Jennie's POV

I can still feel it.

The pain not only caused by forcing herself to me but the broken trust that I used to believe she won't ever break. I have a lot of expectation on her - that somehow deep inside that egoistic personality is a person wanting to be seen, wanting to be love.

But

all the trust I've put was gone.

I believe she has potential to change, for me atleast. That was only on my imagination that's far beyond the reality, I don't think I have the heart to erase it.

And now seeing her face makes me uneasy, all I feel was the pain she brought to me.

"J-Jennie..."

"Lisa please leave us alone" Chaeng tried to push her back.

Lisa almost trip down when both of them were pushing each other, she was trying to get near me but I don't know what to do. Should I let her? Or not?

I don't know what to do anymore, I've put so much trust and feel like breaking down.

"J-Jennie p-please listen to me...I...I'm s-sorry of what I've done"

Chaeng isn't successful enough to stop her from getting near me, Lisa is now kneeling infront of me with tears on her eyes.

"B-Believe me Jennie...it's not my intention...I w-was w-wrong...f-forgive me J-Jennie.."

Her trembling hands tried to hold mine but I manage to dodge it, I can't look her in the eye. My tears cascade down my eyes making my vision a little blurry.

"J-Just let me make it up to you ...I'll do everything J-Jennie...everything"

"Does it include of not showing your face to me?" I mush up some courage to speak.

I notice how her shoulders fall down upon what I said.

There's a minute of silence among the three of us, it was absolutely deafening.

"I can't do that Jennie, anything aside from that. I'll accept whatever it is, I can't stand it if you don't let me see you"

Chaeng looks so concerned to me but I gave her a nod, reassuring her that I'll handle it.

I stayed silent, my mind was blank. I don't want to speak to her. I turn my back when the flashback of what happened that night comes into my mind, my tears instantly fell. I can't unsee how she look at me like some kind of disgusting piece of shit, where she could satisfy herself.

"Leave"

"P-Pardon?"

"I said leave!"

She was startled on my sudden outburst when I heard a thud.

"Lisa leave, you heard her right?"

"Jennie please don't p-push me away, I….I c-can't take it"

I covered my mouth to muffled my sobs, hearing her voice makes me weak. The insults I received from her is ringing in my head.

"G-Give me a chance Jennie, I'll p-prove myself to you. That I can change……I can be whoever you want me to be"

"Isn't it too late for that Lisa?" I turn around to face her "isn't too fucking late for that?!?"

She didn't meet my eye as I look straight into her, almost burning her with my stare.

"I fucking gave you chances, I was always sweet to you even if you treat me so badly" I paused "I can't understand w-why…..h-how can you hurt me…"

"J-Jennie…"

"Shut up! I'm done Lisa!"

"P-Please Jennie…"

"I said shut up! Fucking shut up!"

It's like my body has a mind on its own when I started hitting Lisa, she didn't stop me. She was just standing her receiving everything I do to her, although she was taller I didn't mind it. All the anger I've pent up with the past few years came out of the cage I've made.

"J-Jennie stop, you're hurting yourself…" she mumbled.

"And what?!? Let you hurt me? Ha? Fuck you Lisa" I chuckled "Now you know the word hurt, you're fucking funny"

I'm catching my breath, I'm tired of what I did.

"Get out. Leave me alone Lisa. I don't want to see your face, I don't want anything from you"

Lisa once again kneeled infront of me, holding both of my hands.

"N-No…. D-Don't do this….I can't stay away from you, not now"

"Let go of my hand"

She was holding it tight and it infuriates me.

"Jen no, give me a chance. One chance is all I'm asking, I'll make it right. I'll do everything for you to forgive me"

"All I want you to do is not show your face to me, that's all what I need from you Lisa. Leave. Me. Alone"

I emphasize the last three words, I can't deal with her.

"No, d-don't c-cut me off your life. I'll go back here everyday, I'll try to win your trust"

Chaeng unnie grab her by the arm and tried to drag her away but she's strong enough not to move not even a single inch.

"Lisa. You're making it hard for her to forget, stop being stubborn"

"Chaeng please….I'm begging you, don't restrict me from seeing her. Please"

Who would believe that Lisa Manoban could beg like this, kneeling with tears on her eyes. Right there from the spot, I just realized how naïve of me to see her as someone good despite of how she treated me.

Its better to have separate life, besides she's been in the spotlight of being wealthy and I live in the shadows. A demon like her deserve to be forgotten.