"When mankind falls into conflict with nature, monsters are born." Makoto Hayashida
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For all of you who are reading this message now, this text has been written after a decision I made to overhaul a majority of this book.
At the time I'm writing this, I find it lacking to my standards, and now I am currently writing it anew.
I hope yall will like this newer version.
Yang POV:
Ruby has locked herself in her bedroom since her rampage days ago, most of the time I can hear her sobbing. I'm worried she will do something rash...I doubt she can hurt herself enough to kill herself, but I don't want to find out if she can either.
There are times where I can hear her growl at something from across the house, whatever can make her growl like that, is not something I want to meet. The simple fact that her growls can shake the house with their frequency was terrifying in of itself.
That's not to mention the beams of pure destruction she can produce now...my skin still feels phantom burns from simply being near her when she fired one off. I think I had third degree burns from it, luckily my aura is rather strong and healed it within a day or so.
I'm honestly scared for Ruby right now, whatever that bomb did to her changed her drastically. I don't mean that in just the physical sense, her mind has been warped pretty badly.
With all of the talk about wanting her suffering to end, she is definitely suicidal to a massive degree. Every evolution she goes through makes the problem so much worse, she went on that bloody rampage because she lost it from the misery she's in.
I would go on a rampage too if my body decided to make me a Futa against my own will, it would violate a very important part of my being. I tried to approach her to at least console her, but the minute I knocked on the door, one of those earth shaking growl's was directed at me!
So I have been forced to stand by and do nothing when my baby sister was hurting, it was picking apart my mind at not being able to help.
I lost two mom's already and Ruby is both my sister and somewhat to be what I consider a daughter, I raised her by myself for several years after Ruby's mom died and dad shut down emotionally.
It took a long time for dad to get over mom's death, time in which I was forced to grow up and be there for Ruby. Uncle Qrow rarely visited after mom's death too, instead focusing on his job of protecting the kingdom's as he claimed.
Sometimes I feel angry I had most of my childhood taken from me, but every time I saw Ruby happy, I knew it mattered little to me.
Tomorrow we have to head to Vale's airship to get to Beacon, something I don't think Ruby's ready for at all. At least not with the mental state she has currently, something Grimm would take advantage of very quickly.
Though I doubt any type of Grimm has a chance in killing her, those Beowulve's claws produced sparks against her skin. Now that I think on it, I don't think Ruby has eaten anything the last few day's either...
Screw it! I hate not being able to help her, so I'm going to forcefully bring her some food and talk to her. I don't care if she tries to attack me, I know she NEEDS someone to talk to right now.
I'm going to make her some of mom's chocolate chip cookies, they were something that always either calmed her down or made her hyper. Honestly I blame the amount of sugar in the thing's, Ruby definitely inherited mom's sweet tooth.
For now I'm going to bake those cookies.
Ruby's POV:
Monster. A word that describes my entire painful existence anymore, who wouldn't think I'm a monster with the appearance and abilities I have now?
Deathly pale skin in a few areas and the rest being jet black bumpy skin like a burn victim, a large sentient tail with a mind of its own, and a lower jaw that splits in half to name a few. I bring death and sickness where I go with my horrible energy, slowly killing those around me.
Dad and Yang nearly died when I let my control go for only a few seconds, then I destroyed an entire building in Vale because I lost control of myself yet again. In the dust shop I learned that I have killed people in my other form! Even if it was unintentional, I still took their lives...
Then not even ten minutes later I have a blade pointed at me, making me revert to my new and stupid baser instincts!
That's not to mention the pain of having every cell mutate and split every microsecond I have to try to ignore. Even now I can feel my cells bleeding and mutating in every single inch of my body...
My sob's of misery echo into the pillow of my bed that I haven't left for days, I don't need to eat with the energy my heart gives me. It's more a pleasure of the flesh than a need anymore.
Right now my only wish was for my pain to end, to let my weary soul and mind drift into the void after death. In my belief, a void after death is the most merciful afterlife. No sense of self or being a spirit until the heat death of the universe, just blissful silence and non-existence.
I wish I could see mom again, seeing her in my dream made my heart ache with that old wound again...I didn't even tell Dad or Yang about seeing her again.
My mind's a mess! Every time I gather my thoughts enough to act normal again, my body brings me the worst agony anyone's ever experienced by evolving.
I just want it to STOP! IS IT TOO MUCH TO ASK TO NOT BE IN PAIN EVERY SECOND?! TO NOT KNOW WHAT I AM BECOMING WITH EVERY PASSING DAY ANYMORE?! THEN THE PEOPLE AROUND ME CALLING ME A MONSTER, WHO HAVE NO IDEA OF WHAT I HAVE SUFFERED!
IT'S ALL ATLAS'S FAULT! THEY JUST HAD TO CREATE A WEAPON CAPABLE OF TURNING ME INTO THE ABOMINATION I AM NOW, ALL IN THE SAKE OF CREATING MORE PROGRESS FOR HUMANITY!
I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I AM HUMAN ANYMORE! MY BODY AND MIND ARE IN SUCH A STATE OF FLUX, THAT I CAN'T EVEN TELL IF I AM SANE ANYMORE EITHER!
"Heh...heh...heh...heheheHAHAHAHAHA! I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! WHEN CAN IT ALL END FOR ME?!" I scream at the top of my lung's, black blood seeping out of my eyes from my brain trying to destroy itself.
As I am lying on my bed giggling and laughing madly, I feel a heat start to burn in my abdomen. I panic thinking it's another damnable evolution I had to endure, only for the feeling to quickly fade away.
今始まったでしょ?
Ima hajimattadesho?
今、彼女を救う唯一のもの?
Ima, kanojo o sukuu yuiitsu no mono?
GREAT! NOW I CAN'T EVEN TELL WHAT MY OWN BODY JUST DID TO ME?! MOM PLEASE JUST TAKE TO YOU ALREADY! I CAN BARELY STAND ANY MORE SUFFERING!
Yang POV:
I can hear Ruby laughing like a mad person in her bedroom, luckily the cookies that might calm her down are done baking. I just need to approach her without getting torn apart, something that will be difficult with her mental state right now.
I know she has mentioned having advanced sense's at some point, meaning she will smell them and beeline it to the tray. This recipe is one of the last thing's we have of mom, meaning it is special to both Ruby and me.
I set the cookies on the counter after pulling them out of the oven, now just to lie in wait for Ruby.
Ruby POV:
I can't handle much more, it's too much for a single person to bare for too long! The pain, the self inflicted madness, the suffering of those around you...Please just let it stop...
A familiar smell hit my nose, one that brought back flashing images of my last fading memories of mom...
'Mom's chocolate chip cookies!' They were one of the only thing's able to calm me down when I was young, that or give me a huge sugar high.
Only Dad and Yang know how to make those cookies, well at least since I am a horrible cook. I need one of those cookies! Something to try to keep the negativity at bay...
I slowly get off my bed and open the door to my bedroom, my nose quivering as the smell of those cookies got stronger. Then I saw the tray of cookies on the kitchen counter, I already knew Yang was nearby thanks to her scent and my radar/sonar organ on my brain.
"Come out Yang, I can SMELL you!" I said while my nose twitched from Yang's scent, it was similar to a campfire.
'Must be from her semblance and aura.' I thought as I watched Yang walk out of the...pantry? Okay that was weird even for her.
"Hey Rube's! I knew you weren't feeling good, so I made mom's cookie recipe to cheer you up!" Yang chirped at me, I was too busy staring at the cookies to really notice though.
They smelled just like I remember...I'm going to eat them all! I picked up the tray and let my bottom jaw unfold out, then I ate both the tray and cookies.
They both disappeared straight down my gullet, I did not even need to chew it honestly.
"WHAT THE FUCK RUBY?! WHY DID YOU EAT THE TRAY TOO?!" Yang screamed in horror after I swallowed the entire tray with the cookies, her face twisted in pure shock.
"Considering I don't even need to eat anymore, does this really surprise you?" I replied as she just pinched the bridge of her nose and shook her head slowly.
"This was not the way I thought this would go...Okay I also wanted to talk to you about Beacon." She said as I raised my eyebrow at the words.
"Right now you are unfit to go to Beacon, not with the mentality you have right now. I want you to try to be as positive as you can, otherwise you might attract a Grimm who can kill you." Yang explained as I scoffed a bit, that Grimm would have to be a ancient titan to match me.
"As if that will happen, but I will at least try..." I stated while looking at my right hand and clenching it, I can still feel pain across the entirety of my body.
If Yang asks me to do this though, I will try my best for her. After mom died, she raised me by herself for more than a few years.
"Good! Now let's go outside and spar since you will be in CQC more with your new body!" Yang yelled while using her pretty monsterous strength to push me outside of the house.
'This probably won't end well even with my new strength...' I thought as I got ready for a brand new ass whooping.
Annnnnd that's it!
For those of you who read the original book, or for those of you who had read this book before the overhaul, I would like to know how yall think this overhaul is compared to before.
Anyways I hope yall liked the chapter, tell me what you thought and leave a vote if you'd like!
