Break My Heart - Dua Lipa
I've always been the one to say the first good bye
Had to love and lose a hundred million times
Had to get it wrong to know just what I like
Now I'm falling
You say my name like I have never heard before
I'm indecisive but this time I know for sure
I hope I'm not the only one who feels it all
Are you falling?
Centre of attention you know you can get whatever you want from me
Whenever you want it baby
It's you in my reflection
I'm afraid of all the things it could do to me
If I would have know it Baby
I would have stayed at home
Cause I was doing better alone
But when you said hello
I knew that was the end of it all
I should have stayed at home
Cuz now there ain't no letting you go
Am I falling in love with the one that could break my heart
Oh no, I was doing better alone
But when you said hello
I knew that was the end of it all
I should have stayed at home
Cuz now there ain't no letting you go
Am I falling in love with the one that could break my heart
I wonder when you go
If I stay on your mind
Two can play that game but you win me every time
Everyone before you was a waste of time
Yeah you got me.
Center of attention, you know you can get whatever you want from me
Whenever you want it baby
It's you in my relection
I'm afraid of all the things it could do to me
If I would've know it baby
I would have stayed at home
Cause I was doing better alone
But when you said hello
I knew that was the end of it all
I should have stayed at home
Cuz now there ain't no letting you go
Am I falling in love with the one that could break my heart
Oh no, I was doing better alone
But when you said hello
I knew that was the end of it all
I should have stayed at home
Cuz now there ain't no letting you go
Am I falling in love with the one that could break my heart
Ooh ooh ooh Break my heart
Ooh ooh ooh Break my heart
Ooh ooh ooh Am I falling in love with the one who could break my heart
I would have stayed at home
Cause I was doing better alone
But when you said hello
I knew that was the end of it all
I should have stayed at home
Cuz now there ain't no letting you go
Am I falling in love with the one that could break my heart
Oh no, I was doing better alone
But when you said hello
I knew that was the end of it all
I should have stayed at home
Cuz now there ain't no letting you go
Am I falling in love with the one that could break my heart
It seemed a lifetime ago since he had seen Penelope out in society. He missed her more than when he was abroad on his travels which seemed impossible. She never left his dreams which varied between repeating that kiss and his imagination venturing so much further.
So when he spotted her walking with her maid, he could not help but wonder if he was day dreaming about her now. But when she locked eyes with him, he knew she was the real thing. Especially when she ducked under the hanging branches of a willow tree leaving her maid standing guard.
When had Penelope Featherington become such a Siren? He followed her, half expecting her maid to block him, but was relieved when she didn't. "Good day." He had never felt so nervous around her before. It was as if he had never really noticed her before and now he was wondering how he could have been so stupid.
"Good day. It is good to see you." She seemed nervous as well. Did she regret their kiss? Had she not enjoyed it?
"Yes, it is … it is good to see you as well." He wasn't sure if he would ever get used to not seeing her in yellow. The colour she was wearing was much more becoming on her and brought the blue out in her eyes even more. "And I apologize for not coming to see you ... earlier." He would have camped out on her doorstep if it wouldn't have caused more trouble for her.
"Oh. It is for the better you did not." Did she not want to see him? He had spent hours staring out the window at the Featherington house trying to will her into appearing. Trying to think of any excuse that would justify him calling on her.
"Is it?" He had not been able to stop thinking of her. Only moments ago he had convinced himself he had day dreamed her up.
"Isn't it?" Perhaps he was overreacting. After all, she was still standing before him and not running at the sight of him.
"It is." He needed to calm down.
"Uh. We cannot continue our lessons." That would be a shame. It was the perfect excuse to see her.
"Oh. Uh, I agree. Yes." People knew he was helping her so why exactly did they need to stop the lessons?
"Good." Why didn't she look more reassured? If fact he had never seen her look so uncomfortable, not around him anyway.
"Hm. Uh, just so I am clear, what is your reasoning exactly? Is it because of what happened between us?" Hopefully not, because his dreams did not do justice to reality.
"No! N.. No um…" Thank God for that. "But I assure you, nothing of the kind will happen again." Not what he had hoped for.
"Of course." He should never have kissed her. "And I apologize for the …"
"No. I apologize for asking." It had taken such courage for her to ask him in the first place. He knew that. He even admired it.
"Please do not apologize." He could not forget their kiss and he definitely did not regret it.
"You apologized." It had seemed as though he should.
"Yes, but I … yes." Now they just seemed to be apologizing to each other for apologizing. "The lessons. You said they cannot continue."
"They cannot. Whistledown has written about us." What did that matter? "I have embarrassed myself and my family, and if we were to continue, I'd embarrass yours as well." Well, Whistledown hadn't written about their lessons. Just about him helping her try to find a husband. Details hadn't been provided.
Still, she had a point. "Yes. That is very … sensible." He didn't want to be sensible. He wanted to kiss her again.
"In fact, it may be best if we keep our distance for now." She was always trying to protect him, when it should be the other way around.
"Oh, of … of course." They had already been keeping their distance and it had been like losing a limb.
"I must become serious about my prospects." Prospects? Had Lord Remington called on her after all?
"Prospects are important." Especially if it meant he was to have competition for Penelope's attention. He did not want to share her affection or her friendship.
"Prospects which have gone from very little to even less, but I must do my best." So Lord Remington had not called on her. It felt cruel to feel so relieved by that.
"Yes. You must." He felt so tongue tied around her. Yet he hated to leave her so alone. But she had a quiet determination about her. "Well … Umm … I will go and leave you to it."
"Oh. I will go." Did it really matter which one of them left first?
"Uh, Penelope. I … I hope … Well, I … I wish very much for your happiness." He just wanted that happiness to be with him.
"Thank you. For all your kindness." It was hardly a hardship. "If I secure a proposal, it will be because of you." Her words were meant as gratitude, but as she walked away from him he felt as though he had been punched in the gut.
He wanted to be her only prospect. When had he started having such feelings for Penelope Featherington? When had he fallen in love with his friend?
