Hi Readers, sorry that last chapter was short. I just needed something to get me started on this new journey that I'm starting. But, let me know what you guys think of the new start that I'm giving to you guys. Thanks again. Now, on to 22.
Chapter Twenty-Two
There for Each Other, Forever
With Gabby now being done her tea, she smiled as she found herself just laying down in bed as she watched TV. However, watching TV was not the only think that Gabby wanted to be doing right now; rather, she wanted to have her husband in bed with her. But right now, she wasn't in her husband arms; instead, he was currently in the midst of doing a bit more unpacking (she left some of her things here as she thought she was coming back). Having never asked anybody to send them back, they stayed exactly where they were before. And now, Gabby was watching as Matt walked back and forth from their bed as he unpacked another one of his bags. (He didn't want to do it when they first got here, because he wanted to concentrate on getting to know his new home first). But right now, he had to unpack since he was tired of living out of bags. After all, he's been living out of bags since they left to go on their road trip; but they had a home now, a home where he was living with his wife. And since he was living here now, he didn't want to be living out of a suitcase. But at the same time, he was also doing something else (without knowing it). And that thing? He was turning his wife on. He was making her hormonal, and that was not fair (in her opinion); she believes that he should be in bed with her, holding her close.
But he still believes that him unpacking is more important than holding her, which was definitely not the truth; as she wants her husband to hold her, both for hormonal and emotional reasons. I mean, she did just miscarry their child. But, at the same time, she can't help but wonder whether Matt is not in bed with her for another reason. A reason related to the fact that he blames himself, blames himself for the miscarriage. Maybe, if he hadn't yelled at her, then they wouldn't have miscarriage; then they may even have a child or be close to having a child by now. However, that doesn't mean that they're moving home. No, they're staying put; and that's just a fact. They're going to stay put, and they're going to enjoy the new life that they are going to enjoy together. And the truth was, that sounds perfect; and it sounds like it's just what they need to do. But now, there was something else that she wanted her husband to do; and that was get in bed with her, as she wants to share a kiss with him. She wants to take it slow with him, as he proves to her what he told her when they learned; that he'll always be there for her. And while she does believe him, she told him that she wants him to show her That fact.
She wants him to hold her in his arms, and she wants to share a kiss with her husband; and that means that he needs to get in bed with her this evening. Sure, it's still early; and yes, they have a bunch of time for them to make out this evening. But that doesn't mean that she doesn't want to start now, and doesn't want to keep going for a while. In fact, that was exactly what she wants to do. She doesn't want to have sex tonight, she just wants to take it easy with Matt as they talk to each other. Talk to each other about something important, the guilt she feels over having pushed him. Maybe, had they….she felt the same guilt that Matt did, that's all you need to know. Yet, she hasn't gotten her husband in bed yet. And that was what she wanted right now, as she wanted to take it easy with her husband; so, it was time for her to tell him that. It was time for her to tell him that she wants him to come join her in bed. She wants to talk to her husband about how this really affected them. Sure, they (briefly) spoke about it in Chicago, and they spoke about it on the flight; but she still doesn't feel…satisfied that they spoke about it as much as they need to talk about it. She just hopes that Matt is open to it.
She's been trying to delay this conversation as long as possible, but it's time for it to happen; it's time for them to have this conversation. So, time for her to bring it up and just tell her husband that she wants to talk to him about it. She wants to tell him that she wants to talk about how it all went down. Taking a deep breath, Gabby proceeded to talk to the man of her dreams. "Baby?" Matt then turned around and looked at Gabby. "Yeah, you okay?" Gabby took a breath when Matt asked her that. "Can we…" Matt sighed, already well aware of what his wife was trying to ask him. She wanted to talk to him about the fight that they had, and how it wouldn't have happened had they gotten the accurate information that they just recently got; and that's something that's really been hanging over them for a while. And if Matt's not ready to talk about it, Gabby will understand; but she wants to talk about it. "Baby, if you aren't ready…" Matt shook his head when Gabby asked him if he wasn't ready to talk about the whole ordeal that they've gone through or the past couple months, the ordeal that almost made them loose what they have with each other; and that really hurt them both. Now, they need to talk about it. "I think it's time for us to talk about it baby." Gabby agreed with Matt, smiling at the man of her dreams. "Join me?"
Matt agreed with his beautiful wife when she asked him to join her, so he did just that. Walking over to bed, Matt proceeded to open the covers so that he could crawl into bed with the woman of his dreams; the woman he can't wait to have a baby with, as that was exactly what the couple have both wanted. They want to take it easy with each other so that they can really rekindle, and make their marriage stronger. Yes, that was what they feel like they need to do; as they need to really figure out a way to put the mess that happened in Chicago behind them, while also still holding a grudge over the fact that the doctor almost caused them to end their marriage. And that was just horrible. To think, they almost lost each other forever; the couple who love each other more than anything, they almost lost each other. Neither of them are ready to think that way, nor are they going to think that way for the rest of their lives; now, they are just going to take each other. They are going to hold each other in bed, as they made sure that Gabby feels better; and that she also knows something else, that he's going to be there for her for the rest of their lives. It's the truth, and he's never going to stop loving her.
But that was not his priority right now. Rather, him getting in bed, moving close to the woman of his dreams, and holding her in his arms was the priority; it was exactly what the both of them wanted, as they are ready to just hold each other. But Gabby wasn't just ready to have her husband hold her in bed, she needed him to hold her in bed; she needed him to come console her because she's very sad right now. Heck, not just sad; rather, she's dealing with a fleury of emotions. Emotions such as sadness, and rage. She's furious with that doctor, a doctor who told her that she has an aneurysm; when in reality, she miscarried her second child. The child that she and her husband didn't even know that she was pregnant with, and that just made her heart ache. Heck, the look on her loving husband's eyes when he heard that he lost another chance to become a father; that was another sight that I hated. It was just horrible, and that was another reason that she was sad. She was sad for her husband, the husband whom she wants to make a father more than anything in the entire world.
"You know I'm always going to be here for you, right Gabby?" Gabby agreed with her husband when he told her that, proceeding to slip close to the man she loves; wrapping her arms around his back, she looked up at the man of her dreams. At the same time, Matt put his hand on her arm while stroking his arm. He then bent down and proceeded to kiss her forehead softly, giving her exactly what she needs right now. She needs him to give her love and attention right now, as this just makes her feel very happy. He truly is the man of her dreams, and she knows that he will always be there for her; and that just makes her heart swell, especially after everything that they've been though. However, she isn't exactly happy over the fact that they are also dealing with a miscarriage; a miscarriage that could've been their first child with each other. "I know that. I just…I can't…as bad as I feel about it, I can't help but feel bad for you." Matt sighed as he heard his wife say that, well aware of just what she was talking about; as she was speaking in the same way when she lost their first baby.
She's talking about how he's always wanted to be a dad, and he knows that's on her mind right now. However, that's not on his mind right now; rather, making her feel better is what's on his mind at the moment, as that's what matters at the end of the day; her being okay is what's on his mind right now, as she's the one whose had to deal with this for months. Having to feel like she's failed her husband, when the doctors failed her; having to feel like he didn't love her for a while, when that couldn't be further from the truth. Putting her hand on his chest, Gabby took a breath as she looked into Matt's eyes. "If you want to go out and surf, go ahead baby; I don't want to force you to stay here." Matt shook his head. "Hey, where did that come from?" Gabby looked into her husband's eyes. "Looking at you just…" Matt then realized what she was trying to tell him. She was trying to tell him that, when she looks at him, she's feeling guilty. But the truth was, she had no reason to feel guilty; this affected the both of them equally. And he's not going anywhere. She's the woman he loves. That's when Matt decided to lean over his wife and put his hand on her stomach. Bending down, he kissed her softly.
At the same time, Gabby (acting on instinct) moved her hand to the back of his head and just took things nice and slow with her husband. "Gabby, it's already too late to go surfing as it's night time; and I'm not leaving you when you're hurting like this. And I am not leaving you when you're blaming yourself for something that isn't your fault, because it isn't your fault. Baby, we are both victims of all of this. I don't want you to think that this is your fault. Baby, we lost a baby together; and we are also dealing with the fact that the doctor gave us a wrong diagnosis. Baby, this is incredible; this means that your life isn't at risk. It means that our life is a life that we're going to share with each other forever." Gabby agreed with Matt when he told her that, smiling as she loved the sound of that. "But we moved here to have a baby, what does that mean for our future here?" Matt smiled at his beautiful wife. "What it means for here, is that we are going to enjoy our lives; and we're going to leave Chicago behind. I mean that." Gabby was shocked, and took a breath. "But we moved here….."
Matt already knew what his wife was going to say, but that was not the truth. It was never going to be the truth.
Matt's POV:
When Gabby started to go down the path of saying that we moved to Puerto Rico so that we can have a baby, I decided to stop her right away…after all, that was not the truth. The truth of the matter is that I haven't been happy in Chicago for a while, and that's the real reason why we moved here. We moved here so that we can live our life together, and that's what we need. We need to be here. "Baby, listen to me; we didn't move here to have a baby, we moved here so that we could get away and be happy together; we came here so that we could live a happy life together, and so that we could enjoy our marriage. Baby, I haven't told you this yet, but I came to the recently realized that…I was just looking for excuses to stay in Chicago for the past couple months." Gabby seemed a bit taken aback when she heard me say that. "What? Okay, I'm confused." I sighed when Gabby asked me that. "Here, let's lay down side-by-side while facing each other."
Gabby agreed with me when I said that, rolling over onto her side (while putting the TV remote on her side table). At the same time, I got close to the woman I love and brought her body against mine. Slipping her legs in between mine, Gabby took a breath as she put her hand on my chest. Putting my hand on his as I slipped my arm under her head, I looked down into Gabby's eyes. "Baby, what are you talking about? Trying to find excuses to stay in Chicago for the past couple months. Baby, we agreed to talk to each other…promise to do that right now?" I nodded when Gabby asked me that. I then put my hand on her neck as I bent down and kissed her softly. "I will, I promise." Gabby agreed with me when I said that, feeling me move my hand to her back. "Talk to me baby." I agreed with Gabby when she said that. "You've been trying to find excuses to stay in Chicago? Tell me about that part baby." I took a breath when Gabby asked me to talk to her about, since she left.
Since she left Chicago to come here in the first place, how I have been trying to find excuses to stay in Chicago rather than just coming to join her here. "The truth is, I already knew that I should've came here in the first place. I should've come be with you. Yet, at the same time….I didn't come be with you. Rather, I was a coward and decided to stay way because I was too scared to come." Gabby was confused when she heard Matt say that. "Baby, you are anything but a coward. You are a brave firefighter, please never call yourself a coward." I agreed with Gabby when she said that, proceeding to kiss her forehead softly. "I mean, I'm a coward because I was too scared to come be with you. I was too scared that I would be thrown out, and that you wouldn't want to see me." Gabby shook her head when me say that, feeling him put his hand on her leg. Stroking it, I looked into my beautiful wife's eyes; the eyes that I love looking into more than anything.
"Baby, you're my husband. If you came all the way here, I would've let you in. I would've wanted you to be here, because you're my husband. I love you baby, and that's never going to have. And I don't care what you think." I agreed with Gabby when she told me that. Smiling, I was just so happy that we're in the midst of holding each other close. God, she is just so damn sexy; and I love her more that anything in the entire world. And she's well aware that's the case due to the fact that she's currently laying down in my arms, all cuddled up to me as we relaxed in each other's arms. Moving my hand to her arm (as she wrapped it tighter around my torso), I smiled as I kissed her forehead softly and then whispered to her. "I love you, and I'm already very happy here. I'm happy here because it's time for us to do something else." Gabby agreed with me when I told that, nodding her head before looking down into my gorgeous wife's eyes. God, she is so sexy.
At the same time, I bent down and proceeded to kiss her softly. "And even better, we get to give back to others as we just live our lives together; and we get to be together in a gorgeous place, a place that's warm and just beautiful. Plus, me being able to take sexy swims with you in the ocean every once and a while isn't that bad either." Gabby laughed as she heard me tell her that, nodding as she whispered to me. "And you aren't going to miss being a firefighter?" Moving my hand to her arm, I ran my hand up and down it so that I could show her that I love her. "I will never miss being a firefighter, if it means that I get to have you as my wife. You are the love of my life, and that's all that matters at the end of the day. If I have you in my life, then I will be a very happy man." Gabby smiled as she looked into her husband's eyes. "And children in the future?" I laughed when Gabby asked me if we are going to have kids in the future, a future that will include her being alive.
"Oh baby, we're going to have a bunch of kids in the future; and we're going to raise them in Puerto Rico. Baby, as much as we want to call Chicago home, we both know that we weren't happy there anymore. We've had so many bad fights there, and we've had so many hard times in our marriage; and I just feel like it's time for us to try something new in our marriage. And that something new, it's a life together in Puerto Rico." Gabby agreed with me when I said that, smiling as she's very happy over the fact that this is their new life; and it's part of their future now. We're going to have kids in the future, and that's just a dream come true. It's everything that she's ever wanted to hear. She loves the idea of Matt being a dad. "What do you want to have first?" I smiled when Gabby asked me that. "I want to have a baby girl first." Gabby seemed shocked.
"What? You want to have a baby girl first?" Matt nodded when I asked him that. "Yeah, I do. Since you don't have an aneurysm, we can always try again. So, I want to have a daughter first." I agreed with Matt when he told me that, smirking as I got nice and close to him. Afterwards, I wrapped my arm around his head and just started to take things slow with my wonderful husband. "We going for it?" I nodded when Matt asked me if we're going for it. "I want to get pregnant." Matt agreed with me when I said that, obviously wanting that too. "I want the same time." I agreed with Matt when he said that, rolling over so that I was laying down on my back. Afterwards, I felt Matt climb on top of me and put his hand on my neck. Taking things nice and slow with the man of my dreams, I smirked due to the fact that Matt truly is the man of my dreams. God, he is so damn sexy; and I am so proud of the fact that he's my husband. "Let's just take it easy until we fall asleep."
Matt agreed with me, smirking as he did just that; he took things nice and slow with me, giving me exactly what I wanted.
Note to Readers:
I know that this day was short. However, I have decided that I just want to go ahead and start the next morning with them completely unpacked. I hoped that you guys enjoyed the first two chapters of Puerto Rico life. Now, let's get to something nice that you guys will definitely enjoy; a dream of their hypothetical future. Please remember that dreams are hypothetical future, and that means that there are chances that the dreams will not come true. But regardless, I am still going to do it. Now, let's get onto a nice dream that you guys are going to enjoy. Thanks again for reading, now let's get after it.
