Make No Mistake, She's Mine
You can waste your lives drawing lines, or you can live your life crossing them
Sam sat at the usual table in the canteen watching as his girlfriend played the room, well last night she was his girlfriend, but by the end of the night they'd argued, yet again about the no sex thing he had going on, and she'd decided she'd had enough of him holding back, she didn't mince her words when she told him that if he wasn't willing to sow his wide oats, she was going to find someone who was
Flashback from Sam's POV
We'd been together for three hot months, but for me feelings had been there way before I plucked the courage up to ask her out, I'd done it in song during our singer song writer lecture, the only subject we were in together. I didn't really class myself as a singer, but she didn't play an instrument, so I'd grabbed the bull by the horns at the beginning of this second year of college and added it to my repertoire of musical conquests.
I was sat watching as Tony and some of the other players in the class made their moves on one of the girls in the room, it was clear what they were all there for, if they didn't have a cheerleader they were up for a choir girl, or boy for that matter. I'd made friends with Mike in the first year, we shared a dorm, but Blaine was the new guy shipped in to join us in the second year, he was cool, a bit touchy feely, but friendly enough. Mike was already with Tina, they came to college as a couple, but Blaine and I, after three weeks of chicken, finally plucked the courage up to sing our rendition of 'Let Me Love You Now' by Lloyiso for our first assignment, it surprised us both when it quickly grabbed the interest of Kurt and Mercedes.
Sam with Blaine: You're the one I love, every second that I look at you, you're perfect to me
Every little moment, that I spend with you, you're so amazing, you're my weakness
Don't you ever go, I will always want you, I'd go to war, I will always love you right, oh-oh
Every day and night, call me, and I'll hold you, despite the past, I will always treat you right, you're perfect to me
Chorus Blaine, Sam
Let me love you now, let me hold you down, I've been sitting wondering, if I can make you mine, I can love you right, baby, you're my everything
Let me love you now, let me hold you down, I've been sitting wondering, if I can make you mine, I can love you right, baby, you're my everything…
To be honest we hadn't really made it a secret we were singing to them, and by the look on Kurt and Mercedes faces they didn't seem very impressed. But I couldn't believe my luck when our conversation carried on afterwards, and true to my heart I'd never let go after that day because she'd turned out to be everything I'd expected her to be. On our first date all we talked about was the music, but we soon found out that outside of that subject we were like chalk and cheese which might have been the breaking for most couples, but for us it meant interesting non-stop conversations.
My parents weren't strict religious disciplinarians or anything like that, but they did have like three specific laws, so I'd been brought up to respect women, tell the truth and engage in no sex before marriage. That chalk and cheese thing we had going on meant my girlfriend was at college to forget rules, and she had her own take on what a relationship was about, and although I, in the main agreed with her take, the pull to do what my parents expected of me was great, hence the fall out last night.
It had all started so playfully, we'd been to a late night discussion group about the effects of the Covid jabs, it was the hot topic of the week with the announcement that it was a global experiment, everyone had something to say, it was nearing midnight before it ended and of course I walked her home. It was late, the campus were musically busy, I'd been watching her dancing around to her favourite song of the week, and to be honest I was horny as hell, so I didn't take much convincing to go up to her apartment to say goodnight in private.
I'd watched her open the door and step in before I playfully grabbed her back seeing a red light moment for us if I actually went into the apartment. I actually meant to give the usual minute kiss, pepper kisses down her neck and walk away but she had other ideas. "Hey" I attempted to pull away as she grabbed the back of my head to hold it in place as she sucked on my bottom lip and playfully bit it. Straight away I know she wasn't playing fair, that was my thing, I pulled her hard into me. I heard her hum with pleasure before she lightly sucked on my bottom lip again, and moaned this time, that got me, I was all in, hard as rock and ready to make the forbidden move.
I surrendered, she started pulling away, I was all in so I wasn't having it, I pulled at her top, my hand was up it before I could think, I was pressed so hard against her I knew she knew what I wanted, I'd led her to believe things would happen. Don't ask where he came from but suddenly my dad was standing watching us, I pulled away harshly, it was all my fault, I'd got carried away with the foreplay, got her begging for it, and then caught myself.
There'd been so many times I'd decided to do away with the honour of the family and give in to what my body needed, but for whatever reason something stopped me, and last night's halt was particularly rough, for her as well as me, it was close.
End of Flashback
"Don't" Mike looked in the direction Sam's eyes were zoned in on "If she's making that big a deal about it, she don't mean you any good, let it go"
"I just…"
"Let it go" Mike warned him
"I spoke to my dad about it last night" Sam told him
"Your dad?" Mike's eyes widened with the shock
"Yeah"
"What did he say?"
"What I expected him to say, relationships are hard, challenging, especially when two people have different personalities, needs, and wants, like we do. He said we should expect to go through rough patches, but if the relationship is worth fighting for, I should fight for it"
"So what?" Mike looked at him "You think she's worth fighting for?"
"Yeah, I do" Sam looked over at Mercedes again before looking back at Mike "Tina pushes you all the while, you're still together"
"Tina and I have gone way past kissing Dude"
"I just can't function with the thought of someone else touching her"
"But I thought the whole point was that you didn't want to?"
"Of course, I want to, I can't, I'm" he frowned wondering how much to tell "I just don't believe in sex before marriage" he told him
"All this is because of a damn belief?"
"Yeah"
"Does she know this?"
"Yeah"
"That just makes it all the worse, she's bullying you"
"She's not bullying me, she gets frustrated because she wants more than what I'm willing to give right now, I get frustrated with it too" they stopped talking distracted by the noise across the canteen
"Look at her" Mike spat as they sat watching Mercedes sat at a table with two guys from her math class, being the centre of attention, looking like she was in her element
"That's all for my benefit" he looked at his friend
"And you're happy with that?"
"She's the one Mike" he told him "I know she's mine"
"Dude, you got it bad" Mike laughed getting up, watching Sam get up at the same time
"And you ain't?" he laughed at Mike combing the hall for Tina "I'll catch you later" he stepped off in her direction
"So, Dude" Mike looked at him shocked "Where are you going?"
"To talk to her"
"You did nothing wrong; you should make her run after you"
"That's not what a relationship's about, is it?" he frowned "Relationships are hard, remember?"
"Oh yeah" Mike smiled "According to the world of dad from a hundred years ago"
"Stop it" Sam laughed "My dad knows stuff, I trust him"
"I trust my dad" Mike mimicked him
"Dude" Sam rolled his eyes at him before walking off. He walked towards the rowdy table, unsure what he was going to say but knowing he was going to walk away with her beside him "Tony, Matt" he nodded at the guys before turning his attention to her "Mercedes" their eyes met as he finished saying her name
"Sam" she snapped back playfully
"Could I talk to you for a minute please?"
"Sure" she turned to look at him properly
"In private" he looked around the table "Please"
"He said please" Matt laughed
"It's called manners" Mercedes snapped at Matt getting up to follow Sam to where he thought would be private "What can I do for you Sam?" she flicked her hair off her shoulder when they finally got to the empty lecture room
"I want to apologise for last night"
"So, you're ready?"
"Mercedes" he rolled his eyes "No, I want to apologise for the hurt I caused you in the way I dealt with last night, I can see how you'd think I was rejecting you, but I wasn't, you know how I feel about sex before marriage, and to be honest we'd gotten closer to it than we ever have before, I was just.. shocked at myself"
"But you told me it was what it was you wanted, I basically begged you"
"I asked you to beg me, and I'm owning that" he grabbed her arm "But I also know I shouldn't have let you walk away either, I feel like in letting that happen I was agreeing with the split, when I wasn't, I'm not"
"You didn't want to split?"
"No" he pulled her close "I meant what I said, I love you"
"Just not enough?"
"Mercedes"
"I know" she frowned "I know I'm not being fair" she looked up at him "But I don't want to apologise"
"I'm not asking you to" he smiled at her "Are we at least talking now, because I can't take the silent treatment for much longer?"
"Well, we're not, not speaking, but I need to think about your terms"
"Talking is good" he smiled
"Can we do this after lessons, we're in music now, you know how I feel about that?"
"I prepared something for you" he laughed
"You're going to sing about us?" she looked into his smiling eyes
"We'll see" he grinned holding his hand out for her to grab
"Sam" she frowned grabbing his hand
"I asked Blaine to help me remind you how we are" he laughed "I came prepared to beg"
"You know Kurt, and I will hit back if you show us up" she shook her head in protest
"You two are always so damn competitive" they walked off to get to their class
"Hey" Blaine and Kurt said in unison as they walked into the class, they were sat on the back row wrapped in each other, those two were all or nothing most of the time
"Hey" Sam and Mercedes smiled back grabbing the last two chairs on the front row
"Bring this beg" Mercedes grinned at him
"Consider it brought" Sam laughed "Sorry we're late" he offered, smiling at Roz, their music teacher
"Don't make it a habit" she pointed at them with her warning "So" she drew everyone's attention "The assignment was set last week is there another song for us; I've had lots of conversations" she looked around the room "So who's up?"
"Blaine and I" Sam jumped up and turned to look at Blaine "We haven't had much time, but it's something we both want to say so we thought from the heart was more authentic than from the head"
"Peaked" Roz sat on her stool
"We delivered this three months ago today" Blaine told her watching Sam pick up a guitar, "It's been the best" he looked at Kurt "By performing our rendition of 'Let Me Love You Now' by Lloyiso again, ready?" he looked at Sam
"Yeah" Sam smiled looking at Mercy "The best" he mouthed before he started strumming and Blaine started singing
Blane with Sam: …Mm, if you believe in love, tell me why you hiding, tell me why you always running, come on closer
If you believe in us, take me where your heart is, take me where your mind is floating I want to be where you are, oh
Don't you ever go, I will always want you, I'd go to war, I will always treat you right, oh-oh
Every day and night, call me, and I'll hold you (Jake: Despite the past) despite the past, I will always treat you right, you're perfect to me
Chorus: Blaine, Sam
Let me love you now, let me hold you down, I've been sitting wondering, if I can make you mine, I can love you right, baby, you're my everything
Let me love you now, let me hold you down, I've been sitting wondering, if I can make you mine, I can love you right, baby, you're my everything
Let Me, Let Me
"Does that mean what I think it means?" Mercedes whispered to her man as he sat next to her
"It actually mean I need you to accept my love the way I want to give it to you, for now"
"Sam Evans" she shuffled in her chair side eying him for his tease
"Mercedes Jones" he smiled kissing her nose "I guess you didn't hear me say I love you then?"
"Loud and clear" she smiled "That's the reason I'm still sitting here" her finger touched his lips "Which tells you I love you right back" she moved in to kiss him
"Blaine, Kurt" Roz snapped, everyone turning to look at them, either smiling approving or making disapproving noises at them making out at the back of the class
"Hold that thought" Mercedes smiled, the class seemed to finish quicker every day "Oh" she turned to walk backwards in front of him as they made their way down the corridor to their next seminar "Tony invited us to his party tonight, are you coming?"
"What if I say no?"
"Then I'll see you tomorrow" she grinned
"Okay" he looked at her emotionless "Tomorrow"
"Sam" she stopped him walking past her "Please" she grabbed his hand "It's Friday night, we haven't been out for ages, it will be good for us"
"By good for us you mean we're going to have a drink or four, and end up arguing about sex again" he rolled his eyes "I don't call that a great night out" he huffed "And if me staying in means we're still together tomorrow, it's worth it" he pulled away from her "You go, enjoy yourself" he leaned in a kissed her before walking away
"What did he say?" Tina asked as she walked towards Mercy
"No, we're not going" she frowned
"He stopped you from going?"
"No" Mercedes laughed "He doesn't want to go, so I guess we'll stay in again"
"So, he didn't say you couldn't go?"
"Why would he say that?" Mercedes looked at her friend puzzled
"Come on out, we can make it a girls night, we haven't had one in ages"
"Isn't Mike going?"
"No, he's got some dance thing tomorrow morning which means practice all night" Tina rolled her eyes
"I guess we could go early, have two drinks and leave"
"It's a plan"
"Okay" she grabbed Tina's hand "I'm in, no earlier than ten though I want to spend some time with Sam before we go"
"Ten it is" Tina smiled walking off to catch Mike before he settled into practice for the evening
Sam and Mercedes spent the evening talking as they'd promised they would, she explained to him that she understood the situation, but she was having a hard time with his mixed messages. He talked about the conflict he had going on inside wanting her and living up to his parents expectations, finally agreeing to wait.
"I've got to go" she looked up at the clock telling him "Tina's coming for me at ten"
"Okay" he got up to pull her off the floor
"Are you sure you won't come?"
"I'm not really in the mood"
"You'll get in it once you get there" she assured him
"I'll see how I feel" he smiled walking her to the door, pecking her lips before he opened the door to let her out and walk her across the lawn to her dorm, they could hear the music pumping from Matt's place and it did sound inviting, but he knew himself, he made his way back home
"How did it go?" his dad asked in their usual Friday night call
"She understood"
"Understanding and agreeing are two different things son, we know this"
"What did you do?" Sam asked
"We had your brother"
"What?" Sam asked his dad shocked
"We don't want that for you son, it's best…"
"Dad" he gasped "You and mom had sex before marriage?"
"We did and…"
"Have you heard of condoms?" he interrupted him "Contraceptives?" he asked rolling his eyes "I don't believe this" he huffed "I thought…" he sat looking at the phone "I got to go" he clicked the phone off and sat in shock, his whole life had been about hiding their fuck up
The Party
"Mercedes" Matt called as they walked into the house "I'm glad you came" he smiled hugging her when he got to her "No Sam?"
"No" she smiled
"Ready to party?" he asked guiding her towards the kitchen
"Yeah" she smiled grabbing Tina's hand to pull her with her
"Lets get you enjoying yourself" he grabbed a bottle from a guy he was passing and carried on into the kitchen. Tina and Mercedes watched him pouring the cups of drink, before he offered it to them "Here" he shoved it into their hands "Loosen up" he dragged them back into the main room
"Thanks" Mercedes smiled taking the smallest sip possible of the substance she didn't recognise, sharing a look with Tina, in which they agreed they were drinking no more of it "We're not staying long" she whispered in his ear
"What?" he turned to listen
"We're not staying long" she repeated
"Hear that" Matt laughed lifting his hand up to his ear and the music mixed to change, Mercedes and Tina stood trying to work it out, there were three songs playing at once it was hard to tell "That's my song" he pulled her into the middle of the room. It turned out to be the song of the month blasting out as the room came to life
"We do like the song" Tina shrugged her shoulders, they smiled and decided they'd come to have fun, so they'd dance
"Tony invited a music producer, tonight, if you're around you could do some live stuff see if he'd be interested in signing you to his label"
"For real?" Mercedes gasped, that was a dream she'd been ready to give up on
"For real" he laughed "So, does that mean you'll stay?"
"Should we stay?" she asked Tina
"It's a chance you can't miss" Tina told her
"Yeah, we'll stay" Mercedes agreed, freely spinning around as Matt grabbed her hand and pulled her to him, she stayed there for a second before she put distance between them again
I want you in the middle of the night, and I want you drinking right here by my side
So, we can talk about this situation, cause you in a rush how can you be patient
"Drink up" Matt waved the bottle at her as she moved on the makeshift dance floor, she lifted her cup to indicate she still had something in it and carried on dancing, making sure Tina was in sight at all times. Matt's game was so obvious, she'd watched all the ballers and now here she was getting the same treatment "Are you and Sam still split?" he pulled her to him to whisper before letting her pull away from him
Tell your friend that they can leave you alone tonight, let them know that I'm gon get you home alright,
In the morning sun is shining, yeah oh
"We aren't" Sam stood next to him replying "And if you don't mind" he held his hand out at Mercy "I'll take it from here"
"You came" Mercedes smiled grabbing his hand
"Just in time by the look of things" Sam laughed
Take it home and wrap it up in the morning, cancel my plans cause we're all running low midnight
I'm so surprised that you stayed the night with me, now you're in my sheets hey
Yodelayeee, Yodelayeee ye, oh, oh Yodelayeee, yodelayeee ye oh, oh 'Yodelay' by Kenny Brown
"Is that jealousy I hear?" she leaned into him asking
"Pissed off at him more like" he let her and go and grabbed her waist "I heard your song, and I knew you'd be on the dancefloor" he laughed
"Are you saying I'm predictable?"
"No" he laughed "Tina" he turned to look at her "Mike said he's finished and wants you to go round to the dance studio, we'll walk you"
"We will?" Mercy looked at him
"Come on" he grabbed her hand and led them out of the dance across the lawn and into the main building, down the corridor to the dance studio before making his way back to his dorm
"Am I coming in?" Mercedes looked at him unsure
"Yeah" he giggled, pushing the door open for her "What would you say if I said I was ready?"
"For?"
"To go all the way" he closed the door behind them
"What's changed?"
"I have protection" he held the condoms up
"So do I" she tapped her purse
"Turns out my parents just didn't want me getting you pregnant" he grinned
"I think we can avoid that" she smiled "Are we really doing this?"
"Only if you want to"
"Hell yes" she flung herself into his arms, their mouths attacked each other
"Hold up" Sam pulled back "I need to slow it down a bit?"
"Sure" she walked over to his bedroom door "Should we get some privacy?"
"Yeah" he followed her in and sat next to her on the bad
Sam's POV
I'd touched her before, many times, not necessarily so intimately, but even touching her face felt different, erotic, maybe it was because I knew there was something else coming. Her skin was so smooth and every inch of it felt warm, my hands moved around her curves as if being imprinted in my memory, even if I wanted to I couldn't open my eyes I was in a different place.
My mind was, I wouldn't say it was playing games on me, because I knew what was happening, maybe a more accurate description was opening up, and the only word I could fit in there would be desire. My father might not have been right about everything, and even now I couldn't understand his logic in what they'd instilled in me, but I was quickly gaining an understanding in why what happened to them happened.
I remember moaning hard and pressing myself against her tummy, she might have been surprised, but the way she pushed back made me need more. I felt for her underwear and pulled it off using my feet to push it to the floor, my hand ventured to where I'd never dared before, I was ready, I needed this place, I needed to make her mine "You'll never leave me will you?" I asked I don't know why, maybe it was something I needed confirmed before I gave everything
"Never" she gasped pulling at my joggers
I had her pinned down on the bed, my full weight half on top of her, my hand between her legs getting familiar with her sounds of satisfaction, I found what made her move faster and concentrated on it, smiling when she started to shudder beneath me, marvelled at the satisfaction of getting her off. Her eyes suddenly sprung open before she smiled at me "Ready?" I asked pushing my joggers down to prepare myself
"Ready" she grinned, watching as I covered myself, I was harder than I'd ever been, needing her, but trying to control myself enough not to hurt her. Her legs opened for me as I climbed on top of her, fiddled around until I found where I needed to be and slowly lowered myself, I thought about her for maybe ten seconds and then the feeling was all about me, I forgot to think Mercedes, I had a race on my hands, and I didn't want to miss a second
"Shit" I gasped before I'd even managed six good strokes I was bursting "Sorry" I gasped as it was my turn to shudder "Are you alright?" I asked trying to calm myself down a short while later
"I'm fine" she smiled wiping tears
"What's the matter, did I hurt you?"
"No" she pulled me down to lay on top of her again "I'm just happy, I love you Sam"
"I love you too"
End of Sam's POV
"Morning" Matt waved as they walked into the canteen on Monday morning "Missed you at the party"
"Had my own party to go to" Mercedes smiled grabbing Sam's t-shirt to kiss his lips
"I thought you couldn't be owned"
"Make no mistake" Sam held his finger up "She's mine"
"I guess I can be" she grinned at him