Chapter 3: Listed Memories

So, appearantly, Rin Hiyama is an old friend of mine. I sighed. After i was done eating dinner with Mom and Dad. It wasn't a awkward, well, somewhat awkward, it has always been somewhat awkward after that incident.

I walked to my desk, my hands travelling to my memories, a notebook full of them. It's hard to explain, but after I lost my memories, my Mom and Dad made me learn my memories like teachers teach you history. And this notebook is my notes. I would love to go into detail on how I organize my memories, but I doubt we have time, and even I get bored of my own explanations.

I opened the notebook, the words crossing through my view.

I read through names, eventually arriving at a page with the name, "Rin Hiyama... Best friend... Childhood friend," I read. Yes, this is all the memories with her.

"Likes, Oranges. Blonde hair, Blue eyes," I read, there wasn't anything important, in fact, most of it are just simple information like likes, dislikes, and some description. But somehow I feel like there is more. The one flawed thing about my mom and dad teaching me about my forgotten memories is that they can only tell me what they know, but what if I kept secrets? What if they themselves gave me inaccurate information? Maybe I was even a terrible person before I lost my memories, and they never told me so I wouldn't feel some sort of self-hate or guilt? These lines of thoughts were hard to deal with, but I eventually became used to it, saying "It is what it is."

I sighed before closing my notebook and leaning back. Should I tell her? It will make things awkward, but I need to know, what was my relationship with Rin Hiyama?

I opened the notebook again, went back to Rin's page. She was my best friend...but there was some bullets... "Made a promise with..." i muttered, reading the first bullet in her page.

I closed it again, I stood up and walked towards the door, opening it, walking outside to look for Mom, or dad.

I found them in the living room. I take a deep breath before I walk towards them.

Mom was folding clothing while Dad was simple watching TV. "Mom, Dad, can i ask you two something?" I said, both of them looking to me, their attention now on me. "Yes, Dear. what is it?" My Mom said... "Is, Rin Hiyama, what kind of promise did I make with her?" I asked. For a while, no one spoke.

"We, we don't know. You never told us what promise you two made when you told me and your Father," My mom said. It was disappointing, I guess I just have to ask Rin herself tomorrow.

"Sorry if we can't tell more, Len," Mom said, I nodded with a smile. "It's ok, I'll just ask Rin tomorrow," I said, but before i could leave, my dad said, "Len, what do you plan to do tomorrow?"

I don't know why he asked, maybe he just wants to have some small talk? "Well, go to school, maybe han-"

"I meant, about Rin, will you ask her about the promise?" My dad interrupted. I chuckled sheepishly, embarrassed by my own misunderstanding. "Oh, well, maybe. I'm not sure," I said.

"Well, whatever you do, think clearly, don't make things awkward between you two," my dad said. I nodded. "Ok, Dad. I won't. Goodnight," I said to my dad and then to my mom before leaving to go to my room and sleep... Well, I should probably start sleeping, because the faster tomorrow comes, the faster I can ask her.

I close my eyes, thinking of tomorrow, what should I say? And another thought crossed my mind. Earlier today, what did she felt when I didn't recognize her? What did she feel when she had to pretend to act like she just met me, even when me and her go way back? Maybe she felt hurt? I mean, she was my best friend, and it would hurt when you see your best friend again, only to realize that your best friend doesn't recognize or even remember you. And before I finally let sleep consume, I asked a question... Did she know I have amnesia?