I panted hard when I watched a black flamed danced on the palm on my right hand, my headache still lingering on my head, but I couldn't help but smirk when I finally able to summon the fire of hell itself. It was hard at first, but after a lot of training, I finally managed to summon it. The fire quickly disappeared when I clenched my fist, I opened my hand again and concentrated hard, the throbbing on my head got a bit worse, but I never pain any mind into it, when the same black fire started to appear and danced on the palm of my hand.

"Finally" I muttered to myself.

After the last event I decided to embrace the fact that hades blood ran through my vein and started to learn his power that I inherited from him, such as Geokinesis (I can control the earth and stone), Umbrakinesis (Control over shadow), Necromancy (Control over the dead), and Dark Infernal Pryokinesis (Control the fire of hell). I know it sound cool and all, but believe me, it wasn't good for my health to use it all at once. I still have some limitation for it, after all I'm still a mortal. And all those time when I trained myself, I almost drained all my energy just to master it quickly. The training itself it is not easy, Without teacher to teach me I have to learn my own power with a limited knowledge that I get from the book itself. The headache always a pain for me, the first time I try, the headache was so painful that I almost passed out. Eventually I managed to deal with the headache and begin to push my boundaries little by little. And I'm always careful so no one knew about his, I already promised Chiron to keep this power a secret from other camper.

I watched as the dark flame danced on the palm on my hand, the fire from hell itself. Its feel cold not hot like usual fire. Can I burned thing with this? Or what happened when I used it on enemies? I never try that before since all this time I'm just train myself to get used to using Hades power without passing out, because its not funny if I passed out in the middle of the battle.

I quickly dismissed the fire when I heard someone walked towards my direction, I glanced back and found Thalia with her spear on her hand. She gave me questioning looks, as if try to find a reason why am I still stayed up in the middle of the night.

"What are you doing in this hour?" she asked me.

"Same about you" I said back.

Thalia scanned me "I can't sleep" she answered honestly "So, I decided to have some practice, to calm my mind"

"Bad dream?" I asked and Thalia body stiffened a bit.

She glanced at me with her electric blue eyes "What are you doing in here?" she avoided my question.

"I can't sleep too" I answered "Need to burn some energy to make me tired"

"Reiner, I can see your eye bag" Thalia said and sighed "Stop lying"

I pursed my lips and look the other way "Well, sleeping in camp is quite different than sleeping in my own bed. It felt kinda lonely without my mother pestering me to wake up early, so I can go to scheel"

Thalia chuckled "Yeah, I get that. But, for me this camp is home. This is my home"

I looked at her briefly, if my memories correct she didn't have a good relationship with her mother and she ran away from home willingly. Unlike me, I was force to move away from my own home. I quickly shook that thought away, it didn't do me any good thinking like that.

Thalia let out a breath "Spar with me!"

I raised both my eyebrows "Excuse me?"

Thalia readied her spear "I said, spar with me!"

"Geez, so demanding. Just like your father" I muttered and tapped both of bracelet.

Thalia raised one of her eyebrow "Excuse me?"

I grinned and she narrowed her eyes "At least this one is cuter than the father" and Thalia blushed.

Thalia activated her shield and I groaned mentally because of it. Thalia shield had Medusa face on it, I never knew how Medusa got her face sculpted on that thing. Did she tripped herself and face planted on the thing, or somebody bashed a shield hard enough into Medusa face so it leave a mark on the shield. And honestly, the thing made me uncomfortable.

Thalia let out a battle cry as she charged at me, I quickly dodged the tip of her spear and swung my sword at her. My sword collided with her shield and created a spark when I slashed my sword downward, I spun around and used my other sword towards her neck. Thalia pulled her head back, narrowly missed my black sword, and used her shield to ram the blade of my sword upwards. I almost lost the grip on my sword, almost, I took a couple of step back and watched Thalia tried to regain her composure. She seemed a little surprised that I could fight with two swords effectively, didn't blame her though, she never spared with me nor saw me fight before. We only met for like 4 days before I had to come back to home and once when she emerged from the tree.

I almost grimaced at that thought, I can't go home anymore. Not until I sent Kronos back to Tartarus, my presence only put my mom in danger, since Luke seemed dedicated enough to make my life a living hell, by constantly sending monster to me. I snapped back to reality when Thalia charged back right at me again, I dodged her spear and raised both of my sword. I swung both of it quickly and it clashed with Thalia shield, created a loud 'CLANG' sound. Using that moment, Thalia brought her spear back and aiming for my leg. I quickly pulled my sword and moved my leg, Thalia spear missed my leg and hit the ground where my leg before. She let out an angry shout as she glared at me, furiously she pulled her spear back and glared at me heatedly. Maybe hating the fact that, I'm good at swordsmanship or maybe the fact that she can barely touched me. Thalia unconsciously channeled her power and made electric ran through her spear, my eyes went wide at this action. But, before I could warn her about it, I heard a loud thunderclap nearby me and the next thing I knew, I was on the ground, staring the night sky. I smelt ozone in the air and something burnt, I felt my chest hurt for some reason and my whole body went numb.

"Reiner!" Thalia called my name and I heard a rushed footstep came towards me.

I groaned loudly as I pushed myself up, I looked down and saw a rather big hole on my T shirt and the burn mark right in the middle of my chest. It's a miracle that I didn't die and only got the burn by this accident. I looked up and saw Thalia stopped not too far away from me, she looked guilty about her last attack on me. I grumbled as I pushed myself up and glared at her.

"I don't remember allow you to shot me with lightning like that?" I said in unamused tone.

You can't blame me for acting like that after all I just got struck by some random lightning bolt that Thalia created. And that's hurt like hell, luckily it missed my heart. Imagine if it struck me right in the heart! Thalia looked slightly taken aback, maybe because lack of my reaction after she shot me with lightning bolt like that.

"Sorry" she whispered.

"I love thunderstrom" I said and Thalia blinked "All fo those cool thunder but never once I thought that I would get struck by one and survive it"

"Well, um. I didn't use my full power?" Thalia said more like questioning why the hell am I still standing here not on the ground.

"Maybe us demigod is more durable than normal mortal" I shrugged "I mean we got flung around and we still keep fighting. Or maybe our plot armor is as thick as Annabeth encyclopedia"

Thalia snorted and giggled. I laughed and grimaced when the pain on my chest still there, a reminder that this girl almost killed me.

I turned both of my sword into bracelet and I raised my left hand. Maybe I can scare her a little, I thought, so she didn't do it again. I clenched my fist and a dark flame started to dance in front of Thalia shoe. She screamed and jumped back, eyes widened in disbelieved at the sight of black fire in front of her. I quickly made the fire vanished, and Thalia eyes slowly looking up on me.

"What the fuck are you doing?!" she screeched at me "And that fire is not normal!"

"A little pay back" I said in mischievous tone "So you didn't accidentally blast me with lightning bolt again"

"That fire!" she glared at me "I'm pretty sure, no normal Apollo kids could do something like that"

I only grinned at her "Who knew? Maybe I'm different"

Thalia stormed at me and grabbed a fistful of my front T-shirt "Just who the fuck are you?"

I calmly looked at her "Sorry can't tell you that. I already swore that I'll never told anyone about it"

"Black fire, back hair" Thalia muttered under her breath, then her eyes darted to my black bracelet on my wrist

After a few moments, she shoved me away from her "Are you Hades kid?! I recognized that black sword everywhere!"

"And what if I am?" I asked her.

Thalia shook her head rapidly "No, no. I can't be true! The only big three kid alive is me and Percy!"

You missed Bianca and Nico, I added mentally. Oh well, you are going to meet them soon anyway. I only looked at Thalia with blank expression as she paced around in front of me.

"Did Chiron knew?" she asked cautiously.

I only nodded and yawn "I'm sleepy. Can we continue about this tomorrow?"

She grabbed my arm "No! Not until I can sorted this out!"

I sent her disinterest look "What? I think it's already clear!"

"How earth two male gods can have a kid?!" she asked me.

I only stared at her "I don't know. Asked Chiron"

Thalia sent me disbelieved looks, and I only shrugged at her. There's no way I'm telling her that Hades somehow claimed that he owned my soul. It's too complicated and even I still struggling to find an answer for that. Hades could have blessed me, but then again if he blessed me, there's no way I can inherited his power this much. Also, I have looks that a mix between Hades and Apollo, and that couldn't have happened if they didn't….

I shook my head quickly and pushed that though away. And even IF, IF they able to have a child, wouldn't it make me a god or something? I gasped mentally at this new revelation. What if I'm actually a god?! Uh, never mind that. My blood is red, clearly red not gold or something different. It have been made clear when Luke almost bleed me to death. So it's clear. I'm still a human, well technically half of it.

I squinted my eyes at the sky that started to get bright every second, I sighed heavily at this. Another day without sleep, Chiron will noticed the dark circle under my eyes and my tired expression. I barely got any good sleep today, I mean with Kronos inside my mind and he kept taunting me while I'm asleep. I'm just afraid if Chiron knew about it, he will worried about it too much and he might be began to doubting me again.

"It's already morning" I said and stretched myself "I should get back before Lee noticed I'm gone"

"He never knew about this?" Thalia asked in bewilderment.

I only laughed a little "What do you think Lee will do if he learn that I also inherited Hades power?"

Thalia pursed her lips, I guess she knew about it. The feeling of being big three kids, the loneliness, the burden, the expectation and the fear. People will be more cautious around you if you are one of their kids, the prophecy that will surround you, and the dark uncertain future.

"Good morning Thalia" I said and began to walk towards Apollo cabin that began to shine under the sun rise "See you next time"

I only blinked and yawned as I looked at the whiteboard, the words seemed to float around and I had difficulty to read it. I pushed the book a bit away as I laid my head on my arm, I closed my eyes for a moment before someone poke me with a pen.

"Reiner"

I only grumbled as I swatted away the pen that kept poking me.

"Reiner, wake up!" this time the voice is a bit louder "The class is over"

I lifted my head a bit and saw Percy looked at me worriedly, I yawned again and stretched my arm. Sighed in relief when I heard a 'pop' sound came from my joint.

"You look like hell" Percy commented as I lazily put my things on my backpack

"Shut up" I grumbled "I always looked like this"

"No, I mean you looked like HELL" Percy said and poked my cheek sharply "Are you even sleeping at night?"

"Barely" I said and rubbed my eyes "Can't do it since I Kronos will always ruin it"

Percy frowned when he heard that "Are you okay? I heard that you moved to the camp and lived there"

I glanced at him as I opened my locker door "I'm fine Percy. A bit tired, but I'll manage"

"Did Chiron knew about this?" Percy asked.

I groaned as I slammed my locker door a bit louder, causing some commotion in the packed school hallway. Percy didn't even flinch when I did that, he probably used to it, since I'm always cranky when I sleep deprived like this. I turned and faced him, my jaw clenched as I glared at him.

"Chiron didn't need to know" I said and ran my hand through my hair "This is my own problem, I'm the one who reckless enough to let Kronos enter my mind and dream"

Percy jaw slacked open "Kronos is inside your mind? How I never heard of it?!" he grabbed my shoulder.

"Damn it!" I cursed out loud "My big mouth"

I pushed Percy a bit as I wanted to walk to my next class, but Percy decided that he had enough of it, he had enough of all of this. I always avoided his question and brought another topic if he began to ask about my problem with Kronos. Percy grabbed my arm and slammed my back into my own locker and luckily the hallway was deserted so nobody had to watch or listen to the stuff we about to talk.

"Percy" I growled "I'm not in the mood for this"

"Neither do I" he growled back "Why do you always pushed me away from it?"

"Because I don't want to involve you!" I shouted "This is beyond you Percy."

"I am your best friend!" he spat at me "We already go through some bad shit together! Doesn't that enough?"

"Do you even know who Kronos is?" I asked in low tone "He is capable of anything! He can drive you crazy just by invading your dream! I don't want you to get hurt!" I glared at him "Why don't you understand that?! I'm trying to protect you from Kronos influence!"

Percy pushed me harder against the locker "And I want to help you too! I want to protect you too dumbass! Stop fighting alone, I'm with you, no matter what I will always stay by your side. You are not alone Reiner, Annabeth, Grover, Chiron and me, we want to help. So, please let us in"

I lowered my head as I let Percy word sink in. I knew that I'm not alone, but the mere thought of Kronos hurt them is just….scared me. I scared that I'm not strong enough to protect them, I'm scared that they will die because I'm incapable of protecting them. It just…I'm afraid. I shook my head and I grabbed Percy arm. I gripped it tightly and could felt Percy flinching slightly because of it.

"I need sometime alone" I said slowly "Just, please. Leave me alone for now"

After that I pried Percy hand from my shoulder and I walked past by him quickly. I only could said sorry mentally when I caught disbelieve and hurt in Percy eyes. He probably thought that I didn't trust him enough, but that's not the problem. The problem is me, I'm the core of my problem.

Since that day, when I encounter Luke last summer. It changed me into who I am today, I became a bit distant with everyone I loved and began to train myself to the bone. I began to think that I should change the story line to save everyone that I love from death without thinking the consequences. But, can I do it? Because, that's just sound selfish to me.

At this time I realized that being a demigod isn't just laugh and kill some monster, or do some quest from the god. As I got older in here, I began to realize that…sometimes I had to take a drastic measure to save myself and everyone around me even if that's mean I have to dirty my hand. The question is, can I end a person life to save another person life? I didn't know if I can do that.

Why do you asked? Because in my previous life I spent my whole life to learn to save people life without taking other people life in order to do it.

I stopped walking and leaned on the wall while looked at the ceiling with sad look

"Am I a coward?" I muttered sadly while closing my eyes.