June 14th, 1800
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A great knight once said that "To be forgotten is worse than death". This is why I'm very grateful to Zidane for rescuing me and my husband, Kal. I'll never forget him, as much as I won't forget the people who died in my homeland.
Nothing could be as ever terrifying as dying, but if someone as despicable as Brahne gets to be mourned to this very day, to be remembered as this great person by many, then what about the others? Will they get the same treatment? Were they important? Of course they were. It's because they're gone that you notice how important they were, even if it did not mean much.
Something similar to what happened in Burmecia also happened here in Lindblum, but they had the benefit of working on the reconstruction a few days after the tragedy. As for my people, we are still doing it and we don't know if it'll ever end. It's like a sin, you know. We're paying for it, even if we do not deserve this. I only hear news about the folks who are doing the best they can at home, while a few survivors and I have established ourselves in a small neighborhood we like to call "Little Burmecia". It keeps growing and more people are coming to stay rather than visit their relatives or people they thought to be dead but are actually alive and doing well, like me and Kal.
Sometimes I do want to go home, but I don't know if it's safe anymore. I don't want to raise my children in a world of violence, yet it feels like that's all there is to see. I heard from my friends about the Regent Cid and Prince Puck's plans to retrieve the Desert Star back to their owners. Who wants to claim ownership of a gemstone shard responsible for so many deaths? What if it all happens again because of it or whatever reason?
There was no reasoning behind the massacre, come to think of it. No reason ever was given, and we do try to think otherwise.