I was enjoying my weekend by basking in the sunlight in the beach, I felt myself relaxing under the sunlight. After all the things happened for the last weeks, I deserved a break. So, after breakfast I quickly headed to the beach and laid there. Before I close my eyes I heard footsteps and someone sat right beside me. I glanced at found Thalia sitting right next to me, she looked a bit distracted, and I could see bag under her eyes.
"Hey" she muttered weakly.
I quickly pushed myself from the sand and studied her carefully "Couldn't sleep?"
Thalia only nodded as she suppressed a yawn "Yeah, couldn't sleep when you have you father statue glaring at you when you tried to sleep"
I chuckled at her words, almost forgot that there was a giant statue of Zeus inside Thalia cabin.
"Still dreaming of Kronos?" I asked.
Thalia body stiffened after I mentioned Kronos "Hey, after lunch I want to spar with you again" she avoided my question.
"Thalia" I said her name slowly "Don't let him get into your head. He's trying to break you, slowly"
"Enough!" Thalia yelled "Just, don't. I don't want to talk about it"
I frowned at her "Well, Thalia. You are not the one that he bothered, Kronos also loved to visit and taunt me in my sleep. It bothered me a lot, then someone make me realize that I don't have to fight him alone and sometimes it's okay to relay on someone you trust." I turned and smiled at her "So, yes Thalia. You have to talk about it, to me or to anyone you trust the most"
"I don't know, I don't know if I can do that" she said quietly and I swore her tone breaking at the end of the sentences.
I turned only to see tears formed on the corner of her eyes, she furiously wiped it, she clearly didn't want to cry in front of me, whom she considered a rival. And I understand her condition even better now. Clearly being a daughter of the king of the god became a burden for her. A lot of camper looked up to her because of her father, and she couldn't look weak in front of them. Also the fact that she almost dying in the hand of the monster and her father transformed her into a tree. And then her sudden arrival into this world again after spend some time as a tree. To make thing worse, the great prophecy that said one of the big three kids will decided the fate of the world when they reached 16 years old. That means Thalia only get 2 years to decide on it, and that's why Kronos is so determined to break her and made her to join his side.
She tightened her fist as she looked at her lap, clearly she fought the tears that threatened to spill from her eyes. All of that burden and responsibility is too hard for her, I could see it. She just want to enjoy life as a normal girl, but instead she forced to face this. She didn't want to ask for help, because in people eyes she's a strong person. A person that managed to fend off a horde of monster while let her friends entered the camp safely, a person who managed to stay alive for a long time outside the camp where monster roamed free. A strong person because her father is Zeus, the god of the sky and lightning also the kings of the gods. She believed people wanted her to lead, she's believed people saw her as a strong and independent girl. But, beneath all of that, I saw a girl who wanted somebody to understand her sorrow and a shoulder to share her burden with, a girl who wanted to enjoy her life to the fullest without have to thinking monster and the gods.
I reached out and did one thing, I pulled her into a hug. She seemed surprised at first then she began to break down.
-Third Person POV-
Thalia felt her hear skipped a beat when Reiner suddenly pulled her into a hug. Reiner smelt like the sun and the ground itself, warm and comforting and Thalia could hear his steady heartbeat. Usually she hated it when someone had to comfort her aside from Luke. She never showed her weakness to anyone aside from people whom she really trust. She hated the fact that Reiner could read all her problem just like that, she hated it when she almost had a break down in front of him. For Thalia, Reiner is her rival, just like Percy. She wanted to be the best from both of them, to prove that she's strong because of herself, not because her father is Zeus. She wanted to earn the respect from the other camper because she deserved it, not because her father fame.
But, looks like Reiner able to see through it all and she hated it. She hated it when she looked Reiner in the eyes and she saw a lot of things inside those blue eyes. Reiner sometimes seemed older than he is and wiser, like an adult. Thalia gripped Reiner front shirt and could felt her tears finally fell down to her cheek and to the sand beneath them. Thalia oddly felt safe on Reiner arm, and she secretly loved the feelings. It remind her of Luke before he betrayed the camp, so kind and gentle.
"It's okay" she heard Reiner voice "I'm here you know. You don't have to fight alone"
Thalia buried her face deeper into his chest as Reiner patted her back gently. She really need to hear those words, encouraging words to remind her that she can fight this, to remind her that there will be place for her to turn to if everything went to south. A place where she can be herself without worrying about other people thinking. She never thought that Reiner could gave her that feeling, the guy that she struck with lightning almost daily, the guy that she sparred with daily, the guy that sometimes acted like a mature and smart guy then switch into an idiot in a blink of an eye. But, here she was, hugging her rival and cried her eyes out.
"I can help you" Reiner said and patted her head gently "You are not alone Thalia" then he chuckled lightly "We are basically buddies, since we have Kronos inside out dreams"
Thalia smiled on Reiner chest "You really are strange"
"Shut it" Reiner said in playful tone "Just enjoy my hug Pinecone Face, I rarely gave people a hug and you enjoy it right?"
Thalia blushed instantly and pushed Reiner away from her. She kinda missed his warmth and his scent. She glared at the boy who only smiled at her, his eyes twinkle with joy and happiness, and that sight alone enough to make Thalia cracked a smile.
"There, you're smiling now" Reiner said and stretched his arm upwards "Your pretty face is more suited for that kind of smile"
Thalia went even redder as she glared at Reiner "Stop being a flirt, Pretty boy"
Reiner only chuckled and shook his head while slowly pushed himself up "Whatever, so still want to spar with me?"
Thalia smiled once again and stood up "Fine. But…" she sharpened her glared and Reiner only raised his eyebrow at Thalia "Don't ever breathe a word about our little meeting, or a huge lightning bolt will strike you randomly"
"Whoa, threatening already" Reiner smirked as he pushed Thalia shoulder lightly "Fine, I won't tell a soul"
After that Reiner turned and walked in front of her towards the field where they always spar together. Thalia held her hand over her chest and felt that her heart still thump against her chest loudly.
"Damn, what's wrong with me?" she mumbled quietly and looked at Reiner back "Did I….did I fall for him?"
Thalia quickly slapped her cheek with both of her hand, no, maybe it's just the after effect of his hug. Thalia blushed again when she remembered the hug, the felt of Reiner arm and chest. And also the fact she felt safe when he hug her. She didn't notice that a certain goddess only watched everything with a glee.
The said goddess only swoon at the fact and she giggled again.
"Well, this is interesting." the goddess said while twirled her hair "I can't wait to see Zeus reaction to this. This will be perfect since Zeus didn't like Reiner. This will be very interesting, or maybe I could put more choices for him" a squeal escaped her perfect lips "Oh, that would be perfect!"
Reiner could only sneezed loudly in the distance, unaware that a certain goddess started to mess with his love life.
First Person POV
Am I even have the right to say all of those thing to her? I thought to myself as I stared at the cabin ceiling.
I closed my eyes as the memories of me hugging her resurfaces. She remind me of Clara, her spirit and her strength, almost everything in Thalia remind me of her. I turned to the left side as I smiled a little, when Clara first break down in front of me, I just hug her and reminded her that I will be on her side and help her overcome those feeling. I understood that feeling, when everybody relied on you and you didn't want to disappoint them by complaining, so you had to build this strong persona. But, in my case I have wonderful parent that remind me that it's okay to ask for help and sometimes it's okay to show your weakness to the people you trust the most.
Did that mean Thalia trusted me? I felt heat started to rush to my cheek. I quickly shook my head.
No, I told myself that. I couldn't fall for her, not like this. Not when I still saw Clara in her, it felt wrong and cruel. Maybe people will call me crazy for not able to move on from Clara, even when it's impossible for me to meet her again. But what can I say? She's my first love, she's the first girl that able to break my wall, managed to enter my heart and flipped my whole life upside down. She made my life more colorful and eventful.
And now I build that damn wall again, the one that Clara managed to break. But this time, it's even a bigger and taller wall. This time, I didn't want people to know what inside my heart, my true feeling. All my deepest and darkest thought, my hatred and my anger to my current condition. I didn't want to dump all of that to Thalia, I didn't want to hurt her or worse brought her down with me. Not here, not when I'm a demigod with unknown past, with Kronos already inhabiting my mind and with Luke wanted me to join Kronos army. Not when my fate is unknown to me and to the gods.
I have to push this feeling away, it's the only way I can keep Thalia safe from Kronos and me.
