ok ok so

edward had CHEATED on meh!

i am

ugmm

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I was engulfed, enshrouded, entombed by the deepest lairs of abject depression and sorrow.

Never again would I know the gentle warmth of his soft love, the only love that had ever truly seen me for me and accepted every fiber of the individual that was I.

A crushing dagger that was the knowledge I was meant to be alone forever sharply pierced through my soul, decimating my heart strings into a mass of disorganized fray, worthless and weak.

Underneath the anchoring weight of a million worlds of pain, I lugged the husk of myself to the bathroom mirror.

A face underscored by pure lonely agony stared back.

I sat and watched as a fist I recognized as once mine impulsively lashed out striking the mirror.

Glass soon littered the floor as I stood there, cradling my now bloody fist.

The pain faded into a feeling of power, agency, strength, and anger.

I reached for my iPhone and navigated through the App Store

I realized what I had to do.

I had to download Tinder.