Demetrius's Perspective
After this rather pointless group session ends I immediately head towards the bar since Alastor couldn't have been bothered to let me start my first day bartending at the beginning of the week like most people do. It already sucked enough that I was exhausted and barely got any sleep last night because I was worried about Jessie. I was worried that she would have another nightmare or worse, that I would have one of my own nightmares. I let out a groan as I turned the corner and locked the bar door behind me. I notice Angel walking up to bar shortly after and quite honestly I really wasn't in the mood to entertain anyone.
"What the hell can I get ya?" I ask rolling my eyes and setting my phone on the counter. His eyes widened and awkwardly looked side to side, "oh wow,... customer service could use... a bit of work." 'Ugh for Lucifer's sake why won't you take a hint and go away?' I think to myself feeling myself getting agitated.
"Yeah, and your face could use a bit of work but I'm not over here judging." I say attempting to get a rise out of him. Judging by the looks of it, it works and I laugh and smirk. "Look here you little, shit! I don't know what your problem is but you need to lose that fucking attitude of yours before it gets your ass kicked."
I scoff at him before gulping down some alcohol, "pst... I'd love to see them try." Clearly wearing him down, Angel rolls his eyes at me and growls, "ugh... just make me an apple martini." I nod my head and turned around to make him the drink he asked for and set the finished product down in front of him. Clearly not trusting me he leaves the drink on the counter and looks at me nervously, "uhh,... You weren't by chance a serial killer in life were you?" 'The fuck?
The hell would I be a mass murderer for,... I'm not like Alastor... Am I?' I think to myself clearly bothered by that question. I try to sweep my feelings under the rug and my a smart ass remark, "bitch please, I had better things to do in my life." This seems to reassure him and he takes a sip from his drink. Judging by his expression he liked it which made me happy but I wasn't about to show him that.
"So what were you like when you were alive?" 'Ugh! And now we're back on jeopardy again.' I think to myself getting annoyed by his excessive talking. "I was like, 'nunya.'"
He looks at me with a confused expression, "nunya?" I smirk at him, "yeah, 'nunya,' as in none of your business." He rolls his eyes at me and I am thoroughly enjoying seeing him get flustered. It was definitely entertaining to me and was at least making the day pass by faster. "Look man, I'm just trying to make conversation with ya here.
Why are you being so closed off?" The truth of that question struck violently at my heart and got me triggered,"look. I don't know you or any of these other fucks here and to be quite frank, I don't want to get to know anyone else here so you might as well hang up the towel while you still can." Looking defeated he sighs rolling his eyes and placing a hand to his face. "Okay fine.
I won't ask anymore questions and I won't converse with you anymore but you should know that pushing people away,... it's just going to hurt you a lot more than it hurts anyone else." He sadly looks down into his drink, "I would know, I used to do that a lot." I drop my wings and flattened my ears down to my head. I actually felt bad until he quickly looked back at me and I instantly stand up straight and fix my whole demeanor. "pst... I don't feel pain. Pain and feelings are weak."
He lets out a heavy sigh of dismay and finishes up his drink before getting up to leave, "well, if that's what you truly think and how you feel then there's nothing I can do to change that. But..." He says pausing for a moment and looks at me, "you should know that no one here thinks feelings and pain are a sign of weakness,... but a source of strength." He then turns and walks away and I let out a heavy sigh and dropped my wings and flattened my ears across my head. I grab at the sides of my face in attempt to hide the tears that are pouring from my eyes like rain.
It was in that moment where I was really wishing that I could just disappear into nothingness. I knew I had to get away from this bar so I grabbed the card Alastor gave me to summon him if at anytime I needed him and telepathically called his name. He manifests in front of me, "you called, Daniel, my friend?" I roll my eyes, "it's Demetrius, not Daniel. Daniel was my father's name and I'm not alive anymore.
Second, I'm not your friend. You can't be friends with things that you own like real estate." He smiles widely, per usual, "okay, 'Demetrius' what is it you want?" I let out a sigh, "I just wanted to know if I could leave early and go to my room? I didn't sleep well last night and I feel like shit."
He raises an eyebrow, "has it been busy today?" I shake my head, "no not really. Just Angel showed up and that was it." Seeming satisfied with that answer he says, "well, then enjoy the rest of your day off." I thank him and then he disappears back into the shadows.
I locked everything up like he taught me and walk upstairs to my room. I get to the front of my room and unlock my bedroom door. Then I walk in and shut the door behind me and walk over to a corner in my room and curl up in a ball and cry. I hated it when I felt like this. I felt like I was out of control and even worse... vulnerable.
A few minutes later I hear a knock on the door and I wipe the tears from my eyes, "please go away. It's not a good time," I ask desperately which made me feel disgusted with myself. There was no answer on the other side of the door which had me sort of confused. I decide to get up and open the door to see if there was anyone on the other side. I opened the door and didn't see anyone but just when I was about to close the door I looked down and saw a dinner tray full of food and letter inside of an envelope.
I knew that I didn't order room service and yet, I was curious so I take the tray of food off of the floor and put it on the table in my room and walked back and shut the door. I took the letter off of the tray and walked over to my bed. I sat down and flipped over the envelope. I smile because I notice that it was from Jessie. I flip it back over again and open the envelope and pulled out the folded up letter.
It was folded up in a unique fashion and had a tab that said, "pull here." I pull on it and it opens up. As soon as I have it completely opened, a rush of sweet scent comes off the paper. It smells like... Candy. I involuntarily purr at the scent and instantly roll my eyes as soon as I realize what I'm doing.
'Stupid cat habits!' I think to myself before reading her letter:
'Hey D!'
I purr again at the pet name. 'Ugh! Is there an off switch for this?' I shake my head and go back to reading the letter:
'I just noticed that you weren't downstairs at dinner earlier and I got worried so I just thought I'd bring you up some food. In the Philippines, food is a very important resource that not many people don't have so I guess I grew up learning to appreciate not being in a situation where I have to go hungry.'
I start to feel a bit guilty for not answering the door when she was there earlier.
'I know that you're having a bad day though so I understand why you stayed up in your room. I have my bad days too but, I guess you already know that. Lol. Anyways, I was kind of wondering if maybe... idk if you'd like to grab a coffee with me sometime?'
I blush bright red at the last sentence and look across the room and I couldn't stop the smile that came up on my face, 'is she really asking me out on a date?'
I look down and continue reading:
"It's not a date or anything... Just a couple of friends grabbing coffee together."
I chuckle in response to that,
'I was just hoping... idk maybe we could get to know each other better? I don't really have any friends but I just thought it might be nice to have at least one. Anyways, let me know what you think. See you tomorrow.
Jessie Hart
AKA:Isabella Sparks (I figured since I already knew your human name from that incident at the bar that I would tell you my human name too. Now we're even!)'
I smiled and placed the letter up to my nose and smelled it again. Another involuntary purr escapes and place the letter under my pillow and fall asleep with a smile on my face.
