Hey everyone! I'm back at school so I might take a while to update. I will try to write with any free time I have! I'm going to use a quote from the book If I Stay in this chapter. I put another twist in the story that I know you all will hate!

Everything belongs to Cassandra Clare and Gayle Forman.

Angela's POV

I spit out my drink shocked that Izzy would even ask me that. I look in front of me and see that my spit take got Jace wet. He was wiping the drink of his face.

"Why are asking all of a sudden?" I ask.

"I want a niece or nephew soon. I prefer a niece." says Izzy.

"Alec make sure I have a nephew." says Jace.

I look at my husband with pleading eyes. He smiles and me and then says "Angela and I are waiting for a little while before we try to have kids."

Izzy does a spit take and gets Magnus wet. She looks at us shocked and says "How long are you two waiting?"

"We haven't decided how long we are waiting to start having kids." I say.

"That's not a good enough answer!" exclaims Izzy.

"When we decide that we want to start having kids, I'll let you know." I say angry while getting out of my seat and grabbing my bowl and cup.

I walk into the kitchen and while I'm walking I hear jace say "Good job Izzy." I put my bowl and cup in the sink. I walk out of the kitchen and walk up the stairs to our bedroom. I shut the door behind me and lean up against it. I don't want my new in-laws to think that we were rushing to have kids. I told Alec about Kyle this morning and he might still be angry at me. Now that Izzy brought up having kids he might be pissed.

I feel a light push on the door and I know that someone wants to get in our room. I walk away from the door and go to sit on our bed. I feel a slight dip in the bed and feel a hand on my shoulder. I put my head on Alec's shoulder and start crying softly. I feel Alec wrap his arms around me and I feel him rub my back to calm me down. I cry for a few minutes before I calm down.

"I told Izzy that she was out of line." Alec said once I calmed down.

"She doesn't know about Kyle or the plan I had with him and that I tried to have that plan with you." I said sniffling.

"My parents are talking to her right now. I figured you would've came up here. I knew that your emotions would be out of whack because you started today." he says kissing the top of my head.

"I thought that I had my whole life planned out but then after Kyle died I remembered this quote from a book I once read called "If I Stay" the quote is "Life is this big fat gigantic stinking mess, but that's the beauty of it too." That quote basically describes everyone's life but my life is so screwed up I don't know what to do anymore." I say.

"That quote does describe life. What is that book about?" Alec says lifting up my chin so I can look him in the eyes.

"It's about a girl named Mia. She and her family get in this huge car crash that causes her to lose her family and she's stuck in this limbo between life and death. She has to decide if she stays or joins her family in heaven. It was a good book." I say smiling.

"If you had to choose to stay or go what would you pick?" Alec asks.

"I don't know. It's hard to say because if someone gives me permission to go then I would go but only if my family is gone." I say.

Alec gets up from the bed and walks to the window for a minute. I look at him confused. He turns around and says "So if someone gave you permission to leave and go to heaven you would take it?"

"Only if my family died." I say standing up.

"What about me?" he asks.

I look at him confused. "Would you still leave even if it meant that you would die and I would live? You leave me and I'm all alone." he says.

"I don't know. If it meant I would have to live without my parents and be an orphan then yes I would leave. If I had to stay then I would, I wouldn't be happy about it but I would stay." I say.

"So you would leave me behind to mourn your death? Have me wonder what I could have done to make you stay? Wonder what I could have done to make sure that whatever happened to you not happen to you?" he yells.

"It's a book! It will never happen!" I yell.

"Anything could happen to you! You could get in a car crash, you could get shot or run over." he yells.

"Nothing is going to happen to me!" I yell storming out of the room.

I run down the stairs and grab my keys. I walk out to my car and get in it. I start my car and back out of our driveway. I drive down the road for a while. I hear my phone buzz a few times and I look over and see Alec's name pop up on the screen. I turn my attention back to the road and continue to drive. I dive to this really pretty cliff spot I found when I was driving around the island. I get out of my car and go over to the bench that is near the cliff and sit down. I stare out at the landscape in front of me.

I sit on that bench until it gets dark. I am calm and ready to go back to my husband so we can talk. I stand up and walk back to my car. I start the car, back up and turn onto the road. While I'm driving, my mind wonders to what would happen if I had to choose to stay or leave. I chose to leave then I could join Kyle in heaven and we could be happy. If I stay then I could be happy with Alec, we could start a family and watch our children grow and watch our grandchildren grow up. I sigh so confused.

I see a bright light out of the corner of my eye and hear a crash sound.

So yeah that just happened. What do you think happened? Will Angela live or die? Will Alec forgive her? Will Angela stay to be with Alec or leave to be with Kyle in heaven? Do you want me to have her be like Mia in If I Stay where Mia is in the limbo between life and death?

Review please!