Fear flickered at my hands, and she yanked the covers over her face.

My opened mouth closed, her fright like a gag. Her words were worse.

Completely suffocating.

"I wasn't trying to kill myself. I wish you'd quit saying that. I jumped off a cliff, recreationally. For fun. I didn't want to die, exactly but... I already felt dead. Hearing you like that reminded me of our good times. Made me feel alive."

As she paused my hands moved of their own volition, gently easing the blanket down. I couldn't do this without seeing her face.