BPOV
"I had thought about opening up about my feelings quite a few times, but I always chickened out, always!" He said, "I'm sorry! Yes, I tried to forget about those feelings along with years, but believe me, they're stronger than ever right now. You've no idea how serious I'm about you!"
Just when I had begun to think that dating was not really a bad idea, he had to come up with some bullshit!
"I have no idea what kind of joke this is!" I said.
"I mean everything I said." he said.
"So you mean you have always liked me and you're very serious about me!" I shook my head.
"Yes." He said.
"What do you mean 'Yes'?" I said, "You can't like me!"
What did that shit even mean!
"I definitely can." He said calmly.
See, I knew it!
Just look at him!
He was... trolling me!
"Look..." I took a deep breath, "I know what you're doing here."
"I've a feeling whatever you think I'm doing is completely opposite to what I am actually doing!" He said.
"You think that..." I said.
Yeah, actually why was he doing this? I wasn't really sure!
Or maybe I knew!
"You're doing this because... Because... Because it doesn't really make any sense that we are actually dating... So you thought let's make a fool of Bella! It's been so long since we have left high school anyway! You're thinking of this as an opportunity to make a fool of me!" I said.
Yeah... I think that made sense.
Or maybe it didn't...
Whatever...
But he couldn't love me! That was for sure!
"Look... I don't think my mind and heart are that complicated... It's simple! I like you... Probably, love you. I always did, and I've never felt strongly for anyone else." He said.
"Oh please!" I rolled my eyes. "Give me one reason why you love me..."
"I can give hundreds, but you are not going to believe me." He said.
"You are... ridiculous!" I said, "I know the kind of women you date... I'm nothing like them!"
"I know you're not like anyone I've dated before..." He said, "I'm well aware of that fact."
"Look..." I said, "I don't love you!"
"I know that." He said calmly.
"So why the fuck are you telling me that you love me!" I said with frustration, "You've no reason to love me! I've always been bitchy and rude towards you... There is no reason for you to love me! Whatever the fuck we are doing right now... It's... just bullshit!"
"There is a version of you that even you don't know yourself... Because you're always busy being upset and angry and sad to know who you actually are..." he said, "I fell in love with that Bella. And I always see that Bella in you." He said as he looked into my eyes.
He was looking so... sincere.
And the way he said that... It kind of made my eyes teary...
And it did some unknown thing to my heart...
He was trying to make me feel weak...
And I didn't like being weak!
"Why are you doing this to me?" I said angrily.