Mistrust Trust


Chapter One

When Everything Falls Apart

Twelve weeks ago everything was perfect. I had the perfect boyfriend, the best family a girl could ask for and a father who loved me. I was finally turning eighteen even though I wasn't looking forward to it. I'd warned Alice she didn't want a party however again Alice was Alice and my wishes had been ignored. As for Jasper, he didn't like seeing his mate upset therefore he had used his empathic ability against me so I had eventually agreed to the birthday party that Alice had arranged.

Everything had been going perfect, even Rosalie had been enjoying herself. Of course they'd spent money on me however I wasn't as upset about it as I thought I would be. Then in a split second of clumsiness on my part everything had changed. I'd started to open the gift from Edward and Alice when I sliced her my open causing a trickle of blood to drip down my finger. That's when everything started to become a blur, one minute I was standing next to Edward, and the next I was flying through the air toward the glass table which held the plates and cake.

Everything changed in that moment, Edward had become distant with me again. Just like he had after Tyler Crowley had almost killed me with his van. Alice and Jasper hadn't turned up for school, that in itself was strange, however at the time I had put it down to what had just happened. Jasper needed Alice and that had been why they hadn't been in school. Three days later however she found out exactly why Edward had become distant with me, he'd asked if he could come over. I'd jumped at the chance to see him, my birthday had been days ago and she hasn't seen or spoken to him since. Little did I know that he would just leave.

After all that had happened that night was nothing. Nothing had happened. So I fell down – that was the story of my life. Compared to last spring, it seemed especially unimportant. James had left me broken and nearly dead from loss of blood – and my Edward had handled those interminable weeks in the hospital much better than this. Was it because this time, the danger hadn't come from enemies but his own brother? Whatever the reason, it seemed pointless now. As much as I missed him, wanted his arms around me, he wouldn't want me after Jacob had violated her, his final words still rang in her ears constantly on a loop.

Flashback

"Bella we're leaving."

"Why now? Another year."

"Bella it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle can barely pass for thirty, and he's claiming thirty five now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."

"When you say we?"

"I mean my family and myself."

"Okay I'll come with you."

"You can't, Bella. Where we're going … it isn't the right place for you."

"Where you are is the right place for me."

"You're bot good for me, Bella."

"Don't be ridiculous. You're the very best part of my life."

"My world is nor for you."

"What happened with Jasper – that was nothing. Edward! Nothing!"

"You're euchre," he agreed. "It's exactitude what was to be expected."

"You promised! In Phoenix you promised you would stay."

"As long as it was best for you."

"No! This is about my soul isn't it? Carlisle fold me about that, and I don't care, Edward, I don't care! You can have my soul. I don't want it without you. It's yours already."

"Bella, I don't want you to come with me."

"You … don't … want … me."

"No."

"Well that changes things."

"Of course, I'll always love you… in a way. But what happened the other night made me realise that it's time for a change. Because I'm … tired of pretending to be something I'm not, Bella. I'm not human, I've let this go on much too long and I'm sorry about that."

"Don't … don't do this."

"You're not good for me Bella."

"If that's what you want."

He nodded.

"I would like for one favour though if that's not too much."

"Anything."

"Don't do anything reckless or stupid. Do you understand what I'm saying."

She nodded.

"I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you. Take care of yourself – for him."

"I will."

"And I'll make you a promise in return. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without anymore interference from me. It will be as if I never existed."

End Flashback

What a stupid thing to say. He could take away his gifts and remove my photographs, but he couldn't change how I felt. There was no moving on with my life, after he'd left I couldn't stay at Charlie's anymore there had been too many memories. That's how I had found myself outside The Cullen's house. Being surrounded by his belongings gave me comfort. However I didn't know how much longer I'd be able to stay and not go looking for him. I needed him now more than ever.

Flashback

LaPush

Edward had been gone over a week, Charlie was getting fed up I'd tiptoeing around her. I knew I was being unreasonable to him; I was hurting him more than I was hurting herself. He watched me go from a happy girl to a walking zombie. I decided that I at least needed to try and act normal even if it meant being half a person.

Jake had been my best friend since they were babies. I'd always trusted him, he was the sun in her gloomy existence. However there was one thing I'd never expected him to do and that was to do the unthinkable and betray their friendship in the worst imaginable way. I'd gone down to LaPush on a spur of the moment. Needing to get away from Charlie and his constant nagging at me to pull herself together and get over Edward. Easier said than done when he was the one I was meant to be with. I thought at least at LaPush I'd have some with with Jake. How wrong I had been.

I thought something was off the minute I walked through the door and Billy wheeled himself out without looking at her. Jake sat down as they started to watch a movie on tv, he knew all of my favourite movies, especially Romeo and Juliet. I thought it was strange he had chosen the one movie that would me of Edward the most. It felt like he was trying to rub the fact that Edward had walked away from me in my face, despite the pain that was threatening to overtake me again, I sat through the movie, noticing how Jake's arm stated to get further and further around me, so I tensed.

"Jake please stop I don't like you that way." The tears had started to overflow as my best friend suddenly turned.

"You never should have trusted the bloodsucker, I knew he'd leave you like this. He wasn't good for you, you belong to me and you always will." Jacob snarled

I started to pull away, my heart pounding hard in my chest I'd recently heard from Emmett about how Rosalie had been raped and beaten by her former fiancé leaving her to die. Looking into Jacob's eyes I saw the same danger that radiated off him. Grabbing my cell, hands shaking I started to dial Alice's number, of course Jake was quicker, taking the cell from my hands and crushing it. My lifeline gone; I was going to die here. I'd never get the chance to see Edward's face again, my mate.

I closed her my biting hard on my lip wanting it to all be over. I could feel Jacob's warm breath on my face knowing he was now leaning on top of me. Glancing down I shuddered realising that I was completely naked, the sick feeling in my stomach returned as it dawned on me what he had planned. The evil glare apparent on his face as he stripped naked.

"You're never going to see your previous Cullens again Bella or your precious Edward. No one will want you after I've made you mine." I cowered away from him, my first time was meant to be special, I was meant to give myself to Edward. I couldn't watch what I knew he was going to do.

Turning my head I felt the disgusting mutt entering my body roughly. I fought and punched trying to get myself free, the more I fought the harder he seemed to thrust inside me. I could feel the pressure and the pain as he gyrated into me. All I could do was think of Edward and whether he would even want me after he knew what Jacob had done. My body was sore by the time he had ejaculated inside me.

Once it was over and I could feel him pull out of me all I wanted to do was get washed. I looked at Jacob and couldn't believe what had that happened. I wouldn't have believed it if I hadn't been on the receiving end. I couldn't stay there a minute longer, I ran and ran until I reached Charlie's I didn't care that I'd left the truck at LaPush, it could stay there for all she cared. When I found Alice I knew that she would buy another car. I didn't want any reminders of Jacob Black. Charlie seemed shocked to see me back so soon. I ignored him and stormed upstairs pulling off my clothes and bagging them up, gathering all the details together that I could, including my bagged up clothes. Charlie couldn't know but maybe Carlisle could. If I could find them.

End Flashback


Grabbing the house phone from I looked through the phone book until I came across the name Cullen. How many Cullens could there be it had to be them. She certainly couldn't stay in Forks now. Dialling the number I waited for someone to answer hoping that I had the correct number, as I waited I was suddenly hit with everything Edward had said to her when they were having lunch in the cafeteria. He'd said it was what was best did me he could make himself leave to protect me. How could she forget that? Suddenly everything was slotting into place. This was never about him not loving me, he took himself away from me to keep me safe. But it didn't worked.. I'd been hurt anyway. I was brought out of my thoughts by Alice's voice. My heart was pounding so hard in my chest it felt like it was going burst out.

"Bella are you there?" Alice's voice calmed my erratic breathing.

"Im here, I'm so sorry I know he doesn't want you to talk to me." I said quietly the emotion clear in my voice. I felt sick with nerves which didn't help the recent arrival of morning sickness.

"It's not up to him who I talk to." Alice said firmly.

"I need your help. He thought he was helping me but he wasn't. All leaving sis was make everything worse." I said softly tears filling my eyes as I prepared to tell my sister that I'd been raped. I knew I was speaking too fast for even a vampire to hear.

"Slow down Bella. What happened?" Alice feared what she was about to be told but she trusted her sister and would help her no matter what her brother said.

"I … … I went to LaPush to see Jake. You remember me talking about him right?" I began trying to keep my voice from cracking.

"The Quiluete Elder's son. Carlisle told us about their treaty." Alice confirmed somehow she knew it was about to get worse. "Is that why I couldn't see you."

"Possibly they shift quickly, the visit didn't exactly go the way that I expected it to."I said quietly hearing Rosalie whispering to her sister even with my human ears. "Jacob raped me." Saying the words out loud made my heart ache all over again.

"He did what?! Where are you? I'm coming to get you." Alice asked thinking through everything she'd need.

"Alice there's more." I said softly thankful Rosalie was there too. But I was still scared Edward wouldn't want me.

"How much more could there be?" Alice asked unsure she was prepared for the answer.

"He didn't use anything, I'm three months pregnant. I need you Ali. I need him. Please." I said quietly the tears freely falling as I heard Rosalie snarl.

"Calm down Bella, we and coming to get you. Can you get away from your father." Rosalie asked letting Bella know that she was on her side. Her brother would thank them later.

"Im not staying with Charlie, all he goes on about is me seeing Jacob. I've been staying at your house. I'm in our room." I said softly laying a hand over my belly as it churned.

"We will be there as soon as we can." Alice promised.

I breathed a sigh of relief hearing Alice say she would bring me to Edward. She couldn't stay in Forks anymore, not after Jacob's actions though she knew at some point they might have to return to deal with his punishment. "Thank you Alice, please don't tell Edward I want to tell him myself."

"He's out hunting with Carlisle I'll make sure he is here for when we return." Alice reassured her sister giving Emmett and Jasper a task of keeping their brother calm enough to not rush off to his bedroom the moment he got back.

"I know better than to bet against you Alice." I said softly chuckling.

"See you soon Bella." Alice promised.

"See you soon Alice. Bye." I whispered tears freely falling as I let out a shuddering breath.

"Bye Bella." Alice said softly already grabbing the car keys to Rosalie's car as Rosalie followed her. Alice looked toward her sister smiling. Bella finally had her sisters' support.

By the time I'd hung up I had completely given up on trying to stop the tears. I knew Sam would keep Jacob away from me long enough for me to escape. I was scared about his actions after he discovered I'd left, not wanting my former friend to take out his frustration on Charlie or Billy. Resting my hand on my now swollen belly I felt the baby moving around inside me. I knew Edward would love this baby because it was a part of his soulmate. Despite being three months pregnant morning sickness was still ever present. Looking down at the hand resting in my belly I noticed that my usually pale skin tone was now more tanned. The same as the Quiluetes. With my heart beating quickly in my chest I rushed into the bedroom pulling out information my mother had given me on her family tree. It had been one of my last projects at school before I'd moved here. Going down the list of names I froze seeing Renee's name frowning as it stated my father as Harry Clearwater. I was a few years younger than Leah which must have meant. No.

If I had their gene inside me why hadn't it kicked in when Jacob raped me, unless it hadn't become known yet. Oh this was going to go down like a lead balloon when some of the Cullens found out, hopefully her tentative new relationship with Rosalie wouldn't be affected. Moving to Edward's wardrobe I pulled on one of his shirts that I had swiped a few months prior sliding it over my head as it nestled against my baby bump, my suitcase lay on his bed ready to leave, in fact I'd never unpacked.

Half an hour after my phone call to Alice, I heard a car pull up outside. Looking out of Edward's bedroom window the relief flooded through me when I saw Rosalie's BMW. With the new revelations I knew I had to leave quickly, if the pack found out about my heritage they would made me stay and I wouldn't be around Jacob any longer, I'd taken my suitcase and the boxes I'd collected from Charlie's downstairs by the door. A moment later the door banged open and Alice quickly pulled me into a hug, I saw Rosalie standing awkwardly in the doorway. Pulling myself away from Alice I made my way to Rosalie wrapping my arms around her waist, leaning against her should as I sobbed. As much as Alice made me smile only Rosalie could understand what I'd been through. Hopefully she wouldn't be able to tell that my body was a different temperature I'd always been hotter to them anyway.

"Everything will be okay I promise. You're safe now." Rosalie soothed rubbing my back gently.

"I've been so scared. I'd have tried to call sooner but I didn't know if I would be welcome." I said quietly the new revelation of my heritage and parentage still going through my mind.

"Why would you think that?" Rosalie asked looking at me curiously, nose wrinkling as she was hit with a new scent.

"Because Edward said he didn't want me anymore. Can't say I blame him. Who would want me anyway?" I said quietly the emotion clear in my voice.

"I know someone would does. Bella, I know we haven't always gotten along, but the last three months, watching Edward decline and close in on himself I'd have given anything to see him smile again. You're his mate, he needs you just as much as you need him. And he will love this baby like his own. There's something else?" Rosalie tried to reassure me.

"I gave up after he left, everything was pointless. Then Jacob raped me and I fell apart; it was when I found out I was pregnant I knew I needed Edward, more than I needed to keep Charlie happy. My insecurities got the better of me and I forgot that he once said he would leave to protect me." I began looking between my sisters before holding out my mothers family tree. "Just before you turned up I discovered this, apparently my mother and Harry were together after he married Sue and she married Charlie. Im part quiluette another reason to leave quickly, if Jacob finds out before I can he'll take over as true alpha and keep me here through force."

"Some things happen for a reason, my stupid brother realises now that he could never be parted from you and never to question your feelings and love for him again." Rosalie said softly noticing I was a little calmer taking the family tree. "And this is the first you're hearing of it?

"I used it as part of an end of year project in Phoenix, I didn't look at it I just had to bring it in. But if my father is a Quiluete Elder it means I have the gene. Hopefully I don't go through the usual changes until after the baby comes." I said quietly looking between Alice and Rosalie. "Let's go before they turn up we can discuss it with your family p."

"Our family Bella, they're yours as well." Alice said coming to wrap her arms around my waist. "I believe that you my dear sister have imprinted on my brother. Oh this is going to be a fun family meeting."

Smiling at Alice softly I allowed Rosalie to lead me from Edward's bedroom, noticing whilst Rosalie and I had been talking my pixie sister had packed everything into the trunk of Rosalie's car, sliding into the passenger side I prepared myself for the reunion with my everlasting love. Resting my head back against the headrest I thought of Edward and being in his arms again.

For the first time in nearly four months I felt hope, with Rosalie's reassurance I no longer believed that Edward didn't love me, I was going home. Whenever he was was my home and always would be no matter how much people tried to change that. Looking down at my skin again I sighed softly, hoping that Jasper and Emmett would listen before trying to protect. After all I likely smelt different to everyone and I hadn't phased yet. Being mated to a vampire would change that.


I always knew The Cullens were fast drivers, I'd spent enough time as a passenger in Edward's Volvo to realise that however I hadn't expected Rosalie to beat Edward at speeding. By the time we arrived in Chicago my heart began pounding again, this wasn't just a city. This was where my Edward had grown up, tears filled my eyes as I realised I'd get to see a part of his childhood I just hoped that the Denali sisters didn't turn up. Becoming more durable slowly I would tear her apart when I could if she tried anything.

Suddenly familiar arms wrapped around my waist; I knew these arms. These arms were home. Breathing deeply I somehow manages to gain control of my emotions, not wanting to hurt my Edward or the baby if I got overwhelmed, of course it was possible Jasper was helping either way I felt my thoughts calm down. Gazing up I looked straight into those golden eyes that had captured my heart from day one, my breath hitching as I rediscovered his features. Reaching up I began to trace my hand down his face, stopping at his cheek, smiling as he leaned into it. Inching forward I leaned in to kiss him pushing all of my love into it as my heart pounded in my chest.

"I missed you." I whispered softly not willing to stop looking at my love.

"I missed you too, love. Can you ever forgive me?" Edward asked pain clear in his eyes as he held me closer. His nose wrinkled. "What's that smell?"

"There's nothing to forgive. I know you left to protect me. But there's something that I just discovered which changes a lot. Like the reason why I smell like wet dog." Bella chuckled knowing that was how the shapeshifters must smell.

"How did you? How could you forgive?" Edward asked looking confused.

"Firstly, Charlie isn't my father according to my mother's family tree my father is listed as Harry Clearwater. Leah is two years older than me and she's just about to phase, I've felt a few odd changes but I just put it down to my pregnancy. I'm your vampire mate and in return I've imprinted on you. That's the Quiluete version of mates." I explained looking down and finding the hem of Edward's shirt interesting. "I remembered you saying that you would leave to protect me. But don't you see my feelings matched yours just in a different way."

"That would explain a lot, why Renee ran away all those years ago. Though it is likely she didn't know I would ever find out. Im not quite sure if she knows about vampires and shapeshifters but if she doesn't I'd like to keep it that way. Charlie and Billy are best friends I look different, my hair is darker, my skin tone is tanned. He will have questions."

"Carlisle what do you think?" Edward asked his father.

"Bella is right Charlie will need to know, in order to do that we need permission from Sam. Does he know what Jacob did?" Carlisle asked coming to his soon to be daughter's side and beginning a check on the baby.

"He does he and Emily saw me running out of Jacob's house. Sam agreed to keep the baby a secret until I managed to find you. I don't think any of them know I'm a shifter though." I sighed softly looking at my love. "I'm yours always, my imprint. I was so scared you wouldn't want me."

"Why wouldn't I want you my Bella?" Edward asked as he spectacularly dazzled me once more.

"I'm not me anymore, Jacob took that away." I whispered knowing my imprint could hear me perfectly.

"You'll always be my Bella. This baby, this miracle is a blessing, he or she is a part of you. I get to be a father." Edward explained holding me close.

"I was so scared. I love you Edward Cullen." I said quietly knowing the rest of our family could hear anyway. So we are in Chicago, does that mean that she isn't here?"

"I love you too, love." Edward said softly breathing his heavenly scent against my heated skin. "Tanya and her family are still very much in Alaska, I didn't want to be around her, especially not here."

"Take me inside, please." I whispered not taking my eyes away from Edward's golden ones.

"Your wish is Isabella." Edward whispered carrying me inside. Even three months pregnant he lifted me as if I didn't weigh anything.

Before I could process where we were going, I found myself in Edward's new bedroom. Everything looked just like it had done in Forks, apart from the fact the furniture was clearly from the 1900s, it was absolutely perfect. As my imprint neared the bed I clung onto his shirt for dear life unwilling to be away from him. His hand gently caressed my arm, instantly calming me. Looking into his eyes, I knew he understood my fears without me voicing it.

Burying my head against his chest, finally letting my emotions out. It wasn't long before Edward curled up on the bed with me in his arms slotting my head into the crook of his neck. I could reek my tears soaking through the thin material on Edward's shirt.

"I… …I'd like to tell you what happened." I said softly smiling slightly. "Rosalie helped me realise I was ready."

"As long as you're sure." Edward held me tightly, making sure he didn't jostle my stomach.

"Alice and Rosalie know, though I don't want everyone else to know the details. I found out the reason you weren't able to hear my thoughts." I admitted quietly.

"How did you find that out?" Edward asked truly curious now. He would give anything to here my thoughts.

"When Alice and Rosalie pulled up, I froze because I was scared of how you would react to the baby. I had a shield around my mind, although now that I'm going to be not so human myself that might change." I whispered. "I would like to test the theory before I show you what happened."

"Oh Bella this is one of the best gifts I could ever receive after you and this baby. I've wanted to hear your thoughts for a very long time now." Edward whispered looking at his mate.

I love you.

Edward's eyes widened as he heard my thoughts, clearly I was correct and my recent subtle changes had altered my ability. Though now I didn't want him to not be able to hear either. "I heard you." Edward said quietly his voice filled with emotion.

"You'd been gone just over a week; Charlie was getting frustrated with me, tiptoeing around like I would break. I knew I was being unreasonable to him I was hurting him more by not opening up to him. He'd watched me go from someone happy and in love to a walking zombie. I made the decision that I needed to at least try and act more normal. I owed Charlie that much, I also owed it to you. At the time I thought you'd given up on me but I needed to at least be nirvana fir the ones around me even if it meant being hard a person."

Jacob had been my best friend since we were babies. I'd always trusted him, during those first few months he was the sun in my gloomy existence. However there was one thing I never expected him to do. He betrayed our friendship in the worst way possible. Going down to LaPush had been a regular occurrence, it was a spur of the moment decision to make a visit that day, the moment I said I was going to see Jacob Charlie stopped fussing. Little did he know what was going to happen next, although I still haven't told him but I have my clothes from that night in a sealed bag. He couldn't understand that it wasn't a matter of dating someone else, there is and never will be anyone else for me. You're my imprint when we imprint it's like gravity holds us to the world. I thought LaPush would be safe. I was very wrong.

I could sense something was wrong the second I walked through the door, Billy wheeled himself outside without looking at me. He'd never done that before, asking me if I wanted to watch a movie I agreed thinking it would be something entertaining. Of course it was for him, he decided to put Romeo and Juliet on. He knew that was the one movie that we watched together, the more I got upset by the movie; the happier he became. The pain was overpowering again as he made me endure that movie. Suddenly he started inching his arm around me and that's when I tensed up. No one was meant to touch me that way but Edward.

"Jake please stop I don't like you that way." I begged him to let me leave.

The tears began to fall as I realised my best friend had turned into someone I didn't recognise anymore. "You never should have trusted the bloodsucker; I knew he'd leave you the way he has. He wasn't good for you, you belong to me and you always will." Jacob snarled.

I couldn't believe the words that were coming out of Jacob's mouth, I began to pull away my heart pounding hard in my chest having spoken to Emmett about the rape and beating Rosalie had ensured before Carlisle changed her; by her former fiancé. Terror seeping through every part of my body I forced myself to look at Jacob seeing the anger and danger radiating off him. Grabbing my cell, hands shaking I started to dial Alice's number, whimpering in fear as Jacob forced the cell out of my hands crushing it to dust. My lifeline was gone; I was going to die. I was never going to have the change to see Edward again. My mate.

Closing my eyes I bit down hard on my lip wanting it all to be over. I could feel his warm breath against my fade making me shudder with fear as he began to climb on top of me. It was then that I realised he had completely undressed me, the sickening feeling in my stomach as I realised what he had planned in doing. He was naked from the waist down. Pure evil was etched on his face.

"You're never going to see your precious Cullens again Bella. Or your precious Edward. No one will want you after I've made you mine." Jacob taunted in my ear.

"My first time was meant to be special, I was meant to give myself to you. I couldn't believe that Billy knew what he was going to do and let it happen." I said quietly cuddling closer to Edward.

Feeling Jacob push himself into my entrance I began to fight and punch harder to get free. But with his strength I knew it was not possible. The pain was unbearable as he moved inside me, believing that I was enjoying it. By the time he ejaculated my body was sore, I was bruised. All I wanted to do was get washed but I knew I needed the evidence, it's pushed in the side pocket of my suitcase. The second he moved away from me I bolted, I didn't even take the truck I made a beeline for Charlie's.

"After that I moved out and started living at your house. I didn't feel safe anywhere else especially not when Charlie was always asking Billy and Jacob to the house." I whispered softly unable to face showing him anymore.

Looking into Edward's eyes I was frightened if the emotion I would see in his eyes. However when I saw his eyes, all I saw was pain and sadness. Grimacing as a wave of nausea washed over me, I took his hand gently placing it against my swollen belly, settling my head against his chest, seeing love and devotion for the little life inside me. That one look reassured me that everything was going to be okay.

"You've been through so much. I won't let Jacob or anyone else hurt you ever again." Edward promised holding me close.

"I am always safe in your arms." I whispered softly tilting my head as I looked at the door not hearing any movement downstairs, "Where is everyone?"

"Subtly giving us space, they're hunting." Edward explained. "Are you feeling okay?"

"Just a little nauseous, my morning sickness comes in waves rather than every day now. When they get home I need to talk to Jasper." I said quietly resting my head against his chest.

"I will be by your side throughout, whether we stay here or return to Forks. If you have those clothes from that night it's possible we can tell Charlie." Edward brushed a strand of hair behind my ear. "Jasper would appreciate talking to you, I know he still blames himself. No matter what any of us tell him."

"I know I need to tell Charlie but I'm scared that Jacob will manipulate him into believing him. And when I shift for the first time I don't want to be forced around the man who raped me." I explained reaching up to kiss Edward gently. "I've never blamed him, it's not his fault he was affected by everyone's thirst."

"Say that again." Edward asked looking at me in awe.

"Jasper was affected by everyone's thirst that day, mostly likely yours more than anyone else's since my blood calls to you the most. Now we're together again it's a fresh start. Just promise to talk to me when something is on your mind, instead of deciding for me." I said softly.

"I promise to talk to you first. We've done it my way and it doesn't work." Edward promised his voice filled with emotion. "I believe your theory is correct. Why didn't any of us think of it."

"I'll talk to him in the morning. Right now all I want to do is be held by you and hum my lullaby as I sleep I have always slept better when I'm in your arms." I took a deep breath I was unsure whether meeting their Denali cousins was a good idea but I needed Tanya to know that Edward was mine. "Perhaps you can invite Carmen and Eleazar here, I am not going to let Tanya think she has a chance with you anymore."

"I'm sure I can arrange that. I'll ask them to leave Tanya at home." Edward agreed kissing the top of my head.

Snuggling closer to Edward I moved my head so it was resting against his stomach closing my eyes. The minute I heard him begin to him my lullaby I started to drift off into a deep sleep. For the first time in months I slept without any nightmares. I finally felt whole again.