As I'm releasing this chapter there is a lot going on the world. I'm sure you are all aware of what's currently going on. Make sure to take this issue seriously but don't panic. Be responsible and smart! Stay indoors, avoid large groups, and keep things clean. Keep yourself safe and healthy and look out for others!

ALSO there have been a lot of negative, serious events happening. I will keep it short but do remember that people have a voice and power together. You don't have to know every single thing about the topic but know that you as a person are valued. Nothing should differ that to another.

DISCLAIMER I DO NOT OWN AIKATSU

Momo's POV

I am nervous. Terrified? Petrified? Filled with extreme trepidation? Yes. All of the above. Mark off all of the options with multiple checks if possible. My level of vocabulary couldn't describe the amount of nerves that had built up in me.

I remained seated with my eyes closed. I had to stay calm. I took deep breaths ignoring my bustling surroundings. I was backstage of a press conference for the new drama that I was going to be a part of. It was going to be a short interview with the main staff and cast.

I was properly prepared for that part. It was my co-star that I was most worried about. We were going to have to act like lovers for more than a month that I had serious doubts if that would be possible given the circumstances. No amount of training or time could have prepared me for who my co-star was.

"Suzukawa-san? Are you alright?" I opened my eyes to one of the concerned workers. I nodded.

"I'm fine. Only focusing myself." They didn't think much about it.

"Okay then. I was here to tell you that Karasuma-san has arrived. Someone else will be bringing him shortly just so you are aware." I tried to control myself at the mention of his name.

"I understand. Thank you." The worker bowed to me, leaving me to myself. I stood up, trying to shake myself ready. I could hear my heart pounding and not in a good way. I couldn't even comprehend how much time had passed until I spotted the well known face approaching me.

I stood frozen in place making contact with his brown eyes. He smiled at me without a care in the world. Once we were close enough we bowed to each other. The worker that brought him here politely gestured to him.

"Suzukawa-san meet Karasuma-san. He will be acting in the role of your lover. I was told that this would be the first time either of you would be acting so make sure to learn off one another." The worker paused, responding to the walkie talkie caller before returning their attention to us. "I have other duties to attend to but use this time to get to know each other. Someone will come fetch you when the conference starts."

A part of me wanted to ask the worker to stay so that I wouldn't be alone with him. I watched the worker leave, dreading my fate. I turned to him with a fake smile on. He snickered, seeing right through me. "Nervous?"

"Not at all K-Karasuma-san." He shook his head at me.

"You can drop the formalities. We're going to act like a couple anyways. It would be best to be relaxed with each other." I let out a sigh, relaxing my shoulders. I almost smiled genuinely when he continued with the grin he plastered on. "After all, that was what you signed up for in this audition. At least we both passed this one."

I frowned at how he put emphasis on the word both. I didn't hold back scoffing at him. "I should have known you were still hung up on that. You may be older but it looks like I'm still the mature one, Yu-kun."

He dropped his nice guy act at the old name. "Nice to see you still have some fire in you. Thought all those textbooks would have made you boring. Maybe it's Starlight's influence. Are you enjoying being an idol, Shiro?"

"Sorry, not sorry to disappoint you but I am. Are you still having fun running around acting like a child?" He took one step forward scanning over my uniform. Now that I knew that he was going to show his true self, I didn't have to be careful of what I could say to him.

"I'm afraid I don't know what you're talking about." I picked at his brown hair in disgust.

"How about we start with this? How many times does this make it this year alone? Seriously Yu-kun will you ever grow up?"

He roughly slapped my hand away. "Stop talking like my mom."

"Maybe if you actually listened to your mom I wouldn't have to." Yuki rolled his eyes at me. Usually he was calm and collected but I knew him too well to know that he was actually holding back his frustration.

"I did this because I wanted to. Not because of anyone else. Not even my mom. Don't try to make me look like a bad person when I've done nothing wrong. She's the one that you should be criticizing. Don't you think?"

"No I don't. You know full why she is the way she is. It was your dad that suggested it but they both agreed for your sake. Neither of them did something wrong."

"Of course you'd side with them. You know you would be the same way if your parents did what mine had done." I hated to see him like this. I knew him better than anyone else. At the same time, he did I. That's exactly why I didn't approve of his reckless actions. Any of them.

"No. I really hope that I wouldn't be. Your mom even talked to me after. I agree with her decision because you're out of control. Your acts of rebellion are not helping anyone. Would it hurt to hear any of us out?"

He scoffed at me as my anger was rising. "Yeah. You and my parents need to learn to mind your own business."

"Yu-kun!" I was only trying to help him. His business was mine the same. Yuki was so annoyingly stubborn that I couldn't handle it further. He patted my head mockingly. An action that I picked up from him.

"You've definitely changed, Shiro. Not sure if I like this new version though."

"Suzukawa-san? Kurasuma-san? We are going to be starting soon. I ask that you two get ready to go on stage." The two of us smiled like nothing happened between us.

"Yes!" We said at the same time. Once the worker turned their back away from us we glared at one another. I was the first one to turn away to follow the worker.

We both acted friendly when we greeted the rest of the staff on the sidelines. I, and assuming Yuki as well, had met during the auditions that we were already acquainted with one another.

"I'm sure you two are already aware but to explain once more, today will be a simple interview to get people more interested in the drama. Most of the questions will be directed at us yet there will most likely be questions for you two as well. Try to answer to the best of your abilities." We nodded to the director, understanding.

Once given the cue, our small group went up to the stage. A long table with chairs and microphones were set up. We were greeted by the small crowd of reporters sitting in front. Flashes filled my vision that I kept my eyes directly to where I was suppose to be. Right next to Yuki.

We stood for a minute letting people take their photos. I disliked having the feeling of being mobbed again. At least this time these reporters were tamed.

"I heard your store was bothered by paparazzi. Was everything okay afterwards?" Yuki asked quietly.

I kept my head forward. "Mom worked it out. And since Mr. S' article I haven't had much of a problem with them. You should visit more often. She hasn't seen you in a while."

I could see him holding back a smile from my side view. "Not possible."

After enough pictures were taken, all of us took our seats. The director took the microphone. "Thank you for coming out today. We are pleased to get this opportunity to take one of Todo Yurika's works and bring it to the big screen. I would like to take the time now to introduce the people who will help me do so."

One by one we went down the table to introduce ourselves and our job. Finally, it reached us. "Hello my name is Karasuma Yuki and I'll be playing the male lead of Kukai."

"Hello I am Suzukawa Momo and I will be fulfilling the role of female lead, Aria." We clapped for ourselves having more pictures being taken.

After a bit of time of explaining the overall plan for the drama the floor was opened to questions. "As Todo Yurika is a director herself, why do you think she is not the head director herself?"

"I have been given the chance to speak with Todo-san herself about this. She had claimed that she simply entrusted this project to me. I will take it with great responsibility. It was her decision but I hope that I do not disappoint the expectations of others in the process." I would have been comfortable if Auntie Yurika was the director yet given how well they answered I think we'll be in good hands.

Another reporter was chosen. "What are your expectations for this short drama?"

"Well given that we are taking a well known story we aim to present that material as closely to the original as possible. It was proven difficult to rearrange into two episodes' worth. Nonetheless we strive to stick to what we are presented with only slight adjustments to help forward it forward in the short period of time and please the long time fans of the story."

I nodded to the script writer answering. We had been given a script ahead of time that I have already given a read through. Much of the story was modified to fit the new circumstances. Things like the character's long history and relationship had to be condensed down to fit the time frame. The overall essence of the original was still present even with the changes.

"A question for the leads. As this is both of your first time acting do you two have a specific plan on how to go about?" I looked to Yuki who grabbed his microphone first.

"Suzukawa-san and I will take on this challenge in our own ways. In the end our efforts will be shown through our acting." It felt weird having him call me by my last name. Though I had to frown at his way of answering. It was too solo of an answer. We were suppose to be a couple in acting but his answer was implying that we wouldn't work to get along.

'Yu-kun was never the best at speaking his mind. Actions over words as always.' I took my microphone before he could say more. "Karasuma-san is right that you will be the rightful judge when you witness our acting yourselves. The two of us will work together to meet the high expectations set for us while not impeding on the other's efforts."

"Suzukawa-san do you think your former training with Higawari-san will be put to good use?" The director interrupted before I could answer.

"I don't think that question is very appropriate for this event. Questions regarding past incidents should be refrain from being asked." I waved my hand to catch their attention.

"I appreciate the concern but I'm fine for answering about such, at a minimum." I spared a glance to Yuki who avoided my gaze. "To answer your question I do. Though I still do not fully understand the concept of romance I felt that I have indeed grown from the situation. That is all I am willing to speak about the matter."

"Did you really have to question about that here?" I braced myself knowing exactly what Yuki was going to do now. The room became restless as he had a fake smile on once more. Frankly, I would had very much prefer that Yuki be able to criticise their poor reporter skills but I couldn't have him ruin this event.

"Karasuma-san, thank you for the concern. What I've said just now is entirely true. I won't let this past define nor weigh me down. I am no way offended by a mere curious question." He was mad. I could see through him clear as day. I hated that stupid fake smile that he wore.

"There's the boring side of you again, Shiro. You really think you're the mature one huh?" He whispered away from his mic so that only I could hear. I was going to pat him to reassure that I was fine but didn't. We weren't like that anymore. Working with Yuki is going to be a lot more difficult than I thought.

"Momo-san?" I was startled when Shouta suddenly called my name out.

"Y-yes? Sorry did you say something?" I looked around the table where Shouta, Fumiko and Snapshot were staring at me.

"Fumiko-san was asking how the press conference went. Are you okay? You don't seem very focused." I put my chopsticks down, standing up.

"I'm going to get another piece of cake." I walked away from the table trying to clear my head. After the press conference, Yuki and I went our separate ways without a goodbye. I wanted a chance to discuss how everything would work, not that he would listen. This drama wasn't anything important to him.

I picked up a plate of cake. I had already had one but with the stress he brought me another one was called for. I made my way back to the table noticing that Charlotte was there as well. I didn't approach further listening to their conversation. "Karasuma Yuki? Never thought I would hear that name again."

"Charlotte-chan you know who that is?" Of course Charlotte would be the one to recognize his name over the others. As Starlight Queen she would have been able to watch the live auditions in the audience.

"Eh? I thought Karasuma-san was in your class?" I tilted my head at Shouta's assumption of Yuki in Snapshot's class.

"No, I know everyone in my class. No one named Karasuma Yuki. Why did you think that?"

"Well when Momo-san first heard the news of acting with him she was really worried. I thought that maybe he was some amazing idol." I stormed up to the table. I held onto the plate tightly knowing that it would break from force if I put it down.

"Yu-kun is not an idol! He is a tempered child that goes haywire the moment he doesn't get what he wants!" They were in complete shock. I took my seat grabbing my fork to take a bite.

"Yu-kun?" Fumiko repeated back to me. In my frustration I didn't even realize that I called him his nickname out of habit. "Momo are you close to Karasuma?"

I rubbed my head to sooth my headache, not answering her question. "Momo-chan is right. Karasuma-kun is technically not an idol. Though he is probably going after being an independent idol now."

"Independent idol? Why would anyone want to try that?" Snapshot wondered.

"Well it's not like he had much of a choice. Dream Academy is still girls only and he failed Starlight's." I took another bite of cake as Charlotte explained everything in my place.

"Failed?" Charlotte nodded at Shouta, taking a seat.

"It's a shame. I remember his audition stage. It was one of the best besides yours Higawari-kun." I hate to admit it, but Charlotte was right. Compared to Shouta, Yuki's audition stage showed more potential to rise. He had what Shouta lacked and it wasn't only his years of experience. It was confidence. However, too much confidence wasn't necessarily a good thing either.

"How did he fail?"

"His interview piece. Headmistress Kiriya and the staff found that his attitude wasn't fit for an idol to have." That was only the reason given to the public. Starlight didn't release auditions of people that didn't pass. Yet because of my relationship with him I had asked Auntie Aoi's permission for me to see it.

During his interview he gave vague answers that were underlying challenging the staff. His snarky remarks about him being easily top any of his competition was only the tip of the iceberg of all he could have said. When the typical question of why he wanted to be an idol, he only brushed it to the side. I knew his answer though.

I took out my phone looking for the article about today's press conference. I set my phone on the table showing the holographic image of the group picture that was taken. Charlotte leaned in to see it closer.

"Oh I didn't even recognize him! Didn't he have blond hair?"

"During the Starlight audition, yes. He has natural silver hair from his dad. He doesn't care what colour his hair is as long as it's not silver or shade of blue and will dye it every so often to keep it that way. He blames his parents and I for his failure." I stared at his new brown hair. How long has it been since I saw his natural colour?

"So how do you know him Momo? Or his parents?" Fumiko gasped. "Was he your boyfriend?"

I almost choked on nothing. "Objection! Unfathomable! I would never even think to date Yu-kun!"

She raised her hands in defense. "Not ex's got it. You even call him a nickname though. Not even Shouta is on that level."

I dropped my head, having no more energy today. "I don't even know how I started to call him that. Now it's all by habit. Calling him by his last name today was the most foreign feeling."

I couldn't ignore all their stares. At some point I would have to explain everything, might as well get it done within the present. "Before I get into our past you guys have to promise that this conversation does not leave us."

They went around the table saying that they understood. I placed my fork down leaving the cake be. I couldn't have it leave a bad taste in my mouth. "It's obvious at this point that Yu-kun and I have a long history together. As far as I can remember, I was always friends with him. Uncle Raichi even took us to a planetarium when it opened."

Shouta's eyes widened, remembering the photograph from our fake date. "Even though we were a year apart, we were raised like siblings. But as we got older there was one thing that started to separate us."

I could clearly remember the gradual change as Yuki slowly disappeared from my life. I down casted my eyes. I hated the way Yuki turned his ways. I can't deny that he was special to me. I could call Shouta my first friend all I want but Yuki remained someone untouchable in my heart.

"Yu-kun's greatest wish was to be an idol. We took lessons together, trained ourselves, watched clips, everything. Slowly that lost its touch for me. I quit. He continued. My days filled with studying and his with music. The last time I saw him was when Starlight announced the acceptance for boy idols."

I could see the image of Yuki standing in my living room that day. "Yu-kun visited me in hopes of us enrolling together. At the time I had no intention of being an idol that I pushed him away. Our relationship was already on the rocks before this. Imagine what happened when Shouta-kun and I passed with minimal training while he failed. Didn't exactly sit well with him."

"Why didn't you ever say anything about him?"

"What was I suppose to say? My childhood friend also auditioned for Starlight but was rejected for his crude behaviour? I'm not too good at leading conversations yet that doesn't seem fitting. Yu-kun never put in the time to talk to me after that either. I thought that maybe after his rejection he would take some time to himself. Learn from his mistakes you know?"

I threw my hands up into the air. "Instead what does he do? Show up out of nowhere as my acting co-star in a romance drama out of all things! I can't wait for our parents to see that press conference. Sure they are pleased as I am."

"You mentioned his parents before. How do they play a part in everything?"

"It's... complicated." I replayed our conversation earlier today. "Have you guys ever wondered how I would be if I wasn't known as the Star Couple's daughter? Like if I was hidden away from the public eye. Would I have quit music? Would I want to be an idol? In some ways, that would be Yu-kun."

"His parents are famous?"

"His mom was. Still is actually. His dad, however, was a completely normal person. So much so that his dad, who had no affiliation with Aikatsu thought it would be best to avoid the limelight. Yu-kun couldn't boast about his mother to others nor receive the same treatment that I had. While I was being treated as the Star Couple's daughter that did everything amazing, Yu-kun wasn't compared to anything. He was only a kid good at music."

"How did his parents react to him wanting to be an idol? If his dad didn't want to put any attention on him why would they allow him to do music?"

"That's where things get more complicated. His parents were fully supportive of his work. In fact," I turned to the boys, "remember when I told you two that Auntie Aoi wanted the very first thing she did as headmistress was to let boys in. It was all for Yu-kun."

"Wait. The new system for the boys was all for Karasuma-kun? That doesn't make any sense."

"His mom is Headmistress Kiriya. Isn't it?" I nodded at Shouta being able to piece that together. They took a second to process the information.

"Wait wait wait! That still doesn't make any sense! I get that she would need to develop a new system but Headmistress Aoi was still the one to reject him! Why do everything just to say he can't come here?" Snapshot gestured for Fumiko to calm down.

"The staff and her were to remain unbiased during the interview process. That was the same for me as well. He failed because of how he turned out. When he was younger his goal to be an idol was because he wanted to be able to proudly call himself Auntie Aoi's son. That changed spending so much time with me. He became incredibly greedy for the spotlight."

I sighed. "His music was filled with such rage. As much as Auntie Aoi wanted to accept Yu-kun, she couldn't deny that he didn't want to help anyone but himself."

"He really managed to stand out from the performances but I wouldn't have thought he was her son. I knew that the Headmistress was married but with a son my age?"

I chuckled at Charlotte. "Two sons actually. Yu-kun has a younger brother that is 2 years old. Told you Uncle Karasuma wanted a low profile on everything. It was because of his dad that he grew up hidden. A spotlight he wanted was denied by his parents and in a way given to me."

"It's not your fault that he didn't get a chance." I shrugged my shoulders at Snapshot.

"That's not how he views it. As long as he thinks of Aikatsu as some sort of trophy goal, no one will accept him as idol. And he can't see that. He's not an idol."

"I can see where he is coming from." Everyone turned to Shouta.

"Do you think someone like that can be an idol?" I asked in disbelief.

"No. At least not yet. But um I can understand why he came to think this way. Karasuma-san reminds me a lot of me." We all waited for him to continue as none of us could understand. "You said that Karasuma-san went to you to talk about the audition. It must have been lonely to have his close friend not support him."

"I still don't understand how he's like you Higawari. Karasuma-kun made his decision himself."

Shouta shook his head. "No one chooses to ruin themselves. Momo-san was close to becoming like him but she didn't. The difference between them was that he could only look from the sidelines. Seeing Momo-san and feeling jealous of her. I think that way too."

"You're jealous of me?"

"Occasionally yeah. Momo-san is able to shine the brightest on stage. In my eyes no one can really compare to you. Karasuma-san must have seen that too. Maybe even more. Right beside him was his friend closer to living his dream and she didn't want it. Yet at the same time the two of you were so alike. You should have been the same as him and in a way you are. Both of you wanted to prove something to your parents. I think that if I had a friend so alike change I would be upset too."

"Yu-kun is the one that changed!"

"But you gave up on music first right?" I was taken back. I fell silent realizing that he was right.

"Hey Shouta!" Fumiko complained.

"N-Not that it was Momo-san's fault! I j-just... Momo-san said it before. Anyone can be an idol with passion. Yet for him you yelled that he's not an idol for you. If Karasuma-san heard that, what would he have said?" I thought to when Yuki came to ask me last. Was that my last time to actually reason with him?

"I have to agree with Higawari-kun." I turned to Charlotte. One look into her navy eyes I saw that she had switched personalities.

"Char-senpai? Why did you come out?"

"Charlotte thought I would be more help here. I still don't hear everything she does but I was able to pick up a few things here and there and I agree with Higawari-kun. This isn't like you."

"What isn't?" She gestured to all of me.

"You're acting completely irrational. And not the asking Charlotte to perform with type of irrational. Your personal feelings with him are making you judge him harder. It's not fair."

"Not fair? As an idol you are suppose to be a good role model for others. Inspire those who look up to you. Not force yourself to the top. Not push away people that only want the best for you."

"When Charlotte didn't believe in herself you did. Your influence changed everyone at this table. An idol is also suppose to help others in need. What about you helped him?"

Hearing it from Char was different. I didn't have a direct impact on her. Disregarding the fact that she was Queen, her persona was based off of a perfect idol. She knew just as well as I did what being an idol truly meant.

"We're not saying it's your fault. I think that you should keep an open mind for him. Karasuma-kun's performance was impactful. You're right though. I don't know if he can become an idol with that attitude. Ignoring that you can't deny his stage presence. If anyone can help him, it's going to be you. Not because of how smart you are but because you're his friend."

"What if I don't want to help him?" I mumbled.

"Why not Momo-chan?" I balled my fists on my lap.

"You guys didn't see him that day. Aikatsu hurt him. I hurt him. Our bond broke because I quit music. Was it only one thing that kept us together? I wanted him to think about something other than his music. It plagues his mind. I don't want him to be hurting anymore. Forcing himself anymore. I don't want to help Yu-kun if it means that he would only fall deeper."

Shouta tried to put his hand on top of my head making me unconsciously shutter at his touch. He pulled away understanding. He gave me a small smile, holding his hand up in front of my face. "Momo-san, don't push yourself too hard."

"I'm selfish, aren't I? For not wanting to help him?" Char shook her head.

"You're not. In the end your own self is the most important. How Karasuma-kun handled everything was up to him. You shouldn't force yourself to try helping him."

I looked down to the cake realizing the flavour that I had grabbed. 'Yu-kun always liked peach things.' I pushed away my cake resting my head on my hand.

"I hear what you're both saying but I think things are only becoming more complicated. Our relationship isn't going to be fixed in a day. That's the sad reality for us."

"Come on Shiro! With this new rule for boys, we can both get into Starlight! Sure it's been a while since you stopped taking lessons but you could make up for it." I looked up from my textbook at Yuki. He had suddenly visited me after school to show me the new announcement from Starlight academy.

"Yu-kun you know why I quit taking lessons. You think I want to be an idol?"

"Forgot about Auntie Ichigo. You can breeze past this if you actually try. I mean how could the Star couple's daughter not be an idol?" I nearly slammed my pencil down at him calling me that.

"You out of all people can't call me that."

"Then drop the whole studying thing. You don't need it. You can be top of the charts. Come on why don't you at least try?"

"Silence yourself Yu-kun." I closed my textbook heading towards him. "I don't want to hear anymore. You can't barge in here after not speaking to me for years and expect me to follow along with your plans."

"Okay fine, yeah that's good reasoning but it's me Shiro. We've done so much together. We understand each other better than anyone! Can you imagine the power that we would have together?"

Yuki grabbed my hands. I could see his eyes sparkling with hope. Yet somehow I couldn't see any conviction behind it. "The power we would or our parents?"

He slowly released his grip. I patted him on the head in an attempt to soothe his stress. He took a step back out of my reach. "Is it so bad that you're compared to your parents? They're the Star couple. You've been showered with praise since the moment you touched a guitar. Not all of us could have that privilege."

The way he spoke scared me. In our entire time knowing each other we never got mad at each other. When I quit music he didn't talk to me but he never directed his anger towards me. At that time, he said that he understood me. Now he was trying to force me to continue.

"Why are you really becoming an idol Yu-kun?"

"What? You already know. I want to be able to tell people that I'm my mom's son. I don't want to be hidden anymore." I saw him tense up his shoulders.

"That's not it. Before you would say that with pride. Why do you sound so much in pain now?" I placed one hand on his cheek. He had pooled up tears in his eyes that he refused to let fall. "I know you want to be an idol but this is not the way. I think you're the one that needs to forget your parents more than me."

Yuki rushed out of my hands, stopping at the exit. "You wouldn't understand anything Shiro! Being an idol is the only way that I can finally say that I'm the famous Kiriya Aoi's son! You didn't even have to try for your parents!"

"You don't either! You're still their son without being an idol! Can't you see that if you continue you're going to be hurting them and yourself?" I pleaded to him.

"I won't. I'm going to become the top idol without your help." With that Yuki left.

I opened my eyes, finding myself staring up at the ceiling. I turned my head to the side seeing my curtains drawn while Fumiko was soundly asleep. Judging from the amount of light seeping through the window I would say that it was roughly 5 in the morning.

'A dream?' I sat up running a hand through my hair. In the low lighting of my room I could see our uniforms hanging off the closest doors.

I quietly got out of bed. I went to stand in front of my uniform. I kept it clean and often ironed it to look prestigious. An image of Yuki in the boy's uniform popped into my head. The two of us training to stand on stage together like we dreamed about as children. I've seen the view from the stage but he hasn't. Did I really take away the spot he wanted?

I had asked Auntie Aoi what happened to him after that day. Even she couldn't answer. He completely shunned himself out from the family. He rotated in between his room and outside of the house. His parents didn't have any control over him. They were sure that he didn't get into too much trouble but as parents it must have been a terrible feeling. I saw, myself, how much Auntie Aoi worked to get boys admitted. All to have that wasted away. I, also, saw how much fear was in them as he started dying his hair randomly.

I shared that fear. I saw Yuki's Starlight audition. He wasn't himself. Change was normal. I wasn't sure if I could handle this new version of him though. The Yuki I grew up with, the one that was by my side since birth, wasn't there anymore. Every time I looked at his hair and heard his voice I was reminded of that.

I let out a sigh, going to sit at my desk. I checked that Fumiko was still asleep when I turned on my small table lamp. I took out my notebook of idols. I flipped to the end of the book. A place with no section title. On it I wrote one name. 'Karasuma Yuki'. I traced the eraser markings that proved how many times I tried to ignore his presence. I knew one day he would come back to try at Aikatsu once more time. Would I have been ready if I was more than a rookie?

I thought back to what Shouta said yesterday. About how Yuki could be an idol. That if I had not pushed him away he wouldn't have done the same to everyone else trying to help him. I had said it myself, anyone can be an idol. It was just Yuki that I wanted to deny that.

'What do you want to do today, Shiro?' The name he said with such a happy face before. 'You wouldn't understand anything Shiro!' It brought me so much pain hearing his yell echo in my mind. 'Are you enjoying being an idol, Shiro?' Yesterday when he said it with no emotion, I felt empty.

'Yu-kun, if I stayed by you would we have been okay?'

Trivia: With Yuki that introduces the final main idol that I have created. What might interest you is that Yuki is probably my favourite character and I was literally ecstatic that I was FINALLY able to release him. Before I wrote this story (and still now) my main characters were very violent and manipulative. Writing about pure idols was so strange. Having Yuki is like a breath of fresh air. Sure there is Kikyo but even she is more bad tempered compared to Yuki who knows how to hold back but you know that something is off with how kind he is. I don't know I just really like writing Yuki.