I born in 2002/04/03 in Iran! I born with autism, when my father realized it, he lied to my mom and said "It's not my child! You cheated on me!?" My mom tried so hard to make him believe that she didn't cheat even tho he knows, but he never wanted an Autistic child! So... He left us when I was 8! I hugged his legs, begged him to stay! But he kicked me away and said "I wish you were never born!"
He left us in a worst situation, my mom decided to become a prostitute! Not just for herself, but for us! Me and My sister! she's still a prostitute, and never told us, but I don't wanna tell her that I know... cause... I hate myself that she's selling her body just for supporting me, i love my mom, just like she does love me... My family such as my Aunts, Uncle and every body else even my cousin hate me and they call me "Idiot" or "Retard!" So I rather to stay home!
When I was 8, I was alone when I came back from school! A man broke inside the house and... YEAH! He raped me! When he left, I immediately called my mom and told her! We both got to the police station, but they didn't care! They said "Autistic kids are hallucinating!" And... nothing! I still can't forget that day...
In 2010 when I visited the school, I tried to make friends, but because of my Autistic problem, everyone found out that I was weak, so they started to bully me! I remember one day when I visited the principal to report bullying actions on me they said "Leave! You're Hallucinating!" In my country, they think Autism is a virus! something like a sickness, that can be cured by forcing and fear! I always got punched, kicked and slapped not just by bullies, but also by principles for ABSOLUTELY nothing! Students threw their trash at me infront of the teacher, but the teacher never cared!
I remember, I was a biggest fan of Avatar The Last Airbender once! I had an Avatar Aang plushy toy! He was the only friend I said since 2011 to 2014! Until that day... My bullies held me on the ground, and burned that toy infront of me! I was crying while they were laughing at me! Principal yelled "It was just a toy stop being a bitch! You're the worthless worm and waste of sperm on this planet!"
I didn't know what "Sperm" and "Bitch" was! So these words made me to search on Google, and in the age of 12 I realized what sex and these meaning! I realized how women get pregnant and what's making love! I didn't watch porn! I read erotical book that age! And that was the age I started to masturbate to an erotical story about two couples making love and... Holy, Fucking, Shit! my first orgasm felt really good! I've never felt so relaxed since that day! I should've thanked to principal for making me search about bitch and sperm!
Several weaks passed, as I got surrounded by 6 bullies! They broke my left leg! and started to kick me in stomach! I literally heard my left legs bone crushing! I had to defend myself, and I punched one of them in face! Principal appeared behind me like Batman! and grounded me! My leg was in a cast for 3 months till it get cured! When my leg got cured and my bones got fixed, first thing I did was punching and choking my bully to death!
I still remember those words while I was choking him! "Please stop!" He said as I yelled... "Did you stop when I begged!? DID YOU STOPPED!?" That day principal stopped me and yelled on my ear... "STOP YOU AUTISTIC FUCK!" That day... I asked what's Autistic? I got grounded! I love that the bullies parents came and yelled at me! Their son broke my leg, and they have complaining access? Luckily, the police supported me for the first time of my life! And kicked them out!
My 6th grade finally was over! 6 years passed by suffering, pain and torture! I wanted to finish this pain! So I wanted to jump down from the building where we lived 4th floor! Right when I jumped my mom grabbed me! I asked why and asked about autism! She explained everything, and I felt... so bad...' that's why my dad left me? that's why everyone bully me? am I a useless human!? I... I hate myself!' I always asked myself the same question!
My mom and sister didn't allow me to go to school anymore, my sister had a friend who works in bazaar! It was printing job where we print markets logo on bags! since then, I avoided studying and my own life for 3 years since the age of 13 to 16! I used to pick up 30KG box of bags on my shoulders and walk 6 streets to deliver. I work for 11 hours in a day! I got myself a PS4 that year with the money I earned, so I can entertain myself with games of "Black ops 3, GTA 5, Mortal Kombat X and God of War 3" everytime I arrive home from work, I always played with my PS4 with joy and excitement!
2016, I left my work, and found a gaming club on my way! I decided to play some games there even tho I had a PS4 but still, it was fun! Until I met a boy alone named "Afton" (That's not his real name but he likes to be called that) I was playing "Injustice Gods Among Us" on the gaming clubs PS3 as he was playing "Lego Marvel" Alone. I asked him "Hey do you wanna play Injustice?" as he accepted! Since that day... We became best friends, and still are we! For over 8 years! Every night I left my home just to visit him! We had and still have lots of fun together, we are supporting and helping each others too!
until... the year of 2018 came! I got an illness that costs my body becomes like wood! I couldn't move my arm! I couldn't move my fingers either! It was so painful to do! It took me 2 months to get cured! In the hospital, I watches Sword Art Online anime! Sword Art Online is the first anime I watched in my life and I loved the show so much! Thats why I make Hentai stories of it!When I got cured, I never came back to that bazaar! And I wanted to change my life style! I went to YouTube, and I saw a popular YouTuber calls "Markiplier" he's my favorite Top 1 YouTuber!
I realized that he can earn money by just playing video games! I told myself "Why I don't start too?" So I sold my PS4 console with all of my games including my PSN Account to get the best gaming PC instead! I learned about "Adobe Premier, After Effect, Photoshop and Illustrator!" I started to stream about Popular games like Call of Duty, Sonic, Resident Evil! I even got 5k subscribers back in 2020! Until... I got a girlfriend and new friends! All of them betrayed me, except Afton! He's so loyal! Those people who betrayed me, made me to lose hope, made me to lose trust to myself!
I then deleted my YouTube account, and never decided to continue... Until now! I tried to suicide again but... failed! I am scared to die! In 2021 when I was 19, I paid a hooker to have sex! It didn't... feel good that I expected! It was my biggest mistake! I started to work at the book selling market where was owned by an annoying bitch! I tried to resist her so much, so I could get money from her and pay multiple hookers for sex! Cause I got addicted to it! The only problem I had, was I tried to make friendship with a whore! THAT was my mistake! One year later, my boss blamed me for absolutely nothing and stole money from me! So I quit the job after that!
I tried to suicide again and again and again! But everytime, I failed cause I feel something like a ghost grabs me and stops me when I wanna do it! So I decided to sell gay nudes on Twitter and even do Private Cumtributes for people! which is not THAT successful. In 2022 I got in jail for nothing! (Read the final chapter of my SAO Hentai Fiction to find out)
Since that day I started to hate toward women and I still do! 2023 I got a job interview in an office! I got hired as a seller of Television, Laundry and stuff like that! Till now I am writing! I am studying to become a good writter, and a good gaming designer! But what scares me now is...
Is my mother proud? Will I have a luxury future? what will happen to me? that's my question...