Hi everyone. Sorry I have not updated in a while, I just started a new semester and I have a class that is already wants so much done within a week. I will try to update both stories as much as I can.
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After I tried to leave last night, Eric is not letting me out of his sight. I managed to get out of Dauntless, so I can go for a run. I needed advice and I needed to clear my head and think about what was going on. I was running towards Candor to talk to Jack about the trail, when I ran into someone.
"Oh, I am so sorry I wasn't looking." I say to the person.
"It's ok." says the person.
I look to see who I ran into and the person was Monica.
"Monica again I am so sorry that I ran into you. I just have a lot on my mind right now." I say trying to make this conversation short.
"Is it because of what happened a few weeks ago with your parents? Erin told me what happened. I'm surprised that you weren't taken from their custody sooner." Monica says with sympathy.
"Well it doesn't matter because I have to leave again." I say starting to walk away.
Monica stops me and asks, "What you mean?"
"I'm leaving Monica. I'm trying to get a new identity and start a new life away from everything." I say trying to look at anything but her.
"Does Eric know that your leaving?" she asks.
"No, he caught me trying to leave last night and—" I start saying but then I get cut off.
"You tried to leave last night? I thought everything was going good between you and Eric." she says confused.
"Everything was going good until my parents came. Now everything is ruined, and Eric deserves better. He does not need all the drama I create, and he doesn't need to be held back by me." I say.
"I'm sure he doesn't mind." Monica says with sympathy.
"Yeah for now he doesn't but one day he is going to wake up and realize that he doesn't need this in his life. He will leave me, and I will be all alone." I say starting to walk away again.
Monica stops me and says, "Just think about what might happen if you do leave."
She walks away, and I continue my run to Candor. Once I get to Candor, I walk straight up to Jacks office. I knock on the door and hear him say "Come." I walk inside and shut the door behind me. Jack looks up from the tablet he was working on and says "Hey, your father might get life in prison and be disbarred. I'm not sure what will happen to your mother, but your parents will lose custody of you."
"Yeah that's fine whatever" I say sitting on one of the couches in his office.
He walks over and sits next to me and asks, "What's wrong?"
"I'm so sick and tired of running." I say looking at my feet.
"Then stop. Your parents are finally getting what they deserve after making your life a living hell. You are better off here then in another city." he says.
"Yeah but Eric won't be around forever. One day he will wake up and decide that I'm not worth it anymore." I say sadly.
"He will. When your father got you at your apartment, Max had to up extra security around your father's cell because he knew that Eric would go and kill him. Eric loves you so much. Why are you doubting his love for you?" he says.
"Everyone was always on my parent's side. They believed I should have been sent to a reform school. I had very little friends and my parents wanted me to marry into a rich family. I have never known what real love is like until now." I say with tears falling down my face.
"Your afraid that is all a dream and one day it will end right?" he asks.
"I know all this is real but I'm afraid of losing Eric the most. I love him, and I know he loves me but sometimes love just isn't enough." I say wiping the tears from my face.
"Maybe you should talk about it with him." he suggests.
"I can't talk to him about it. He will think that I'm paranoid. I have no idea what to do now." I say.
"Go back to Dauntless and talk to Eric. That's the only thing you can do right now." he says.
"Ok. I'll go back and talk to him." I say getting up from the couch.
I hug him and leave the office. I get on a train and head back to Dauntless. Once I get to dauntless, I jump on the roof and head over to the opening with the net at the bottom. I get to the edge and hear someone ask, "Where the hell have you been?"
I look behind me and see Eric heading towards me. I sit on the edge and say, "I went to see Jack to talk about the trail."
"You could have told me where you were going." he says angry.
"You never would have let me leave. You would have had Jack come to Dauntless. You can not control me or else I will think you are going to be like my parents." I say.
"Never compare me to them! I would never beat you or make you run away." he exclaims.
"Yeah but my parents were also controlling who I hung out with and never let me have a say." I say.
Eric does something that I would have never expected him to do, he got on his knees and is kneeling before me. I am so confused right now, so I ask him "What are you doing?"
I kneel in front of him and say "You may say that everything I've been through is enough and it will never make you change the way you look at me. Then one day you are going to wake up and realize that I'm not worth it anymore and leave."
"When you came into my life, I knew that you were different than the other girls I've been with. I knew that you were it for me; that you were the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. After your father came and beat you again, I knew that it would only be a matter of time until I would start to lose you. Last night was the proof that I may have already lost you. When I came back to the apartment earlier and you weren't there I feared that you just left and were never coming back. I will follow you anywhere you go, and never stop trying to prove that you are enough." he says with a very serious expression.
Tears gather in my eyes and I say "I want to believe you. I'm just so afraid that this is too good to be true."
"I will go into Max's office and resign right now if I have to." he says very serious.
"No, don't do that. After I came here, I felt like I could be safe and never have to worry about my past but now everything has changed. You were the only one who did not treat me like I was some girl with a sad story. Everyone here knows about what happened, but they will still look at me different. Some people think I just could handle the beatings but i knew it would only be a matter of time until I would end up dead." I say tears falling.
"I promise you that I will never leave you. I love you. When I proposed, I was trying to prove that I will always be faithful to you." he says.
"Let's go back to the apartment and talk about this more." I suggest.
"No, I want you to know that nothing will ever make me leave you. You mean the world to me and I know that you are worried about what might happen in the future. Monica called me and told me what you said. That's why I came up here after I checked I apartment. I was terrified that you actually left after talking to her." he says pulling me into his arms.
"I'm not worth it Eric. I'm not." I say crying.
He pulls me back and grabs my face to look at him and he says "You are so worth it. You are worth everything we have been through together."
I lean forward and kiss him. He kisses me back with so much passion. I feel his love for me and I know that this is where I belong. I am meant to be here with him.
Hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I'm trying to come up with ideas for the trial and the wedding. I you have any let me know!
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