Hello and welcome to When Words Fail! Since it has been so long since I uploaded to this story, I thought I would give it a bit of a refresh with the latest chapter. The chapters are relatively the same plot-wise from the old version, just a bit longer and hopefully better written.

I do hope you enjoy!

"Mai you know I love you, but why do you have to go to college so far away? Isn't there any in Japan for you're stupid ghost stuff." Mai's boyfriend asked, he never understood the whole ghost thing and hoped she would grow out of it before college.

"Not any good ones and it's not stupid, it's the reason I met my family," Mai said thinking back to her days at SPR.

"You're talking about Takigawa and Matsuzaki right," he said with a sigh, "You know they aren't your real family right, friends and family are two different things, Mai."

"Yes Elijah, I know the difference but they have helped me out many different times, and that makes them my family. I consider everyone who worked for SPR, my family."

"Even your old boss, the one who lied to everyone and then left leaving you without a job. If I ever met him I would kick his ass " Mai laughed at that already knowing how that would play out.

"Why do you say things like that, you've never met him and you chose only to look at all the negatives ignoring everything else," Mai signed even if it hurt to think of Naru she was happy to know he was doing a little better in England. Sometimes she wondered if he missed her, or even thought of her for that matter.

"Well Mai I gotta go, Suzume asked me to help her study for her English final," Elijah kissed Mai before rushing out the door to meet their friend.

"I wish he would just tell me the truth," sighed Mai.

Mai's instincts are very good at picking up when people aren't telling the truth, and it seemed that's all Elijah and Suzume had been doing. Mai trusted them both but lately, she was starting to suspect something was going on. Mai didn't want to just ask because she didn't want Elijah to think she didn't trust him, and she couldn't just look through his phone without feeling guilty. So all she did was sit down and continue writing her essay for her application to Cambridge University. After that, she emailed Yasu and Madoka for a quick proofread before she sent it to the commission's committee.

Mai got up from her table and made her way to the kitchen, after a little digging she figured tea would be good for dinner. Lately, Mai had been too busy working at the cafe, college applications, and boy drama to even remember to get groceries. Mai started the water and noticed her phone ringing, she grabbed it and answered it walking back into the kitchen.

"Mai this essay is just amazing, if Martin doesn't accept you I might just have to kill him," Mai laughed at her friend.

"Thanks, Mado…." Before Mai could finish her sentence she was cut off by a very familiar voice that sent chills down her neck.

"Can you please refrain from the murder of my father," Naru said coldly. "Also I don't think Mai's essay could even be close to murder level."

"Noll, do we have to work on your manners again?" Madoka replied sharply before her voice became serious, "Mai, Yasu told me that you have been having some doubts about Elijah, what happened."

"Look Naru you haven't even read my essay so how can you say it's bad," Mai said sounding very annoyed, hoping it would change the subject

"You're right Mai, I haven't read it, but I'm going to have Madoka email it to me I can," He said, making Mai very self-conscious, "Oh, and don't use me to avoid Madoka's questions."

Before Mai could answer she heard the tea kettle hissing, Mai muttered something about her tea being done and having to go before hanging up. She rushed over to the kettle, poured herself a glass, and placed herself in front of the TV. Mai sat comfortably watching an American show to work on her English when she heard a knock at her door. She answered and found no one but Elijah at her door drunker than ever. With a sigh, she put him on the couch and gave him some tea.

"I thought you two were just studying," Mai asked, sounding slightly pissed.

"Don't get mad, we were, but then one thing led to another and we found ourselves at a club," Mai glared daggers at Elijah before he continued, " Come on Mai, we used to party all the time, it's not like anything happened." Elijah waited for Mai to say something but she just looked at him with a mix of sadness and anger in her eyes. "Look, babe, I gotta piss, I'll be right back and I'll make it up to you."

Mai silently waited for Elijah when she saw his phone light up, curiously she grabbed her boyfriend's phone wondering who would text him this late at night.

Wow, tonight was fun, when are you gonna leave that boring bitch, so we can mess around whenever we want to. -Kisses Suzume

PS Mai wasn't kidding when she said you were good.

Tears filled Mai's eyes as she waited for something to say it was a joke, but nothing came. Elijah came running out of the bathroom as his phone fell to the floor, he tried to grab Mai but she pushed his hands away.

" 1 year, I wasted 1 year of my life on you. I almost gave up my dream college to stay with you, and this is what you do. I've been nothing but honest and loving to you, and Suzume was one of my best friends. How could you do something like that and then come to my house." Tears poured out of Mai's eyes as she looked up at her boyfriend for the first time in this conversation.

Elijah wiped the tears from her eyes, Mai didn't stop him, but only because she didn't have the energy to do so. He looked into her eyes contemplating what to say to fix this, but nothing could take the pain away from her.

"Do you remember when I first transferred from America," Mai nodded not understanding where he was going with this, "So you remember the day we first met in English class? I never paid attention because I already knew the language, but it was a mandatory class so I had to take it. Well, there was this girl in my class and one day she looked Mrs. Michi dead in the eye and told her she was wrong. I Looked up to read the board and she was right, now Mrs. Michi was flipping and I just couldn't stop laughing. She asked what was so funny and I translated the sentence she wrote, and then she kicked us both out of the room. I will never regret doing that because I met you that day." Mai laughed a little and Elijah gave a sad smile before continuing. "Mai I love you and only you, I lost sight of that, but thinking of how we met made me remember. You always state your mind and aren't afraid to tell people when they're wrong, but you're so kind and compassionate to everyone. I was drunk and I did something stupid, I let Suzume blur my love for you. Mai, please forgive me, I will never hurt you again."

Mai stared into Elijah's deep blue eyes, she remembered when she first saw them they reminded her of the ocean. At first glance, some would compare them to Narus, but they were darker and filled with hurt. While Elijah's were so clear with the light blue that shone through the darker blue. Mai fell in love with those eyes, part of her wanted to believe him, kiss him, and tell him she loved him. The other part wanted to slap him and scream at him for making her love him and then breaking her like this. She was at a loss for words and broke their eye contact focusing on the floor. Finally, she decided she needed to say something, but she couldn't answer him not today, not now, not ever.

"Eli, you need to leave," Mai couldn't stop the tears as she pushed his hands away and opened the door. "You need to get out of here now and never come back. I...I loved you and I trusted you, how can I trust you after this? I can't even look at you right now, you're not the Elijah I fell in love with, and I need you to get out of my house."

Elijah walked slowly out the door with tears falling as well before he could say anything Mai shut the door and walked back into her kitchen sobbing uncontrollably. She didn't normally drink much, but tonight she could make an exception. Grabbing the bottle of vodka from her cupboard, she walked back into her living room. After a while of listening to sad songs and drinking way too much, Mai noticed an email from the one and only narcissist himself.

Mai, I'm surprised, this is actually good. Nothing close to anything I could write, but Madoka was right. I would be shocked if my father doesn't accept you. Honestly, he will most likely want to study your powers firsthand, so plan on the possibility of an internship. I know Madoka will convince him to put you on her, mine, and Lin's team, so don't worry about cultural differences. Now back to the essay I have a few suggestions, so message me when you wake up.

-Professor Oliver Davis

Hey, Naru that seems just great the sooner I can leave this country full of cheaters the better. Did you know that Madoka told me to control my emotions because I could maybe cause a poltergeist? Well haha, she was right because when I saw the messages wooah did my living drop a few degrees, AND I'm pretty sure my lamp started floating, but a little…. No lots of alcoholic beverages stopped that. Well Noll talk to you later

-Mai T.

Mai stared at her laptop blankly before she noticed Naru was calling her, she was tempted just not to answer but something told her not to. Finally, she accepted the call and waited for Noll to freak out, and boy was she right.

"Mai are you an idiot, actually I know the answer to that, yes you are. You are very stupid. What were you thinking, because I don't think you were. Mai, you're a small person and to drink that much could lead to alcohol poisoning," Mai drunkenly cut Naru off from his rant.

"Okay, Oliver, you're at a 5 and we need you to be at a 1 here. Now am I drunk? Yes….very, but I do know when to stop drinking. Plus a hangover is just another reason to skip work tomorrow because I know Elijah will go there, and I don't want to see him. Now I'm going to be rude and hang up the phone because I'm depressed and probably need to sleep because when I wake up tomorrow I'm going to regret ever sending you that."

With that Mai ended the call and stumbled to her room. She sat down on her bed and gazed up at the moon, it was moments like this when she could have her mom to tell her it was all gonna be okay.

"I don't get why everyone hurts me like this, Elijah, Naru. Why can't I just find someone to love me and really love me, not lie or tell me I love someone else? I just don't understand why everyone leaves me," Mai said to the sky above her, "but what would I know, I'm some fool talking to the moon."

I know you're somewhere out there, somewhere far away

I want you back, I want you back

My neighbors think I'm crazy, but they don't understand

You're all I had, you're all I had

At night, when the stars light up my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the moon

Tryna get to you

In hopes you're on the other side talking to me too

Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?