A/N: I hope you like it! This is my first First Person POV in a while that I've actually done. Read and Review!

Shattered Dreams

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck!

What just happened?

I stared at the large house before me, the asmodian crystal on my hand felt more like a boulder than the light money ticket it should have been. Stolas was being serious?

There was no way Stolas could possibly be serious! He couldn't love someone like me, an imp! I am a nothing compared to his magnificent, princely self.

I am a nothing.

My heart ached from seeing his tears, hearing his words. I made him cry, but he can't be telling the truth! His station was much too high for me. I could never stand by his side and know he'd be ridiculed because of me.

My mind raced.

I could climb back up there, try and talk to him again, but the mood was ruined. Stolas wanted nothing to do with me right now, and I… I didn't want to see him either.

Maybe Looney was right. Maybe Stolas was bored of me, so he gave me this crystal to get rid of me and put on that show to push me away. Afterall, he knows I know he can't love me. That has to be it! Stolas was putting on a show. I would just have to make it up to him some how! Except, how?

I paced in front of Stolas' home for what felt like hours before one of his butlers came and told me I had to go. That I was "disturbing the peace", as he put it. I've never wanted to hit another demon more in my life, but I refrained and went on to my van to leave. I couldn't help but cast one more glance at the big house behind me.

I had thought it was all a joke, but maybe he was telling the-

No. I could not let my thoughts turn to that.

Stolas was lying.

I thought I had already told myself this to begin with and settled on that Stolas was bored with me! And yet here I was trying to convince myself that someone might love me.

No one could love me.

Not a murderer.

Not someone as awful as I am.

I turned away from the house once again, my back straight and my fists clenched. I would make him listen to me, one way or another. I would earn this crystal.

Though I was determined to earn my place in this world as any imp would do, I couldn't help but curl up on the couch once I was home. Something was completely wrong with me. I wanted to blame Stolas for making a spectacle out of me. For always making me feel like he could love me when I knew in reality that could never happen. It almost felt like he had thrown it in my face, asking me to stay by him after everything because he loved me.

Loved me.

Love.

Love?

Hah!

He didn't love me. He loved the sex and he only thought that was love. He was divorcing Stella, and his kid was probably going with her mom too. Hell, I don't know!

Satan's Taint! I just needed my mind to stop racing and going back to this topic.

I groaned as I shoved a pillow in my face before rolling over and staring at the wall. What was the point? I was going to die alone. No one would miss me, not even Stolas.

The thought made tears slip from my eyes and I closed them tightly. "Not even Stolas would miss me if I was gone." I spoke aloud to the empty room. The reality of it all seemed to weigh down on me, crushing my lungs, squeezing my heart. I couldn't breathe. This place was just too small! Suffocating! I threw the pillow down on the couch, grabbed my keys once more, and headed to the door.

I froze as my hand reached for the doorknob before dropping to my side.

Where was I going to go?

Loona was at a party with her friends.

Millie and Moxxie were probably on another date together.

Fizz was probably with the King of Lust.

And Stolas…

I threw the keys on the table and grabbed a drink from the fridge, slamming the door so hard that it bounced back and stayed ajar. "Damn it!" I kicked it shut. "Fuck him! Fuck him for playing with me and trying to mess with my feelings!" I yelled as I kicked the fridge again and again and again. I threw my drink at the defenseless appliance watching as the bottle broke open, spilling its contents all over the yellowed refrigerator and the floor.

I would prove that I was worth it.

I would prove that I earned this crystal to go to Earth.

I'd do what ever I had to, even if it killed me.

A/N: Hope you enjoyed it! I haven't decided yet if I plan to continue or just keep it as a one-shot thing.