Hi Readers, and welcome to another day of chapters. I know that my chapters have been on the shorter side of late, and I promise that I am going to try and make them longer; after all, I want to write more than a million words in this story very soon. But that's not what I'm going to concentrate on at the moment. Rather, I am going to concentrate on writing you guys a chapter that is a direct follow up to the last chapter. Here we go with Chapter One Hundred and Fifty-One.

Chapter One Hundred and Fifty-One

They decided that they were just going to stay in bed together for the rest of the day, stay in bed so that they could talk; so that they could concentrate on each other, and so that Gabby could make sure that Matt was okay. Okay after what just happened downstairs when he told her family that he has PTSD. But the wife already knew, he wasn't okay right now; and she also knew that he definitely was not in a place to work, as she now knew the real reason that he was working. And that was so that he didn't have to think about how he's feeling right now, how he's just so confused and lost when it comes to his PTSD; and just what this means for his future, their future. And that means that he's worrying about all the wrong things right now. Yes, does the wife love that he's solely concentrated on her and their twins? Of course, she is, as she loves the feeling of having all of her loving husband's attention on her. But right now, that was not what her husband needed to do.

Rather, he needed to concentrate on himself; and at the same time, she needed to concentrate on her man. The man who had so much on his mind, and the wife could just tell that there were things that he wanted to talk to her about; that he's probably wanted to talk to her for a while. But he just didn't know how. He didn't know how to talk to his wife about it, which was very abnormal for Matt. And even worse, it just made Gabby feel so sad; as she wants her husband to feel like he can always talk to her, but that wasn't the case right now. And that was due to the fact that this was all new to him. Right now, she wasn't the only one who was learning how to deal with PTSD; rather, Matt was still trying to figure it all out himself. And as much as he wanted to help his own wife learn about how she can help him with his PTSD, he just doesn't feel like he has to ability to do so properly right now; and that would do a disservice to his wife (in his opinion).

He wants to help her understand, help her understand how he's feeling right now; but he can't, and that's due to the fact that he just feels lost. And that feeling that he has right now, it worries him; and that's due to the fact that this is the last feeling that he wants to feel right now. Especially not when they're about to have twins. And he especially doesn't want to do anything that can cause them harm, as that truly was his worst fear. He's scared that he'll do something to hurt the kids. And that was actually what he and Gabby were in the midst of talking about at the moment, that he was scared to hurt the kids; as they laid down side by side in bed, with Matt clad in nothing but his boxers. At the same time, Gabby was just wearing her lingerie as they had plans to just stay in bed; they were going to stay in bed so that he can relax with Gabby. And while he was resting in bed with her, they're going to talk so that they can figure some stuff of right now.

And just what might that be? What just happened downstairs. And luckily, Antonio and Camila completely understood that they needed to do this; so, they left and just gave them some time to be alone. Time that they were going to definitely need as they prepared to talk to each other, a conversation that Matt was very grateful that they were going to be having with each other; after all, he didn't want to have them here…especially not when they were going to just be staying up here to talk, and especially not while he was in the state that he's currently in. He just doesn't feel like himself, and he hates it; he hates that he's in this state, where he doesn't feel like himself at the moment. And that was definitely something that Gabby could see as she came out of the washroom, ready to join Matt in bed. "How are you feeling?" Looking up at his pregnant wife as she walked out in her lingerie, Matt was shocked. "Wow." Gabby agreed with Matt, smiling at her man.

"I thought maybe this might help you open up to me." Matt just smiled as he slipped over to Gabby's side of the bed, before sitting up so that he could have Gabby step close to him; so that he could hold her in his arms the moment she made her way over to him right now, as that was exactly what he needed right now. He needed Gabby in his arms, and he needed to just take it easy with her; and that was something that Gabby was well aware of. She knew that he needed to just hold her in his arms, as they talked about all of this. That way, they would be able to talk about everything that's going on. Making her way right over to their bed this afternoon, Gabby smiled as she got in with Matt while preparing to cuddle up to him; that way, he was going to have the ability to hold her as she laid down in his arms. At the same time, she would have the ability to figure out just what's going on with her husband right now; after all, she is quite worried about him and his mental health. With him having already been diagnosed with PTSD, there's just a lot going on in their lives at the moment.

Laying down in Matt's arms shortly after climbing into bed with her loving husband, Gabby smiled as she slipped close to him and then moved her arm under his head; at the same time, she put her hand on his chest. Afterwards, she put her other hand on his face and leaned in to kiss him softly; she kissed him softly to just calm Matt down, and make sure that he takes it easy. Well, not just Matt; that Gabby takes it easy too, as she's pregnant. But that was not Gabby's main concern at the moment, that was her husband. The husband who currently had his hand on her stomach and was stroking it with his thumb. At the same time, Gabby put her hand on his face while whispering to him. "Baby, do me a favor and just breathe for me okay? Just breathe and relax. I'm right here, and I'll always be right here, as we deal with this together." Matt took a breath as he heard Gabby say that as he was well aware that was the case, for the rest of their lives.

He just hates that this is how he's feeling right now. He feels like, she shouldn't be worrying about this; rather, he should be worrying about Gabby, his pregnant wife. Right now, he should not be worrying about himself. He just felt so conflicted at the moment, but he needs this; he needs to take a moment with his wife so that he can just take it easy and breathe, as it'll allow him to calm down (which is good for both Gabby and the twins. Yet, at the same time, he also needs to take care of his pregnant wife, which is his primary job as her husband. There's just so much going on right now, and he just can't figure it out; and that makes him worry all the time, which can easily cause stress to his pregnant wife. Just taking a breath, Matt put his hand on Gabby's before intertwining their fingers; and that led to Gabby slipping close to her loving husband and grabbing the back of his head. At the same time, Matt bent down and proceeded to kiss her softly.

Putting his hand on Gabby's side as he kissed his beautiful wife, Matt smirked due to the fact that this is exactly what he wants to be doing with his girl right now. He just needs to take it easy with her, as they relax in bed; as they relax in bed, and hold each other extremely close (as that was exactly what Matt and Gabby both wanted to do right now). But it wasn't just what Matt wanted to do right now, rather it was what he needed to do with his wife right now; he needs to hold the woman he loves (and their children) in his arms, and he needs to take it easy with her as he takes a bit of time to figure all of this out. And he especially needs to figure it all out before they welcome the twins, because that's what really matters to him at the end of the day; that he makes sure that he's in a good headspace for when they have the twins, and he needs to ensure that there's nothing that can change how he's going to be as a dad. Is he worried about what type of dad he'll be?

Of course, he's worried about it right now. What pending father isn't worried about what type of father he'll be? It's a natural feeling that comes whenever a man becomes a pending father, but this is something that he never expected to deal with; and that's especially the case when he's always wanted to have a child. And that means that he's always visioned how the pregnancy would go like, and this was definitely not how he thought it'd go. Rather, the pregnancy was going fine; but he was also dealing with something that he never expected to deal with. And that was having to wonder what type of father he's going to be, while also having to deal with PTSD. Just looking at the woman he loves, Matt decided to bring up the topic in the most casual way that he could think of right now. "Can we talk?" Looking into Matt's eyes, Gabby smiled when he asked her whether they can talk. After all, that's a question that she's been waiting him to ask her for a while.

After all, it's why she's here right now; it's why she followed him upstairs, so that she can be here if he needs to talk to her. Right now, she's quite worried about the man she loves, and she just wants to do whatever she can too make sure that he's okay. "The truth is, I've been waiting for you to ask me that question." Matt took a breath while looking down at his wife, wrapping his arm around her nice and tight; at the same time, Gabby put her hand on his arm and made sure that he was getting all of the comfort that she could possibly give him right now. And that was definitely something that Matt was quite happy about, as he felt like he needed this comfort from her right now; and that led him to giving Gabby a nice kiss, which was his way to show the woman he loves that he's very appreciative over the fact that she's currently with him right now. "Matt, I want you to talk to me about this so that we can figure this out." Matt took a breath as he agreed with Gabby.

Nodding as he agreed with her, Matt took a breath before he continued to listen to Gabby (as she wasn't done speaking to him yet). "I can see that you're really worried right now, and that just breaks my heart; and I especially hate the fact that you feel like you can't talk to me about this baby, because you can talk to me about this. I promise Matt, that you can always talk to me about this. I'm your wife, and I love you more than anything in the entire world. You know that right?" Matt agreed with Gabby as she asked him whether he knows that she loves him more than anything in the entire world, which he definitely does; after all, she's told him that same phrase numerous times before. "I really don't know where I'd be without you Gabby, and I hope you k now that." Gabby blushed and smiled when Matt mentioned that, before giving him a sweet kiss; a kiss that she was still hoping would encourage him to open up to him even more than he already has.

"And I hope you know that I love you more than anything in the entire world Matt." Matt agreed with his beautiful wife when she said that, smiling at his girl before feeling her slip even closer to him; she then wrapped her arm around his shoulder as she gave her loving husband some comfort. And that was exactly what her husband needed at the moment, especially from her; she needs to give her husband the same type of comfort that he gives her whenever he comforts her, and that's by holding him in her arms. So, she was doing the same for him; after all, it's what she needs right now. But this was not the only type of comfort that she was open to giving to her husband, as she was also open to giving her husband sexual comfort; in fact, that was why she was currently wearing lingerie for him at the moment. She thought that, by her wearing lingerie; that she thought it would be a great tool for her to get Matt to open up to her this afternoon.

She wants him to talk to her as they laid down in bed together, while they held each other close; and that was exactly what Matt needed at the moment, so Gabby was more than happy to give it to him. That, and as she just said; she's even open to giving him sexual comfort, which they will definite do later. "Baby, what do you need from me right now? I know you're nervous when it comes to talking about this, and you're still dealing with this on your own. But you need to remember this baby; you aren't on your own when you deal with this baby, because you have me to help you every step of the way. Taking a breath, Matt looked into Gabby's eyes while he ran his fingers up and down her leg; which Gabby really enjoyed feeling, especially when Matt was definitely in no place to feel like he needs to give her some sexual attention. He just needs to take it easy, and talk to her right now; which she wants him to do more than anything, especially when she wants to help him.

Pressing a soft kiss on Gabby's forehead once again as he held her in his arms, Matt sighed. "I'm just worried that if we talk about this too much, that I'll scare you so much that…you'll change your mind as to whether you want to raise the twins with me." Gabby was shocked when she heard Matt say that, especially when he finished his thought. "Because I might do something to hurt them, or even worse; I might do something to hurt you." Gabby just shook her head when Matt said that, not wanting her husband to thing that way at all, as that will never happen (in her opinion); Matt just loves her too much, and he's going to love their sons too much for him to ever lay a hand on either of them. It's simply just not the man she married, and there is no way that Matt will ever turn into that man; as he doesn't have it in him to hurt her in such a way. "Okay, I want you to look into my eyes right now Mr. Casey." Matt agreed with Gabby, doing just that for her right now.

He then bent down and proceeded to kiss his beautiful wife softly, taking things nice and slow with the woman of his dreams. "Baby, you're my husband, and the love of my life; nothing will ever make me not want to be your wife. Baby, I love you; and I love all of you. Just because you have PTSD, that doesn't mean that you aren't still the man I love. Baby, we just renewed our vows yesterday. I meant everything I said yesterday, and I still mean it today. I'll mean it tomorrow, and everyday for the rest of my life. Matt, you have to know that's the truth." Matt took a breath when he heard Gabby tell him that, before nodding as he did know that was the truth; he knew that was always going to be the truth, and he can't argue with his wife when she said that. Heck, he even feels stupid that he even thought that way for a moment. "God, I feel stupid for thinking that way now." Gabby shook her head when she heard him say that, wanting him to look in her eyes right now.

"Baby, do me a favor and just take a breath okay?" Matt agreed with Gabby when she said that, doing just that for her as he felt Gabby slip close to him; she then put her hand on his face, and proceeded to kiss him softly. At the same time, Matt put his hand on her stomach while taking things nice and slow with the woman he loves more than anything in the entire world. "Baby, you're my husband; and I love you today, I'll love you tomorrow, and every day after that. I love you more today, than I did yesterday; and I'll love you more tomorrow, than I did today. I love you more each and every day, because you're the man I love; and you're also the only man that I can ever see myself growing old with. We're having kids together, and we're going to have more kids together. And these children were conceived out of love, which is how I've felt for you for the longest time; as I have loved you since I first laid my eyes on you when we met at the firehouse." Matt agreed.

"Matt, I am so happy to be your wife; and for you to think that you having PTSD will change that is ridiculous, and it's the least of your concerns. Especially when I'm sure that I have some PTSD too." Matt was shocked when she heard Gabby say that. "You do?" Gabby nodded. "Baby, Shay died next to me on the day we were supposed to get engaged; we lost our child, and I also almost lost my husband. I just don't have it as bad as you do." Matt agreed with Gabby as she told him that, definitely agreeing that she could very well have PTSD; she could easily have PTSD just like him as she's gone through some of the same types of situations as he had, and that even includes some situations that they've gone through together. Taking a breath when Gabby said that, Matt was well aware that he wasn't thinking to the best of his abilities at the moment; after all, he's still dealing with all of this as he tries to figure it out more and more each and every day.

"Sorry, I guess I'm just…" Wrapping her arms around Matt's torso as much as she could, Gabby just listened to the man she loves (and will always love) as he continued to speak to her this afternoon; speak to her about just how much he loves her. "…I'm just lost at the moment because I guess…this is the only identity that I have right now. The ex-firefighter with PTSD." Gabby stared at her loving husband when he said that, as that was definitely not the truth; nor will it ever be the truth. "Hey, you look into my eyes right now." Turning his head, Matt looked down into Gabby's eyes once again as he put his hand on her lower back; before proceeding to stroke it with his thumb. "You are my husband, the love of my life, and the future father of our twins. You're a businessman, who has saved lives, and who will change lives; I know that baby, and you know that too. That's who you are. Please do not call yourself an ex-firefighter with PTSD, as that is not your identity.

Matt took a breath when he heard his beautiful wife tell his identity is not that of an ex-firefighter with PTSD, rather it is that of a businessman, and future father who has saved lives in the past and will change lives for the rest of his life. And let's just say that was something that Matt enjoyed the sound of that, which is just the way he loves being called. Leaning in, Matt smiled as he put his hand on Gabby's check before kissing her softly; which them led them to sharing a very passionate kiss with each other. "Matt, I love you so much; and I am so proud to call you my husband, and I will always be proud to call you my husband. Please, just take it easy and relax baby." Matt agreed with Gabby when she said that, proceeding to told her nice and close to him this afternoon; who then went ahead and wrapped her arms around him as much as she could, which really made Matt feel really nice. It was just something that he will always enjoy the feeling of right now.

Pressing a kiss to Gabby's forehead, Matt just smiled due to the fact that he was very happy with her; and that was exactly what they were currently feeling right now, pure joy over the fact that they are together at the moment. And even better, they are alone in bed with each other. Kissing his beautiful wife's forehead, Matt smiled as he felt Gabby put her hand on his chest while they held each other close. He then looked down at her, and just smiled as he stared into her eyes. At the same time, Matt bent down and left a soft kiss on his beautiful wife's lips. A kiss that was very much wanted from the woman who was currently laying down in bed with the man she loves more than anything in the entire world. "I hope you know that you truly are the woman I love more than anything in the entire world." Gabby agreed with Matt as he told her that, just smiling due to the fact that she's well aware that's the case. "Oh, I am well aware that's the case baby."

Matt smirked as he stared to take things nice and slow with the woman he loves, really starting to crave her after all the things that she just told him; the things that really made him change his mind right now. "Just curious, how much convincing would I have to do for me to get you in bed right now." Gabby smiled as Matt asked her that, as she wants him too; but she then thought about something, something that can easily help him change his mind away from PTSD. "Well, if you want me; then you need to do it a certain way." Matt was confused when he heard Gabby tell him that, as he wasn't sure what way he had to do it. "Sorry, but what way would that be?" Gabby smirked as she ran her finger down his cheekbone, which was something that Matt enjoyed. Another thing that he enjoyed? Whenever they got sexy like this. "I don't just want my husband to make love to me, I want you to do all of it; I want to you to do it over the top."

Matt was confused when he heard Gabby say that. "And what exactly do you mean over the top?" Gabby smirked as she looked at the man she loves. "I want you to take things slow, and I want you to really make love to me rather than have sex to me. I want the whole works. The teasing, the kisses; everything. I want to take it slow, and I want you to make sure that you do it well." Matt smiled when Gabby said that, really liking the idea of what she was saying. He then leaned in and proceeded to kiss Gabby softly, taking things nice and slow with his beautiful wife. "I love that idea. Here in bed?" Gabby agreed with Matt when he asked her that, smiling as she looked into Matt's eyes. "Make love to me right now baby, and just take things slow with me." Matt agreed with his wife when she said that, smiling as they both proceeded to take things nice and slow with his gorgeous wife; ready to make love to his gorgeous wife this afternoon, just like she asked him to.