Hello Readers: Sorry I am starting so late. However, that doesn't mean that I don't plan on trying to get as many chapters as I can out to you guys today. I hope you guys enjoy the chapters, including the ones that include Stellaride. Thanks again for reading. Now, let's get back to it this afternoon. Here's Chapter Ninety-Seven, the last for December 22nd, 2018.

Chapter Ninety-Seven
I Feel So Bad

She was currently in bed with her husband, laying down in his arms as they cuddled up to each other. With her arms wrapped tight around his torso as she tried to concentrate on the movie that she and Matt were watching, supposedly together; but the truth was, she couldn't think about anything other than what she learned over the day. The things that she learned about her best friend, about the fact that she miscarried their first child. She knew that pain all too well, and she couldn't help but think about the memories the came with the idea of a miscarriage. More specifically, the pain that came with remembering that they lost their first child. And Matt knew that, he knew that his wife was hurting at the moment as she was thinking about the fact that they lost a child together; which was the exact reason why he made a promise to Gabby that they would just hold each other tonight, and that he wouldn't try anything with her this evening.

And she appreciated that, as it allowed her to do what she wanted to do tonight. She wanted to think about her best friend, and how she could help her; which was something that she was going to do regardless of whether they were just holding each other like this in bed, or if they were making love to each other in bed. So, that was why she asked Matt to not have sex tonight. If she was having sex with her husband, she wanted all of her attention to be on him rather than anybody (or anything) else; and that turned up to be the case, as you are very well aware of since we already told you what Gabby is thinking about at the moment. She's thinking about her best friend, and her boyfriend. But what Gabby didn't know, was that Matt was thinking about the same thing. He was thinking about Kelly and Stella right now, and how much he's really hurting for the both of them right now. Taking a breath, Matt looked down at his wife and just knew that she was doing it.

He knew that she was thinking about the same thing as him, so that was what they were going to talk about at the moment; which required him to pause the movie so that he could talk to her, while continuing to lay down with her on his chest like this. Well, not exactly ON his chest; she's just on his chest as much as she can, and that was due to the fact that she was pregnant with their twins. But that was not what he was thinking about right now, as he was concentrating on making sure that he and Gabby spoke about this before they fell asleep in each other's arms. He just wanted to talk to her, and made sure that they relaxed with each other this evening. Looking at his girl, Matt ran his hand up and down her back while whispering to her. "Hey, you want to talk tonight?" Gabby took a breath as her husband asked her whether she wanted to talk right now, well aware that he knew the exact thing that she was thinking about at the moment; their best friends.

"Having gone through this in the past, I just feel so bad for the both of them." Matt agreed with his beautiful wife when she said that, pressing his lips to her forehead as they both held each other close. This is exactly what they both needed to do at the moment, and they just needed to relax with each other as they spoke about this before they headed to bed this evening; as if they didn't speak about it, she was just going to think about it all night. "And I hate that there's nothing that we can do to fix this. I hate that we can't do anything to help them, when I want to do just that. I want to help her more than anything in the entire world." Matt knew that was the truth the moment it came out of Gabby's mouth, taking a breath as he went ahead and pressed another kiss to her forehead this evening as a way to get his wife to calm down; after all, that was what she always needed to do when they laid down in bed together at night before they fell asleep.

"I mean…" Matt then proceeded to run his hand up and down Gabby's back, looking down at her. "Hey, just take it easy and relax baby. I know that's going on in your mind right now, and I know that you hate that you can't do anything for our friends. You think that I like the fact that I can't do anything for Kelly at the moment?" Gabby shook her head when Matt asked her whether he liked the fact that he can't do anything for his best friend at the moment, well aware that he felt the same way as she did with regards to helping Stella right now. She wants to help Stella through this as much as she can, but she doesn't know how to do that at the moment. She just can't figure it out, because their scenarios were so different. Hers was much more tragic than that of Stella's, and she doesn't know whether it would be right to compare the both of them right now. She just wants to make her friend feel better, and she doesn't want to try and compare the two at all.

Running his hand up and down his wife's back some more, Matt took a breath as he went ahead and kissed the top of Gabby's head; wanting to make sure that she just takes it easy and concentrates on what really matters at the moment. And that's taking it easy both for her sake, and for the sake of their twins. While he does understand the want to help her best friend as much as she can, she doesn't need to do it all the time; rather, she always needs to think about her health first and foremost as she's pregnant right now. Sure, he hates saying that she can't concentrate on her best friend as much as she's no longer pregnant (as that child was also the child of his own best friend); but he's her husband, and he needs to think about the health and safety of both his wife and future children before he thinks about his best friend and his girlfriend. He just hates that he can't do both at the same time, as much as he wants to at this moment (which Gabby knows, of course).

"What are you thinking about Matt? I mean, you've been quiet; and you must have something to say about this." Matt sighed when he heard his wife ask him that, still trying to figure out the right thing to say at the moment as he didn't want to upset her or their best friends. "Honestly, I just have a lot going on. I don't even know whether I want to ask Kelly to help me at the moment, when I wonder if he should be with Stella more than with me." Gabby agreed with her husband when he said that, well aware that was the case; and that was also on her mind, as she didn't know whether it was the right time for her to really think about possibly starting a clothing line when her friend is so hurt at the moment. "Believe me baby, I understand that more than you will ever know." Matt took a breath when he heard Gabby say that, continuing to run his hand up and down her back as he once again kissed the top of her head; after which, he moved his fingers to her hair.

Running his fingers through her hair this evening, Matt took a breath as he just concentrated on the situation that was in front of him at the moment. And that was the fact that he had his beautiful wife on his chest, laying down very intimately with him as they just relaxed in each other's arms; and the truth was, that his wife should be what he should really be concentrating on at the moment. "God, I should really just be thinking about you though. That's what I keep thinking in the back of my mind as you're the one that's pregnant right now, and you're my wife of course." Gabby agreed with Matt when he told her that, well aware that it was the truth right now. She was the only woman who was currently pregnant right now, and he should want to concentrate on her more than he wants to concentrate on his best friend's girlfriend. Yet, he also wants to be there for his friend; especially when he's been in a similar situation as him just a few years earlier.

He can relate to everything that Kelly's going through, as he's lost everything that he's lost recently. His father, his first child, he's lost his first fiancé, and just so much more. The way that they are alike is crazy. "I swear, there are times where I really wonder whether me and Kelly are the same person, because we have been through so many of the same things. We've been estranged from our moms, and our siblings. We've both lost a fiancé, and we've both lost a child." Gabby thought about it, before looking up at Matt. "Which fiancé did he loose?" Matt smiled. "The one that cheated on him?" Gabby then remembered that. "Right, we're talking about the one that Shay defended him against her lieutenant brother." Matt agreed with his wife when she said that, smiling as he proceeded to kiss her forehead softly. "Yeah.." Gabby then took a breath. "I miss her Matt." Matt agreed with his wife when she said that, well aware that's the truth. "I know baby."

Matt then thought about Andy. "And I miss Andy so much too." Gabby just laid her head down on Matt's chest, proceeding to listen to his heartbeat as they both held each other close. "Do you ever dream of what things would be if they were still alive?" Matt nodded when Gabby asked him whether he dreams of Andy sometimes. "All the time baby. I wonder what we would be doing to get us ready for the twins, as he's the only friend of mine; well, that's my age that's done this before. I mean, I could ask Christie or your brother…but that wouldn't be the same as asking him." Gabby agreed with Matt when he told her that, well aware that was the truth. "God, I still hate what my brother did." Matt nodded as he heard Gabby say that, proceeding to wrap his arm around his wife, just holding her close to him before kissing her forehead softly. "Yeah, I had a feeling that we were going to talk about that tonight." Gabby took a breath when she heard Matt say that.

"We don't have to if you don't want to talk about it." Gabby sighed when Matt asked her whether she wants to talk about it. "Honestly, I have no clue whether I really want to talk about it. I think I just want to cuddle up to my man and hold him close to me." Matt smiled as he heard Gabby tell him that, not really going to object to that as he wanted to do the same thing with her. "I am telling you right now, you are not going to hear a single objection from me if that's that you want to do." Gabby agreed with her loving husband when he told her that, proceeding to lay her head down on his chest while they cuddled up to each other in bed. Afterwards, Matt ran his hand up and down Gabby's back while kissing her forehead softly. "Tomorrow, we need to hang out with them again I think." Gabby agreed with Matt when he said that they needed to hang out with their friends again. "And we need to distract them somehow." Matt smiled as he kissed her forehead softly.

"I could always try and get him to help me with the incorporation documentation that we need to do." Gabby agreed with Matt when he said that, looking up at him. "Oh, I'm sure that you'd love some help with that." Matt smirked when he heard Gabby ask him that, proceeding to wrap his arm around her back as they both held each other close this evening. He then went ahead and bent down to kiss the woman of his dreams. After which, he decided to roll over so that he was leaning on top of her. Putting her hand on Matt's face, Gabby smirked as she looked up into his eyes and then kissed him softly. Just taking things nice and slow with his gorgeous wife, Matt smirked due to the fact that she truly is such a gorgeous woman; and he (of course) loves her more than anything in the entire world. "I've yet to write in my blog for a while." Matt agreed with Gabby when she said that, before thinking about something. "Can we talk about that actually?" Gabby was confused.

"About what?" Matt took a breath. "On our sides?" Gabby agreed with Matt when he asked her if they can lay down on their sides, proceeding to lay down as Matt wanted so that they could have a quick conversation this evening.

Matt's POV:
As I laid down close to Gabby this evening, I took a breath due to the fact that I hate that I even have to talk about this with her; but I also know just how passionate she is about her blog, and I know that she doesn't exactly have a filter at times. But there's something that we both need to talk about quickly. And that's about how she's going to talk about our company, and the plans that we may make. As much as I trust her, I know that her filter hasn't been the best ever since she's gotten pregnant (she's fixed some of the parts of it). And while I already know that she's not going to share anything about Kelly and Stella, I can't say the same about the company, which may be things that I want to keep a bit more on the down-low until we get things started, and stuff patented. I just want her to know what I'm thinking. Now, time to just make sure that she knows that I trust her more than anybody, but that she needs to remember that we are going to keep this quiet for now.

"Okay, so listen…I need to talk to you about your blog, and how I may need to filter it for a while." Looking at me as I said that. "Excuse me? I thought we agreed that we wouldn't filter it. That you would let me post." I took a breath when Gabby told me that, grabbing her hand. "Okay, just hear me out. We both know that since you got pregnant, your filter has gone down a lot." Gabby agreed with me as I told her that, well aware that was the case. "Oh, tell me about it. I always have to bite my tongue." I agreed with Gabby when she told me that, stroking her stomach as I held her in my arms. "Baby, that's why I'm worry. I'm worried that you're going to post something about the business…which is something that we want to keep to ourselves." Gabby just looked at me as I told her that. "Oh god, I didn't even think about that." I agreed with Gabby when she told me that. "Baby, I love you; but I need to think about this as something serious. We don't want people to…"

Gabby understood right away what I was trying to tell her. "We don't want people to try and steal what we plan on doing." I agreed with Gabby when she told me that. "I was literally just thinking the exact same thing. And that's why I wanted to talk to you. I just wanted to make sure that, we're on the same page when it comes to how much you share; and when you can share it. I get that you want to keep that blog going, and I get that you want to share whatever you can. But you need to know that there are going to be things that you can't share about the company, as we want to keep that secret for a while; we want to keep our plans private. So just…" Getting close to me, Gabby smiled as she slipped her legs in between mine and then put her hand on my face to kiss me softly. "Hey, take a breath and stare into my eyes Mr. Casey." I agreed with Gabby when she told me that. Just taking things nice and slow with me, Gabby smiled as she was happy with me right now.

"I love you, I understand; and you don't need to explain more than you already have baby. I get what you're trying to say, and you're just repeating yourself now." I agreed with Gabby when she told me that, smiling as I put my hand on her arm. God, the way she makes me feel is incredible. "I love you so much." Gabby agreed with me as I told her that. "And I love you more than anything in the entire world too, which is why I am so glad that we're here in Hawaii; and that we're going to have kids together. "God, I love you so much…and I am so glad that this is what we're doing right now." Gabby agreed with me as I told her that, just cuddling up to me as she wrapped her arms around my waist. Afterwards, she laid her head down on my pillow and cuddled up to me. Putting my hand on her stomach, I smiled as I stroked it with my thumb. "Can we promise each other something baby?" Gabby turned to look at me when I asked her that question. "What is it Matt."

Turning my head, I stared down into Gabby's beautiful eyes before leaning my forehead against hers. "I want us to remember the entire time that we love each other, and that you need to take it for the sake of our kids. If I ever tell you something about the blog, it's not to upset you; it's because of business. I know it's going to be hard, but is there any way that we can put the business and family aside when it comes to the blog? I know that might be hard but…I am just going to be in a hard spot. As your husband, I want you to continue with the writing; and I want you to express yourself in whatever way I can help you do that, but I am going to want to keep some things private about the business so that we can keep it." Gabby agreed with me as I asked her that. "We can find a way to do anything, as long as we talk." I agreed with my beautiful wife when she said that, proceeding to kiss her softly. Just taking things nice and slow with Gabby, I smirked.

"God, I love you so much; and I am so glad that we figured this out without a fight." Gabby agreed with me, smiling as she continued to kiss me nice and slowly. And that was exactly what we did for the rest of the night. We just took things slow with each other before we fell asleep in each other's arms, which is something that we both enjoy doing. God, the way that me and Gabby just kiss each other slowly is always a lot of fun; god, she is so damn sexy…and I am so glad that she's my wife. Oh, and the future mother of my children. God, that will be incredible; and I can't wait to raise these beautiful children together. The children we both have always wanted.