a slight of resistance from her side, he would immediately stop, but it was quite the contrary... Her willingness made him bolder and bolder and when he heard hardly audible quiet moans, coming from her throat, he was dangerously close from losing control...
Most of the time, it was some noise coming from the closed doors, usual noise of downstairs, that made them both jump away and be blushed about what happened...
They didn't even talk to each other about it, they simply let themselves be lost in those moments and what was most important, they both wanted those moments to happen...Very much...It was undeniable...
Other time, when Charles was stressed about something and in a rather grumpy mood, Elsie visited him in his pantry, to give his some sweet treat-like biscuits or chocolate...Which was so nice and well received, although for real, Elsie was the sweetest treat, that he was waiting for the most...
She was feeding him like a child, waiting as he would enjoy what she brought him and he did it very quickly, because he knew, that once he will finish, she will give him a kiss, bold, sensual and deep kiss.. But what he did not expect, was that she will touch him, in a way that was far from decent.
Till now, she only limited herself to the top part of his body...She was touching his face, his neck, his shoulders and glided over his chest, but this afternoon, her hand started to wander around his thigh and he jerked violently, because he certainly didn't expect that...
His mind was giving him the most wild scenarios, when her hand was going towards the place, that he wanted to be touched, but he knew, that in spite of their bold caresses, she would probably not let herself go that far...But he liked to play with that idea...
He was so invested in his imagination, that he forgot the rules of propriety and his hand finally touched her breast, which caused that her breath got rapid and she whispered quietly: "Oh Charles..." Two simple words, which made his blood boil, as he understood, that she was really enjoying this and that she would probably made him do so much more...
The world ceased to exist for both of them and they would probably be willing to go on, but once again, the demands of the Abbey made them stop, when they heard Mrs Patmore's voice in the hall, asking where is Mr Carson.
Charles swore quietly: "Damn it!" He normally didn't use that kind of words and it made Elsie smile, when she understood, how disappointed he was, that their special moment was interrupted...
To console him, she got closer to him and whispered: "Don't worry Charles, we still have the whole evening to ourselves..."
That's all for today's chapter...As always, that was suppose to be a short chapter...I seem to fail to write short chapters, as the words are simply flowing and flowing...So, Charles is thinking about happy times and this is just part one, in chapter two, he will continue through the happy memory lane and then it will be Elsie's turn...Hope that you liked the first chapter and that you are willing to continue reading...Have a very good week. Thanks for reading.