A/N Buffy died in canon twice and experienced PTSD and depression and self abusive behavior. I acknowledge that and I feel for her. But it's also not an easy mind sight to write about. I don't want to gloss over the fact that Buffy died in this story too and is now having to deal with that fact and the literal proof of it in the form of Faith. I'm going to try to do justice to what I think Buffy is feeling and how she might act. She was really bitchy and mean in the episode 'When She Was Bad' before taking a sledgehammer to the Master's bones. I don't plan to make her bitchy and mean in this story. Mainly because she's already in a better place emotionally in this story than she was in canon, so I don't think it's justifiable to portray her that way in this story. I usually don't ask for reviews, but I do ask for feedback, constructive criticism that helps me grow as a writer and this is one chapter I'm going to ask for it. If I have to, I'll rewrite the chapter if I mishandle it.

But I'm also aware that Faith is grieving so neither of them are in a good place right now.

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"So, new Slayer." Buffy's face was blank as she looked at the other girl.

"Yeah, that's me. The Slayer."

"A Slayer, I was The Slayer first."

"So, we're both Slayers, how about you show me around Sunny D? Give me an idea of where the trouble spots are."

"Sure, why not. I'll just get my gear. Do you have gear?"

"Not yet, only been doing this a week."

"I've been doing it almost three years."

"Better than average then."

"Yeah, overachiever, always got to go for the crown. Homecoming Queen, Longest Lived Slayer. With a heart that takes a lickin' and keeps on tickin'"

"So I heard." Remembering Kakistos playing with Diana's life, torturing her for hours until her heart gave out. The same day Buffy died. If Buffy had died the day before, maybe Faith could have saved her. Faith immediately felt guilty for that thought, Diana especially wouldn't have liked it and Buffy didn't deserve it. Buffy returned with her vest on and her taser in her left hand and a stake in her right.

"Is that hard to use?" Faith asked curiously, using one had never come up in her training.

"No, but it can only be used on one vamp at a time, which can be an issue if multiple vamps attack."

"Does that happen often? Yesterday six of them came at me and I'd only been in town a day. If Alex and his people hadn't showed up when they did, my time as a Slayer would have been awful short."

"No, actually. They probably realized you were a Slayer and already knew about me and thought a newby might be easy to take out."

"I'd have made them pay for it." Faith assured her.

"I wish I could have made the bitch who zapped me with mystical lightening pay for it. Alex and Jesse damaged her thingie and she took a blast of lightening herself. I didn't even get to see it since I was, you know, dead."

"You didn't stay that way." Faith pointed out. "Others did."

"Like kids. Kids I killed."

"Not your fault."

"Maybe I deserved it. Because I did kill kids." Buffy was stone faced as she speed walked down the street.

"How could you deserve to die for something that wasn't your fault? You had no way of knowing, right?"

"No, but it still happened. Their blood is on my hands, I'm supposed to protect people, instead I killed them. Maybe I should have stayed dead. Just punishment. It's not like the world needs two Slayers."

"You saved my life."

Buffy swung around and stared at Faith. "What the Hell are you talking about? How did I save your life?!"

"I was chained to a wall, I was forced to watch Kakistos torture and kill Diana. I was next and than I activated. Because you died. You saved my life by dying. I want to live, I wish Diana could have lived. But for her to have lived, you would have had to die sooner. She'd never want someone to trade their life for hers. She was a good person, she cared about me, not just for me. She took care of me, she wanted to make sure I lived as long as possible. Being a Potential and now a Slayer means I have a better life than before. Sure, it won't be a long one, but it's better than what I had before. You saved my life. How do you thank someone for dying and saving your life? How do you thank someone for giving you a chance at something better? Diana gave me a chance at something better and so did you. You didn't deserve to die or stay dead, neither does Diana. You have to bear the guilt of killing those kids, even though you don't deserve it, I have to carry the guilt of not saving Diana. Do I deserve that?"

Buffy looked at Faith and considered her words and than shook her head. "Vampires can't sense Potentials, just Slayers. He went after her because he wanted to, not because of you. No, you don't deserve the guilt and neither do I. Doesn't change the fact that we do, does it?"

"No, it doesn't. But you know one of the really great things about being a Slayer?"

"What?"

"Beating up vampires is cathartic."

"Oh, trust me, I know."

"Then let's find some vampires and get cathartic on their ass."

Buffy grinned, the expression of a wolf hunting prey. "Lets."