Title: Losing My Religion (2/?)

Author: hermyone_mex (ChindyAlo on tumblr)

Beta: Calienteyfria

Pairing: Finn/Kurt

Rating: PG-13 for now

Warnings: Angst and angst.

Disclaimer: Glee belongs to FOX and RIB and Chris Colfer and Diet Coke and Llamas and Cory Monteith and Canada. I just want to write Kinn, ok? leave me alone.

Summary: Finn and Kurt are married, they have a daughter, they love each other. They have everything to be happy. But life can change in a second and never go back to be the same.

Notes: As you can see, the names of the chapters are songs that had had Kinn moments in the show, it's something that I wanted to do and the songs also have something related to the chapter. Thank you for reading this fic and also for those who commented the chapter one, it's really nice to know what do you think about this story :)

CHAPTER TWO: I'LL STAND BY YOU

Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
'cause I've seen the dark side too

Kurt was standing in the middle of the kitchen looking at Mercedes writing on paper what John was telling her by phone. His friend had to hang up after he had heard what exactly had happened to Finn. Mercedes had to take him by the arm running to the bathroom where Kurt vomited compulsively for several minutes, then she had taken him to the kitchen to refresh him a bit and after making sure that the man was not coming back to vomit again, she dialed to Finn's cell phone which John had and now she was writing the direction of the hospital where Finn was. She hadn't been brave enough to ask John what the paramedics and the doctors had said about Finn's health status. She didn't want Kurt to listen and, to be honest, she didn't want to know, at least not yet. After knowing what exactly had happened to Finn, her heart was starting to say something that her mind was trying to ignore because she just couldn't think in that way. Kurt needed her now, so she couldn't think in that when she needed to drive him to the hospital and not when she knew she would have to comfort him when he finally fell apart, because what had happened minutes before with Kurt, had been nothing more than the body's normal reaction after had listened to shocking news. But Mercedes knew that Kurt would be emotionally collapsing in any moment, and although she was terrified of that moment, she would have to be there for him as strong as possible. So no, she would not let her mind to be out of control thinking things that weren't happening, she was denying to believe that that could happen.

"Kurt!" she called him but he was submerged in his thoughts "Kurt!" she called stronger and this time he jumped and then looked at her, his eyes were red "Drink it, I need you to be sober as fast as possible," she said pointing the cup of coffee that she had put in front of him, he looked at the cup without really looking forward to drinking it but she insisted "I'm serious, Kurt, we're not leaving until you drink everything." She knew it wasn't fair but being drunk wouldn't help Kurt at all, he sighed and, with shaking hands, he began to drink the coffee.

Mercedes sighed relieved that her friend was still there with her and not completely lost in his thoughts trying to avoid the terrible reality. When he finished the coffee, she approached him taking him by the shoulders and his big blue eyes met hers with a fear that was impossible to describe in words. She breathed deeply.

"Listen to me, Kurt. I want you to listen to me very carefully, ok?" he nodded quickly. "You heard what that boy, John, said, and you know that this is really serious, right?" she talked firmly because she knew that what Kurt needed right not was something strong to stand on. No compassion, that would only make him fall further in the state of nervousness in which he was. "But we need to move slow and not let this take control of you." He nodded again "Good. Now I need you to look for all the important papers of... of Finn and you" Kurt frowned with confusion "His birth certificate, your marriage certificate, your ID, his insurance card, got it?"

"I... yes, yes" he said and hesitated. "Mercedes," he implored with his voice and she rubbed his cheek "I'm so... I'm so..." he couldn't even finish the words but he didn't need to, because she understood what he was trying to say. He was so scared.

She coughed, controlling her tears and trying not letting them to fall.

"I know, honey, me too, me too" she wanted to tell him that everything was going to be fine, that Finn would be fine. But she couldn't, she couldn't know that, nobody could. So she did the only thing that she could to help him right now, take care of everything that was in her hands. And Kurt wasn't crying, he was trying so hard to be strong and not lose his mind so she changed the subject for his sakes. "Where are we leaving Elizabeth? We can't take her with us, you know that, right?"

This time Kurt seemed about to cry at the mention of his daughter, clearly feeling overwhelmed by the idea of his child clueless that one of her fathers was in the hospital fighting for his life. Ironic and so cruel at the same time, that was life sometimes, and Kurt hated it so much at the moment.

"W-we could take her with her nanny, Anne. She lives near here," he said trying to think of nothing more than his daughter, she couldn't see him cry, she couldn't see him nervous because she might not understand what was happening, but children are always more perceptive and he did not want his daughter to feel the anguish that his father had at that time, althought he didn't know how to control that when he felt like he was dying inside.

"Do you trust her?" she asked skeptically "Isn't she like seventeen?"

"Mercedes, do you really think I'll let my daughter every day with someone that I don't trust with my heart?" he asked angrily "Of course I trust her, she's might be young but she's the most responsible girl I ever met, besides, her mom and Carole were really close friends before they moved here," said refering to Anne's family. Well, at least his character was intact.

"Fine, sorry. Then you go, and look for those papers while I prepare Elizabeth and then I'll take her to Anne."

"I'll go with you," he said suddenly terrified of letting his daughter out of his sight for even for one second. "You know what? I think is better if she goes with us, she might get scared if she doesn't see me when she wakes up, you know how she cries when she wakes up and..."

"Kurt," said Mercedes firmly stopping his babbling before he had a panic attack "We can't take her with us and you know it, she'll be fine, she knows Anne and I'm sure she'd handle her perfectly well, ok?" when she saw that he was still unsure she added, "Ok, you stayed here with her while I go to the hospital and I call you from there"

"No!" yelled Kurt like if she was actually leaving to the hospital without him "I- Fine, she'll stay with Anne, but let me go with you when you leave her there, yes?" he begged.

Mercedes sighed. "Ok, but you'll wait for me in the car and you can't say no." Kurt didn't even try to do it, he was anxious and he felt like they were wasting time talking and he couldn't be in calm so much longer if he didn't know anything about Finn. "Now go for the papers while I go for Elizabeth so we can leave."

Kurt thanked himself for being so organized all the time because he didn't have to look for all the papers since he stored them in one folder in the living room. So now he was sitting waiting for Mercedes and prohibiting himself to think bad things about Finn. His attempt wasn't being a success for the moment, but when Mercedes came down the stairs with the little girl in her arms, Kurt couldn't handle it any longer and he ran to take her and hold her in his arms and he just he began to mourn without being able to hold longer, but he tried to cry in silence and not really caring that he was wetting her clothes.

"I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry" he murmured to the girl asleep, trying to control his sobs. Mercedes didn't say anything and looked at the floor drying her own tears while Kurt was holding his daughter and apologizing for something that it wasn't even his fault.

When he calmed down and the sobs stopped, Mercedes took the folder with the papers and the diaper bag that she had brought from Elizabeth's room and walked to outside followed by Kurt who was still holding his daughter with dear life. Maybe he was doing exactly that because he felt that if he didn't have to take care of his daughter, he had already lost his mind just right after listening about Finn's accident. They didn't say anything during the way to Anne's house and Kurt hugged one more time his daughter and kissed her head before Mercedes took her to the house while he stayed in his friend's car waiting for her, luckily, the little girl was fast asleep and showed no signs of waking up in no time. Kurt knew that Mercedes had to explain Anne and her mom what was happening and that's why she had asked him to wait in the car. He felt so anxious that he didn't object even when he needed his daughter with him now more than ever.

The road to the hospital was, without doubt, the longest road in Kurt's life. His hands were shaking more than before. He had stopped crying but now he just couldn't talk, he felt breathless and he never looked at Mercedes. He didn't want to push her to drive faster even when they were already in the speed limit. John had called again when they had just left Elizabeth with Anne but Mercedes had forbidden him to answer the phone. She had texted him telling him that they were on their way to the hospital and asked him to not call them because she couldn't drive well if she was more nervous. Kurt had had to bite his own tongue to not yell at her or insult her for doing such a thing. Twenty minutes later, they finally arrived at the hospital where Mercedes had to hold him by the arm so Kurt won't start to run desperately looking Finn or somebody that could give him information about his husband. They had to asked for help to got to the Emergency's waiting room. They were about to get to the information window when Mercedes heard a familiar voice behind them talking to Kurt.

"Mr. Hummel!" They turned to see a boy walking toward them, his eyes were completely red, as he had been crying for a long time. "Thank God you're finally here, I'm..."

"Where's Finn?" asked Kurt frantically ignoring what John had tried to say. The boy bit his lips looking like he was about to start to cry one more time, and Mercedes feared the worst.

"He's in th-there, but they won't tell us how is he because we are not his family," answered John, holding back tears. Mercedes was about to ask who were the 'us' but then Kurt turned to the information window walking with determination and she followed him just like John.

"I want to see my husband, his name is Finn Hudson," he demanded to the nurse who was sitting on the other side of the window.

"Excuse me?" she asked looking up him with surprise but Kurt wasn't going to act nice.

"I want to see my husband!" he repeated losing patience. "He had an accident at his work and they brought him here. I want to see him right now!" He explained and she raised an eyebrow in a gesture of arrogance. Mercedes knew that Kurt was not get anything if he acted like that so she decided to intervene but the nurse talked before her.

"Sir, first of all, this is the emergency room, not the visiting area. If the person that you're looking for was brought here it's because he needs urgent medical attention. You can't see him until the doctor says so. Second, if you want information about a patient you need to fill this form first." She pointed a paper. "But it can only be filled by a direct family member of the patient and the doctors won't give information to anybody else." She crossed her arms over her chest, with both eyebrows raised.

Kurt turned red from anger.

"I just told you that he is my husband!" Kurt said, losing patience with her.

The nurse snorted with disgust.

"Symbolic union have no value in this hospital, the direct family of the patient needs to have a verifiable legal union with them, sir," she said loftily and Mercedes wanted to punch her.

"They're legally married, you fool!" she said not being able to containing her anger anymore and the nurse open her mouth very indignantly. And she surely was going to respond her the same way or even call security but someone else called Kurt interrupting the discussion with the nurse.

"Kurt?" asked a man that was coming from the bathroom and Mercedes noticed that his shirt was stained with blood, and it was obvious that the man had been trying to remove the blood with water but he didn't wasn't successful. He tried to cover the bloody spot in his shirt with his hands but it was worthless considering the stain was so heavy.

"Oh my God," murmured Kurt looking at the man's clothes and putting his hand over his mouth. His face grew paler and Mercedes held onto him and walked him to the closest chair, worrying that he could pass out any moment. John and the man followed them with an evident concern. "Is that? Oh no, Finn," he whispered with fear.

"John, bring some water for Mr. Hummel, please," said the man sitting next to Kurt. He was breathing hard and squeezing his knees together forcefully, avoiding to see the man and looking at his hands. John went running for what the man had asked, and Kurt had to drink the water after Mercedes insisted without giving him any other alternative. When he was calmer, the man talked softly, "I don't know if you remember, I'm Max, Finn's fiend and boss. We met last year at a meeting at my house. I'm sorry you have to see me like this. I tried to clean it..." he said.

"What happened?" asked Kurt in a whisper, his eyes still looking at his hands. The man bit his lips and looked at Mercedes not so sure if it was the best to explain him about the accident, but the woman just nodded in silence, and he sighed before answering.

"I don't know exactly what happened. He had been working on this car all day, it was one of the best client's car. Finn said he'd fix it, but he had to put it in the hydraulic jack and he was about to finish when the... the hydraulic jack made a sound and a second later, the car fell over... over Finn." Max seemed still shocked and his eyes were trembling while he was remembering the accident. "I swear that I couldn't stop what was happening. It was so fast that I couldn't do anything. We got the car off as fast as we could but he was... so hurt." His eyes were red but he wasn't cry, he said no more.

Kurt didn't even made a gesture that indicated that he was listening to him.

Just like he had been dying to see and know about Finn minutes ago, now Kurt couldn't say anything, the amount of blood on Max's clothes made him feel sick. He wanted to escape, and when he had explained how had been the accident, he wanted to forget about everything. He wanted to think that was happening was a terrible nightmare and just wake up. This couldn't be true, this couldn't be happening, he must being dreaming, this was just a terrible nightmare and he was going to wake up at any moment in his bed next to Finn. He was going to kiss him, hug him and tell him how much he loved him, he was going to hold him and never let him go. He needed to wake up soon, he denied believing that all this was actually happening, that Finn was hurt in that hospital and probably dying, that wasn't real, it couldn't be real.

Kurt was aware of the voices talking around him, probably talking to him but he ignored them, he ignored everything and covered his face with his hands. He demanded his body to wake up, to make this stop and bring him to reality soon, but it never happened. He didn't know how much time passed until his body started to shake when nothing happened, when his body refused to take him out from this terrible nightmare. When he came back to reality, it hit his heart with so much force.

A hand shaking his arm forced him to return to reality and Kurt had to face the truth. Even when it felt like it was killing him inside, he had to know how was Finn. There was a huge posibility that he was already gone and the doctors had been waiting for a relative to give them the bad news. And the thought of Finn dead paralyzed his heart with a pain that almost made him vomit again. He didn't do it, instead, he looked up to Mercedes that was kneeling in front of him. Her eyes showed him that she wanted to cry but she was holding back her tears.

"Is he... is he?" he asked with a whisper not being able to finish the question.

"I don't know. Max is talking with the nurse and he already showed her your marriage certificate and now we're just waiting for someone that can tell us what's happening," she said putting her hands over his. "Kurt, I need you to be strong, you can't go, you can't go no matter what they say. Elizabeth needs you, you're everything she has now and you can't leave her the way you're going now, you need to stay with us no matter what happens." Now she was actually crying and Kurt shook his head feeling his own tears falling for his face.

"I can't, Mercedes. I... I just can't," he murmured, holding her hands because he felt like he couldn't stay conscious any longer and she hold him stronger.

"You have to, Kurt." she said firmly and he didn't answer. Max came back with the folder with papers in his hand. He was now wearing a scrubs shirt from the hospital that a nurse had given him. Kurt appreciate that he didn't have to see all that blood anymore.

The man sat next Kurt and looked at him with determination.

"They're still attending him, he's alive but they couldn't tell me anything else," he said seriously, the relief Kurt felt upon hearing that Finn was still alive was so strong that even the dizzy. "You need to fill this paper so they have all the information about him that might be need, that's what the nurse told me. And sign this paper to give him the permission to operate on him because she said that he's going to need surgery. The doctor will explain you everything after they check him out, and be able to come to us and give you all the information about him." He gave the paper to Kurt and he took it with shaking hands. Mercedes rose from the ground and sat the other side next to Kurt and took the paper.

"I'll help you with this," she said looking for a pen in her purse and starting to write the information. She asked Kurt the things she didn't know and wrote them. Once finished it, Max took the paper and gave it to the same nurse that had attended them before and who was looking at them grouchily, but without objecting anymore.

Minutes passed and no one else gave them anymore information. Mercedes never left him and Max and John came and went from the information window to see if there was anything new. The nurse had not heard any new information to give them. At some point, Mercedes suggested Kurt that he needed to call to Ohio and tell Carole and his dad about what was happening, but he couldn't, not when he didn't even know the seriousness of the situation, but she insisted.

"I know this is hard and you don't want to call them until someone gives you information about him, Kurt, but you have to consider that it might take hours until someone tell us something. Your dad and Carole have to take a plane to come here, so it's better if we tell them now what's happening so they're here when he have more information. I can call them if you want me to," she suggested and he looked at her not knowing exactly what to do.

"I... don't know. What if..."

"Family of Finn Hudson?" asked a doctor that was walking out from the door leading to the area of emergency. Kurt rose so fast from the seat, he almost fell as sudden movement. He ignored the dizziness and, along with others, walked quickly to the doctor who looked at them very seriously. "Are you Finn Hudson's family?"

"He's my husband," said Kurt with a trembling voice, wishing that the man won't react like the nurse had done. "I even have our marriage certificate with me to prove it," he said nervously, and Mercedes started to look for the paper in the folder but the doctor shook his head.

"You don't need to show me, don't worry," he said gently. "Will you follow me to a private room so I can talk to you, please?" he asked looking directly at Kurt. He swallowed hard, this couldn't be good, if he wanted to talk to him alone it was likely because he was going to tell him something really bad and Kurt felt a cold sweat covering his whole body.

"Just say it, please," begged Kurt. He felt the sensation of Mercedes holding his arm."Whatever you have to say do it now, please. Is he... dead?" he finally asked terrified of the answer but not being able to wait anymore.

"No, he's alive," answered the doctor and Kurt could swear that he almost faint from relief, he could heard the sigh of Mercedes and even a thank God coming from Max. "Look, sir, I need to talk to you alone. Your friend can come with us if you want her to, but I suggest you to go with me to a more private room, ok? Your husband is alive, I promise you, but there's a lot that I have to say to you and this is not the right place, do you understand?"

The doctor was being really nice and there was something in his eyes that made Kurt trust him so he nodded and, along with Mercedes, followed him to the doctor's office that was empty. They both sat in front of the desk and looked at the man with expectation and seconds later a young nurse came in with several x-rays in hand and gave the doctor and then left in silence. The man sat in the desk and looked at them.

"You already know what exactly happened to Mr. Hudson at his work, right?" They both nodded, Max and John had told them what they had seen but without getting in too many details and giving them the necessary information to know how serious had been the accident. "Here is the thing. Mr. Hudson was brought to the hospital with several injuries in his body, the more serious were ubicated in the right side of his body and the back side of his brain," he explained. Then he sighed because he knew how hard it would be for Kurt to digest the information he was about to say. He put the x-rays on the negatoscope and Kurt could see the picture of the broken bones of a shoulder and part of the arm and he had to breathe hard to not throw up, the bones were almost destroyed and the arm was barely connected to the shoulder. "I know how it looks and this might be very shocking to you, but I always like to be honest with the family and sometimes it's necessary to display the magnitude of the situation so they can know all the posibilities that the patient has, ok?"

"So... is he going to lose his arm?" asked Kurt. He was scared and not being able to look away from the x-rays. He couldn't imagine Finn losing his arm, it was a horrible thought but he couldn't help to think that, the x-rays was really shocking.

"For now, we'll be able to save his arm, the injury is pretty serious but there's a huge posibility that the arm can be saved. With the necessary physical therapy, it may even recover a large part of its functionality, or even all of it. What I'm more worried about is his back." He took another x-ray and put it next to the one that was already in the negatoscope and Mercedes gasped with surprise. She wasn't a doctor but she knew enough about medicine to recognize a severe injury in the bones that were located at the height of the hips.

"Oh God," she murmured putting her hand over Kurt's shoulder. He was looking at the x-ray with both hands over his mouth. His eyes were so wide with surprise, and tears begin to fall. The doctor sighed with sadness, giving them a few seconds to calm down and then talked again.

"As you can see, his hips are out of their correct place, but the real problem are not the hips. This kind of injury it's pretty serious because it could have a fracture in the spine that can cause a permanent paralysis in his legs." Kurt closed his eyes at the last words and his breathe stopped for a few seconds "We can't tell yet if this is going to happen to Finn. We don't know yet if he is going to be able to walk again until we operate, and he has the recovery time. But you have to know that there's a really huge posibility that he may walk never again," he said.

The sobs of Kurt broke the sudden silence in the room. He just couldn't believe that all this was happening, he couldn't handle with the thought of Finn not being able to walk again or losing his right arm, much less with both. It was so surreal and terrible. Everything had happend so fast that it made him feel sick from the impact of all the information.

"So, are you going to operate on his hips to put them in the right place and then his arm, right?" asked Mercedes, with a broken voice, rubbing Kurt's back. This time, the doctor's eyes became darker and he looked at the floor with a evident grief. Mercedes knew that he hadn't told them yet the worst part, she couldn't even imagine what it could be worse than that and she just held Kurt's back waiting for the information.

"When the car fell on Finn, his arm and his hips were beaten by the weight of the car causing the injuries that I already showed to you." He cleared his throat before speaking again "But he didn't even have the time to react. It was so fast that he couldn't react to cushion the fall with one of his arms, so he fell and hit his head on the ground with a huge force. His head bounced at least twice, increasing the seriousness of the injury. What I'm trying to say... is that Finn has serious damage in his brain, and we don't know if he's going to survive" he concluded looking at them.

"No, no, no, no, no!" started to say Kurt breathing with difficulty and burying his face in his hands his body trembling with great force. He was no doubt beginning to suffer a panic attack. The tears soaked his face, broken by the devastation. "Finn, no, please, no, no, you can't. Finn!"

"Kurt, breathe, Kurt, please breathe!" said Mercedes with concern and trying to remove the hands from his face but Kurt was crying hard and breathing with more difficulty.

The doctor, clearly used to that kind of reaction from the family's patient called the nurse and she came with a a syringe in his hand followed by a male nurse who helped her to hold Kurt and he injected the needle into his arm causing an almost sudden effect that calmed him down immediately and then he was falling into a deep sleep. The two nurses carried him to the stretcher and left him there.

"I'm sorry, I had to do that for his own sake," said the doctor to Mercedes, who was standing next to Kurt stroking his cheek cleaning his face, tears were still falling from his eyes. She nodded in silence clearing her own tears.

"So is Finn in a coma or what?" she asked, not looking up from Kurt.

The doctor took a tomography that he hadn't showed it to them and put it next to the other two. This time, was Mercedes who had to fight with all her forces to not throw up. The tomography showed a perfect picture of Finn's brain that was overshadowed with a shadow that was covering a huge part of the brain. Mercedes didn't need to ask. She knew that the shadow was blood, and it was serious, so very serious. She cleared her throat and looked at Kurt and was thankful that he was unconcious right now.

"So he has a cerebral hemorrhage, right?" she asked. The doctor nodded. "Is he going to die? Be honest, please. Do you really think that he's going to survive to this or not? That he can survive to his?" She asked with a broken voice, the doctor looked at the tomography carefully for a few seconds before turning to her.

"I'll say that there's a seventy percent of posibility that he can bleed to death," he said honestly. She shook her head crying even more. "And if he survives after the surgery he needs to stop bleeding, there's a large possibility that he will suffer an irreversible neurological damage."

Mercedes sighed with pain.

"What kind of damage?" she asked afraid of the answer, but needing to know so she could explain it to Kurt later.

"I don't know, I'm not neurologist, but I do know that the damage can range from something very minimal like having problems pronouncing words until something more serious like being in a vegetative state the rest of his life, or even not to be himself ever again," he answered with a serious look.

"So now what?" she asked, not feeling like she could handle anymore.

"They're getting him ready to operate on his brain, that kind of surgery can last from seven to even twelve hours," he said and looked at Kurt. "He might sleep for another two hours, so he can stay here and I'll tell a nurse to keep you informed about the surgery. I know how hard is all this, but he has to be ready for the worst. All of you have to. We will do everything in our power to save his life but cases like this are difficult to handle, and the possibility of him dying is huge."

Mercedes nodded.

"Thank you, doctor..."

"Robert, call me Robert. I'm in charge of the emergency area, I put the patients in safely so the doctors they need can fix them. I attended Mr. Hudson when the paramedics brought him and now he's in the neurology area for his surgery. But if you need anything, if you have a question just ask for me and I'll help you the best I can." he said with a sad smile. Mercedes tried to correspond the best she could.

"Right. Thank you, doctor Robert," said Mercedes shaking his hand. When the man left the the room with the x-ray in his hand, the woman sat next to Kurt rubbing his forehead with sadness. "Oh Kurt, you have no idea how I wish this wasn't happening. I'm so sorry," she whispered and prayed God to save Finn. He, Kurt, and Elizabeth deserved to be happy and it wasn't fair what it was happening. Not fair at all.

Kurt had woken up two hours ago in the doctor's office where he had been sedated, but he had to take an anti anxiety pill to relax after Mercedes had told him the worst part of the information about Finn, and then, when he was calmed, they left the room to meet with Max and Jonh, Mercedes explained them what the doctor had said while Kurt was lost in his thoughts and fears. Now they were in the waiting room for relatives of patients who were in operating room, Kurt looked sleepy because of the medication and he wasn't crying anymore, his eyes were so lost in his thoughts all the time. Max was still there with them sitting next to Kurt. John had had to go home because he couldn't enter to the waiting room because he was a minor and it was forbidden. Mercedes had called to Ohio an hour ago, and now Burt and Carole were at the airport for an hour of their flight to New Hampshire finally out from Ohio. Mercedes had been very careful to not get into details when she informed them about the accident and she had just told them that Finn was in the hospital and they were operating him but she didn't say anything about how bad he was and what kind of surgery he was recieving. She had also called to Anne and explained it what was happening. Mercedes told Anne and her mom that she could call one of her closest friends to go for Elizabeth if they couldn't take care of her longer since she didn't know how much longer they would be at the hospital. She was absolutely sure that Kurt won't move from the hospital as long as Finn was in danger of die or without had seen him first. But Anne's mom, Jenny, had told her that they could take care of Elizabeth as long as it was necessary and she told her not to worry about the little girl and sent her prayers and prayers for Finn to improve quickly.

"Mr. Hummel?" it was the young nurse, Kurt looked at her with nervous but she smiled softly to calm him down. "He's still in surgery and everything's is going fine," she said and Kurt breathed with relief. "Umh, but we need two blood donors to cover the amount of blood that we've used for your husband. It doesn't matter if it's not the same type of blood."

"Ok, I can donate blood" said Kurt but the nurse denied embarassed "Why not?" he asked frowning.

"Gay men can't donate blood, it says the law, I'm really sorry." She really looked like she was genuinely sorry about it.

"What?" asked Mercedes indignantly and Kurt sighed, he had forgot that gay men couldn't donate blood, it was something he had read once when he was at high school and the law hadn't changed yet, it was so ridiculous and frustrating. "You're kidding, right?"

"No, I'm not, I'm so sorry, I wish I could help you but he can't donate his blood." repeated the nurse rubbing her hands nervously. Max snorted and swore softly.

"I know that I can't donate blood to an stranger, but he's my husband," said Kurt trying to not get angry with the nurse since it wasn't her fault and she really looked embarassed. "It's ridiculous that I can't donate blood to him for being gay when he has been with me for years, don't you think?"

"Yes, it is. But it's a law*, sir, and the blood that you donate it won't be use for him because he already received blood, so it doesn't matter if he's gay too, you just... can't. There's nothing I can do. And I'm really, really sorry" she whispered and Kurt sighed. It was useless to insist on the subject, but still caused him a lot of courage.

"Fine. I'll see what I can do" he said and the nurse left before Mercedes say something, the woman looked really pissed off and she was scary when she was like that.

"Well, fuck them. I can donate but we still need another person," said Mercedes still angry and Kurt rubbed her knee to make her feel better. "But I can call some friends, I'm sure that one of them will be happy to help," she added with a tiny smile that Kurt corresponded.

"I can donate" said Max and they both jumped, they had forgotten that he was still there and Kurt felt guilty, the man smiled at them. "I've done it before and I'll love to help Finn, he's my friend after all." he said and Kurt smiled sadly.

"Thank you, Max" he said and he just nodded.

"He's going to be ok, I know it's hard to believe but he's a strong man and he has a beautiful family to fight for. He won't give up without fighting." He assured him.

When Carole and Burt got to the hospital, Finn was still in his brain surgery, fighting for his life and it was close to four in the morning. Max and Mercedes had left the three of them alone while Kurt explained them what had happened. When they came back to the waiting room (with cups of coffee for everybody) Carole and Kurt were hugging each other and they could listen to her softly sobs. Burt was standing next to them with his arms crossed and looking at the floor. Neither of them said anything and Max and Mercedes sat away from them giving them privacy. Minutes later, they left them go from the embrace and Burt hugged his son for what it looked an eternity, Mercedes could heard that the older man was saying something to his son who nodded in silence without letting him go. Then they separated, both with red eyes, and Burt sat next to Carole and they all do the only thing that they could do for now: wait.

It wasn't until seven in the morning when neurosurgeon came to them, he looked tired but told them that they had finished the brain surgery and Finn was still alive.

"Although we stop the bleeding, we couldn't reduce the brain inflammation, which represents a great risk to his health, and we had to leave the wound exposed to wait for the swelling to go," he said with a rough voice, this man wasn't as nice like the other doctor but he was explaining everything very carefully and Kurt appreciated it. "There's a great risk of infection and the inflammation also increase the risk of a nerurological damage but there's not too much we can do for now but wait until the brain stopped being swollen and then close the wound."

"And when it's that going to happen?" asked Burt who had his arm around Carole's shoulder "When are you going to close the wound?"

"It depends of the way his body reacts and the time it took his brain to back to his normal size, there's not a rule in the time that it takes to happen that so I can't tell you an exact moment" he said and Kurt sighed.

"Can we see him?" he asked nervously.

"I'm afraid not. He's in the recovery room and the orthopedic surgeon is waiting for he recovers a little bit more from the surgery to operate his hips and then his arm. I think you won't be able to see him until Saturday, maybe even Sunday, if he survives all the surgeries, of course," he said without any sympathy. Kurt had to remined himself that there were doctors that weren't like him, that thought they were God and they couldn't give compassion because they didn't know about that. Besides, the man had just saved Finn's life and he had been in surgery for hours, he must be tired.

"Kurt, you look tired, son. You should go to your home and sleep a few hours. Carole and I will stay here," suggested Burt when the doctor left and putting his arm in his son's back. Kurt shook his head.

"I'm staying, Dad," he said firmly not even looking at his father.

"Where's Elizabeth, honey?" asked Carole suddenly with a worried voice.

"She's with her nanny, Anne. Do you remember her? She's Jenny's daughter," he answered and Carole nodded with a sad smile.

"Oh yeah. I forgot you had mentioned before that she's her nanny. Jenny is a great friend, she'll take good care of Elizabeth," she said shaking his hand and Kurt nodded.

"Yeah."

Two hours later, the nurse informed them that Finn had just gone into the operating room for the surgery on his hips and arm and that it'll take around four or five hours and suggested them to go home and rest for a few hours, but neither of them moved from their seats. Mercedes stayed next to Kurt all the time, leaving him only for go to the bathroom and then to call to her work and say she was not going today. Max was the one that kept bringing coffee and food that wasn't even touched by Kurt and Carole.

"Kurt," said Max around nine in the morning. Kurt opened his eyes not even noticing he had fell asleep at some point with his head laid over her friend's shoulder. Carole and Burt weren't around and Kurt got scared. "Hey, it's ok" he said putting his hand on his knee "They went to the cafeteria."

"Finn?" he asked still scared.

"He's still at surgery, the nurse hasn't come back to say anything."

"I... ok" he said breathing normally again, and then noticed that Max was still looking at him "Sorry, you said something?"

"I have to go to the workshop and deliver the cars that were left yesterday," he said nervously because mentioning the workshop was remind him the accident, not that Kurt had forgotten it any second.

"You don't have to stay here, Max," said Kurt looking at Mercedes as she slept. "I understand that you have things to do, probably a family waiting for you at home," he said and felt guilty. Max apparently knew everything about Finn's life, that he was married with him and their daughter, he might even know where did work and Kurt didn't know anything about him.

Max smiled "I don't have family, not here at least, they live in Vermont. I just have to go to deliver those cars and I promise I'll back the soonest I can," he pat his shoulder and Kurt smiled back.

"You're a great friend to Finn, Max. Thank you"

"I'm your friend, too, Kurt. Call me if you need anything, ok?" he said with a smile and left.

Three hours later the orthopedic surgeon told them that he had finished the surgery and Finn's arm and hips were fine but they'll have to wait to see if his spine had been damaged and they couldn't say if Finn was going to walk again, not until Finn woke up and check by himself the functions of his legs. But it was good to know that his arm was fine. A little joy into the whole mess, was what Mercedes said and Kurt hugged her.

It wasn't until the afternoon of Saturday when the doctors finally told them that Finn was out of risk for the moment and explained them that he had to put him in coma because his head was still opened it was very dangerous if he woke up being like that. The fact that Finn was in coma, even when it was an induced coma, waned little feeling of joy that they had the previous day. Because the risks of not waking up again from a induced coma were pretty high, but there was nothing else that the doctors could do and they only hope that Finn's brain go back to his normal size the soonest possible, so they could to close his head and getting him out the coma. Everything depended on time and Finn's fighting. His hips and his arm were recovering and he was still alive after all the trauma that his body had been through. And after insisted for hours, the doctors allowed them to see Finn but only twenty minutes per person what they wanted but it was something and they were happy with that.

It wasn't until the nurse explained to them the care they should have in the room where Finn was, and also warned them that the way that the way he was it could be very impressive for them because there were many tubes around him, including the one that was giving him oxygen, it was only then that Kurt realized he was going to see Finn after he had suffered the accident that almost cost him his life. Nothing was safe because he still could have complications and die at any time. He felt a terror to him in that state invaded his body. What if he saw him and he died the next day? The imagine of Finn being in coma and full of injuries was going to be his last memory of him? What if he didn't have the strength to see him and he would still die? He was going to die without Kurt saying goodbye? Oh God. What if he died and the last memory of the two of them was the fight they had had days ago?

"Kurt?" The voice of his father brought him back to reality, everybody around him was looking with concern. He didn't say anything and just hugged his father who held him hard rubbing his hand.

"I can't see him, dad. I can't," Kurt whispered buring his head on his shoulder.

"Shh, shh. You can do it, Kurt. It's going to be fine," said Burt holding him harder. Kurt shook his head. "He needs you to be there, he needs to listen your voice, if you're there with him, he's going to be ok"

"He can't listen to me, he's in coma."

"He can, son. He'll hear you and you'll be there for him," said Burt. "Come on, you can do it."

He let him go from the embrace and Carole hugged him too. She didn't say anything, but she was as scared as he was. They both knew that they have to be there for Finn, be strong and help him to recover.

"You go first, honey," she said, kissing his cheek and Kurt nodded and then followed the nurse to Finn's room, his heart beating like crazy and his hands shaking nervously.

"In here," said the nurse pointing the last room in the hallway, and Kurt walked not even knowing what to feel or think.

The first thing he saw were the machines, they were everywhere and, for some reason, made him feel sick, and then he saw Finn there lying in bed. Kurt's heart stopped for a few seconds in pain, so much pain. He already knew that Finn was going to be covered by all those things that keep him breathing while he was still in the coma, that his head was going to be covered by the bandage that was protecting the wound on his head, and he knew that his right arm was going to be in a cast, he knew all those things and still he felt like fainting when he finally saw him. Finn looked so weak and injured, his skin was pale and the tube that he had in his mouth made him look even worse. Kurt walked next to him, tears falling for his face and wanting to touch him but afraid of injuring him further. He sat in the chair that was next to the bed and he looked from face to foot at Finn. It was hard to believe Finn was like this. The doctors had said he was out of risk, but he looked like he could die at any moment, he looked like if each beat of his heart was going to be the last one.

Kurt finally took his left hand and he didn't care about the tears, not anymore. He was touching him, he was in front of him after two days of a terrible expectation where he had thought that he was not going to see Finn alive one more time. He wanted to tell him so badly how much he loved him, how much he missed him and apologize for what had happened the last time they had talked. He needed him to wake up, he needed to see his eyes looking at him, he needed to kiss him, to feel him and stop thinking that he could lose him any moment. He needed him alive or he was going to die inside. Kurt stayed there with his hand over his, minutes happened and he just looked at Finn until the nurse came back and told him that the twenty minutes had finished. Kurt sighed, he got up from the chair and kissed Finn's cheek whispering a softly 'I love you' before leaving the room.

When he was out of the room and Carole had entered to see Finn, Kurt called Mercedes and asked her to take him to Anne's house because he needed to see Elizabeth. Mercedes drove in silence while Kurt was looking out of the window, desperate to see his daughter after two days of not having moved from the hospital. When they got to Anne's house and she walked them to the living room where was her mom and Elizabeth, Kurt practically ran to his daughter and the girl screamed in happiness when she saw her father, she was yelling 'Dadda, dadda' over and over, Kurt hold her in his arms and then started to cry not caring that Anne, Jenny, and Mercedes were looking at him with surprise.

"He's going to be ok, Elly," he whispered to her, using the diminutive for the first time "Daddy is going to be fine, I promise you. I'll bring him home soon and we're being together as always," he said, tears falling and the girl put her face over his shoulder and played with the buttons on his shirt. "Daddy's going to be ok, I promise you."

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