In the morning, I got out of the shower and changed into a white tee and jeans. I was reading Jonathan Gilbert's journal and found out that he must have known about the vampires. I also found this drawing that he did and decided to get out my old sketchbook. I used to draw a lot of hot vampire girls and sexy werewolves. I started to draw, trying to sketch Stefan. I wished that he was here so I could have an easier time. I didn't understand how he could just leave me, even though it was also hard to believe that I wanted to date him. I was having a bit of a crisis. If not for the fact that I had nothing, I would probably be drunk right now.
I basically had two options for things that I could do. I could go to the school and set up for the career fair or I could go to the library and work on my paper some more. I did really need to work on it and it was probably more important than the career fair. I guess there was the third option of trying to get Stefan to stay here, but I didn't have a lot of hope for that happening.
"Was that your sketchbook that I saw?" Jenna asked me as I went downstairs. I blushed as I grabbed a bagel from the counter. I didn't know why it was a big deal that I was drawing again. Wouldn't that be considered a good thing because people would think that I was getting back to normal, even though I wasn't entirely sure what normal for Mary Gilbert was.
"So, I've been drawing a little." I responded. "I need something to do now that Stefan dumped me. Well, I told him that I wanted to date, and he said he can't because he's leaving?
"Where is he going?" She asked. I didn't care on where he planned on going because I just needed to find a way to prevent him from going there in the first place. I just didn't know how to do that.
"I don't know, and I don't think that he's going to tell me." I responded as we both went out the door. She seemed to be okay with me for the first time in a while.
"Yours leaves and mine comes back." She explained. Logan was back? Did that mean that he wasn't dead?
"You saw Logan last night?" I questioned. I supposed that it could have been one of the other guys that she had dated.
"Yeah, but I didn't let him past the front door." She told me. That sounded like progress at least.
"You can't ever see him again." I responded. Something about him just creeped me out, even though I was pretty sure he didn't think about me in a sexual kind of way. "He's hurt you too many times and need to delete him."
"I've got it." She declared in annoyance. Had I made her mad at me? I hoped that she knew that I was only meddling in her personal life for her own good.
I decided to go to the library, and I happened to find that Anna was there. I didn't ask her to meet me there because I didn't have her number. She had just decided to go there.
"So how is the paper going?" She asked me. She seemed to be someone who didn't go with traditional greetings.
"Well, I found that journal and found out that the guy who wrote it was a nutcase that believed in vampires." I answered. I figured that was what a normal person would say. It was also possible that he was still a nutcase even if he knew the vampires were real.
"Maybe he was onto something." She stated. You know I couldn't help but wonder why she cared so much about that. Was she a conspiracy theorist or something? What reason did she have for trying to prove that vampires really existed? Maybe it was just a goth thing. "I bet I can find some research that proves that vampires exist."
"He might have just been using vampires as an allegory for the Union soldiers." I declared. I mean I could definitely see it. I didn't know if he was smart enough to make that comparison, but I could definitely see it if he did. "I mean they attacked at night and were considered demonic by the Confederates."
"How are you failing this class?" She questioned. I supposed she didn't know of my history of truancy or about the fact that Tanner was not a good teacher.
"I didn't do my homework or go to class." I declared. It was probably something that I should have been more ashamed of, but I didn't really feel shame about it. It was probably because of how much I hated Tanner.
"Still, I am going to find proof and you are going to help me." She told me before she pulled out some papers. It seemed like she had already done some research. "I've actually some research into such a thing because I am weird. Look at this. Every few years there are a number of animal attacks. It can't just be a bunch of stupid people in the woods and how exactly do you explain the one that happened at the school?"
"Well, I think that you might just be as crazy as he was." I teased her. I couldn't help but wonder if she really was into the conspiracy theory aspect of it. I then noticed that she was pretty close to me. She actually grabbed me and pulled me into a kiss. Normally I would have been more into it, but my shock and my complicated feelings for Stefan made me just awkwardly stand there.
"Sorry." She apologized. At least she didn't look like she was going to run away.
"So, I have this guy that I'm trying to figure things out with right now. I'm sorry." I told her. "I can introduce you to someone who is single. My sister likes girls."
"I still shouldn't have done that." She stated. Technically, it could be considered sexual assault, but I wasn't really as mad at her as I was surprised. I was a little confused about my sexuality to be honest. I hadn't ever liked a guy before Stefan, even after being turned into a girl.
"Don't worry about it." I assured her. I needed to keep her with me because I didn't want her to think that I didn't want to be friends with her. "I like to think of it as an affirmation that you think that I'm hot, which I kind of need after the guy that I liked rejected me last night. I don't really want to go into it now."
"Well, if you want, I could come over tonight and maybe we could have a slumber party." She offered. While the idea of a slumber party seemed to kind of weird, I would feel a lot more comfortable doing it with her. I couldn't believe that I had made friends with a girl, and she was also taking the fact that I didn't want to kiss her really well.
"It's tempting but I have this career thing at the school." I told her. Jenna wanted me to go, and I also had a feeling that Stefan might show up. I didn't know why he would show up, but I had a feeling that he would be there. "Maybe you should let me take a rain check. Anyway, I need to get going. I'll see you later."
I stepped outside and surprisingly, I happened to see Stefan. He had a serious look on his face.
"What are you doing here?" I asked him. Also how did he know that I was at the library?
"We need to talk." He replied. I hoped that he wasn't about to tell me goodbye, even though last night kind of felt like a goodbye and the fact that he hadn't left yet was good news. "There was a vampire attack last night. A female victim was found just down the street from you."
"Are you sure it wasn't Damon?" I questioned. I wouldn't be surprised if he had done it.
"Damon's been trying to keep a low profile." He explained. "He wouldn't be obvious. I think that it's someone new because a vampire normally wouldn't be so careless unless they were trying to send a message. I can promise that I'll be in town at least until we deal with whoever it is that did it."
"Is there any chance that I could talk you into not leaving?" I questioned. I kind of wanted to thank this memory vampire for keeping him here, but I was pretty sure that I shouldn't do that because they could be dangerous. I could at least mentally thank them even if I didn't know who I was thanking.
"No." He answered. He actually didn't sound very convincing. "I can't stay here, Mary. I've caused too much trouble and I need to go, but I don't want to keep any more secrets from you. You deserve honesty."
I sighed and decided to head home. I could definitely get to work on writing. I was pretty sure that I had most of the information that I needed.
I walked into the house and noticed that Elena had a guitar. Uncle John had taught her how to play when she was younger, but it had been so long. I didn't even know she still had it.
"What are you doing with that?" I asked her.
"I thought that maybe I could write songs." She explained. What was she going to write about though? I didn't know if people would care about the death of her parents. Vicki's death could make an interesting song, but she didn't remember that. "I may not be the greatest singer, but you don't have to be to write. I was going to see if there was anything at the career fair about it. So do you still draw by any chance?"
"I don't know." I replied. I wasn't sure if I should tell her if I had started drawing again. "There was something that I want to talk to you about. I met this girl yesterday and she likes girls. Do you think that you might be ready to date again?"
"How do you know that she likes girls?" My sister asked. This was a little bit embarrassing.
"She might have kissed me." I answered with a blush.
"Seriously?" Elena asked as she began to giggle. "A girl kissed you?"
"I'm hot. Girls can kiss me if they want." I responded. I knew that logic didn't sound very good. I wasn't mad at Anna for doing it. I supposed that I was trying to be less embarrassed about being kissed by someone unexpectedly. "I happen to find it very flattering."
"You sound gayer than I am right now." She teased me. Was she gay? We hadn't actually discussed her sexuality. "So how are things with Stefan?"
"They're not." I declared. I kind of didn't want to tell her about it. "I don't want to talk about it."
That night, I went to the school and began to check out the various booths of the career fair. I went towards the art booth and happened to notice that Tyler was there. I was a little bit surprised by that.
"What?" He asked me.
"Nothing, I'm just surprised to see you here." I told him. "Art generally implies culture and culture implies not you."
"Why don't you look at who drew these?" He suggested as I noticed the name Tyler Lockwood signed on them.
Before I could say anything, I happened to notice that Stefan had walked over. Tyler seemed to decide that he didn't want to be around us, and he walked away. I smiled as soon as I saw Stefan. I still couldn't believe that a guy could make me smile.
"You know you don't seem like someone that really needs to plan your future out." I quipped. "That could only mean one thing. You're here for me."
"I hope that's alright." He declared. It was pretty sweet.
"As long I get to be near you, I'm not complaining." I stated. I wondered if I should try kissing him. Would that be okay? "So, what would you be if you weren't well you know?"
"I wanted to be a doctor." Stefan remarked as we walked through some of the tables. I didn't know if I could picture that to be honest. I didn't think a vampire would make a very good doctor because they have to be around a lot of blood. "After everything happened, I just couldn't."
"Yeah, that seems like it would be the worst possible job for you." I agreed.
"I've dabbled in some other things over the years." He added.
"Did you not find anything that you liked enough to stick with?" I questioned. I wasn't upset that he hadn't because then I wouldn't have met him. I did wonder what made him decide to go back to high school though. He looked a little older than the average high school student because he was from a different time with different rules.
"I loved all of it, but I had to move on before people realized that I wasn't getting older." He explained. "The longest that I could stay was usually 10 years. So, how about you? What did you want to be?"
"It doesn't matter." I snapped at him. It was probably a bad idea for me to do that. "If you're not going to be here, why do you even care?"
"You'd be better off without me in your life." He stated. I was about to say something when Jenna came over to us.
"Hide me." She begged as she crouched down behind me. Why was she hiding behind me when Stefan was taller?
"What are you doing?" I questioned. It was pretty strange.
"The motherfucker is here." She explained. That was pretty vague, but I had an idea who she was talking about.
"Logan?" I asked. Well, I supposed it made sense. He was a reporter and if anyone wanted advice on how to break into the field of journalism, they would probably need to talk to him. I still didn't understand why he was gone for so long, though.
"Wait, Logan Fell?" Stefan asked in confusion. There was some kind of subtext to that. Jenna nodded and he ran out into the hallway. About a minute later, Jenna and I followed him.
"Stefan, what the fuck?" I questioned. Something very strange was going on.
Logan then walked over to us with a smug smile. That was why I didn't like him.
"Jenna, are you dodging me?" He asked.
"It's a form of self-preservation." My aunt replied.
"Mary, why don't go and take Jenna somewhere else." Stefan suggested. There was definitely something up and I needed to figure out what. I did as Stefan said and took her to the gym. For some reason he didn't want me near Logan. Wait. Maybe Logan was dead. I needed to see if Jenna could give me any information that could help me with my theory. She had to know something.
"What was Logan like when he came over last night?" I questioned. If he was a vampire, she definitely didn't need to be around him.
"He was his usual self: charming, smarmy, entitled." She answered. That wasn't particularly helpful.
"Jenna, I'm serious. Did he do anything strange?" I asked her. I was beginning to form some suspicions, especially since the attack happened near the house.
"He was a little more manic than usual and he kept trying to get me to invite him in." She explained. That confirmed it. Logan was a vampire. I couldn't automatically pin the attack on him, but it would be pretty coincidental if he hadn't done it.
"Jenna, I want you to never let him into the house." I instructed. "You should never even see him again."
"Jenna, Mary, it's good to see you two." Mr. Saltzman interrupted. I figured that this was a good distraction. He could keep her away from Logan.
I then went to find Stefan because I was angry at him. I found him outside with a phone in his hand. I wondered if he had been talking to Damon.
"So is there anything you wanted to say to me Mr. I Didn't Tell You Logan's A Vampire?" I asked.
"When we were looking for Vicki, Logan came hunting for us. He was ready to kill me, but Damon killed him first. I don't know who turned him." He explained. It probably wouldn't make sense for Damon to do it because who would want him to be a vampire.
"Well, we need to get him away from all of these people." I proposed. "Let's go back inside."
We went inside and decided to ask the first person that we saw, who happened to be Matt. It seemed like he would be hanging around with no real purpose. One thing that I was pretty sure was that he didn't have a future in football. It was a little mean, but if you can't win football games, you should be playing it.
"Hey, have you seen Logan Fell the news guy?" I asked him.
"Yeah, he was giving Caroline a ride home." Matt answered. That was bad. We started to run before he stopped me.
"Stay here." Stefan told me. I figured it was a good idea to listen to him for a change. I probably wouldn't be any help fighting him anyway.
About half an hour later, he returned. I hoped that he had good news. That would be Caroline being okay. Having Logan be dead would be better, but it wasn't completely necessary as long as she was okay.
"Well?" I asked him.
"She's okay. She only knows that Logan attacked her." He explained. I let out a sigh of relief.
"What about Logan?" I inquired.
"Damon was dealing with him." He replied. I assumed that meant killing. No. I didn't see that. I wasn't sure how that was supposed to dissuade me. "Now do you see why we can't be together?"
At that point, I noticed Elena. I had an idea, but I needed to be alone with him first.
"Do you think I can take your car to give Stefan a ride home?" I asked her before she handed over the keys. I couldn't believe that she gave them to me.
"I can get there on my own." He replied. I just looked at him. He seemed to think that he had a choice in the matter. "Okay, let's go."
I drove to the boarding house and parked in the driveway. He stayed in the car for a minute.
"So why are you really leaving?" I asked him. "If it's about all of this supernatural stuff, I can handle it. I can handle that you're a vampire and your brother killed like 10 people since he got here and that I still have a scar from where Vicki bit me. In fact, this is like a dream come true for me. I love that I'm involved in this. You want to know what I wanted to be when I grew up? I wanted to be a doctor too. Even though I love to draw, I wanted to help people like my dad did, but I don't know if I'd really want to spend such a long time getting a degree. After the accident happened, I got turned into a girl and I had no idea what to do. I drank way too much and without you I wouldn't be able to get through my life."
"I can't." He replied as he got out of the car to try to go into the house.
I got out and followed him and grabbed onto him and kissed him. I was not going to let him walk away from me. I couldn't believe that I was kissing a guy, but the thing was I liked it.
The kiss seemed to do the trick because it got him going as he began to kiss back. We went into the house, parting only in brief instances for me to breathe. I knew where this was going, and I wanted it. I then noticed that veins were forming under his eyes, and he pulled away, but I was not going to let anything stop this. I was too horny for that. I grabbed onto him and got him to look at me. I also couldn't believe that I was about to do this, but I really wanted to. I wanted to know what it was like to be treated like a woman.
"Stefan, it's okay. I told you that I don't care." I assured him. "I love you for all that you are, even this part."
He then started kissing me again and we headed upstairs and to his room. We slowly began to take off each other's clothing before he laid me down on the bed. The only way that I could describe the next few minutes was magical.
Once we were done, I had his navy-blue shirt on as we cuddled on the bed. I couldn't believe that I had done that, but I definitely did not regret doing it. There was one thing that I was concerned about, but I was pretty sure that couldn't happen. I probably should have asked about it to be honest.
"I've never been in your room before." I told him. His house had this very old feel to it. I didn't really talk want to talk much about what just happened.
"Well, it hasn't changed much over the years." He explained. "Every memory that I ever thought was worth keeping is in here."
"Well, I think that it's very you." I told him as I looked around. I didn't know what that meant. I didn't know what to talk about after what happened.
"Do you want some water?" He asked me.
"Sure." I replied before he got up. I decided that I would get up too and look around. I was looking for any old pictures. I did happen to find one, but it wasn't of him. It was of Katherine…who looked just like Elena. This was a huge secret that he hadn't told me. I threw my necklace on the dresser and got dressed before headed out to the car.
I began to drive home. I couldn't help but wonder if I was being irrational, but how could he not tell me the very important detail that Katherine looked just like my sister. All of it was going smoothly until I noticed a man in the road. I honked my horn but he didn't move and I hit him, flipping the car in the process. Elena was going to kill me if I didn't die from my injuries. I then looked at the man and noticed he was getting up and I screamed.
So Mary ended up sleeping with Stefan but now she's found herself in a very sticky situation. She's just mad that Stefan lied to her. Please don't forget to review.
