I'm sorry it took me so long but it just wouldn't flow! Anyway, here it is. Dick Wolf owns the SVU characters, enjoy!
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"Maybe you should take some Lamaze classes, you know, to get you ready for the big event?" Amanda said, plumping Olivia's pillows while Olivia sat tying her gown.
"I would but I don't see the point; nobody can teach me how to push out a baby. God..." She put her hands on her back and stretched "I wish I had done this when I was younger; pregnancy is brutal in your 40's!"
"Here" she reached out and started to rub Olivia's lower back while she sat forward in bed.
"Oh god, that feels so good!"
"I've been told!" She grinned "so when do you get out of here?"
"Hopefully today...if the doctor thinks I can continue the treatment at home"
"But, I mean you're feeling better, right?"
"Physically…"
"Should I ask?" She asked as she continued to massage.
"It's nothing, really." She said and while Amanda wanted to ask, she knew that there was no point. "So you said you wanted me to look at a file?" Olivia asked.
"Yeah, I just, are you sure cuz I don't wanna overwh-"
"Amanda, give me the file!"
"Yes ma'am!" Amanda grinned.
Look, you psycho; stop calling me at work! Was what Darrell wanted to say but he couldn't and instead: "You know better!" He warned into the phone. He nearly jumped out of his skin when he saw Bronwyn's name on the ID and he ran into the bathroom. Stupid girl! He thought. Why would she call him and leave her number out there where anyone could have seen it? Was she trying to blow everything apart?
"I have to know where you are with the target!" She whispered ever so nonchalantly as she stared at the open door in case Harlan came.
"Target? She has a name, Bronwyn!"
"Fine, Olivia if you must. What's going on? Are we any closer?"
"Why are you whispering?"
"I…" She couldn't let it slip out about Harlan! Only four people had ever known about him since he'd "died" in Pennsylvania...well five if you count the maid he'd murdered. "My baby is sleeping!"
"Your baby…?" did she even have a kid or was she just bullshitting? He decided that he didn't care and continued on. "Look, Bronwyn" he said, peeking out the room window though the door. "I told you-"
"We can't rush this" she finished "Well I'm sorry, but that's not good enough!"
"It's gonna have to be."
"I don't care! I mean it Darrell, you get her to me!" And just that fast, the call dropped.
"You stupid bitch!" Darrell mumbled.
"Excuse me?" Nick said, having come in the bathroom unbeknownst to Darrell.
"Oh...nothing, wrong number!" He smiled insecurely and left the room quickly while Nick looked after him and shook his head before heading to the urinal.
"Elliot, will you stop?" Olivia said with a laugh. "I'm not an invalid!" from the sofa she took the glass of water he brought to her and quickly swallowed the liquid antibiotic he handed her. The doctor had finally decided that she could go home yesterday and Elliot had been waiting on her hand and foot, much to her disdain.
"Amuse me, I have to go to DC tonight, let me at least make sure you're okay."
"God, that's disgusting!" She said, making a face upon swallowing as the thick, balmy liquid made its way down her throat.
"Would have made it easier if you'd taken pills." He said then realised exactly what he'd said as he got up to take the medicine cup to the sink, silently cursing himself.
"I um…" As he stood rinsing the cup, she slipped for a minute into thoughts of William shoving pills down her throat and she vomiting them back up. "I developed an aversion to them." Was all she said before she went quiet, rubbing her belly. Elliot knew there was something she wasn't telling him but he also knew that it had to be in her own time or not at all.
"I'm sorry." He said as he dried the cup and hung the dishtowel.
"Elliot...it's okay. Come" she said holding out her hands to him. "I wanna talk to you about something."
When he was seated in front of her on the table…
"That kiss yesterday…"
"I don't...I thought it was a good idea at the time but…"
"I liked it…"she said quickly and looked away, chewing on her lip as feelings of guilt washed over her. She looked for something to do with her hands and quickly found them again on her belly. This was what she had been struggling with ever since his lips met hers yesterday morning; the kiss was something she wanted, needed but at the same time it was Elliot. She'd loved him for as long as she could remember but how could she want this now with all of the sexual torture she'd been subjected to? All the men, all the…
"You liked it?" He said, a smile uncontrollably forming on his face. He had been worried that maybe he had moved too fast and now her admission told him that he was worried for nothing.
"...it's just…" Her voice was low, afraid. She didn't want to make him feel that he had done anything wrong; that was the furthest thing from the truth. It had been beautiful. But at the same time, she felt that she didn't deserve it and not only that, but she had agreed to stay with him while she found a place. All that happened with Brian, she didn't feel that she could be here anymore but what if this complicated that?
"Liv, it's okay" he told her quietly, calmly, and meaning what he said. "You don't have to be afraid to say what you're feeling; good or bad I'll understand or at least try to." He didn't want to push things and making her uncomfortable was the last thing he wanted.
"Elliot, I don't know where my head is right now" she said while looking down at her hands and trying to keep her tears at bay. "I um...with the r-rapes and trying to deal with them; the baby...Brian. It's just…"
"-I made you feel overwhelmed?" she looked up at him after a moment and slowly nodded.
"The last thing I wanna do is hurt you…" He gave a smile and took her hands, gently removing them from her belly.
"You are not hurting me." He said and wiped a stray tear from her face. "I'm just glad that you're not doing what the old Olivia would have done and running away from me." She smiled sadly.
"Sometimes I miss her"
"Only sometimes?"
"You know what I mean…"
"I do, I'm only kidding with you… Liv, just the fact that you were able to tell me that you were overwhelmed, that's a start in the right direction.I just hope that you won't let it change your mind about staying with me."
"That's what I'm scared about"
"Hey, look at me...I said I won't push and I meant it; this can go as slow as you need it to go or not at all...though I pray it's not not at all"
"You offered in the heat of the moment and it's your new place" she said rubbing her stomach again.
"I offered because I want you there and I still do but I get it…"
"I just don't wanna feel like me and Serena are intruding… What are you smiling at? I'm being serious!" She said upon watching him.
"You."
"Elliot…"
"She's not just the baby anymore, she has a beautiful name and a personality that I know is gonna be as intense as her mother's. Let me do this for you and her...and it's only temporary" he said, though in his heart he prayed that it would be something more. Three years away with nothing to do but figure out his feelings and he was ready to go all in if she'd let him, and he didn't care about what was attached.
"On one condition"
"Oh boy"
"I'm serious El, I pay rent and you will not undercharge me!"
"Are you kidding?"
"Take it or leave it!"
Their moment was cut short again when the phone rang.
"I'm gonna get that…" He grinned, getting up.
"I'm serious." She said then proceeded to drink the water that he had given her earlier.
"Liv… Eunice Raymond?" Olivia stopped drinking and sat still for a minute. It still put a bit of a shock into her, hearing the ADA's name. Sure, she was on her side, she had been working hard to see to it that the men who had assaulted her, the ones they'd found would go away for a very long time but with the name Eunice Raymond came memories; memories that were hard to shake!
"Olivia, you okay?" Elliot asked worried.
"Yeah...yeah. I'm fine; thanks!" She took the phone and with a shaky breath, put it to her ear. "Hello?"
"Olivia, I've got some good news!"
"Oh my god….oh god, I'm gonna cum again...Darrell!" Blouse open, bra pushed up and her jeans and panties pushed down around her ankles while she was facing the wall and Darrell was behind her; Amanda began to scream as her orgasm tore through her. Darrell hurriedly clamped his hand over her mouth and continued to pound into her from behind while he harshly manipulated her clit. She reached back and grabbed a fistful of his dreads, causing him to lose it. He pulled his hand from between her legs and held her waist tightly as he emptied into her with a strong, powerful final thrust and held it there as they both came down.
"I think I'm gonna have to transfer to another unit!" He said as he kissed her neck from behind before pulling out and pulling his pants up.
"Why?"
"Because...I'm falling for you and I don't think this will work" She turned around and kissed him, the both of them trying to inhale the other. She quickly pulled away when she noticed him becoming hard again and she knew they didn't have the time for it, they were in the cribs and couldn't risk getting caught.
"God why do we have to be at work!" She asked rhetorically as she reached down for her pants only to be met by him already pulling them up.
"I'll see you tonight?"
"I can't...I'm filling in for Fin so he can go to Olivia's tonight."
"It's okay. Hey speaking of Olivia, can I ask you something!"
"Can't promise that I can answer it but…" She said as he fastened her pants. "Thanks babe"
"I've been hearing the name Bronwyn a lot and I know it pertains to Olivia I just don't know how...what's the relation?"
"Uhh...it's complicated. But the short of it… Olivia was kidnapped and the man that took her, Bronwyn was his wife and they did some horrible things to Olivia. Hopefully she'll be going to jail once her trial comes up."
"Trial?"
"I told you, she did some bad things…" she kissed him. "I'm gonna head out"
"Amanda... What about the husband?"
"...bastard died" she said simply and unlocked the door, thanking god that it was practically empty in the station before she slipped out.
Harlan let out a snicker as he sat eating his dinner at the Freed estate where he sat in the dining room with Bronwyn at the big table. For days now he had been thinking about how he smashed Brian's face to pieces before he dumped him in that dumpster and every time, for the life of him he was just so tickled that he couldn't help but laugh like now.
"Let me guess…" Bronwyn said, not realizing her tone.
"You care ta repeat that?"
"It's just...sir, must you laugh everytime? A man is dead." She pointed out quietly.
"And what...you fuckin em? Cuz I don't see a problem!" He barked before he was taken over by laughter again "...boy, the way that board smashed right into his eye, BLAM...took me two tries to pull it out so I could beat him wit it s'more!" He cracked up while Bronwyn sat there not amused. She didn't care about anyone being dead except Olivia, everyone else was unimportant.
"Though now that I think about it" he continued laughing "I probly woulda put the bottle in his ass sooner if I had to do it again!"
"May I be excused?"
"Well what the hell you asking me for ya damn idiot?"
For the longest moment, she sat there and stared at him then got up, grabbing the jar with the baby in it and walked over to him. "Say goodnight to daddy, Harlan."
"Bronwyn get that the fuck outta my face!" Harlan demanded as he got up and threw his fork down. "I'm goin out, don't wait up!"
"Where are you going?"
"The city awaits baby!" He said before he walked out of the dining room, leaving her again standing there quietly fuming.
Ever since the ADA had called her she had been thinking not just of Harlan, but his son and how she'd turned down this same deal when it was offered to her then. She was stronger then and she couldn't let William get that over her, let him stand up in court and basically brag about what he'd done to her, she couldn't give him the satisfaction but now there was so much more to think about, so much more at stake; she had her daughter to think about. What would going through not just one but several trials do to her? She was already on edge and just learning to cope with what happened to her; what she lived through for three months in that house.
"I suppose I should be happy but I don't know how to feel." Olivia said as she walked along Union Square, rubbing her belly through her coat.
"Why didn't you tell Elliot about this?" Fin asked
"I didn't want him to have it on his mind while he's in DC, it would have been all he could think about."
"He wouldn't have went"
"Don't I know it; I mean, I can always refuse the offer but then what? Fifteen different trials? Fifteen times where I have to show up and recount over and over what was done to me" she cried. "where they play those videos and the defense tries to rip me apart? …I can't do it. I've been through it and I can't again, I just..." The baby started to kick then move around beneath her hands and she took a deep breath.
"You okay?"
"Yeah, I'm good...she's so active!"
"That's a good thing right?"
"It is. I feel her moving and it relaxes me but god I wish she'd calm down for twenty minutes." She laughed.
So what are you going to do about the trials?"
"I don't know. "Between Bronwyn's hearing and this… ADA Raymond said that I have time to decide and that's what I'm gonna do; take time to decide. Doc and Harlan won't ever get their justice and the others can wait. I just need time."
"You're sure?"
"I am right now...can we get hot dogs?"
"Come on" Fin smiled and they went off towards the cart. But across the street near the subway, a car was going by when it had to stop at a red light. While it was sitting there waiting for the signal to change, when the driver of said car looked to his left and saw what looked like Olivia only to have her turn so he could see that it was in fact her- he nearly swallowed his tongue! There she was. Her face clear of bruises and looking happy; she was wearing a coat that barely hid her bump that she stood rubbing, comforting his seed, his boy.
"Soon you fuckin cunt! I'll be fuckin your pussy and holdin my boy...real soon!"
If only he knew that Bronwyn had other plans.
2 days later at Bronwyn's little apartment...
"When you arrived at Mr. Holmes's house in Pennsylvania, were you aware that Sergeant Benson was there, and being held prisoner?*
"Well of course I knew…"
"Bronwyn, how many times must we go through this? You are not answering Marilyn Binks, you are answering the district attorney of Pennsylvania."
"Right, I just…can you give me a minute?"
"No."
"But I need to pump"
"You need to...okay, you're still on this." She said under her breath before speaking up. "Bronwyn, I get it okay? You lost your baby, it was painful. But you have to move on, he's not coming back and you pumping milk for whatever reason will not bring him back… You have just under a month before you have to appear in court for what I hope will be a very quick trial and you don't have time to go crazier in the interim, so snap out of it!" She demanded, banging her hand on the table. Bronwyn just stood there, staring out at the rain and holding her baby.
"I told you I needed to pump, now look, I'm leaking!" she said, the two spots on her dress growing bigger.
"Bronwyn…" but she was busy fawning over the stains on her dress before she just decided to focus on her breasts, which were leaking and began to undo the top of her dress, pulling them out of their brassiere and allowed them to leak down the fabric of the dress.
"This is a fine mess!" Bronwyn said, going to the kitchen for a her pump while Marilyn looked on, suddenly wondering just why she ever became a lawyer. God she missed Carlton and Hugette right now!
"Kevin's working the case as well, yes?" Bronwyn asked upon returning from the kitchen, her pump in hand and her breasts still in full view
"Yes, he'll be co-council." Marilyn answered, obviously annoyed at Bronwyn who sat down on the sofa in the small space, hooking her pump.
"Good. You're fired."
"Nice try, now sit your ass still and let's get through these questions!" But Bronwyn, choosing to ignore her attorney turned on the pump to drown her out.
"Elliot, you said this was an apartment, not a house!" Olivia said as Elliot opened the door and she stepped into the bright and cheery space. There was a huge living room with just a couch, a chair, and a television and several boxes off in the corner. There were no curtains at the huge bay window that sat parallel to the door and more boxes as far back as she could see but the house was beautiful, and clean and she already found a likeness in the wood that made up the floors and the trimmings.
"House, apartment...it's Manhattan!" He laughed taking her coat.
"It's huge! I can't believe you live here!" she said as she journeyed deeper inside with him following.
"Got a great deal with the bureau, practically was a steal. I closed on it two weeks ago; still have a lot more furniture to buy, but it has the necessities; you like it?"
"El it's beautiful, but are you sure you want me staying here?"
"Yes."
"But your kids…"
"Will you stop trying to find excuses? My kids are living their own lives and you know they love you even if they weren't, they would want this for you. Come on, sit down."
"I love them, but how're you doing with them?" She asked, sitting slowly on the couch.
"You know, the girls it was a bit of a struggle but after the hurt and tears, they're glad to have their dad back; we still have a way to go but we're talking more and I'm so thankful for that… Dickie on the other hand...he's Dickie!"
"He'll come around"
"Yeah, well meanwhile, Eli doesn't remember me and Kathy is dead set on us not telling him; she and her husband say I should take the life I left for and be happy!"
"El I'm sorry. And I'm sorry I never told you about Mark. Maureen told me a year ago that Kathy had gotten remarried…"
"You've been dealing with things…"
"That's one way to put it" she smiled, rubbing her hand up and down her belly. His hand quickly joined hers and began rubbing.
"How's she doin?"
"Right now, she's dancing on my kidney!"
"That sounds…"
"Yeah... I have to go pee. Where's the bathroom?"
"Right around the corner, and there's one in your room for future reference."
"El are you sure you don't mind, I don't wanna be a bother."
"Liv, go pee. We'll go see your room when your done." He smiled. She stood staring at him for a moment before she smiled.
"Thank you El!" and she kissed his cheek before she walked off. He stood there waiting to see if she got there safely before he went to the kitchen to grab a beer.
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