Hello! I have another Story for you, this one playing in the ICarly Reboot universe but with a Seddie twist :D

The beginning will be a lot of text messages and Creddie friendship but stay with me okay? Trust me. I'm not a Creddie fan, but I also don't want to bash any Creddie fans, this is just how I wish the third season would've gone from the moment Pearl broke up with Freddie, because I don't see Creddie. If you like Creddie, good for you! 3

If you enjoy the first chapter of confusion make sure to leave a comment! It motivates to keep posting!

Carly

''It's obvious that you two are in love with each other and I won't be able to change that and I don't want to be part of this.'' Pearl said before leaving with my appereantly now ex boyfriend.

She left Freddie and me standing there, barely being able to look at each other. How did all of this start? How did everyone think Freddie and I were perfect for each other and why did we end in a situation like this again?

Yes, Freddie and I were best friends since years and yes we knew everything about each other, but- It never really felt that much like love. Even now, that I did think a lot about it, it felt strange. Not completely right. It felt easy with Freddie and a lot of times I had wondered what it would be like to date him.

But did I actually want to date him or did I want him, because it was easy? Because it was Freddie Benson, the guy who would've wanted me pretty much the whole time of our friendship? I didn't know, but what I knew was that I did not want to loose him and after all what Pearl did I was kind of glad she was gone.

Swallowing I looked at Freddie whose look met mine at the same time and I could see the hurt in his eyes. Pearl and him had been together for a year and now she broke up with him, because of me. It was my fault.

Turning completely to him I took a deep breath and said ''Freddie, I am sorry. That is not fair to you at all.''

I really was. It wasn't fair that things ended like this everytime Freddie and I spent too much time with each other, while we had partners. I didn't know what I was feeling right now, but I hated seeing my best friend hurt.

Freddie seemed mad because he said ''For what? That we can't act normal around each other right now and you're giving me mixed signals while I tried to make things good with Pearl, the one girl that actually seemed to like like me since Gwen?''

I swallowed at the angry outburst of him and said ''I did not mean to do that. I don't know what I feel okay? But I did not want you to get hurt, because of it!''

That was the truth. How was I supposed to know what I felt, after all those people saying those things and Freddie and I being continously in weird situations without figuring it out, but rather walking around it and making it more awkward than it already was?

There was a headshake in disbelief from Freddie. ''Of course it never was to hurt me when you tried to not be with me even though you were the one who kissed me right before we took a distance in our friendship and never talked about it again!'' He said so loud, people literally turned around to us.

Freddie didn't seem to care too much and I felt my heart dropping.

I have hurt Freddie a lot over the past years and I knew that. But I never wanted him to not be happy. I never wanted him to have a disadvantage in dating, because I was his best friend. His ex crush. His-

Looking down on the ground I whispered ''I never wanted to hurt you with this. I wanted closure and I thought that we got it with that kiss before I left for Italy.''

A laugh escaped Freddies mouth and he exclaimed ''Well, you did and I don't know what to think about this, because I don't know what to feel or think. Appereantly we're perfect for each other, but appereantly we're not and I don't know if I still like you, but I know that this is stupid!''

That pretty much hit the nail on the head. This felt stupid. Because things could be easy, but they had never worked with Freddie and me the way a normal couple, a normal friendship even worked.

But – ''Well, do you still want to be with me?'' I asked whispering, scared that it was the wrong question.

I didn't know what answer I wanted, but I needed to know, because the way this friendship worked right now, it just didn't.

A huge part of it was my fault and I felt stupid. I felt really stupid and I knew Freddie did, too and it was my fault. Why did I ask that? I should have not asked that just because Pearl thought that-

Freddie looked at me and let out an exhausted sigh, wanting to say something, but then stopped and looked at me. I looked back at him.

Suddenly he was really close to me. I didn't know when we took the last step to each other, but it did happen and I tried to focus on Freddie, but part of me wanted to know. What would it feel like, if-

I couldn't finish my thought, because Freddie put a hand on my cheek and kissed me. His lips were soft and I felt myself kissing back, putting both hands on his shoulder while his other hand went around my waist.

Our lips moved against each other for a few seconds and the kiss was really sweet, yet kind of desperate, as if we were trying to have to feel something for each other or- Was it really like that?

Was it trying to be with each other, only see each other to have an easy way out?

I did feel a bit giddy in my stomach area, but the kiss didn't feel like- Like I wanted the kiss with my future life partner to be.

It was supposed to be amazing, knees weakening and loving, this felt like love but not the kind of love I wanted to. I wanted that off my feet swept love, the love that never stops burning and-

As we broke apart, looking at each other, both our eyes went wide.

Freddie swallowed, looking at me, his hand leaving my cheek and the hand on my waist lowering, too. I had asked him, if he wanted to be with me and he kissed me. How was I supposed to understand that?

It was the first time he actually really kissed me. All the other times I kissed him or we kissed each other, but it was him who started the kiss. Him who initiated the kiss after he just broke up with Pearl and- Yet, I didn't see that head over heels in love look from him that I saw so many years ago, that look he had in Italy.

Sighing Freddie bit his lip, but then looked at me and whispered ''I don't know, Carly. I really don't know and I don't know what Pearl meant, but it hurts right now and I don't want to feel stupid just because I'm just your friend. I don't want us to only work if one of us has feelings for each other. We worked the best as Carly and Freddie and now-''

My mouth went open as he said that and I wanted to reply something, but he just didn't let me. Did he tell me that he liked me or did he not?

''I- Have to go.'' He added, before completely letting go and taking two steps back.

''Freddie, I am sorry-''

Freddie stopped me and shook his head. ''Not right now, Carly. I need to think. This is too much right now.'' He said and just walked away, leaving me standing there with my eyes wide open.

He barely ever talked back to me in all the years we knew each other and I saw the awkwardness, the confusion and the sadness in his eyes. I mean Pearl did just broke up with him and then he kissed me and now-

Throwing my heads up, groaning I wanted to leave, walking towards the door of the club as Harper suddenly stopped me.

''Hold on, girl what just happened? Why did Freddie kiss you and then just walked out of here? Where is Patricia or whatever his girlfriend is called?'' She asked me.

Of course Harper still didn't know Pearls real name. I didn't think she ever cared enough to know, but right now Pearl also wasn't my biggest problem.

''Ex- Girlfriend.'' I said and Harper opened her mouth, but I quickly added ''They broke up before he kissed me.''

Now my best friend seemed to be even more interested in the whole story, nudging me and I really just wanted to leave as I saw her look that screamed 'Creddie or no Creddie?' A question I dreaded to answer even though I knew the answer already.

''So, Freddie and you are a thing now?'' She asked me, winking at me.

Rolling my eyes I shook my head and crossed my arms, looking at her. ''Do you think he would run away from me if we were? I don't know what's going on, but the kiss didn't feel right enough.'' I said.

I really didn't want to talk about this right now, but I knew Harper wanted to know. Harper tried to always have a solution for everything, but right now I just wanted to drown in self pitty and ignore the fact that Freddie and I might have just destroyed our friendship and people thought we were perfect for each other.

''Right enough? What do you mean with right enough? Either you like the boy or you don't and if you don't and don't plan to become friends with benefits, he should not kiss you like this.'' Harper stated confused.

Shaking my head I told her ''I don't know, okay. I thought Freddie might be the solution to my love problems, but he might just not be. Maybe we were wrong this time all along.''

Before Harper could say something to that I did go past her, opened the door and left. I needed someone else to talk to. I loved Harper dearly, but I needed someone who knew Freddie. Who knew me better than anyone. Who had been through all of this with Freddie when we were younger. Way younger.

It's been over 12 years ago. If I wrote her now she wouldn't be mad about it, if I spoke about it, right. I needed my first and forever best best friend for this. Yes, we had never talked about Freddie again out of different reasons, but- I didn't know if she knew what to do, but I needed her on this right now.

So I wrote the only person I knew that knew us both sometimes better than herself, being thousands of miles away:

Carly: Freddie kissed me after breaking up with his current girlfriend, because everyone and their mom thought that we are the perfect couple and I might have lost my other best friend now, too. Sam, I need your help.

Freddie

Groaning as I walked into the apartment I was really glad that my mom was working and Millicent was at Gwens for a few days. I could not see either of them right now after what happened.

I wanted to think that I still felt sparks from the kiss. That kissing Carly again finally opened both our eyes and we'd be happily ever after. Yet, that wasn't the case. There seemed to be no happily ever after for Carly and Freddie. At least the kiss hadn't had felt like that.

Pearl wasn't right. It didn't feel like love. Yes, Carly and I knew each other better than anyone else, but that was due to over 16 years of friendship. Us as a couple had never worked even though there had been many times in my life where I wish it did. Because it could've been the easy way out.

Yet, now- I ran away from the realisation and probably hurt Carly. I am such an idiot. That was not fair to her or me. Yet, she had made me mad. The fact that we had never worked had made me mad. Even though I knew now that it might just have been for the best after all.

But doing it easy had never worked for me. In no marriage, in no relationship. I loved getting married and meeting so many amazing women, but- Swallowing I shook my head.

Why did this feel so ridiculous right now? All of this?

Shaking my head I wished right now I had spend time having more friendships with men, because right now I could use a voice of reason, someone to help. Even if Spencer wouldn't be Carlys brother he wasn't there right now and I barely held up any friendship with men, because my friendship group were literally the Shays, my ex wife and Carlys new best friend.

Millecent would probably tell me now to Grow up and think about things that are more important than love.

This little girl was so incredibly smart, it was ridiculous but I loved her and she did really come after her mom and I think I rubbed off on her a bit, too.

At least my daughter made me smile, while I just felt torn apart.

My heart did break a bit as Pearl dumped me. The relationship we had was great in so many ways. She didn't know me as well as my friends of 16 years, but she was caring and she tried to do everything right.

Running after her wouldn't be an option, because after dumping me she went for Carlys ex right away. So much about that. Somehow all my girlfriends, wifes always revolved around Carly, yet they were never good enough.

Gwen I met through Carly, Pearl I didn't meet through Carly, but because she was jealous of Carly, she told me her feelings.

Shaking my head I tried to shake the thought off of Carly, but I felt stupid. I did hurt her, because I held onto feelings that weren't excisting anymore. Well, she hurt me, because she never had feelings for me, but-

''Does she really deserve to be treated like that?'' I asked myself and immediately shook my head.

Nobody deserved to be treated like that, but I also knew that I couldn't look her into the eye right now. I needed time to think. How was Carly and Freddie as best friends supposed to work again?

Yeah, how is Creddie friendship supposed to work after all of this?