EPOV
I was questioning everything right now...
How could she do this?
Had she ever been sincere about anything?
Those kisses... Those wedding vows... All those special moments between us... The time we made love... All those feelings... Were they all just a lie?
Why did I even fall for her? There was literally nothing to like about her!
What exactly even drew me towards her?
Her shyness? Her kindness which she tried to hide? Her smartness? Her intelligence?
No... There was nothing to like about her!
Why the fuck did I fall for her!
"You've always been this good for nothing idiot... " I said, "For your kind information, whatever the few times you have ever beaten me at anything in school, it was because I lost on purpose... I thought it'd be good for your ego boost... I have no fucking idea why I did that..."
Now why the fuck I said that?
Suddenly her victorious face flashed across my face when she used to beat me... She always seemed so happy whenever she did that... And that used to make me so happy...
That young Bella... She wasn't like this... She was so fragile and so sharp, but she was just letting her fears and anger overshadow her intelligence and capabilities.. It was impossible not to fall for her!
Maybe she had changed and I couldn't see that...
But I guess I really need to stop now... Because there was a very high probability that someday I was going to regret everything I was saying right now...
Yeah maybe...
Wait... What else did she say?
I didn't know you loved me when I started this crap... I thought you were an asshole like them...
"Wait... what did you say?" I said, "You thought I was an asshole when you started this crap? So if someone is an asshole, that gives you a license or something to play with their feelings?"
I wanted to, but it was really impossible to keep my mouth shut... And why should I?
"Edward, I know you're hurt... I'm so sorry... Please..." she said.
She was crying hard now...
But... That was none of my business!
"I'm completely capable of being an asshole..." I said, "Maybe that's what I should do. I should become the person you have always assumed me to be..."