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Chapter 5

Hunt – 'Sex Talk' Number Two


Edward


I lay with a blissful smile on my face behind my peacefully slumbering Bella, whom I still held in my arms.

She felt so warm and soft, her tender skin under my hands ... that I never wanted to let go of her again. I didn't know when or if I had ever acted as silly and childish as I had just now ... It was incredibly liberating! This is what a drug rush must have felt like. Everything so light and carefree. No worries and tormenting thoughts ...

I wallowed away ...

Lost in thought, my fingers stroked her belly ...

Something was different. So rough and cold. Oh no. She had goose bumps and was already shivering slightly. I could kick myself in the butt. How could I have been so careless!?

I carefully detached myself from her, wrapped her tightly in her blanket and lay down next to her.

Reality had already caught up with me. I really had to think of something because of the cold. I didn't want her to get sick before the wedding. Would it be too conspicuous to turn on the heat in the middle of summer...? Why was everything always getting more complicated...?

That's when my egoistic voice spoke up again.

She had been right from the beginning. We could only really be together as vampires. It would all be so much easier. An ever-growing part of me could hardly wait to finally touch her without restraint and fear the way she wanted and the way I wanted ...

Ahh ...! It was enough to make my hair stand on end. I was not allowed to think like that! Her life, her soul for a little togetherness! What a miserable creature I had degenerated into?! But she wanted it, I had already agreed ... So, why wait unnecessarily long?

A war raged inside me ...

... is awake? ... talk to her? ...

Charlie's indistinct but very close thoughts snapped me out of my inner struggle.

Shit ... I hadn't even noticed that it was already light.

He stood indecisively just outside the door.

I jumped up and hid behind it.

That's when my eyes fell on my shirt and shoes scattered around the room on the floor.

I dashed off to collect them when there was a soft knock. At the last moment I made it under the bed with my clothes.

Then the door opened a crack.

"Bella?" he whispered.

She did not move.

The door closed again, and his footsteps moved away.

I exhaled - and had to suppress a hysterical fit of laughter.

How cliché - and undignified! The vampire under the bed ... My God. If Emmett knew about this, he'd laugh his head off.

I crawled out again, knocked the dust off my pants, and slipped into my T-shirt.

Then I lay down next to Bella again and, resting my head on one hand, looked at her peaceful face ...

How beautiful she was!

The vibrating of my cell phone disturbed my contemplation.

Alice.

I answered.

"What's up so early in the morning?"

"What's up? Edward, I'll be right over. Wake her up already! Can't you be counted on at all anymore?!"

Since the wedding preparations she was slightly stressed.

"All right, all right. Calm down. It's just a shopping trip! Are the stores even open this early? Half an hour later won't kill you!"

"Ha ha ... Very funny. This is about your wedding!"

"Yes, I know. But it's also about my future wife." My God, how that sounded. "Without her, there is also no wedding!"

"I'm certainly not going to kill her! I'll take care of her. Don't worry about it."

I sighed.

I should not worry about BELLA?!

"You don't have an easier task for me?"

She chuckled.

"Yes, you can. Wake her up and make her breakfast! ... Oh, by the way, do you know what she wants from me?"

"What do you mean?"

"The night before last I had a short vision that she wants to ask me something ... Since then I've been dying to find out what it is ... And yesterday ... well, she wasn't in such a good mood ..."

I thought about it for a moment.

"Um ... no. I don't know."

"Well, I'll figure it out. See you in a bit."

And away she went.

I put the phone down and gently stroked Bella's cheek.

"Bella, wake up!"

She grumbled softly in her sleep and wanted to turn away.

I held her tightly and kissed her gently on the lips.

Eyes still closed, she smiled.

"Hmm ... another one."

I was only too happy to comply with the request.

"Whirlwind Alice is almost here."

Her smile died.

"Oh no." She blinked at me. "That late already?"

"Seven-thirty."

She opened her eyes and inspected me. An amused grin spread across her face.

"What happened to you?"

"Huh ...? Why?" I asked, irritated.

She picked a dust ball out of my hair and held it out to me.

"Where have you been?"

That's when the corner of my mouth pulled up on its own.

"Under your bed! Charlie looked in for a moment earlier!"

"Seriously?"

I nodded and then she exploded with laughter.

"I guess there was no more room in the closet?"

We laughed together until Alice stood in front of us. Hands on hips and tapping foot.

"You've done a good job of that, Edward! Even the easiest tasks seem to be overwhelming you at the moment? What's so funny anyway?"

Bella sat up, startled, but quickly calmed down when she recognized Alice.

"My lover was hiding from my father under my bed!", she explained still chuckling silly.

Even my sister couldn't keep her angry expression.

"Aha ...! Lover ...! So that's how far we've come?", meanwhile, however, grabbed Bella by the wrist and pulled her out of bed. "Out now! We have a lot of things to do."

I held her for a moment to give her another kiss before Alice could take her into the bathroom.

"See you tonight! I'm leaving too - obviously I have nothing to say here anymore."

I winked at the two of them.

"See you then!", she sighed humbly.


At home, my brothers eagerly awaited me to escape Esmé's orders for the wedding preparations.

"Finally!", Emmett greeted me. "Where should we go? By Jeep or on foot?"

"Let's run!"

In doing so, I was at least in my element and hopefully not as self-conscious as I was in Carlisle's office.

We ran off, across the river, into the forest, towards the mountains.

Jasper and Emmett were joking around hilariously.

And I was getting more nervous by the minute.

What exactly did I want to ask them again?

At some point I noticed that the two of them were right next to me, eyeing me.

"Wow ... that took a long time ... where have you been with your thoughts?" '... probably still in bed with Bella?'

Emmett wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.

Why did I suddenly feel the urgent need to punch him in the face? Why was I here again? How could I even presume to have a serious conversation with him? Crap. Theoretically, he was even right ...

'Edward, what's wrong? Your tension is almost unbearable!', Jasper registered, and I briefly looked at his worried face.

And then into Emmett's fat grin.

I glared at him.

Okay. Flight forward.

"Good, then talk to me about sex!"

Emmett snapped his eyes open, stared at me, and crashed into a tree. The trunk splintered and the top half toppled over.

Emmett stood five meters away as if nothing had happened. Only his clothes had not survived unscathed.

"Shit! That was on purpose! You weren't serious!", he complained.

Jazz and I held our bellies laughing.

"Well, actually, yes," I murmured softly.

Jasper looked at me questioningly.

But Emmett came up to me and punched me in the shoulder.

"Madness, my cold-blooded brother, the hundred-year-old virgin ... That I can still experience this."

I narrowed my eyes.

"... Doesn't she leave you as cold as you always do, your little Bella. Probably don't want to look like a complete failure ..."

There was no stopping him.

"Emmett!", I growled. 'Rrr ... there someone has the hots ...'

I clenched my fists.

"Either you tell me something helpful or ...", - you fly against the next tree -, "... you keep your mouth shut."

"It's okay, it's okay!"

He raised his hands placatingly and mentally undid everything.

I do not pack it, my little brother becomes active ...

"Jazz, let's keep running," I turned to my other brother, who had only been watching the situation with amusement.

"Hey ... wait!" Emmett quickly caught up. "You've come to the right place with me."

"Aha ...! Let's hear it then."

He began talking without stupid comments and stupid questions - about erogenous zones. I swallowed - but listened with interest.

But when his imagination became more and more realistic and took Rose's forms more and more clearly, I interrupted him.

"Em, leave Rose out of this! I don't want to see that!"

"Oh ... damn! Don't you tell her about this!"

"Don't worry, I can hold that in."

"Okay ... hmm ... let's see ..."

He was already completely in his thoughts again. And then continued with descriptions of some techniques and increasingly wild and crazy positions.

"Emmett, I don't think I can use this ... I have to be careful not to break her arm with a simple touch ..."

And suddenly I was alone.

I stopped and looked around.

They were standing about a hundred meters away, staring at me in total horror.

"Have you taken leave of your senses?", Jasper gasped. "You want to sleep with her before the transformation?!"

They slowly approached me.

"Um ... yes."

I raised my shoulders uncertainly.

"My God, do you have any idea what you're getting yourself into!", he asked further.

I shook my head.

Fuck, I was right. He's still a virgin, Emmett realized, and said nothing more for quite a while.

"Don't get me wrong ... you really have tremendous self-control, but ... wow! You've really got your work cut out for you!"

Jasper's reaction was not reassuring.

"Um ... what about it ... I mean, how ... is it?"

"What?"

What?! Sex, orgasms, what do you think? "You know ...!"

"It's not quite as satisfying as drinking human blood ...", Emmett saved me.

So in some respects, he was usable after all.

"It's not?", I asked, astonished.

That didn't sound so difficult now. I had resisted Bella's blood long enough now, although it was so tempting for me ...

"... Wait, does that mean you've never jerked off before?"

"Of course not!"

Now I was the horrified one.

"Of course ...? Not ...? Everybody does that! There's no way!"

Em was stunned.

How can you be so, so ... prudish, so uptight, so ... asexual?

"What does that have to do with anything?"

I didn't know myself why the thought seemed so absurd to me. I came from a strict Catholic home at the beginning of the 20th century. There was no question about it.

"Emmett, not everyone is as sex-crazed as you!", Jasper stated. "And I don't think you can really compare either! Well, the purely physical satisfaction maybe. But the emotion goes way beyond that."

We ran on.

I looked at him doubtfully and questioningly.

"What do you mean?"

He hesitated a little.

"Watch this," he then said and began to mentally show me his first time with Alice.

I had already noticed at that time that there had been an intense chemistry between the two of them, but that it was not that simple. Alice had often been frustrated. It was all new to him. The lifestyle, the abstinence from human blood on the one hand, the love on the other, and the all overshadowing shame about his past. It had taken a relatively long time for Jasper to open up to her. I had tried to stay away from them as much as possible, so as not to intrude too much into their private lives. As far as that was possible in a house full of vampires. However, there were logically not very many secrets between Alice, Jasper, and me. Maybe that's why I was a bit uncomfortable to be let so deeply into their privacy. He visibly tried not to concentrate too much on them – as far as it was possible – and put more energy into the feelings that were flowing towards me in addition to the pictures.

"Jazz ... you don't have to do this!"

"It's okay ... I want to make sure you know what you're getting into! I do care about Bella!"

I felt the trust, the devotion, the love, and connection. Everything swelled more and more with an ever-increasing desire and then exploded in an overwhelming fireworks of lust, passion, and happiness.

"WOW ...!"

I got my foot caught somewhere and sailed through the air.

At the last second I remembered to curl up so as not to land on my face. I rolled across the ground and came to rest in a patch of ferns. I looked up into the treetops above me, heard Emmett bawling, and just stayed like that, thinking.

Okay. That was really huge. What would it be like to experience it for myself? Was I in control enough not to lose my mind and my temper next to emotions like that?

Then Jasper's amused face loomed over me.

He raised an eyebrow and asked, "Well, do you know what I mean now?!"

I nodded and let him help me up.

"Guess I'm not the only one who's a little out of it today."

Emmett grinned at me gleefully.

I just rolled my eyes.

"Come on, otherwise we won't get anything sensible between our teeth at all today!"

"Well?" asked Jasper after a while, once again bringing me back to reality. "Do you really want to risk it? I mean, a few days more or less doesn't really matter now, does it?"

"Jazz, this wasn't my idea!" I pressed out between my teeth in frustration, hoping Emmett, who was running quite a distance ahead of us, wouldn't hear.

He looked at me uncomprehendingly.

"She wants this. One last human experience!", I whispered.

"Then explain to her how dangerous it is!"

"No use. I promised to try."

"Ehh ... you promised? You might kill her in the process! That's insane! ... Well, at least you can still turn her at the last moment ..."

"Jazz!"

I was frustrated.

I had played all this up and down in my head a hundred thousand times.

"It was her condition ... to marry me."

Now it was out.

"Shit ...! This was all her idea?!", he exclaimed.

Emmett whirled around and we almost crashed into him.

"Did I just hear that right?", he grinned at me.

"Oh no!", I groaned.

I would now have to listen to that for the rest of my existence.

"Ts ts ts ... little Bella! So hormone-driven. Who would have thought that! Wants to steal my little brother's innocence! How cool is that?!"

I started to jump and was about to grab him by the throat when my cell phone rang.

Carlisle! Shit ... I had completely forgotten about him.

I turned around and walked back a bit before taking off ...

It didn't have to get any more embarrassing.

"Hey, Carlisle."

"I'll take a break in ten minutes. You can come over then if you want."

"Um ... I'm sorry. I didn't even think about it yesterday. I went hunting with Em and Jazz."

"To hunt? I see. Maybe another time, then? Just let me know!"

"Okay."

"See you then."

"Yes, see you then."

I went back to the others.

I didn't even know a vampire could feel like a nervous wreck. Until now.

"Who was that?"

"Carlisle. "

'Aha ...! And since when does he trigger such feelings in you?'

Jazz looked at me anxiously questioningly.

I shook my head.

"Let's finally get something in our stomachs."

I had to clear my brain first and foremost.


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