Hello everyone!
My name is Gracy, I'm from Germany and I'm a Seddie shipper and ICarly fan since over a decade!
I had an idea for a different take on the Seddie arc and wanted to post it. I really hope you enjoy it and if you do, leave a comment! They motivate me and everyone else who post here to keep writing and posting!
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Sam
''Yeah, it's important how Sam feels, but how I feel is important, too. '' Freddie said into the camera and my heart was racing with fear. What would he say? I knew that I hurt him so many times and that I just kissed him out of the blue, but-
Frednerd wouldn't do that to me would he? Was what I did 3 nights ago too much?
Mentally preparing myself for whatever he said, I looked at Freddie, who stopped talking to the Pear Pad and looked at me and I turned back into ''Don't touch me'' Mode, trying to play off the feelings that had been built up for so long.
I had to say something. Be the strong one, even if he pushed me down the cliff. Even if it would break my heart into a million pieces.
Or maybe he won't.
Why wouldn't he? This was his chance to get back at me for all those years. He knew how I felt and didn't feel the same and he was able to tell the whole internet about it and make me look like an idiot forever and I couldn't even really blame him.
Breathing in deep, I told him mad ''Okay, Benson we get it. You wanna himmuliate me all the way in front of millions of people, go ahead and just do it. I don't care. Get back at me for all the mean things I s-''
Freddie stopped me mid sentence, but not with a bad joke, not with laughing, no.
He put down the Pear Pad, biting his lip and walked up to me, grabbed me by the waist and stopped me mid sentence with his lips.
His soft, sweet lips hit mine and at the same time a million fireworks exploded in my head, as my hands went to his biceps. My heart was beating out of my chest and I didn't understand the world anymore, but I kissed back, while our lips said more than words could ever say.
Freddie Benson is kissing me. Freddie Benson is kissing me.
Our lips moved in synch as if it was the most normal thing in the world and the world stopped for a moment, while all I could feel was him. His hands, his lips, his- This was really happening and I didn't want it to end. I didn't want to go back to reality.
Slowly we broke apart from each other and only now I could hear the clapping of pretty much everyone in the room and out of the corner of my eye I saw the bright, statisfied grin on Carlys face, but all I could really look at was Freddie, who was still lightly holding me, while we stood there, starring at each other and he smiled.
That smile that killed me. That smile that went all the way to his big brown eyes that made me first fall in love with him.
Yet there was still something hanging in the room that I did need to get out.
''You mean it?' I asked a bit out of breath and confused, worried at the same time.
With a crooked grin Freddie nodded and replied, ''So I guess we're both insane.''
After the kiss the day went past way too fast. I wasn't allowed to get out of the mental hospital yet, because my mom would take another three days to come here, but Freddie, Carly and Spencer stayed the whole day. Visitor hours were about to end.
There was a lot to say, but nobody said anything about it and right now it was okay. I was just enjoying the moment of that kiss. That feeling of Freddie, wanting to kiss me.
It all felt like a dream and so good at the same time, it was ridiculous. Was this real? Would Freddie feel the same tomorrow?
It was 10 minutes before visitors hour ended as Carly took me into her arms and whispered ''We're still going to talk about this, but first you two properly talk, when you're out of here.''
Looking at her, biting my lip but half smiling I looked thankful at her. She didn't push me anymore. She did earlier, but I was kind of grateful she did, but now she gave Freddie and me some space to figure out.
''Thanks Carly. Even though you already pushed a lot.'' I told her and Carly gave me a half apologetic look.
''Did it help or did it not?'' She replied and I rolled my eyes and Carly let go of me, grinning as she looked behind me.
Biting my lip I didn't turned around yet, knowing already who was standing there, waiting for his goodbye, which made my heart flutter like crazy.
Carly quickly said ''We'll be waiting in the car outside. See you in three days, Sam.''
Freddie
As soon as Carly said that she left off and let Sam and me stand alone the hallway, close to the entrance. Right now I was kind of glad about the whole mental hospital thing, because of what it caused even though I had to wait three days to take her home. And I only had a few more minutes, before they would kick me out and I wanted to make them worth.
''Sam.'' I said, which made her finally turn around to me, biting her lip.
God, how did I ignore my feelings for so long? I've known that I liked Sam a lot for just close to a year, but never even tried to act on it, because I was scared.
Now it was out and it felt crazy but so good and I wish I could just kiss those lips again.
''Yes, Fredward?" She asked me and I slightly rolled my eyes, but had to grin, too taking her hand.
Automatically our fingers intertwined as if it was the most natural thing in the world and I stepped even closer, smelling her perfume and the quesedillas. It was my favorite scent right now. She was everything to me. But to have her I had to tell her that and not chicken out.
Closing my eyes for a second I took a deep breath, but Sam seemed to shift and said ''Freddie, if you think this was all a mistake and want us to go back to friends, frenemies, whatever we were-''
I stopped her, by putting my other hand on her waist and putting my lips on hers again. My lips were tingling and my head was spinning, but not only did I need to kiss her again, I also needed her to understand that none of this was a mistake.
Sam gasped surprised, but this time her hands went up to my neck, playing with the hair there and I sighed, deepening the kiss.
Every single kiss with her killed me on another level and there was nothing I wanted to do more for the rest of my life. My other hand also went around her waist and I tilted my head a little. Her hands and her lips driving me crazy.
Sadly we had to break apart though, because an announcement came ''Visitor hour will be over in 5 minutes.''
I sighed and told her ''Sam, I meant what I said and I don't want this to end here today. I want to be with you. I really l- No, I am in love with you, too and I hope that we both can be brave enough to try this relationship thing, because I want you to be my girlfriend.''
Looking taken back I bit my lip, waiting for Sams response. Was this too much already? I didn't want to scare her away, but we already knew each other. We didn't need dates to get to know each other better.
I definitely wanted to take her out on a date. But as my girlfriend not as a 'could-maybe-potentially-be' thing. We waited way too long for this and I wanted to call her mine. Heck, the whole internet knew about us now.
''I know that telling the whole internet about us, wasn't the smartest move in starting to date, but all I want is you as my girlfriend.'' I added and saw, how Sams cheeks turned red and she smiled at me goofily, what instantly made the butterflies in my stomach go crazy.
Tightening the grip around my neck again she replied ''I don't want to wait anymore either, Frednerd. I mean we both know, how holding my feelings back ended.''
I laughed kissing her nose and said ''It wasn't too bad considering the fact that it made me, finally admit my feelings, too.''
Then I looked more serious at her, tightening my grip again and added ''What do you say? Will you by my girlfriend, Samantha Puckett? Want to try this together, no matter how scary this might get?''
Sam bit her lip, but then nodded and replied ''Yes. Let's try this. And now kiss me you nerd, before I have to let go of you.''
I laughed, but leaned down to her, my lips brushing hers, sending an electric shock through me, but she bet me to it and pressed against my lips.
Groaning softly I kissed back, asking myself how lucky I could be to finally call Sam mine. She drove me crazy. But in the best way possible and the kisses killed me in the best way possible.
I heard the first warning bell from the counter and sighed, breaking apart, forehead against forehead.
''We see each other in three days, Sam. Enjoy the Quesedillas.'' I told her, which made her laugh and oh, how much I loved this laugh.
She gave me one last short kiss, before letting go of me. ''I will and now go, before they check you in, too.''
I chuckled, but nodded, squeezing her hand one last time, before I left the building, just as the doors were about to close.
Being outside I turned around one more time and I saw Sam looking at me, biting her lip. I waved at her, before going to the car.
Sam
It was midnight and I was staring at the ceiling of the room in the mental hospital, not being able to sleep, because my head was spinning. Freddie and I were a thing. We were officially a couple. The whole world knew. Well, not exactly the whole world, but-
Shaking my head I sighed happily. He did have feelings for me, too. The nerd loved the beast or something like this.
My pearphone went off and I looked surprised at the display, seeing a message from 'Frednerd' which made my heart jump out of my chest, as I quickly opened it, eager to read whatever he had to say.
Freddie: It hasn't even been two hours since we saw each other and I already can't sleep, because I want to see you again.
God, was that cheesy but it reflected my feelings towards Freddie perfectly and it made my heart beat fast, knowing, that he felt the same. Grinning at my phone I tried to breathe before replying.
Sam: Ewww, don't be so cheesy, Fredward.
Freddie: You love it Puckett and I know it. Also, I was just telling the truth. I miss you.
These three little words. He probably didn't even know what he was doing with that with me. He also couldn't sleep and he was missing me. When did it happen that I was swooning over the tech nerd so hard? Shaking my head, I read the message again.
Sam: Maybe I miss you, too a little bit and maybe I also couldn't sleep because I was thinking about today and how everything has changed, yet everything somehow is still the same. Just that you and I sucked each others faces off. Oh and that you told the whole world that we are together.
Freddie: Sucking each others faces off definitely wouldn't be the words I would use, but yes. Are you mad at me for spilling it out on Icarly?
Sam: Not mad, it just- It caught my by surprise that you felt the same and you were so open about it after I put you through hell and back several times.
Where did all that confidence come from to tell him that? We have never talked about our feelings to each other to anyone, especially not towards each other and now- It suddenly felt so safe to talk to Freddie about it. I meant, he was my boyfriend, but- Boyfriend. That word made my heart flutter again.
I didn't know this sight of myself or how crazy it drove me, but- Part of me despied it and part me liked it. My pearphone dinged again and I looked at it quickly.
Freddie: Maybe along the way of all that bickering and 'hating' each other I realised that I didn't mind being bickered by you and that I kind of liked everything we had. It's- Trust me, Sam this is also all crazy to me, but I know that I'm glad that our feelings are out there now and we try to make sense of them together. As a couple.
My heart was racing at this point and I put a hand to my lips, just feeling Freddie and his kisses there again. He did feel the same. He wouldn't leave me, because all of this was a bad joke. I- He-
Biting my lip, I thought of an answer for a second.
Sam: I'm glad, too. Shouldn't you be going to sleep to rise and shine early tomorrow for school?
Freddie: I should, but writing to my girlfriend is definitely better than sleep.
Sam: I'm sorry that you have to go through that alone tomorrow. I mean, facing the whole school while I sit here in the mental hospital and can wait for that video to cool down for a few days. It's not fair that you have to do that while I can sit it out for now.
Freddie: Sam, I don't have to go through anything. This was my decision. It was my decision to serve you my feelings on a silver plate and for the whole world to know. And for you to be my girlfriend I'd do it any time again. Whatever they're talking tomorrow, as long as it's nothing bad about you I don't care.
He was saying so many sweet things and I realised that it killed me inside and made my heart flutter and at the same time so nervous.
It was all new and crazy but I somehow thought I was ready for it. I was, right?
Sam: You're crazy Benson, I'll make it up to you when I'm out of here.
Freddie: I can't wait to see how, Sam but there is no need to. I want to do that for you, for us.
For us.
That giddy feeling in my stomach was crazy and I jumped up and down inside, smiling at the message.
Sam: Us sounds really good in my ears. But now you go to sleep, before your mom makes you take one of those weird baths, because she thinks you're sick after only like 3 hours of sleep.
Freddie: It sounds perfect to me, too. Okay, Puckett, as you wish. Dream sweet and I can't wait to see you on sunday again.
With those words in my head I shook my head smiling, before putting the pearphone on the night stand and closing my eyes, quickly drifting off to sleep.
How will the Seddie story go?
What do you think will the first date be like?