Starfire did not knock on Raven's door. She stopped before it, and collected herself. What she was about to say pained her, but she had to speak with Raven.
She pushed the code that was shared with her and entered the room. There, Raven sat on her bed looking down at her carpet. It seemed that she had ran out of tears, as she continued to stare downward not looking to her guest. Starfire stopped before Raven and looked down at her.
Pieces. Pieces she never bothered to investigate, because they meant nothing to her. But they really did, they put together a picture that looking back, Starfire would have never believed it to be true. She heard whispers and gossip when Nightwing and her would visit the Justice League. She saw things that should have mattered when Raven and her partner were together. But Starfire never questioned them, never asked Raven for an explanation. Because Raven would never. Could never. It made none of the sense and was therefore impossible. But it was possible, and it happened.
-flashback-
"Get your ***** hands off my man!"
"***** you stupid ****! Don't ever come around her with your-"
Raven looked up from her bowl of popcorn and looked at the tv that was in Starfire's room. Kori sat there, with her hand holding the remote, paused as she watched the two ladies scream louder and begin to pull at each others hair. The screaming got louder until Raven couldn't take it any longer and she had enough.
"Kori, could you please turn that junk off." Her eye twitched as Starfire continued to look at the fight.
"Rachel, why are these two ladies fighting?" Starfire asked, finally turning to her teammate. Remembering the screaming, she muted the tv before looking at Raven again. Raven was about to scoff and ask 'what ladies,' but decided to get to the point quickly.
"Those two harpies are fighting over the jock in the middle," she pointed to the screen. "They're fighting over who gets to date the guy they both want." She answered as she leaned back against Star's mattress.
"You seem 'the peeved' about their battle over their loved one. Is it not glorious to fight for a beloved?"
Loved one? Raven realized what Star was getting at before looking back to the tv screen. "It's not really over a loved one Kori." And Starfire looked at her to continue. Thinking of a way to word her next sentence she continued. "Yes, they're fighting over who gets to be with the guy in the middle, but it's less about love and more about their hatred of each other."
"Their hatred of one another?"
"Look at it like this, imagine you were fighting over Dick with Kitten."
Starfire began to make both an angry and sour look before Raven cut in.
"But what if Dick couldn't decide which one of you he wanted?" Star lost her angry look and showed a sense of unease. Dick couldn't decide if he wanted to be with her or kitten? Dick had never expressed such thoughts or feelings. She was always what he wanted, the only one he loved.
"What's wrong about their 'fight' is that it's no longer about the man they love and want to be with, but their hatred of each other that is stronger than the love they have for that frat boy." Raven decided not to get into the whole reality TV business about haming up the drama for ratings, but asked Star.
"What if Dick chose Kitten over you?"
"If he chose Kitten… then. Then I must accept his answer, and stop pursuing his affection." She answered.
"Would you still fight, because you want Dick, because you hate kitten?
"No, I would not do that. I would not fight for someone who could not give me their everything. If i can love someone the 'whole heartedly,' i would expect them to give me the same. I would not let hate control me, I would accept it and move on."
Silence filled the bedroom, until Star looked at Ravens face and with a smile said "we are blessed are we not?"
Raven gave her a confused look before Starfire continued.
"We are blessed with ones who love us unconditionally. Who have no one else in their lives who they would devote themselves to. And we who would do the same for them." Starfire finished with a smile, before turning to the tv and searching for a program that Raven would be willing to watch.
Raven sat with a troubled look to her features. She said nothing as she looked down at her bowl of popcorn.
-Flashback End-
"You betrayed him… you betrayed my brother…" Raven didn't move, didn't look up. " he gave you his heart, his soul. He worshiped the ground you walked upon and loved you so much even I could not believe. And you betrayed him. I could not think, don't want to believe that you would do such a thing." Star couldn't stop the tears from escaping her eyes. "But you did. And you've left a scar in this family. And a greater and deeper scar in my brother's heart. Right now… right now. I cannot call you my sister."
She wanted to fly. Fly into the sky, towards the JL Watch Tower and smash right through to the other person who had hurt Garfield. But she stood, with no joy that gave her flight. And with tears streaming down her face, Kori turned away from Raven, and walked out the room.
Raven shook and squeezed the sheets between her fingers.
