Ever since I went to Godric's Hollow on Halloween night 1981 and found you motionless,stiff,cold, immediately I knew that it was too late for you. While grief over losing you began to overtake me,I suddenly felt like I failed you, like I had failed my bestest friend. I thought I was doing the right thing when I convinced you to switch secret keeper from me to Peter Pettigrew because I felt like it would have been too obvious if the secret keeper was me because of our bond and that with me as secret keeper you'd be in danger. If only I had known Peter's true colors I wouldn't have convinced you to make him secret keeper. The pain of losing my brother from another mother,my bestest friend who was you was difficult. I didn't know what to do with myself with you gone. James,if I could have a one more conversation with you I wouldn't convinced you to switch to Peter as secret keeper I would have begged you to keep me as secret keeper which I believe would've saved your life. I'm so sorry for not knowing Peter's true colors mate. I loved you like a brother,you were my bestest friend. I knew I could tell you anything that was bothering me without feeling judged. I love you so much mate. I know you would have wanted me to move on but the truth is,I find it difficult to move on from losing you.