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Kiss... a woman.
Touch... a woman.
Have a physical relationship... with a woman.
The bafflement in Dr. Premsinee's mind still made her unsure of what was about to happen. Yet, another part of her wanted to learn what it'd feel like if she initiated the physical relationship that night. The memory of that night was so vague that she wanted to be certain why she didn't resist or refuse, unlike many times when her ex-lover tried to ask for more than just a kiss on the cheek.
"To the bed, P' Prem..."
She didn't respond to the whisper but allowed her hand to be held as they walked to the bedroom. Now, the desire to understand her own heart was stronger than the orderly thoughts she'd always maintained. She wanted to know how it'd feel if she, as a woman, was the one to initiate, compared to being the one who started.
In the bedroom, only the dim light from a small lamp allowed Dr. Premsinee to see the naked woman pulling her onto the bed. Although she'd never learned the practical aspects of bedroom activities, except for the night she was barely conscious, she knew what the upcoming feelings would be.
She wasn't indifferent or old-fashioned; she just chose not to indulge in physical pleasures that might disrupt her life's plans. But what happened with this woman made her plans chaotic, not as intended. It was as if this woman came to teach her that what we think or aim for mightn't always be achievable.
Her lips responded to the soft touch, and she began to reciprocate. Even though Dr. Premsinee was on top, she didn't know where to start, so she kept kissing, causing the naked woman beneath her to place her hands on her chest and guide her movements.
Dr. Premsinee quickly learned to move her hands, caressing and squeezing the breasts, making the woman beneath her moan. Dr. Premsinee seemed to enjoy touching the ample breasts so much that Naphak couldn't help but passionately kiss her back, signaling that if she continued to play with just the breasts, she might have to switch places and let Naphak be on top.
Dr. Premsinee began to move her face down to the breasts, gently touching them as whispered instructions guided her. The tip of her tongue touched the firm peak, making Dr. Premsinee smile as she felt the excitement and thrill of exploring a woman's body and learning about physical relationships between women. She finally understood the
happiness her two close friends often talked about.
"So soft... and gorgeous."
Massaged, squeezed, and teased the buds. Did she just realize for the first time that Naphak's breasts were also quite impressive?
"P' Prem... ahh..."
"How does it feel? Why are you making that sound?"
Oh! Dr. Premsinee, why ask now...
Naphak smiled at the question she was eager to answer, but she
couldn't respond as Dr. Premsinee continued to touch her breasts with both hands and lips simultaneously.
"P' Prem... ah..."
"Does it hurt?"
"No, it doesn't. Please go on... ah..."
"But..."
"It doesn't hurt, P' Prem. Please continue... ah..." She almost tempted to say that Dr. Premsinee could do anything to her, and she'd accept it all, as long as she didn't stop now.
Otherwise, both Dr. Premsinee and her might suffer.
"What should I do next?"
Understand that she was inexperienced and at a loss but happy to hear the soft sounds of pleasure.
"Do whatever you want. I can't tell you."
How could she tell it in words when she wasn't skilled in bedroom matters?
Dr. Premsinee asked out of curiosity, but the actress couldn't provide much guidance as she wasn't very experienced either. She let Dr. Premsinee learn on her own.
Their lips met again, but this time, the kiss wasn't slow and gentle. It was filled with intense feelings, making both of them breathless.
But Dr. Premsinee seemed to control her breathing first, moving down a bit to align with what she intended to touch, remembering that the woman beneath her did this to her that night.
"Ah…"
The feeling of being touched at her sensitive spot made Naphak hug Dr. Premsinee, who paused, surprised by the sensation. The actress's appearance didn't suggest that she was so pure. She'd assumed that Naphak had some experience, as she seemed to understand and know how to handle these feelings.
Dr. Premsinee resumed after letting Naphak hug her for a while. She wasn't naive; she knew how to alleviate the tormenting feelings, even if she made some mistakes. She began to understand how to make Naphak's beautiful face show signs of torment and hear her hoarse moans, making her smile.
The more she explored, the more shivering voice came out of Naphak called out her name.
The physical pleasure they learned that night continued, with new feelings introducing themselves and Dr. Premsinee's confusion and curiosity gradually fading.
When women can find happiness together.
And tonight, that happiness might occur many times or until their bodies were too tired to continue.
The morning sunlight began to shine in, making the person on the bed turn away. But the drowsiness disappeared immediately when she felt the emptiness on the other side of the bed. Naphak almost got up to check the room if not for the slight pain she felt below.
Where did Dr. Premsinee go?
But when she picked up her phone to check the time, she realized that Dr. Premsinee had probably gone to work. It was almost ten o'clock. She must've slept soundly, or Dr. Premsinee didn't wake her up as she'd promised. Even though she didn't get to see Dr. Premsinee off today, she wasn't upset or annoyed because what she'd hoped for had come true.
Her first time, she willingly gave to Dr. Premsinee.
The phone's vibration indicating an incoming call made Naphak, who intended to handle her personal matters, answer the call from someone who must've had urgent business to call on her day off.
"Yes, Mhon."
"Pat, do you have any work scheduled?" The drama director asked a question she didn't want to ask, but the channel was rushing to air the drama, so she had to call for the actress's schedule.
"No. Are you hurrying to film the drama?"
"Yes."
"Is it because of my news?"
"You could say that."
"The news about me skipping the event, right?" Even though the director didn't want to make her feel bad, the news about the beautiful villainess not being responsible for her work and skipping events was spreading, causing many organizers to boycott her.
The news was entirely false. Even though she didn't care, the damaging news she tried to avoid affected her and those around her. Her mother had to call to confirm, and her two brothers told her to leave the entertainment industry because they didn't like their sister having bad news, regardless of the reason. She had to calm her brothers down and prove to the reporters that she wasn't like that.
She hung up the phone and accepted the urgent drama schedule, starting this afternoon with scenes to shoot. Rushing the shoot was good because she only had Mhon's drama left. She could clear her schedule and take a break as planned.
Naphak quickly texted Dr. Premsinee to inform her that she might be home late tonight. She wanted to continue picking up and dropping off Dr. Premsinee because their relationship was improving, making her confident that soon, what she hoped for would come true.
Dr. Premsinee would be hers, both body and soul.
Meanwhile, Dr. Premsinee, whom Naphak intended to inform about her urgent schedule, only read the message in the evening, twenty minutes past her work hours. She quickly read every word before putting her phone back in her gown coat pocket as Dr. Melanee was sitting with her.
Ever since she confided in her close friends about the mistake she made that night, they'd been taking turns to keep her company more frequently. If one friend was unavailable, another would always step in. What amused her was how seriously each of them observed her.
"Prem, what should we eat?" Dr. Melanee asked.
"Bow, don't you have any plans this evening?" Dr. Premsinee chuckled at the overly obvious behavior of her charming doctor friend, who seemed to be there to observe her closely.
"Nope."
"Aren't you supposed to pick up Sita or Jane?"
"Sita and Jane went shopping together."
"Are you being left alone these days, Bow?" Dr. Premsinee couldn't help but laugh at her friend's situation. It seemed like Dr. Melanee was often left alone by her two lovers lately.
"You're exaggerating, Prem."
"Has Dr. Charming lost her allure?"
"Stop teasing. Lada has a meeting, and Tan has an appointment.
It's just the two of us. So, what do you want to eat tonight?"
"Are you determined to stick with me?" Dr. Premsinee wasn't annoyed; she found it amusing to see Dr. Melanee's overly stern expression. It was likely that Dr. Fahlada and Dr. Tankhun had insisted on keeping a close watch on her.
"No, it's just the two of us left. Or do you have someone hidden away, Prem?"
"No, I have nothing to hide from you guys."
"Are you sure? So, what do you want to eat?"
"I feel like eating something sour."
"Sour, huh..."
"Som Tum, the spicy one, something like that. Just talking about it makes me hungry. Let's go, Bow."
Dr. Melanee could only nod along with her friend, still deep in thought. She was starting to notice the strange behavior that Dr. Fahlada and Dr. Tankhun had mentioned. It'd been almost three weeks since Dr. Premsinee admitted her mistake, so it wasn't surprising that her odd behavior was becoming noticeable. But it seemed like Dr. Premsinee herself hadn't realized that her body might be undergoing changes.
Dr. Premsinee had never liked this kind of food, but now she suddenly wanted it.
Could it be that what they suspected was coming true?
The two beautiful doctors stopped by an Isaan restaurant not far from the hospital. Dr. Melanee remained silent, watching her friend order food from the restaurant staff.
"Bow, aren't you ordering anything?"
"No, you've ordered plenty. But don't you dislike sour mango? Why did you order mango salad?"
"I just felt like eating something sour."
"Sour..."
"Yeah, it's a recommended dish here. We should try it."
Dr. Premsinee smiled cheerfully, but Dr. Melanee, who hadn't ordered anything, was still deep in thought. She took out her phone and texted their other two close friends to share the strange things happening with Dr. Premsinee.
If she hadn't seen it herself she wouldn't have believed what Dr. Fahlada and Dr. Tankhun had said.
"Prem, why are you so quiet?"
"Nothing."
"Hey, isn't that woman a celebrity?" Dr. Melanee pointed to the TV screen, which was showing an entertainment news report featuring the woman who had disrupted Dr. Premsinee's wedding, causing it to be canceled.
"Maybe. The food's here. Let's eat." Dr. Premsinee pretended not to care, but the TV continued to broadcast the scandalous news about the beautiful villainess.
'It's confirmed, everyone. The beloved villainess, Naphak Tharanisorn, really did skip the event. We'll have to wait and see how she explains herself, but insiders say no one dares to hire her for events anymore, fearing she'll skip out.'
The two entertainment hosts continued to speak dramatically, leading the audience to think along with the news. Scandals involving celebrities often sold well if they were of public interest. Customers in the restaurant began discussing the news about the actress who was now under scrutiny.
"That woman is pretty, but she seems to have a bad attitude."
"Maybe it's not like that."
"Prem, that woman ruined your wedding."
"Isn't it good? I got to see Wat's true colors. We should thank her."
"If you're okay with it, then we are too." Dr. Melanee smiled at her friend, noticing that Dr. Premsinee still glanced at the TV screen before pretending to focus on the food.
"You guys worry too much. I can handle this."
"We know you always do what's best, but please, don't do like that night again." Dr. Melanee couldn't hold back from mentioning the night Dr. Premsinee made her mistake. She didn't know the details, but she knew Dr. Premsinee had missed their appointment and ended up having a relationship with someone else. They couldn't believe that the rational Dr. Premsinee would do such a thing.
"Let's eat the papaya salad. I don't want to talk about stressful things."
"Good idea. You shouldn't stress too much these days. It might affect..."
"Affect what?"
"Your health. Aren't there a lot of patients lately?"
"Yeah, there are, but sometimes I feel nauseous. Maybe I'm not getting enough sleep."
"Nauseous too?"
"Why do you look so shocked, Bow?"
"Nothing. Let's eat the som tum and go back to rest."
Dr. Melanee pretended to eat, but her mind was racing. Dr. Premsinee's symptoms were becoming more apparent every day. It seemed their fears were coming true. How would Dr. Premsinee handle the situation?
Even though she was rational, dealing with sensitive issues wasn't easy.
After finishing their dinner, Dr. Premsinee asked Dr. Melanee to drop her off at the front of her condo. She wasn't ready for her friend to see her room, which would surely raise questions. She didn't want to explain anything complicated, especially when she couldn't even answer her own questions.
Dr. Premsinee glanced at the wall clock, which was nearing eleven.
She turned off the TV and all the lights in the living room, preparing to go to bed.
She didn't understand why she stayed in the living room until almost eleven.
Was she waiting for something?
Dr. Premsinee tried to close her eyes and sleep, but every time she did, memories of the previous night made her heart race and her face flush. She couldn't believe she felt good about the woman who had ruined her wedding and used her nude photos as leverage to get close to her.
She was even more confused about why she'd initiated physical intimacy with the actress despite being fully aware.
She was her first, and she was hers.
We were each other's first.
The overwhelming emotions made Dr. Premsinee blush. She decided to turn off the bedside lamp to force herself to sleep.
Dr. Premsinee had just fallen asleep when she was awakened by an embrace. The person who woke her was trying to snuggle closer, making her move away. But it wasn't easy to escape the embrace.
"P' Prem, don't move. I want to hug you."
"Let go..."
"No, let me hug you to relieve my exhaustion."
"Let go..."
"You're struggling so you can pretend you didn't consent, right? But you did."
Not only did Naphak speak, but she also moved to straddle the beautiful doctor, who tried to push her away. But there was no way she'd let go of the doctor she'd been thinking about all day.
Naphak leaned down to kiss her but missed and only kissed her cheek as the doctor turned her head away, refusing to be kissed easily.
"Let go..."
"You're so cruel. I'm yours now, remember?" It was a reminder of what had happened the previous night.
The kiss that initially missed its mark now landed as the doctor didn't turn away. The gentle kiss began, and our hands moved inside each other's clothes, helping to remove the nightgown, which fell to the floor beside the bed.
There were no more confused questions about what was happening in bed.
They'd both learned enough to understand what to do to make each other happy.
And the happiness tonight would last until the soft, hoarse whispers faded away, or until their bodies begged for rest, just like the nights before.