Sorry for the wait, life got in the way. I added Ritsu's side to give you some perspective of what he's going through. Hope you enjoy it.

I do NOT own Sekaiichi Hatsukoi or the characters.

Ritsu's POV

I don't get Saga Senpai. Why would he stick around me? He knows a lot now because of it. I don't want any friends and I don't want anyone knowing me. Every time I told someone about my problems, they all avoided me afterwards. Usually, all I say is that I'm depressed, but NEVER about the A-word.

I decided that I need to talk to Saga senpai and tell to just forget everything and to never see me again. I wanted to feel confident, but I felt a slight pinch in my chest. I want to believe that he cares about me, but in the end, I know he'll run away.

I practiced speaking in the mirror. I greeted myself more than I practiced the subject of 'leave me alone'. A problem with this is that I can't look myself in the eye or even my face. Every time I do I just end up more depressed. I hear my own mind tell myself a variety of insults that I can't deny.

I looked inside my closet and went to my 'nice' section and picked out a button down and a pair of clean jeans. I want him to take me seriously, so I wanted to look serious. I took a deep breath and walk out the door hoping everything would go according to plan.

I got there too early, and I knew that he would be in the library. I felt like an idiot, so not knowing what to do next I just stood there waiting, then the bell rang. The bell startled me, I was hoping to be here later than this. I watched a river of students flow out of each entrance of the building and head toward the gate.

I felt their eyes on me and I'm sure they're talking about how ridiculous I look or stand or even breathe.

My hands started sweating and my breathing was starting to get heavy. I felt my legs tremble, wanting to retreat, then I heard the word 'weird' in the loud crowd. I couldn't take anymore and sat behind the gate. I covered my ears and felt my body rock back and forth.

I can't stand people watching me with their judgmental eyes. I used to persistently try to please others so they could see me as a good person, but I could never live up to their standards. I remember asking my mother why I was getting picked on so much. She told me that they were jealous, but ever since the diagnosis, I found the truth. It's my fault.

Saga's POV

I couldn't believe how massive the house was when I came. He is one of those spoiled rich kids, and it ticked me off a little bit. We stepped into the house and it was quiet.

"Are your parents home?"

He shook his head without looking back to me and escorted me to a room full of books. The room had thousands of books, more than the school library.

"You must love books."

Ritsu lifted his hand, basically telling me to pick something out, and walked out of the room. Since he likes sorting books, I wondered how he sorted them. Authors were in ABC order along with the titles. I wanted to see if he would notice a book being out of place.

I hear the door open and Ritsu came in with green tea and cakes. I'm not really into sweet things, but I took the green tea and picked out a book by Usami Akihiko.

After a few chapters I couldn't read anymore, I looked up at Ritsu and he was in a book. I wanted to break the silence, but he still didn't answer my question.

"Why did you miss school for a week?"

I heard him flip a page. I grabbed his book and push it downward, his face was red as a tomato. He looked ashamed or embarrassed.

"Was it because of what I did? There's no reason to be embarrassed."

"I'm~~~~..."

"What?"

"Sorry... I told you... a lot."

I thought he was embarrassed about the kiss, but he is ashamed of what he told me. Usually it would be the other way around.

"How do you feel about me?"

His face told me everything. His was was redder and he started to mumble again. It was cute. I released his book.

"You don't have to tell me right now if you don't want to. So you wanted me to come over just to look at your book collection?"

"...No. I wanted to... talk to you."

"Are you only comfortable talking at your house?"

He nodded.

"What do you want to talk about?"

"Why did you make... lip contact?"

"You mean why did I kiss you?"

He placed his book and the table and nodded.

"Did you like it?"

"I don't like... physical contact."

That hurt a little, but I should've expected that. I'm glad that I looked up what Autism is.

"Why don't you hate me?"

"What reason would I have to have you? You're a little awkward, but that doesn't give me a reason to despise you. For example, You brought us cake, but you're not eating it. Why is that?"

"..."

"Get your cake, we're eating it."

"I-I'm not... hungry."

That sounded like a lie.

"You're bad at lying aren't you?"

I grab the cakes and placed them in front of us. Ritsu looked at it, but didn't touch it.

"Take a bite. If it makes you feel better I'll take one with you. Just do what I do."

I pick up my fork and put a piece of cake on it and wait for Ritsu. Once he was ready I placed the piece in my mouth, chewed, and swallowed. Ritsu just held the fork looking like he didn't know what to do.

"You DO eat don't you?"

"At home."

"So you starve yourself at school!?"

"I'm fine. I eat... when I get home."

I was starting to get angry.

"Eat the cake."

It took him a while, but he carefully took the small bite and chewed slowly. He looked extremely uncomfortable. When he finally swallowed I had to give him praise.

"Good. Now Everyday you're going to eat lunch with me at school."

"... But-"

"A butt is what you sit on when you eat with me."

He started to pout, I couldn't help but think about how cute his pout is.

"Alright, I have to go home. We'll talk some more tomorrow."

I got up, placed the book in its proper place, and said my goodbyes.

Sorry for how short it is. I'm working on it.