Chapter 4; A Different Me
Another morning, another day. I would love to say that as I walk towards school, but I knew this day was not gonna be close to my normal routine. Unless talking to my childhood best friend about my memory loss is a normal part of my routine.
maybe it was? who knows? Definitely not me.
I finally arrived at the school entrance, and to the greatest or annoying of coincidence, Rin just arrived as well. I look at her, she looks at me, and our eyes locked, although it was almost unnoticeable, I could see it in her eyes, eyes of familiarity, did she have the same look yesterday when she met me again? Maybe so.
"Morning, Rin," I said, flashing a small smile at her. She smiled back. "Morning, Len." She walked towards me and stopped beside me. "It's a wonderful day, isn't it?" I nodded. It really was.
We continued to walk side by side until we arrived at the classroom. I feel like I'm forgetting something, what was it? *Ring* *Ring* Well, never mind, class is starting, I'll just try to remember it later. And so Rin goes to her seat and I go to mine. My seat isn't far from here. My seat was in the last row near the door while Rin's seat was in the middle rows and sat beside Miku. During the class, I tried my best to pay attention until I remembered what I was supposed to do.
"Right, that," I muttered under my breath. Yeah, I really didn't believe I forgotten that. I wonder, how can I get me and Rin to be alone, because Rin is always by Miku's side and vice versa. And then it clicked, after class, yes, that could work. And so, leaned back a bit and stared at Rin. I know I am simply doing this out of curiosity, but I have this feeling, a feeling that I truly wants to know her, to become close to her like that friend she used to know. I wanted to be as close to her as he was, I wanted to somehow become more closer, I want to be the superior one, I want to be more superior than my past self...I want her to see me the better version.
Ring* *Ring* The bell rang, now is lunchtime. I sighed. I saw that Rin approached me with a small smile. "Hey, Len. Do you want to eat lunch with me and Miku?" She asked with a hopeful tone. I nodded, but I would rather have just the two of us. It's fine, the day is young; surely we can spend some time alone later. "Sure, Rin. I would love to."
Rin's smile widened, "Great!" She grabbed my hand and pulled me up. I made sure to grab my Bento box before she could fully pull me out of my seat and walk with her towards Miku. "Her touch, how lucky I was back then to always feel her touch, and how lucky I am that I still can.
Ring* *Ring* End of class. I saw Miku saying good bye to Rin before walking off. Now's my chance. I packed my things quickly and got up to chase after Rin who has now left the classroom.
I was able to catch up to her just about in the entrance of the school. "Rin!" I called out. She stopped and turns to me, her expression one of curiosity yet I can see in her eyes, delight.
"Yes, Len? what is it?" She said with a small smile as she turns to me. "Uhm, Rin, do you know me?" I asked asked earnestly as I grab her shoulders with my arms. Rin's face turned of surprise as I grabbed her shoulders. "Know, you? I mean, yes," She said with a slight nervous voice, "friends are meant to know friends, right?" I chuckle, finding it somewhat endearing to see her that way, "no, I mean, did you know me before? like maybe when we were like 10?" Rin froze, I could feel her shoulders tense up. So she did know me, my notebook was right.
"Rin, I want you to know, I know as well," I said, Rin's face lightened up, but I know I had to tell her the rest, "but, not in a memory way, but in a different way," I said, Rin tilts her head, confused on what I meant. I sighed and said ,"Rin, I am not the same Len you knew back then, to be frank, I don't remember you, our memories together, I don't remember any of them," I said which Rin's face faltered even more. "I, I got amnesia, I don't know how and why, but it caused me to forget my memories when I was 10 and before I was 10," I said, her face was now looking...guilty?
"Rin, are you okay? What's wrong?" I asked her, shaking her a bit, suddenly her eyes teared up a bit, before I knew it, she swatted my arms away and ran off. "H-hey! Rin!" I called out, but it was to late. now people were staring at me. "What just happened?", "Did that boy made Rin cry?", "isn't that the new student?" I heard chatter, most weren't positive. I mentally cursed myself.
I look up unto the direction where Rin ran off to, what should I do? Why did she cry and ran off like that? I sighed. "Damn it..." What made her feel so guilty?