Chapter 6: Second guessing
The weekend off was what I desperately needed. I did nothing all weekend. In my opinion, it's a privilege to do nothing. There was an occasional pop-up from Sango, but that was fine. We just did nothing together. The weather was nice today. I'd gotten to campus early. I took my time walking to class, trying to enjoy the sun for as long as I could. I hadn't run into Inuyasha, so I was having a great day. Or so I thought. Inuyasha was standing outside of my class. I rolled my eyes and tried to walk past him but he blocked my path.
"Get out of my way."
It was the first time I had ever spoken to him like that. I usually felt happy to see him; just to speak with him, but now all I could think of was what he'd said to me. The way he purposely hurt me. For the first time in forever, I did not want to see him, speak to him; or anything. I just wanted him gone.
"So, this is how you're going to be. Just because I said some harsh words? Words that you needed to hear might I add."
I looked at him as if he was crazy. "Fuc-"
"Where are you here?" Sesshomaru asked.
I didn't even see him walking up.
Inuyasha scowled. "That is none of your business. I'm not here to talk to you. So, butt out."
Sesshomaru mushed Inuyasha in the face; hard, making him stumble back. He grabbed my arm and pulled me inside the classroom, making sure to lock the door behind us. Inuyasha was banging on the door, but Sesshomaru ignored him and pulled me to my seat. I often forgot that he was Inuyasha's older brother. He sure treated him like it just now.
"Pay no mind to him. He is a child. At times you must treat him like one."
"I wasn't talking to him. I was trying to get away from him." I said making it clear.
I wasn't sure why I felt the need to tell him that.
"Hn. What did he want?" He asked, sitting on the desk.
"He wants me to get over what he said to me."
He looked past me. I could still hear faint banging, meaning Inuyasha was still there. He looked back down at me. There was this look in his eyes. It was the same as last time, but I couldn't tell what it was. He leaned in closer.
"Will you? Forgive him?"
I shook my head. "I can't. I do not want to. "
Not anytime soon, that's for sure.
He straightened up. "Hn."
He walked past me, going up to the door and unlocking it. I could hear their conversation. Luckily it was still early so no one else was around to hear it.
"You need to leave," Sesshomaru said.
"The fuck I will. Like I said, I'm here to speak to her. This is none of your business."
"Ms. Higurashi is my student. She does not wish to leave. Therefore she is my business."
Inuyasha scoffed. "Since when do you care about here huh? Stop being such a prick and let me in. I need to speak to her. Stop with this big brother bullshit."
"I said, no. If you try to take one step into this room. You will not like what I will do to you."
There was a short moment of silence. I wanted to turn around and see what was going on, but I couldn't bear to look at Inuyasha. I feel like he would just piss me off all over again.
"Doesn't matter how nice you are to her Sesshomaru. She won't fuck you."
I felt my stomach drop. Why would he say that? I jumped. I knew the sound of someone being slapped.
"Leave." I heard Sesshomaru say.
I'd never heard Sesshomaru sound so angry. The door closed and I heard footsteps coming toward me. I looked up. It was Sesshomaru.
"I apologize that you had to hear that," he said walking over to his desk.
I let out a breath I didn't know I had been holding. What the hell was that about?
The class had gone by smoothly. Sesshomaru didn't look at it for the entire duration of it. Fortunately, Inuyasha hasn't come back. The class was over, and I watched the few students left, rush out of the classroom. He looked up. He seemed to be surprised that I was still here. He gathered his things and came over to me.
"You are still here."
"I just wanted to see if you are alright."
"I am fine." I said.
"Hn."
"Let me help you with that," I said grabbing the file box.
I didn't give him any time to protest. I hurried to his office, placing the file box on his desk. I turned around to look at him. He was setting his things down.
"There is no work for you today," he said, walking by me and taking a seat.
I turned towards him. "Why are you being so nice to me?"
"Is this about what Inuyasha said? You need not pay any attention to it"
"No. I am just curious." I lied.
He sighed. "I have already told you. You are not a very good liar."
"Oh." was all I managed to say.
He stood, walking over to me. He stopped only an inch or two away from me. He looked down at me. There was that look again. All I could do was look up at him while he towered over me.
"Is it true?" I asked.
"Is what true?" his voice was low.
"Do you… want to do that to me?"
I felt like a little kid. Why couldn't I just say the word fuck. Or at least say sleep with. It's not like I haven't said those words before.
"That would be inappropriate," he said.
I wasn't sure how, but I'm sure he had gotten a bit closer. It was so quiet here. I could hear my heart pounding in my ears. I could feel the heat radiating off his body. I couldn't lie. There was a part of me that wanted to touch him. Just like I did that day.
"Sesshomaru, I feel like that line has already been crossed," I said.
I was testing him by using his name. I wanted to see how he reacted. I wondered if he would correct me as he did before. I waited to see, but he never did. He let out a deep sigh.
"I am your professor," he said.
"So, are you only being nice to me because you want to sleep with me?"
"That is not why," he said.
He was pressed up against me now… and I didn't mind it. I welcomed it. Was I doing this because I needed attention? Was I just trying to rebound onto any guy who was paying me some attention? Or was it because it was him?
I sucked in a sharp breath. "So you do want to sleep with me," I whispered.
I saw his jaw clench. He stepped away from me and pinched the bridge of his nose. The warmth of him was gone, and I wanted it back.
"Please go home."
"Sesshomaru-"
"Mr. Taisho," he corrected.
There it was again. Last name basis. I had been shut out again. Just what was that?
I grabbed my bag, trying to avoid making eye contact with him.
Maybe this was for the best.