Random futa things

by Jokiba

Just as the title says pure smut

74. All You Can Isekai

All You Can Isekai

GayLolis

Summary:

I just want to make a story about someone screwing around in virtual Isekai with their godlike powers.

Can be really weird and nonsensical at times, or most of the time.

The main character is a gay futa loli--used to be some guy though.

The actual story starts from chapter 12 on, the previous one is just buildup.

Chapter 1: My body makes me so horny

Notes:

This takes after the last posted chapter on Scribblehub, although some details can be inconsistent since I'm just writing based on mood.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

I never really tried to check myself up--It's just a regular guy's face and body.

No matter how beautiful, as long it looks like a man, I'm not interested.

...but it'd be different if what in front of the mirror started to grow long hair, feminine curves, and especially—breasts.

My face looked like an Onee-sama from a yuri anime, with shoulder-length black hair with rectangular bangs.

While I seem like an innocent and proper lady, how my penis was so big, and making such lewd faces—I want to touch myself.

My chest was hot.

While it's just a small mound and didn't arouse me that much, it's making me hard if it gets bigger.

I really love big breasts. If I had one, I would fondle them all day.

[Sexy...you're really turning into a girl. What's down there is even better.]

There's even a tiny slit below my balls.

I really love how easily my penis got erect. The main reason I don't want to become a girl—I love my penis too much.

If I could be a cute futanari, I'd take it. Even if I have to wear cute, girlish clothes outside.

[Mmm...ahhnnn...yes...let's do it together.]

There's a wet fingering sound--I've never seen her being so bold.

When I looked down, I could only see a girl's body.

That small, ravishing breasts.

...and there's a white, creamy liquid from my nipple.

"Mmm..."

My finger traced on the part; it felt soft and elastic--was it growing again?

When I squeezed my breasts, the creamy milk started spraying all over.

[There's a lot...]

"Ah..."

I want to taste my own breast milk.

"Mmm...lick...lick..."

It just wouldn't stop leaking when I smeared it with saliva and gave it a taste.

It was sweet like honey; it's also overflowing with mana prowess. Even better compared to using [Pure Ether].

Though my size was too small to lift my nipple and drink it directly.

I wanted to touch it more, so it'd keep growing.

"Nn..."

I let a moan when my fingers massaged the small melons. The milk was so delicious, I couldn't seem to have enough.

When I traced my slit, it's soaking wet; I could even slip my finger in.

"No way...a pussy."

It happened so fast.

I was just a man before I shifted from another world.

Though I couldn't think straight--pre-cum already leaked so much from my penis.

Before, my grip could cover my whole penis; now it's only half.

I could make long strokes, with my breasts partly covering the view.

The more I became conscious that I'm a girl, the harder my cock became.

As if trying to match with me, her fingering noises paced along with my motion.

I stopped trying to aim my shaft in the toilet. I want to see this lewd girl with growing breasts, jacking her penis at the mirror, and her breasts spraying milk non-stop.

It's even bigger than Youko.

More...I want bigger breasts.

So I could wear some corsets with the top off, and garter belts on my thick thighs, with my penis and pussy fully exposed.

Feeling the leather on my skin directly while I raised my huge melons and titfucking myself as I swallowed my cum.

I rubbed my slit with a finger while trying to kiss my reflection.

Strangely, I felt a wet lip instead of the usual glass.

System Imouto's moaning on top of her voice, as I released loads and loads in the mirror.

The sensation was too much, I end up slumping on the floor, with my reflection drowning in juices.

Not just my cock, but my breasts and pussy.

My slit was twitching; it kept spraying a transparent liquid. I felt like arching my body while my penis couldn't stop spurting.

My cock milk landed on my stomach and breasts. I spread it all over my skin and breasts before giving it a lick.

"Mmm..."

Even my cum was tasty it was like yogurt.

[Mou...you lewd girl, you made me cum so much...]

While I sobered up, I end up cumming a few more times, especially when I took a bath and soaped my breasts.

It got really big I couldn't even see my stomach anymore.

[Is it G or H cup? It's a bit smaller than your Dad, but you're bigger than everyone else...]

Though, since my penis was also big I could see it poking between my melons.

My labia finally formed, and it felt good when I put my finger in.

The sight of my soaped breasts made me erect.

[Your penis is great; it's so thick and meaty when the person herself is so cute. Not to mention that moist, wet pussy, I want to rub min against it. I want us to Yuri but I also need your penis inside me.

Also, your breasts...I want to drink your milk. If only I have a penis, I'd like you to titfuck me while you play with my pussy...]

Go to horny jail.

[i see you haven't changed, despite having such a lewd body.]

...but when I look like this, I was so embarrassed. My breasts grew so big, I end up having to wear a bra.

I might get too self-conscious when I put on some girlish clothes and went out in the street, especially with this body.

I'd get so horny if a girl stared at me, and especially if they get horny at my erection, even though we're both girls...

[Well, I could understand, you didn't seem to wear girls' clothes before.

...and we're both yuri girls, I know that feeling. It's hard when a cute girl's hitting on you in the street, isn't it?]

I'd be uneasy with so many men around. If they tried hitting on me, I'd get so disgusted, I'd feel like killing them.

[No worries, let's just modify your presence concealment skill, so you would only attract cute girls.]

Mmm.

There's a message box in the corner of my eye, but I was too horny to care.

[Even if you didn't like it, I'd put it anyway. My waifu is for lesbians only, myself included!]

Still, this body's too stimulating. I couldn't think of anything else than jerking off and fondling myself—plus doing lewd things with yuri girls, especially if they have a nice penis and wet pussy.

[It'd be hard in more ways than one.]

There was beeping on my phone, it said 'commission complete'.

I felt like finishing my dailies first.

[In the end, don't sweat it too much. You might be a futanari now, but you're still you.]

I'd keep that in mind.

Though it was a bit strange.

[What is?]

I felt, when I looked so girlish, except for my meat—I got turned on when a girl I love called me a guy.

With these huge melons...

"Ahnnn..."

It got so sensitive...milk started leaking again.

...and these wet pussy.

I guess I understand why Dad was like that, even though she's so pretty...

[You dropped the male pronoun.]

For some reason, when I looked like this, I got horny as I think of Dad.

I couldn't get myself to refer to her as a man anymore...

Maybe it'd feel awesome when our huge breasts pressed each other, and...we're doing yuri...

[I get it, stop making me horny. You're taking too long in the bath. Stop getting horny and just splash your boobs--you're going to run outta soap at this rate!]

Ey.

My old clothes no longer fit when I put them manually.

I tried checking my inventory, and my old clothes seem to adjust themselves to fit my current state.

While the stats remained the same, it looked girlish and made me horny.

I didn't know what happened, but there were even lingeries—some of them were so lewd, I couldn't wait to put it on and stroke my penis.

Since I couldn't put on a bra, I used the equipment system.

My hands already touched my rod, and I already unhooked the top—with my nipples lactating.

[Ahnnn...stop looking at the mirror, no--your penis got big again...]

Urggh...it's so hard. I couldn't stop touching myself at all...

[You need to move on, alright? You need to explain yourself to your family. Are you going to skip the whole dinner and tire yourself to death from excessive wanking?]

Uuu...

[I know it's hard and you're a damn hot girl, but you're still you.]

I put on my lingerie again.

This time, my breasts felt secure.

My clothes didn't feel as stuffy as I thought, despite my melons.

My large cock mysteriously got tucked in. Looking at the mirror, it just dawned on me...

"I really became a girl."

Before I could get back into the routine of fondling myself, someone knocked:

"Daddy, we made some snacks."

From the cheerful tone, it's Rosa.

There's a habit of mine.

Whenever I was about to do lewd things, I always locked my door.

...but this loli opened the door without a problem.

"Ah."

We exclaimed at the same time, but Rosa just smiled at me, "Hurry up, the food's going to get cold."

"Umm..."

"It's okay, Daddy. Grandpa went through the same thing. From the start, I knew Daddy is the cutest girl."

"But I have a big penis."

"Everyone in our family has one. Come on, Daddy—I'm hungry."

Ah, I see...

Including Youko and Mom, huh...

"Do you find it strange to call me that, when I look like this?"

I pointed at my melons, which caused her to blush.

"W-well..." the pink loli twiddled her fingers, "Since grandpa was so beautiful, it's only natural. Rosa loves girls a lot. I prefer men in this family to all be cute girls.

Rose loves it best that way."

"Mmm..."

In the end, no one made a big deal.

It's like they knew I'd eventually become a futanari.

[I guess puberty just hits differently on your part.]

You could say that again.

Still, it's hard to go outside when I look like this.

Hey, System Imouto. Couldn't I revert to my old male self?

[Denied, you look best as a waifu!]

Ah ha ha...

I guess I kinda prefer being a girl as well.

I have to say, I didn't like heterosexual relationships that much. It's like, I could only be turned on when girls did lewd things to each other.

It's even better if they had a penis.

[I know your fetish very well.]

So...when will you come, in your human form?

[Sooner than you expect, stay tuned.]

I didn't hear her again for quite some time.

To be honest, it became lonely.

...but this time, I could just touch my boobs to calm down.

They made a nice pillow, and I love it so much.

I couldn't wait to explore my own body and do yuri things with everyone.

Notes:

In the end, I could only care about writing lewd things.

That's why, if you read the previous part, it may not make any sense.

Chapter 2: Father and Son

Notes:

This one can be rather weird.

Chapter Text

"Dad, since I become a futanari, what should I do?"

"Just be yourself, act like usual."

She's working at home today.

Lili and Rosa went with Mom and Youko shopping.

It's kind of awkward when I realize we're both girls with big tits and dick.

We're technically the 'men' of this family, but we had the lewdest body.

I notice my penis got really hard it poked against my skirt. I could even see it over my melons.

I wore a black camisole with no bra. My nipples felt really nice, and I enjoy looking at my cleavage.

It made me happy when Dad stole a glance at my boobs, and her penis got bigger, poking against her skirt.

When I was alone with such a beautiful girl, even more, when I'm also a girl—I couldn't help but get horny.

I enjoy staring at her thick legs, wrapped in fishnet stockings and her unbuttoned white blouse, in which I got a nice view of her breasts with the wide areola. She stroked her silver hair while stretching her hands—the milk jugs made a nice bounce, which made my dick poke out once more.

I love her lewd stare at my rod, especially how she licked her lips.

I've been fond of Dad for a long while. For the longest time, she's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen and know.

During my childhood, I wanted to become a cute girl with big tits and a nice penis, just like her.

...but back then, I wasn't confident of my own appearance. It was plain and boring. That's why, when my classmates jokingly told me to crossdress, I hated it so much.

I wouldn't look cute.

Even though my parents were so beautiful.

My little sister's a damn looker as well.

I didn't want to ask my Dad out when I look like an average guy.

I don't want to accept the possibility of her loving a man at all. A girl this pretty should love another girl...

How she acted lovey-dovey around Youko and Mom made me crave yuri so much.

Why was I the one so plain-looking and without powers?

I want to be a cute girl...so I could yuri her as well.

It's not as if I hadn't tried.

I trained my powers, but it never seemed to work. It even pained me so when I asked my family, and I still failed.

Though, for some reason, when I went to another world, knew magic, and leveled up—I become more and more like a girl.

I turned into a futanari in the end, with a face and body that I could wank all day with.

"Dad...one day, I got hit by a truck..."

I explained my adventures so far and my transformation. She nodded along the way but didn't say anything.

"You only love women, right? I'm now a girl..."

When she moved her body, the wind caused her jugs visible for a moment. Her bouncing jugs and pink nipples made my precum leak.

"Kaori."

In the background, I could hear System Imouto mumbling, [So that's your real name.]

"Nn..."

"To be honest, I don't mind whether you're a boy or girl...but I could only think of a girl's name.

I love girls too much, I'm sorry...my daughter..."

"It's okay if you called me Son as well."

"Son...I'm horny..."

She shut the laptop after she hit the last 'enter', and took my hand. She held it against her naked breasts. My skirt made a tent, and my nipple got so erect.

We went to her room, and the way it's covered in a violet blind made it so erotic, besides the herbal scent wafting throughout.

"It's strange...when we look like lewd girls around the same age, yet we call ourselves Father and Son...and it's actually true."

Her dick started to get even bigger, "Hyahh...don't look, Kaori...no, my boobs, I can't cover it."

Rather than covering it, she started to cup her massive melons and squeeze it, "Ahnn...don't look, Kaori...your father's milking herself..."

The liquid was so thick like cum, but it had a sweet, syrupy smell.

"You seem to fantasize this moment a lot, Dad."

"I get all weird when I see the current you...I'm barely able to hold myself."

My body's sweating a lot, especially my boobs...I took off my camisole, and it made quite a bounce.

Dad's face was flushed red, and she forgot that her huge tits were in the open, leaking milk all over.

With bated breath, she started to stroke her penis and squeezed her melons. She also took off her blouse and threw it aside, leaving her completely naked.

I could see her melons bouncing furiously as she turned me into a masturbation fooder. Her pink pussy was still in great shape, yet it's leaking even without direct touch.

I end up taking my skirt and letting my penis loose, sitting beside her and wanking myself.

"You're also a damn good fap material, Dad."

I took a deep breath and sized this lewd girl. Her wavy silver hair glistened in the dark; her adorable blushing face, bouncing boobs, and non-stop pistoning motion.

"Don't look too much...I'm going to cum."

She's staring at my tits, and it's so hot.

I edged closer and pushed her hand aside.

Putting her lewd rod between my boobs...the hot and thick texture brought me closer to cumming.

"Kaori, what are you doing? No...stop...ahh..."

"Dad..."

"Hyahh!"

"Nn..."

I didn't even move my boobs, and it already creamed lots of semen. It landed on my cheeks, mouth, and hair--but most of it was on my breasts.

I gave her cum a lick; it had a tastier texture than mine.

My fingers scooped the remainder on my boobs, and I drank a handful.

"Uuu..."

Her leaking precum went in my bulging chest--it's still hot and hard.

"Haa...haa...Kaori, your breasts are going to kill me."

Seeing her cute expression made me want to tease her more.

I squeezed her penis tighter it made her let a cute yelp.

My melons were a lot bigger than I thought. It could wrap most of this lewd girl's shaft.

Thank goodness it didn't lactate this time, else I'd impregnate her with my breast milk.

Seeing the remainder of milk on her cock, I nibbled on the tip and brought her shaft inside my throat.

Her cock was clean and had no trace of smegma. It also had no foreskin to peel.

Sweetness floods my throat as I pleasured this thick rod.

I couldn't deepthroat her since my boobs were in the way.

Despite her protests, she seemed to enjoy it when I pumped her cock. Up and down, it made nice slapping sounds. Its tip brushing my throat while its shaft kept lubricating my cum-laden chest.

"Kaori..."

She kept moaning my name as she spews another load.

"Mmm..."

There's so much, but it was tasty. I end up gulping it all.

Her penis got hard again when I sucked hard on the tip.

"No more...Kaori...my cock hurts."

"Puhaa..."

I released my boob-grip, and it's still spurting cum. The way it bogged up and down, along with her massive boobs was so erotic.

...and my cock and pussy's still throbbing.

I still hadn't even cum once.

"Dad..."

"It's my turn, hehe..."

She took my penis between her melons.

It was so big, even my tip was on her cleavage. Despite giving it a gentle squeeze, I felt like cumming already.

"Ahnnn..."

She traced my precum with her fingers and gave it a lick.

"Your penis is so nice...it fits perfectly on my tits."

She gave a playful smile and squeezed her boobs; getting the breast milk to her palms.

...and she poured it on her cleavage, where my cock was.

She didn't think about pumping my penis, just fondling her boobs and playing with her nipples.

The sticky and slippery sensation was so good, but that wasn't all.

When I thought I'd be slowly spurting on her tits, she started spitting on my tip and blew it slowly.

She spat on her finger, making its way on my slit.

"Nn..."

"Kaori...remember that we have both pussy and penis," her fingers rubbed mine vertically; it's like a hard jolt fell on me, and it's so nice.

"I'm sorry, I forget to pleasure your pussy."

"Nah, I'm thankful you forget—else I'd pass out from too much pleasure."

She inserted one finger into my pussy, while she blew on my cock's tip.

My body's temperature escalated with each of her trust. At one point, my legs started to give in, and I leaned on her shoulders.

As if noticing my limit, she pressed her breasts on my thighs and gave my tip a vacuum-like suck.

She also wiggled her fingers on my upper walls. When it rubbed a certain spot, a burst of euphoria seeped through.

Pushing down her shoulders, I let all of my cum.

I didn't even realize I made such girlish moans that got me hornier. I end up spewing a lot more semen than expected.

My pussy also squirted a lot. The overload of sensation drained the strength on my legs.

"Kaori."

Dad pointed at her throat, filled with my sticky white liquid.

I was all drowsy and dizzy from such a strong orgasm, I didn't even notice her assaulting my lips and pouring some of my cum.

"Mmhh..."

"Chuu..."

Her warm tongue and my sweet milk—it all mixed together.

It was really heated up, especially when our huge breasts pressed each other and our nipples brushed.

She also stroked my hair while her other hand fondled my boobs.

Our cocks' tip kissed as well.

I got so excited, my breast milk started to come out again.

At this point, Dad was half-conscious. She kept assaulting my tongue and touching my spots all over.

"Dad..."

"Mmm...I'm really at my limit."

"Me too...my breasts are going to cum..."

We moved atop the bed, our breasts rubbing atop another. I was up top, positioning my chest so it'd always rub against hers.

The milk kept spraying until Dad look like a gangbang victim.

My breasts were so wet as well, so much sticky white liquid.

In the end, I collapsed up top, and Dad rubbed my back.

"No one would probably believe we're actually father and son...I can't believe it either.

We're like lesbian lovers...and it made me happy, somehow."

"Both of us like women too much. We want to be one ourselves..."

"Still, it's probably my kink, but I love the contrast between my girlish body with me being a father."

"Even after so long? I thought you'd get used to it."

"No...I like being a man, with this lewd body and giant tits, acting like a lewd girl."

"Mmm..."

We slept in an embrace for a while.

"I really don't know what caused the truck to hit you one day. It might be the God of Earth. They seem on our side, fortunately. Thanks to them, you can be a cute futanari and get sufficient power to protect yourself."

"God of Earth?"

"Yeah," she let me rest on her boobs, while she played with my hair, "Their power is unfathomable. So it's best to not get on their bad side."

"I really don't want to deal with male gods...I only love women."

[Umm...]

When she's silent the entire time, it was odd how System Imouto just butted in.

Are you somehow related to God of Earth?

{You see...how about we go on a date?]

On a Love Hotel?

[I...will message you later! Remember, don't keep your girlfriend waiting.]

I guess she's jealous--but it's her fault to not join in when she had the chance.

"Kaori, it seems there's nothing to worry about."

"Dad?"

She hugged me tighter, "Remember, if you find a nice woman, introduce her to us."

...and she immediately dozed off, with her breasts covered in milk and cum.

Geez, I couldn't believe my Dad sometimes...

Chapter 3: Recollection

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

"Nn..."

I really didn't want to do anything.

With my parents looking after me, and in the comfort of my own home--I don't feel like going outside.

If I wanted something, I could just order it from the System Shop. It'd be delivered straight to my inventory.

...and this body's just so lewd, I wanted to fondle myself over and over.

While at first, it felt so nice, it'd be detrimental to my daily life. I would focus too much on my boobs, and forget the most important thing.

I wonder if I could alter my physique, so it'd be less arousing in general, but much comfier.

I thought having big breasts would be nice, but right now, I started to appreciate a flat chest a lot more.

At that moment, as if some strange power was at play—I shrunk.

I got so small and my chest became so flat, although my penis was still pretty big.

In front of the mirror was a short-haired loli with a bored look—but she's so cute— it reminds me of Youko.

My clothes also shrank to match my size.

Since I wasn't really into lolis, my penis didn't get as hard.

Hmm...

While this form was so comfy, it'd be a lot better in my big boob version, if I want a hard wank.

With a bit of focus, I reverted back.

...and I got horny again.

Calming myself down, I turned back to a loli, but my penis got even harder.

In the end, I relieved myself by wanking to actual porn. I'd feel guilty somehow if I fapped to my loli self.

It's kinda unstable at first; going back-forth between a loli and onee-san.

That's when a message box popped-up.

I gained a skill, which sets my loli self as the default. If I wanted to change forms, some substance seems to inject itself into my brain, which helps me think clearly.

While it's nice I gained a new ability, it's quite lonely without System Imouto around.

...but there's no use crying over it.

If she didn't want to be with me, I won't force it, even if we get along so well.

Aside from that, I noticed something.

The air on Earth seemed different, somehow. During my first return, it wasn't that apparent—but I could feel a faint trace of mana.

Not because of my powers, but it's circulating in the air. When I opened up the windows, the air was rather clean, instead of the usual polluted urban waste.

It also had that enervating feel, like inhaling peppermint oil.

Well, to be honest, there's not much to do on Earth. There are so many restrictions and I couldn't just do whatever I want.

...but with this development, I would stick a bit longer.

The substance helped me think clearly.

What is my goal in life?

What do I want to do, to fulfill my days?

To be honest, I've always yearned for an easy life, without having to bother with anything.

That's why, when I had no power, I love to read wish-fulfillment stories.

Now I think about it—was there ever any hardship in my life?

There were a few, but it's easily taken care of.

I remember way back when I started school.

My parents did not force me to attend, so when I actually was in the mood to enroll, I was a year older than most.

They told me, I never have to compromise with anyone. If I don't like even the slightest bit of thing, I have to tell them.

Don't try to solve everything on your own, since you have no power.

You can rely on us, and we'll do our best so you'll be happy.

On my first day, my classmates made fun of me, but I couldn't be bothered to listen to them, because I hate it.

As soon as my hate came, they quieted down all of sudden. No one actually tried to bully me.

If the teacher was unreasonable, I would just complain in my mind—they'll make it easier for me.

If I don't want to do homework, I won't get any.

If I don't want to study for tests, I don't have to take it.

For some reason, I end up passing the grade, no matter what.

Well, I don't remember much.

Maybe I spent the entire year at home, and only coming to the libraries and the rooftop.

Reading books and manga. It'd be tranquil all day long.

The relaxing wind blows on the roof, as I laid down in the warm morning sunset, while others have to take boring lessons.

Going to the cafeteria when there's no one around, and get to taste the daily special, in a quiet atmosphere.

Sometimes, I'd get boxed lunches from Mom, with Dad's breast milk.

I could spend the day in the audio-visual room, watching all the documentaries I want.

How silent and quaint it was, without having to bother with anyone.

For my days in University, there's even less going. The second I had enough of the orientation, I could just walk away.

I would only attend interesting classes. The moment it gets boring, I'd just walk out, and no one's able to rebuke me.

Never really liked studying and taking tests, doing assignments, especially groups, and writing my thesis.

I didn't do any of the troublesome stuff, just doing things at my own pace.

I end up graduating with everyone else.

Shame? Can I eat that?

From the very start, it's like rules didn't matter to me anymore.

Even if God is oppressing me, my parents could easily kill them.

...and when I went out, Youko mostly tagged along. We did a lot of fun things, even at the expense of others, if we think they deserve it.

I still remember those rude people at my first job interview. Things went rather ugly for them...uhh...

Let's just say—it made me value human lives a lot less.

If they pose a potential threat to me, I wouldn't hesitate to get them killed. I don't want to lose sleep when someone's out to get me, especially without Youko around.

That's why I could easily genocide an entire cult, so I could have a good night's sleep.

From the very start, I lived my life, thinking my own self is the most important.

...and I know I'm right.

If I'm wrong, God will have stopped me by now.

He won't let me be born in this wonderful family and live with so much privilege.

Sometimes I wonder, why?

Why me?

It probably wasn't important, since it already happened.

What's crucial was the future.

After I graduated from University and having no idea where to go next, I was filled with uncertainties.

What if I couldn't rely on them anymore?

To make a long story short, I desired power so much.

Perhaps, God was annoyed--he sent me a truck.

...and that's how my short journey in another world began.

Notes:

Chapters like these is the reason why I prefer writing at Ao3.

I don't have to try make it good or likeable.

I don't have to worry about getting rating-bombed and just write something I like, no matter how controversial it seem.

Truth to be told, I might have an extremely thin skin, and I take things to heart. I just want to be in a safe space when I'm sure nothing can possibly do me harm.

I will no longer apologize for my slow chapters, since I'm just writing at my own pace as a hobby, for my own sake.

Chapter 4: Home

Notes:

It feels great to write at my own pace.

The following chapters might not be as lewd, since I want to focus more on the comfy stuff and a bit on the story.

Chapter Text

It came to me just now.

If my family had these OP powers, why did they keep staying on Earth and live like normal humans?

Well, there's no use in mulling—let''s go ask them directly.

Despite being way shorter than my usual self, it didn't take long to get used to my body.

I skipped downstairs to see Dad reading the newspaper, with a nice scent of rice in the morning.

Youko's on her phone, as she laid on the sofa.

Dad was the first one to take notice, as she lowered the paper.

"Kaori, did you shrink?"

Before she got the wrong idea, like, after indulging in steamy sex and quenching my libido, I will turn to a loli--I brushed her off.

"I'm just comfier this way."

"Umu."

She went back to reading. I thought she'd be on the business news or something about stocks since she worked in a company.

...but it was the Comics section.

It seems to be an advert for a new attraction in Akiba, called the Demon King's Castle.

It's laid alongside the usual caricatures and political slapsticks, making it even more out of place.

The artwork's pretty nice.

While the story's kinda cliche, props to them for making an entire attraction based on the Chosen Hero thing.

I guess Rosa and Lili would be interested, as they're technically from the other world.

Right now, they're still not up.

At first, they slept together with Youko, since her bed was pretty big.

It's probably due to the lack of mana in the air.

That's why I gave them [Access] to my space, able to enter and exit, but they couldn't bring anyone without my permission.

Still, this amount of mana was a lot more than what Earth used to be. That's probably why they could act as usual. Though when it comes to sleep, I admit I prefer my bed in the space.

Perhaps, the influx of mana meant a Great Cataclysm was coming, just like those Hunter novels? I guess Earth wouldn't be as boring anymore.

I hopped onto the chair in front of Dad. The steam from piping-hot rice rose in the center.

Noticing my gaze, Dad lowered her paper and gave a slight nod.

"Umm...since you have powers, why stay on Earth? I think, there are so many limiting things about this world--you can't really live as you please."

"Kaori--knowing Earth is such a place, why do you come back?"

"You folks are here, that's why I miss Earth."

"There, there..."

She patted my head and gently stroked my hair.

"Nn..."

It felt really nice.

"Ah, Onii-ch...no, Onee...wait, how did you turn into a loli?"

Youko's scream almost made me jump.

"Sigh...I don't want to be horny all the time, I just wanna be happy."

I also learned a neat trick to turn off my penis, so it wouldn't stuff my small pants make my undies almost tear.

That way, I could also have genuine lesbian sex, yay.

I hadn't tried it on my big titty form, but it might work. That way, I could satisfy more of my fetishes.

In the end, I missed Earth because the people I care about were here, but is there anything else?

I guess, their entertainment ain't all that bad.

While their rules suck, at least the world is at peace.

Not to mention, I couldn't live without modern-level tech.

I remember when my Inn room in the other world only had chamber pots. You couldn't even take a shower, only wipe your body.

It's nice I could have a magical space shortly after, with the best of both worlds.

Though, despite having so much power, it wouldn't be the same without System Imouto.

I just couldn't get along with denizens of the other world. There are too many secrets to conceal.

Without Rosa and Lili in that place, it's unbearable.

While System Imouto was warm and caring, it almost drove me insane, that I could live with just a voice in my head for that long.

About my space again, it might be the best place to live, but it's still a small world.

I want only people I could trust my all, to live in there.

With that in mind, I invited my family there, after breakfast.

There's the usual flash of light.

A vast expanse of green, with comfy dirt roads along the way.

The air's filled with a lot of energy; nourishing my entire cells.

I could see rows of trees, with delicious meat hanging atop. It's yellow-colored, like french fries. The leaves were akin to a top-grade salad, with bits of corn, carrots, tomatoes, and fried onions.

When we want deluxe french fries, a tree will die—a worthy sacrifice.

Though it's mostly ones that grew near the house. Lots of varieties for a nice meal.

They're not only delicious but also gave permanent stat buffs and experience points.

While most of the field were mostly high-priced commodities, converting them to Shop Points.

The Space's already advanced enough to run a macro. When the fruit was ripe, it'd automatically get sold.

Even better, that my [Trading] skill bonus also account for it.

Despite that, it's nowhere enough to purchase the top grade blueprints.

...but right now, the Security wasn't an issue. It's more about making this world more fun.

It's pretty much a wasteland, despite the charming blue skies and incredibly fresh air.

It became more and more boring when I took a morning run. I pretty much would just hunker down at the house, and spent the entire day on my PC

I wasn't that confident in designing a homely world. Rosa and Lili didn't have a lot of experience either, as they're just born recently.

That's how my family came in.

...but they pretty much just laid beneath the meat tree and slept, on the grass, just like that.

"Kaori my lass, it's so darn comfy...ahh...I'd feel like retiring here already. Our Earth's air fucking sucks."

Mom pushed up her shades and rolled around the field.

"Zzz.."

Dad already snores; sleeping sideways like a princess. The way her huge boobs squished on the ground made me horny.

"Sleep well, Dad."

She's probably tired from work. It's one aspect of her, that I couldn't understand.

Though, it's not like I knew what line of work she does. When it came to working in general, it's so easy to lose interest.

It'd be nice if she could work from home.

When they're all here, I felt fewer connections to Earth. It'd be nice if grandma stayed over as well.

...and before I knew it, Youko already went atop the tree; her sleep bubbles were huge.

"Uuu..."

That left Rosa and Lili.

Since I was lazy to walk and adore the scenery, I teleported straight into the house.

Rosa and Lili were airing the mattress beneath the Sun. The plethora of trees and flowers, of varying colors and shapes, was beside the garden.

In front was the mini-tank Youko gave me.

That's when my eyes met with the lolis.

Well, I guess I'm one as well.

"Daddy."

"Father."

No change at all.

"Umm..."

I guess it's no big deal.

Despite turning into a loli, I'm still me.

Though deep inside, I want to treat them like their little sister. I want to be spoiled like a little girl.

I couldn't help but pout a little.

Rosa's ahoge started to twitch, and she started to look down. Leaving their mattress alone, she sped towards me and brought me to her chest; her warm arms around mine.

"I'm sorry...if you didn't like it, but you'll always be our father...I don't want to lose my father..."

"Nn..."

Though, to be honest, I never felt much like a parent.

They're the ones who took care of me, after all.

While her chest was flat, her comfort didn't lose out to Dad's melons.

"Daddy, you're thinking dirty things again.,I love it..."

"About that..."

Maybe it's because I love yuri.

...but when I got called like that, it's like I become a guy again.

I really didn't like it.

Although it's strange, how I'd get excited, when I did it with Dad, and thinking, how could a guy have such nice tits, pussy, and penis?

As for myself, in intimate situations, I'd like to be referred to as a girl.

I want her to call me Kaori-chan, or any cutesy nicknames, or girlish pronouns like Onee-chan or Mommy--It'd feel more yuri that way.

I wasn't sure why. Was I actually transgender or did I love girls that much, I don't want any men in it?

...and even if there's a guy, they'd at least be a hot girl like Dad.

Though I noticed, Rosa had never been this touchy-touchy when I was a guy, and she only openly showed a different affection when I became a girl.

...and Lili started to had a lewd look on her face.

"You two...stop flirting."

Yet it's only for a moment, she got all composed.

"Nn...Lili onee-chan."

When Rosa's embraced me and spoiled me like a little kid, I want to play the youngest sister.

Even though I'm their father, I want to be their little sister. It felt so kinky, I love it.

Probably because I had always been the eldest son. I never enjoyed being a pampered little girl.

Somehow, I'm kind of jealous of Youko—though she's more like an independent type.

"Hyaa..."

Lili's face went red.

"Onee-chan?"

I started tilting my head and doing the absent-minded soft loli voice.

"Father...stop it, please."

The blue loli broke our embrace and rubbed my cheeks.

"I know I'm your Dad, but I want to be your little sister as well. Why not both?"

Rosa pouted, and snuggled Lili from behind; another cute yelp went out.

"It really didn't make sense at all," Lili shook her head, "But since you're so cute, I'll allow it."

"Ey..."

This time, I threw my hand and rested my head on her chest.

She tapped my back and sighed.

"You can be such a spoiled kid, Fat...no, Kaor...listen to your sisters, okay?"

"Nn!"

It felt really nice to regress like this.

Such a long time, since I became a kid.

Although I was technically an adult, and my penis was so big.

In the end, we didn't get to bring up Space development, but it's fine.

Enjoying life, first and foremost, takes priority.

Chapter 5: Happiness

Notes:

Another one without lewds.

I guess I don't have to do it, unless I want to.

Chapter Text

Sometimes I thought, I was obsessed with power—but it's not.

It's only common sense to desire power.

With it, you could live the way you like—basically having more choices on how to tackle things.

If you had power, what came as a hardship to some, will be a trivial thing.

...but my main reason is that I'm weak.

I hate hardships and disappointments in real life.

Having no control of my life and how it sometimes turns out shitty.

I really don't like it when bad things happen.

I don't think I'm able to endure losing my family members, for example.

What about becoming a stronger person? No, the thought never came across me.

No matter how strong I become, if I could protect them from dying, I would.

As long they're still alive, I want to preserve this moment of happiness.

Just thinking that I would accept it makes me sick. It wasn't my honest feelings.

No matter what reality dictates, I'm going to become strong enough, I could shape it the way I want!

Simply being strong isn't enough.

I need to become the strongest ever.

That way, no one could ever be a threat to me, those I cared about, and things I held dear.

If I got that strong, to the point of nigh-omnipotence, I didn't have to hurt anyone again.

I would just make it, so no matter what, they couldn't hurt everything I cherished.

If they pissed me off, I could just create a simulation, where I would torment and satisfy my frustrations, but they wouldn't suffer in any way.

...but does it matter?

If I became strong enough, would rules of the universe and morals matter?

If their life and death were in my palm, couldn't I just do as I like? Like, I could make it, so people like these wouldn't ever be born, or reincarnate anymore.

If the existing people wished to sow chaos, I'd just rewire their personality the way I wanted.

Wouldn't it be nice, if it's wired to every being that exists and will be, to never able to go against me?

That's probably fine.

After all, I'm not trying to abolish conflict entirely. I would just observe it happening around the vast expanse, while I just laze around in my perpetual comfort.

Right now, it seems I had a long way to go, but I'm getting there.

At first, I was just a normal human, but I had a hobby of reading wish-fulfillment power fantasies.

It was fun to imagine yourself starting from scratch and accruing strength. My family showed me it can be done, and it's just a matter of time.

...but now, there are just so many things I could do, I ran out of ideas.

I didn't expect I would become this powerful, I could presumably fight Gods.

What kind of things would be fun?

I guess it's a good way to start by addressing my past regrets.

I thought about revamping my space, but it's not as important as coming to terms with myself.

While my family could take care of me, for the most part, there's a limit on how much they helped.

One of my past regrets was gacha games.

It's not like I was unlucky, although I wasn't the luckiest either.

While my roster was decent, it wasn't the best.

I was envious of those lucky bastards who got everything they wanted with few pulls, where I got off-banners even after pity.

I guess I was just greedy.

Though, since I had powers, I could now play however I like.

It happened in the background, but after I went to another world and created my magical space, with a computer and internet connection, I was wondering—could I just automate my games?

Not something like the usual macro, since it will get banned.

It's more like an intelligent shadow clone, who would take care of my daily missions and those grinding chores—all the repetitive stuff. As for the ones with RNG variables, I could tell them to prioritize the most efficient ones, and they could follow the general direction.

That way, I could just play the interesting bits, when I feel like it. The devs also couldn't ban it, since I wasn't selling my account, it's just letting 'someone' pilot them.

It'd be nice if it worked on a schedule, so I wouldn't have to cast it over and over.

That's why I fiddled with the miscellaneous modules of my magical space.

I could get it to reroll an account with as many SSRs I want when it came to a new game.

Even the grindiest ones wouldn't make a difference. As long it's within the space, there's no limit to its battery.

Despite that, I only stuck with three games at most.

If I couldn't get myself to play it on my own, I doubt I'd let the clones farm for me.

Even if I didn't lose anything, it felt like a waste of time, if the game wasn't even that good.

I had been thinking for a while lately.

Even my favorite games weren't perfect. There's a lot of aspects I could complain about it.

Like how grindy it was, and how some QoL should be implemented while fixing the incredibly shit drop rates.

I was thinking—it'd be nice if I could easily mod the game to my liking. Maybe use my space to create a separate server, by downloading the actual server data and emulate everything else.

That way, I could screw around however I want, without implicating others. On the games I played, there's no real-time PvP. One didn't even have PvP at all.

They could also be mostly played on Auto. It's more of a single-player game, perfect for modding.

I could make my own Event and stories. The way the Research System should be, and how to make the System far less grindy.

Nevertheless, coding and hacking weren't my things—I got bored to death with codes in general.

...but all of these flew under the radar, as I was busy with getting stronger and exploring the other world.

Something inside told me, it'd be better if I could also have fun while enjoying my life.

It may be safe to assume, the fastest way to become the strongest, laid in living to its fullest.

It came when I was lazing around with Rosa and Lili.

Why don't I browse the System Shop again?

Since they had so many godlike features, might there be something for entertainment purposes?

System Imouto told me about the necessary modules for protection, surveillance, and housekeeping or stuff—surely there'd be more?

"Found it."

Straight on the top-grossing 'applications'.

["Recreational Module" – Creative Sandbox 'Mnemosyne' – Divine Tier.

Tap into the power of the Gods and enhance what you already have.

Contain lots of presets, both free and paid, for your own enjoyment.

It comes as a blueprint. For full implementation, please make sure you have reached the levels of Divinity.]

"Hmm..."

Rosa and Lili were both in a thonking pose.

The price was a lot cheaper than expected?

"No, wait..."

I think I misread.

It's actually Free to Play?

Checking my status, along with the twins, there were lots of big numbers, I kinda stopped caring.

We did have [Divinity] listed somewhere.

I guess, when you became powerful enough, you're automatically a God? I still feel like a human though.

The blueprint installation came without a hitch. We just poured our mana together, and immediately there's a huge panel like in sandbox games when we went outside the house.

From the menu, you could see various templates, tailored to the current size of this place.

Like [Beach Resort] that occupy a certain portion. It listed several blueprints that can be cheaply purchased or bought for free.

It is directly linked to the System Shop.

I noticed a trend, that cosmetic and recreational items weren't valued highly. Even the usual modern-art thingy was mostly free.

Even the A1 Beef high priced due to its strong buffs, that would still work no matter how strong you are. Those that cost points, even if it's little, tend to be less popular if it's purely cosmetic.

That's why the highest priced templates were all functional sceneries. They didn't merely fascinate by intrinsic beauty but also had inherent buffs.

Still, I don't think it's important anymore.

Since I already had incredibly overpowered ones from the twins' [Dragon Module].

It made me wonder—will they disappear if it was broken or destroyed? Or was it to the extent their buffs won't active?

The thought alone filled me with dread.

"Daddy...what's wrong?"

When Rosa tilted her head with a cutesy expression, it pained me to even think of losing them.

It made my heart churn when Lili came and stroked my hair.

Of course, despite calling me that, I was in my loli form.

The agreement was to go on Daddy and Imouto mode half-half.

So when they feel like it, they can also treat me as a little sister.

"Father, why don't you use the [Dragon Eye] to analyze it?"

"I see..."

It won't hurt to try.

[Dragon Module – Twin Dragons Rosa and Lili – Divine Tier

When active, will give the following effect:

...]

[If the module is destroyed or disabled, Space will enter an Emergency Mode...]

[If Rosa and Lili left the space, the protection will also weaken.]

[The nature of the module is to utilize their abilities to benefit the space.]

"In other words, we're human beings, not summoned creatures, yay!"

"We're your child, Father. If it's destroyed, we can just easily build another one."

"Nn...sniff...I'm so glad."

I end up crying in their chests.

Now that I knew they won't be going anywhere, I look forward to utilizing the sandbox aspect for my enjoyment.

I didn't yet realize how the Dragon Eye could make its own analysis, but that's for another time.

Chapter 6: Evasion Healer Strikes Back

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

This time, my consciousness moved somewhere else.

It was Makoto again--the 'evasion healer'.

This time, he was busy browsing the menial requests at the Adventurer's Guild, such as gathering herbs and finding lost pets.

He had to take several of these jobs, to afford a night at a hospitable Inn. The one with an actual working toilet and bath, instead of just chamber pots and wiping your body. Being someone from the modern world, I understood that feeling.

I saw his money was about to run out, and he didn't want to work until night, just to get by.

Back at home, he didn't have to take a part-time job. Only studying enough to pass the tests. For the rest, he would go ham on gaming.

At first, he's overjoyed, that he got summoned with his schoolmates in a game-like fantasy world.

To his regret, what he knew from video games didn't work in practice. It's just like the hellish rat race on Earth, only worse.

In his mind, he muttered my earlier words, about believing in himself.

Although deep down, he wanted to commit suicide.

I really don't like such gloomy things, so I said to his mind, "What makes you think an Evasion Healer would work in the first place? It has to be something good enough, you end up diving head-first."

"Ah, a loli?" Makoto glanced around and scratched his hair, "Are you one of the Goddesses?"

Whoa, I didn't notice my voice changed. I guess I got too comfy being a loli.

At least he only muttered in his mind, or he'd be seen as a lunatic.

"Stop asking trivial questions that won't get you anywhere."

He ordered a cheap drink and sat on a secluded corner, taking small sips, he began to break his ice.

"Actually, I don't know how the stats and skills in this world work, so I referenced my favorite game. There's a check between the monster's hit chance and evasion, and when it crossed a threshold, you can achieve a 100% dodge rate.

If I started with a strong party, I can ride their bus, and easily skill-up accordingly. They didn't even need to protect me and focus on dealing damage.

It was one of the best starter-builds in my favorite MMO. I know it's easily countered in high-levels, but I plan to skill up to Cleric, so I could also DPS and go solo.

I can't easily trust anyone in this world, but I know, I can trust you, Goddess-sama."

"Perhaps your main problem is relying on others in the first place."

"No, it's because the city's dungeon starting level is too high, and it's off-limits to a newbie like me. In the fields, there are barely any monsters, and the other dungeons were so far away."

What made things complicated, was he got kicked outta the Kingdom, separated from his schoolmates.

It's not because of his low stats, but the King was a control freak.

At first, you'd be assigned a set of stats and talents, plus free attributes. You could also learn several skills.

The King wanted the otherworlders to spec in a certain way.

In Makoto's case, max healing prowess—but he didn't like the idea of needing protection at all times.

Since Makoto disobeyed his orders, he ended up here with some bits of money.

"What about your classmates?"

"I'm afraid they already got brainwashed by the King. We're not that close anyway. I barely knew them in school. They're a pair of the most popular guy and girl. I was just someone who loves to play games and didn't hang out with anyone.

In the end, I don't care about any of them or the mission to defeat Maou. I wanted to go home and play games, this world fucking sucks."

"Easy, easy."

I think the King specifically sent him here because it'd make his life a living hell, and on the off-chance, he broke down, the Tyrant would make Makoto beg and become his slave.

Somehow, I could feel his pain, and I don't like it.

For the first time, I felt sympathetic to him. I wouldn't call him stupid or spineless.

He just doesn't have someone to turn to, unlike me.

I also love playing games, and I could see myself in him. I believe I'd be worse off if I couldn't rely on Youko, Dad, and Mom.

Despite his complaints, Makoto tried his hardest to get by, even if he hated working to the bone. For someone accustomed to a leisure life, stepping outside your comfort zone ain't easy.

I won't be able to do that.

...and he is a much better person than me--he deserves a better life.

Makoto took another sip and went silent.

"If this place was hard, let's go somewhere easier."

"I appreciate the help, Goddess-sama. I'm ready anytime." he didn't even try to act tough, which made me even more impressed.

"First of all, try checking outta your Inn. After that, I suggest you quit the guild as well. In the next town, don't use your real name--try making up an alias. It'd make things harder for the King's men to hunt you down."

It's understandable if a low-rank like him quit. Since the Adventurer's Guild is universal, you can use the same card in all cities—it also made tracking you down easier, with rumors spreading around.

"Makoto isn't my real name either—it's my gamer tag. I'm also familiar with Isekai novels. If you let others know your real name, you can be goaded into a slavery spell."

"Un."

After he finished preparing, I used teleport magic.

With the [Dragon's Eye, I tried searching for a suitable novice village. Those that a low-level Adventurer like him can do.

Probably somewhere far, far away.

So, when the King caught up to him, he'd be strong enough to fight back.

I also would try to scan and remove any surveillance spells, if possible.

Oddly enough, I found nothing.

Not even Gods took notice of this guy—is he really the main character?

Since I couldn't teleport him straight to the town, I selected a clearing in the nearby forest. Where weak monsters like slimes, lesser wolves, and goblins lurked by.

"Whoa, finally! It's just like the beginning of my Isekai novels."

Makoto jumped in joy, but still restrained his urge to shout loudly, only muttering in his mind.

"...but how would you fight in this condition? Didn't you put all of your stats into evasion?"

"Ah yes, I overdid that," he rubbed his cheeks, "Tell me, Goddess-sama. Are there any cliffs in this region?"

I took that back.

He's really a protagonist.

Despite my choices, there's a lot of steep cliffs in this area.

He didn't even need any directions, and just explored the area.

If there were monsters, he could just dodge them over and over, until a swarm followed him to a cliff.

At that moment, he taunted his pursuers while standing on edge. Being dumb monsters, they all charged at him—and fell off.

While Makoto just brushed them with minimal movements, becoming the last man standing.

{Level up!]

[Level up!]

[Level...]

He shot several levels in a go. While many Isekai protagonists have to grind, he's definitely no slouch in power-leveling. As expected of an avid gamer.

Also, he got lots of item and equipment drops. His luck definitely ain't bad!

"Yosha!"

His shout echoed throughout the jungle as if deliberately trying to lure more fools into their deaths.

...but seeing no more was coming, he clicked his tongue.

"Are you going to further specialize in evasion?"

"Of course not."

He showed me his status, and it was highly skewed towards Agility and Magic stat, with a high-mastery of healing.

His health was low but mana was insanely high.

"It occurred to me, that there's no Intelligence stat in this world, only Magic power. It also works as a defense and offensive stat.

If I could learn attack magic, it'd be nice—but I don't have any skill books."

"About that, why don't you adjust your way of using magic?"

Basing on his high-mastery in heal spell, he could make his own 'attack'.

Meme Necromancer made me realize there are different sides of magic. Undeads can be immune to holy and healing magic.

...and with my theory, they could even be strong against it!

"What do you mean, Goddess-sama?"

"Think of healing as rapidly regenerating lost parts of the body from the cells. What if you overload them?"

He walked back and forth, and he flicked his fingers outta blue, "I get it, but it's kinda nasty. Are you really a Goddess?"

"If you really read those novels, not all Gods and Goddesses are exemplary. Take the Useless Goddess for example."

"Damn, you read that one as well?"

"Now, focus—focus! Try searching for a victim—it shouldn't take too long."

As he went deep, a group of lesser wolves waited in ambush from all directions.

Of course, Makoto easily dodged them. With his agility, he scaled a tree in a few seconds.

Closing his eyes, green light started to gather in his palm. He held it against the closest wolf.

At first, it would heal the monster of its previous wounds, but soon its body started to bloat so much--ends up exploding on spot—its innards splattered everywhere.

[Learned Skill 'Implosion'!]

"Wow, it works like this too?"

"This is reality--of course it will."

He didn't even bat an eye after that brutal kill, huh.

Meanwhile, the Alpha Wolf and its pack had a shock in their eyes. They immediately scampered off.

Though Makoto wouldn't let them go.

"It's farming time!"

With both hands wrapped in a green light, Makoto burst up all these packs in one go, harvesting a delicious supply of XP.

...and he leveled up again.

The rest was typical Isekai. He signed into the Adventurer's Guild and sold a lot of monster materials, getting lots of money in one go.

...and the super rookie became the talk of the entire town.

While others might tell him to be more cautious, I don't think he needs to hide his strength.

Fame and secrecy, it's about how to use them to your advantage.

With his fame, he could forge strong connections, possibly far stronger than that King.

...and he certainly enjoyed basking on the limelight; even getting two beautiful girls as a party member.

"I guess you'll be fine on your own."

"Is this really goodbye, Goddess-sama? I mean, I were indebted to you, and I wonder how can I repay you."

"Nah, it's nothing much. You figured most of them by yourself."

It's pretty interesting.

At a glance, he seems generic, but he's more than meets the eye.

"Please ask me anything. I will do within my abilities to repay them."

"Hmm...it's nothing much. If you're able to go back to Earth, just call this number. We can play games from time to time."

"Yes!"

I don't see him as a romantic interest, but more as a bro, I guess.

"Wait, Goddess-sama—you're from Earth all along?"

"It doesn't matter, shoo..."

Exiting my consciousness, I was back in my magical space.

I really don't know what kind of power pulled me in, but time didn't seem to pass much.

Rosa and Lili were still brainstorming about designing this world.

...but after experiencing things with Makoto, I think the best thing to build is a Library.

A place to read my favorite books. Even the Webnovels would manifest in reality as hardcover and softcover titles.

Enjoying the floral ambiance and scenic view as I flipped the pages instead of scrolling down.

...and basking in the quiet scenery.

I think stories are the best; it can place me in the shoes of someone's struggles without actually having to go through them.

Not having to cause or invite trouble, and solving it together with the main character.

Together, we grew and blossom.

Even if it's made-up, these euphoric feelings are real.

...but first, I gotta build a house for Mom, Dad, and Youko.

While sleeping in grass and trees seem comfy, it wouldn't beat a well-furnished bedroom.

For their good sleep and sweet dreams.

Notes:

This is probably the most fun chapter I wrote recently.

Taking my time is really worth it :D

Chapter 7: Sisterly Bliss

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

I spent the remainder of my time in the Library.

To be honest, I was just reading the same things as usual—my favorite web novels.

This time, instead of just staring at the screen, scrolling down, and pushing the next button, I could experience it by flipping the actual pages.

Rosa and Lili were out in the children's corner, reading picture books.

I was just waiting for my family to wake up. That's when I would ask them if they would like to stay.

To think of it, Dad had her job, while Mom took care of the house and Youko was still in college.

I usually didn't like to think much, but this place's atmosphere drove me to contemplate deeper. About my life—about everything.

This place had a scholarly aura and a relaxing medicinal fragrance. Its interior was akin to ones in cultivation novels—where disciples would browse manuals and copy them.

Nevertheless, this place only had novels, manga, and children's books.

It was a big and wide pavilion with Eastern-style furniture and plants. I could hear the crisp sound of the bamboo fountain, with prismatic lotus floating atop. It had no doors, and to its exit, you could have a direct view of a wonderful garden, with a Daoist-style gazebo.

At the building's center was a yin-yang symbol with two dragons. They somewhat resembled Rosa and Lili. The ceiling was quite high, and you could see a giant yin-yang lamp atop.

It definitely would be a great place to study or even cultivate, but I was too lazy for that.

I picked a certain book that caught my interest and went to the gazebo. There's already a fragrant tea with mooncakes atop a porcelain plate. Its fresh fragrance filled my lungs and there's a unique sensation, different than mana. Seeping through my body and jolting my cells awake.

It was probably Qi or something.

Sitting on the stone bench, I nibbled on the cake and traced on the book's hardcover.

The title was [Reality Dreamer].

A story about a mediocre person, whose life had been still for thirty years, with no motivation to be better. He pretty much just read power fantasies in his spare time.

I guess he was tired of trying, seeing he's no longer young. While in stories, you could self-insert as the main character and achieve so many things without effort.

The main character had one hobby, which is writing.

He never really posted his stories online, even as a hobby. Because it was his own dream, and he had enough of people trampling on them, especially his own family.

Keeping it deep in his computer, he imagined, what if—one day—it will be real? No matter how impossible it seems, it's not like he had any other choice.

He didn't have any mood to be realistic anymore. Trying anything was meaningless to him. In the end, we will still be a mere human. Everything can be taken away, and you'd be powerless to resist.

You'd still be sick and lame as you get older—what's the point?

"If I'm going to get old and lame anyway, I'm just going to live my own way."

Always trying and trying, until his last breath.

Even if he could only daydream. Having all the powers and cheats, to live life as he pleases.

The story was about what-if scenarios. Like one day, he became able to teleport or have forty-eight hours a day. Becoming rich and super lucky overnight, and so on.

...but it's kinda frustrating how in the end, it all returned to his boring job and frustrating daily life.

Well, it's still a good read though.

With the tea and cakes and several refills, I went pretty far into the story.

Apparently, it's not like his life was still!

His workload decreased and he had more time to spend doing what he loves.

I'm rooting 'til the day he has Cheat in real-life.

Not just the main character, but the Author as well.

Rosa and Lili came to the gazebo, saying they're sleepy.

Since it's too much pain to walk all the way, we teleported back home.

"Daddy, let's sleep together."

Tugging my shirt, she rested her face on my shoulders.

Her pink hair had a nice smell.

"Mmm..."

Lili was already swaying left-right, as she went upstairs.

The cool wooden floor and the breezy wind made me just want to dive into the bed.

Their room consists of the entire second floor, with a wide bed. It had plush toys and big pillows.

I especially love the baguette pillow.

Rosa's computer desk had a lot of anime stuff, there's even an oppai mousepad and lewd figurines, while Lili was neat and clean.

My blue loli slumped face-first in bed. She hugged her pillow, rubbing her crotch, and rolled around. She's always like this when sleeping alone. When together, Rosa often complained that Lili molested her every night, though it felt really good to her.

I wasn't sure about the time, but since the mooncakes were kinda sweet, I end up brushing my teeth.

Rosa followed me in the bath and took a short gargle.

Despite saying she's sleepy, she seemed to have a bit of juice.

"Want to play games?"

"Nn!"

Rosa flipped the switch on the Plasma TV and picked up the controller.

When I saw the game, I was like—isn't this a single-player RPG?

To be fair, she didn't say 'play games together'.

It's good enough to watch a cute anime loli up close.

...but before she could take a bag of chips and cola out of her inventory, I stopped her.

"Uuu..."

"Your stomach and mouth are going to feel bad after you wake up."

She made a slight pout, "Hug me...then I won't feel hungry anymore."

"Only if you call me Kaori, Onee-chan..."

"Nn, I'm going to be your Onee-chan. Hehe...Daddy is so cute as a loli."

Our bodies glued together, and Rosa kept making perverted requests.

"Rub my small chest more, Kaori..."

"Kaori's PP feel good, it's nice when you beat it on my back...it's so cute when you're all girly and innocent, yet your penis is so meaty..."

"...and now, let's do a sisterly kiss. Now, please give Onee-chan your tongue...good girl...mmhh..."

Despite my penis getting harder, I didn't feel like assaulting my cute loli or penetrate her pussy.

I was just watching her grinding some mobs and following the story.

The game itself reminds me of the newspaper ad. About the Hero that went and challenged the Demon King's Castle.

I want to take out my phone to see the place's reviews, but Rosa stopped me.

"Bad Kaori...please pay attention to me...touch me more."

"...but what if I end up cumming? Onee-chan's body felt so soft and nice..."

"Then we can take a hot bath together and press our flat chests in soap...nn, I'm getting horny..."

"Uuu..."

In the end, I felt bad if I blasted my cum at this pink loli.

So I end up grinding my meat against her back, and she treated it as a nice message; her soft moans were out.

I went to bed with a full erection.

"Is your PP okay, Kaori? Do you want me to milk it with my hands—or with my pussy?"

Rosa's face was heated up, but we seem to have absolute control over our urges. Like, the more we can talk dirty to each other, the more satisfying it'd be.

"Nn...I want to rub bodies with Onee-chan...spoil me more..."

"Mmm...let's do another sisterly kiss..."

"Chuu..."

The way our small boobs pressed together, as she caressed wet tongue—it was really warm.

My penis rested on her belly and this pink loli made me her pillow.

I slept in the middle part—I felt another set of arms—it was Lili.

I wonder if she was lonely.

I really didn't remember much.

...but when I woke up, there's a strong smell of jizz.

The lolis were licking my penis and fingered my pussy.

"Mmm...want more..." Rosa was licking my tip, while with my precum dripping.

"Kaori's sweet cum..."

While Lili was licking the puddle of white cream on her fingertips.

There I noticed something.

Their penis was pretty big.

"It's your turn, Kaori!"

"Onee-san will give you some milk as well."

In the end, it made me quite addicted to sucking a girl's cock.

...but even after our kinky time, it's nice that there's no such awkward feeling.

"Daddy, let's take a bath and kiss cocks together...I want to rub your breasts."

"Father, let me wash your pussy."

Rather than lust, as I felt with Dad, it became something ordinary and routine.

Like it's just your usual, intimate bonding between sisters.

Notes:

I'm finally able to write after the entire slog of grinding in Arknights and Azur Lane.

Pretty tired and want some chill from the game, so I just want something cozy. That's also why the lewd scenes ain't detailed.

It's more of a horny relaxing thing, than ones that made you want to touch your cock and pussy.

Too tired to even think about the plot, so I'm just going to write whatever I'm in the mood with.

Chapter 8: Clarity

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

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I was wondering—it'd be nice to read novels while basking in hot spring.

Since books were made of paper, it normally wasn't possible.

...but since it's my own magical space, I could bend the rules as I see fit.

I dipped my small body into the second-floor bath.

There's a lot of steam, and my penis was fully erect.

In the tub, I submerged myself and rolled around—feeling the hot water coursing through my skin. I didn't even need to hold my breath and just feel cozy.

All in all, I became something else and it's not human.

Am I a God now? A Loli God? A Futanari God?

Or is it Yuri God, even though I was a guy?

I guess I prefer to be called Kaori or Ojou-chan...

"Nn..."

My full erection felt so good.

It's kinda strange that most of my senses still feel human.

I don't think sleep or eating is necessary. I can keep myself self-sufficient with just mana.

...but something inside me would die down.

I began to understand why my family decides to live like a normal human.

To cherish what you earned, you need to remember how you started.

I enjoy the journey of growth the most.

While it's not bad to become stronger fast, I feel my foundations aren't strong enough.

I wasn't able to enjoy my powers to the fullest--like something important is missing.

I was trying to call System Imouto every now and then since she mentioned something about the date.

For my family, you could guess it—they declined my offer to stay.

"You're already a big girl, Kaori—despite being such a cute loli. If you miss us, feel free to come back any time."

Dad was typing on her laptop; her other hand fondled her huge melons.

"I have a dream I wish to fulfill in this world, my daughter. So each of our kind won't feel lonely and isolated."

There I just remembered Dad's daily job.

She ran a Futanari Consulting Forum. Guiding the futanari girls, whenever they feel lost, isolated, but mostly just horny.

The thing about Dad's forum, only girls can register, post, or even see the contents.

I registered just in case—maybe I'll browse it later.

Mom simply repeated herself, "The other world ain't really that appealing to me."

While Youko felt too comfortable in my magical space. She was afraid it will drain her motivation to explore new worlds.

...and unlike me, she wanted to take her studies seriously.

"It's still summer break, though?"

"Exactly why I need to minimize my lazy!"

I understand why my family got sleepy when they entered my magical space.

The first time around, my Mom was fine, but that's before the Dragon Module came. While there's a trace of mana and otherworldly presence, it's pretty much a mini-Earth.

...but right now, it's like a grotto-heaven in cultivation novels. It made even the high-energy Rosa and diligent Lili a lazy bum. They mostly wanted to laze around and do lewd things.

We did have some outings together—going to malls and convenience stores, but it's kinda boring.

In my peak of idleness, I checked the Demon King's Castle in Akiba—their website, since I'm too lazy to go out.

It was under renovation.

They wanted to add new features to increase immersion--it'd be up in a few days.

I really miss System Imouto.

While the twins are really helpful, I couldn't just confide everything to my cute daughters.

I don't want to be so vulnerable, it will make them sad.

I admit System Imouto can be annoying, on how she can intrude on my mind without notice.

...but without her around, there's no longer any guiding voice that led me to the right path.

At this moment, the hot water jolted me awake.

Come to think of it...

It all started when I installed the Dragon Module and become a lot stronger.

System Imouto couldn't just stroll into my space.

...but something wasn't right.

If she really wanted to see me, couldn't she just find my space and knock?

She's probably busy with something else.

It's apparent enough when she didn't respond—even after I called her outside my space.

I also tweaked the Dragon Module, so she'd have a much easier time contacting me.

Well, no use speculating too much.

All that's left was the God of Earth.

During mealtime, I tried to pry about them from Dad.

"I'm not interested in religion," she said.

Since she was reluctant to give info, I didn't push it.

I could infer something from Dad's reaction back then.

Since she said their power was unfathomable, while looking at me—I guess I wasn't strong enough to face-off against them.

...but there wasn't any fear in her voice.

So at least, Dad could fight on equal terms, maybe she could win as well.

She'd rather act low-key, since showing her strength could be troublesome.

One thing which made me the content was when I spoke about my fears.

What if God of Earth would bully me, if I did nothing wrong, and just want to enjoy life?

What if I couldn't live comfortably because someone stronger would chain me with their rules?

That's when Dad stroked my hair and sandwiched me between her soft melons.

"It's alright, Kaori."

"Nn..."

Her boobs were so relaxing.

"You'd be fine, Onee-chan," Youko butted in, "From the scriptures, I think God of Earth loves children. That's why they would be quite lenient to your antics."

"I'm still anxious."

"Well, if you're a bit stronger, you can just go visit them. Maybe set some tacit agreement."

She said it like it's the easiest thing in the world.

Without a care, she just went and ate melons.

Mom also gave the melon to Dad and ate it herself.

"Don't sweat the small things," she ruffled my hair, when I'm still in Dad's boobs, "If they're unreasonable, just beat the crap out of them."

"I'm not strong enough for that."

"It's not about being strong, my lovely daughter. It's about standing up for yourself. If you kept on being timid, you'd get bullied all the time.

No one's going to stand up for those who didn't help themselves."

"Mmm..."

I feel content right now when my family got my back.

...and sometime later, I felt so happy.

System Imouto was finally back.

Notes:

I guess it's better to make the story a bit structured, instead of fully going with my mood.

After this, it might be my favorite part. I hope I can write more often, for the next chapters.

Chapter 9: I'm horny

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

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9 I'm horny

At that time, I was reading the novels at Dragon Pavilion.

The same gazebo as last time. Flipping the pages while drinking green tea and munching mooncakes.

On the side, was a couple of red envelopes, given by the Mnemosyne's Event. There's one for myself, Rosa, Lili, and Youko—since we're all not married.

My envelope has paper money and a [Good Luck Charm]. It's a golden paper with Ox engravings.

Rosa and Lili already took their own. They'd took Youko's envelope—they'll deliver them after breakfast.

We also received the New Year Parcel, with the dried pork jerky, which had crispy sweet texture; steamed buns with mung bean and red bean filling, even curry or mapo tofu. It also came with a wine gourd, delicious fruit candies, and Senbei.

It automatically decorates the buildings in festive new year spirit, with a red color scheme and ornamental lanterns. There's even faint traditional music flowing in the living room.

It might be annoying for some, but I enjoyed this change of scenery.

According to customs—it'd be some 'prosperity foods like 'longevity noodles', a kind of extremely long noodle people ate every New Year. It's believed to increase their lifespan.

They also would stay the whole night for that, or during the first day of the new year, would draw some water, and splash it on the street to let go of misfortune.

That aside, System Imouto wanted to solve my potential issues.

I guess I got stronger so fast, to the point of contending with gods. Though I don't have a lot of experience in a real fight. She's afraid I can't use my strength when facing an opponent of a similar level.

...but fighting isn't the only answer. The best way is to not cause unnecessary trouble.

To be honest, I don't like fighting either. While I love cultivation novels, I don't have the slightest interest in learning martial arts.

Still, I couldn't refuse System Imouto's goodwill.

"Oh?"

I didn't think it would be a video-game.

[In here, you can emulate the full extent of your powers without destroying anything. How about sparing with Rosa and Lili?]

"Umm, you realized that I became a loli, right?"

[Yup, you're very cute—Kaori. I want to take you home, chuu...]

"I don't think I can fight them anymore. My mind's filled with lewd things, even though they're my daughters. But the thought that we're all little girls, and doing cute, lewd things made my penis so hard."

[Well, it's fine! The fighting aspect is just a mini-game anyway. It's an Eroge, after all...it feels that you're having sex with them for real!]

"No wonder you took so long."

[I'm sorry, hehe...I made a character of your adult form and did yuri stuff...]

"What about your human form? I'm sure in eroge, you have them—right?"

{I'm not sure if it's that cute—or if it will make you horny.]

"It doesn't really matter as long you look like a human girl. I'm not into that furry stuff."

[Please don't hate me if I'm not cute, Kaori...]

A cute high-school girl sat beside me--her shoulder-length chestnut hair swayed against the wind. Her side ponytail kept twitching from time to time, with a fluffy chibi-slime hairpin.

The light-brown winter jacket showed her nice curves. It's not that voluptuous but it's enough to make me hard.

I guess it's because she looked so homely and down-to-earth, it reminds me of the girls I had a crush on.

...but when I think, that such an innocent face had the dirtiest mind, I got so excited.

"Uuu...I'm so happy."

Maybe it's this place, but despite feeling so horny, I just couldn't get myself to do lewd things.

As I was about to push her down, there's a floral fragrance that kept me sober.

"Mou..."

Crossing her arm in front of her decently-large breasts, she began to pout.

"Tell me your name. It's kinda awkward to call you System Imouto all the time..."

"Mitsuki...you can call me Mitsun if you want."

"Nn..."

She got disappointed when my full erection went down.

Taking a deep breath, my mind's cleared up, "Mitsun, you didn't come here just for lewd things, right?"

"Well...it's a date! Of course, we can hold hands and kiss..."

I let a long sigh, "It's God of Earth. I can't help but be worried if there's anyone stronger."

While I could stay away from conflict, what if they came and make trouble in my front door?

I guess I tried to delude myself by drowning in pleasure with my lewd daughters.

Whenever I got scared, Rosa and Lili would put their small fingers and stir my pussy. We could also turn off our penis and indulge in full lesbian sex.

If possible, I don't want to fight at all. It'd be nice if everyone's a cute girl, so I could do lewd things with them.

It'd be nice if they have dick and pussy, and their figure would make me so hard.

"Actually, I knew her. She's so beautiful and had a body that you could jack off every day...but the thing is, she loves girls so much, especially now that you're a loli. I'm afraid she'd make you her sex slave."

"No wonder you're so reluctant to tell things...you're jealous, huh?"

She's probably busy that last time as well.

"Of course...I'm not attractive enough to keep my loli erect...and you already asked of another woman. Tell me, what kind of girl you like? Should I make my breast bigger or should I dress in slutty clothes so you could jerk off to me?"

"Calm down...Mitsun."

I explained things about this place, and how it kept my mind clear.

Otherwise, I'd be so horny—I'd cum all over her.

Since I did lewd things with Rosa and Lili so often, it got a bit stale sometimes.

We need to do some perverted roleplays and go to our house's basement. It had a lot of things to set the mood. We can even swap decorations and stuff to get ourselves so horny.

...and so, I invited her to the basement.

Perhaps with her Eroge, I can cum a lot, I'd be satisfied for the entire day.

Notes:

All in all, I don't think I'm really passionate about writing stories.

I just love lewd things so much. The plot can just go to hell from this point on, I guess.

Chapter 10: Affection

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Rosa and Lili were watching anime in the living room.

They noticed this high-school girl they hadn't seen before.

Mitsun fidgeted when the lolis' eyes lit up; they climbed the sofa and looked up from its backside.

"Mommy!"

"Mother."

They jumped and ran towards Mitsun, snuggling her. The way they touched their own mother was really lewd.

"Mmm...not my pussy or boobs..."

"That's why we touched both!"

As the pink loli saw my erection, "Are Daddy and Mommy going to do lewd things?"

"Rosa...don't. We can always do Mommy next time."

"You motherfucker! Hehe..."

"Uuu..."

They ran to the second floor with a lot of horny.

Mitsun was dumbfounded the entire time.

"Are your daughters always this perverted?"

"'Our' daughters."

Mitsun went on a 'thonking' pose for a moment, "I guess both of them inherited your repressed desires."

"What do you mean?"

"I couldn't tell it at first, but when you're a guy—you've been having a lot of things pent up."

That's right.

While I had no problem with being a man in general, it fucking sucks when it came to romance and sex.

For the longest time, I couldn't get turned on with a man and woman relationship.

Whenever there's a cute anime girl, when a guy showed up—I couldn't fap anymore.

I could only enjoy it when it's only girls.

When the girl had a nice penis, it's even better. That's how I got so obsessed with futanari so much.

Maybe since Dad was a futanari as well and her body turns me on so bad.

I probably love her in a romantic and lustful manner, but I felt disgusted with myself when I was a guy.

When a girl was this beautiful and I cared for so much, I don't want any guy to touch her, including myself.

Whenever I had lewd fantasies, I always imagined myself as a girl. I sometimes dreamed of having my pussy pounded by her fat cock, while I sucked on her melons.

Though it's only to that extent.

I wonder what's stopping me from asking my family? With their powers, they could turn me into a cute girl.

When did it all change?

The time I went to another world, my body started to become feminine as I grew stronger.

When I looked at the mirror and mistook myself for a girl, I started having the desire of putting on those lewd clothes while stroking my cock.

Eventually, I grew huge breasts, perverted curves, and wet pussy.

My cock also got bigger and I got so thirsty for cute girls.

I got horny all the time, I couldn't focus anymore—so I end up turning myself into a loli.

Though apparently, it doesn't help much.

"Tell me, Mitsun. Am I supposed to be a girl all along? And for some reason, someone made me grew up as a man?"

I felt her warm hand on my head.

"There, there..."

Her gentle strokes calmed my confusion.

"While you're technically my wife, you also look like a daughter, Kaori..."

"Mmm..."

"Do you love being spoiled like a little girl?"

"Nn...Mitsun, I want you to be my Mommy and do lewd things to me..."

"I'm not sure that's how mother and daughter work."

"It's okay..." I hugged her body tight, pressing my head against her underboob, "I really want you to touch me."

"Yosh...Mommy will pamper Kaori lots today!"

"Yay...I'm not into diaper plays though."

"Don't worry, I know your fetishes quite well."

Usually, the basement will have a dimly-lit room with calming aromatherapy—akin to ones in love hotels.

A mellow jazz tune will faintly play in the background along with a young girl's moans, getting everyone in the mood.

You could customize the room with Mnemosyne, but everyone's too lazy.

Right now, with the Eroge module that Mitsun brought—my loose shirt became an elementary school's gym clothes--it reads [Kaori, Class 6-9].

I didn't wear any pants, so my large cock was dangling about. On my back, was the usual red backpack. I also wore a cap, small socks, and shoes.

There's a full-length mirror before me, and I felt I was sinking deeper in lolicon hell.

How my loli self kept blushing hard, and my meat got so erect, I could even suck it while standing if I lowered my head.

There's a sound of knife cutting.

When I turned my body, there's a living room with a kitchen. Mitsun's stood there with a naked apron; her plump butt and side-boobs in full view.

The sight made me want to stroke my cock, but I remembered—I'm her daughter now.

"Mommy...I'm home."

If we just get to fucking, I wouldn't get so hard like this.

"How's school?"

When she turned, her bouncing butt made my pre-cum leak.

I really love how aroused she was and how hard she tried to not push me down.

"Umm...I learned that our cocks feel good when we stroked and sucked them. If we do it enough, delicious white milk will come out."

When she faced me, I didn't notice any erection. She ended up raising her apron; revealing no meat rod, only drenched pussy.

"...and?"

It made me rather nervous since everyone else had a dick.

"Don't worry, Kaori. We're both girls, there's nothing to fear."

The way she casually stroked my tip made me relax.

"Mmm..."

"The welcome home kiss, Kaori."

Instead of the cheek, she gave her lips.

"Chuu..."

I felt her warm tongue around mine; her lips were so soft.

Her hand moved faster and wet sounds start to come from my cock.

"Nn!"

When she rubbed my tip that's lubed with pre-cum, I end up cumming. She sealed my lips even more; covering my muffled screams.

The spurts didn't cease after several seconds. I didn't think I ever came so much before.

We kept wrestling our tongues for few minutes before our lips parted.

Mitsun spread her palm wide and there's a large pile of white milk, she licked everything up and poured it down my throat.

It was sweet like milk tea. With several gulps, I end up finishing it all.

Of course, I tasted my cum a lot of times. The amount I creamed from my penis was enough to not use soap anymore.

I would cum over and over and rub it through my body while looking at the mirror. That way, I'd finally be satisfied and could think straight for once.

Though the taste seemed to differ depending on how it's used.

"Is it good?" Mitsun fondled my cheeks; the rest of the cock milk's still all over her lips.

"Nn,"

We spent the rest touching each other, with a lot of kissing.

I enjoyed sucking on her boobs and fucking it with my penis. It's also nice when we glued our pussy together and slid it around.

Once again, I came inside her mouth; she sucked it like a drain.

Eventually, she couldn't hold it anymore and lowered her pussy--spreading her labia wide, after pushing me down.

It was hot and slippery. I guess she also came while sucking me off and just kept quiet.

Despite claiming to have no experience, it went in smoothly, with no sense of breaking hymen at all.

While my penis was pretty thick, it seemed to expand and wrap in my rod nicely.

With her on top, she began pumping her pussy; the wet slapping sounds echoed around the room.

Her ecstatic sight, with her jiggling boobs and flushed face—it made me closer to cumming.

"Will you get pregnant if I do it inside?"

I don't think I'm ready for another child.

"It's okay, I won't."

Assailed by relief. I released everything in her womb. My mind felt so light and my small legs started to give in.

Her back kept arching and her lewd moans filled my ears.

When it's over, her belly looked a bit swollen and my white milk leaked from her pussy.

"Hehe...it feels so good."

I yelped when she picked me up and went to the shower.

Fortunately, we didn't go for around two since my dick started to hurt.

Mitsun washed my hair and soaped my small body.

The hot water felt nice. We got in the bathtub; her boobs pressed on my back, with her arms on my sides.

While my penis got hard, I also felt relaxed.

"Hehe...your meat is poking out the water, just like that submarine thing."

"Ey..."

I was kinda sleepy to respond.

"It's okay to not know everything at once, Kaori." her boobs massaged my back, "Let's chill and do lewd things every day, alright? If anything happens, I'll protect everyone."

The room reverted back to the love hotel. It's warm and cozy enough, we end up sleeping naked, snuggling each other.

As I woke up, however. I found a pair of lolis warming my bed.

Three super-cute girls snuggled me and I could feel their warmth and affection.

My penis was hard and my pussy was drenched.

My heart was happy.

Notes:

I guess I can't really write detailed lewd scenes. I don't like them too much either, prefer the ones that teased me and roused my lewd thoughts.

As long it makes me so horny, it's okay I guess. I end up cumming while writing this chapter.

Chapter 11: Motivation

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Mitsun stretched her arms and rubbed her face, while Rosa and Lili's nice erection twitched against the blanket.

When our eyes met, hers opened white, followed by a deafening shout:

"Wait, that's now what I came here for!"

"Uwaaaa..."

"Mother..."

The twins immediately covered her ears with the blanket, while I simply opened my mouth—like during airplane takeoff.

Seeing my actions, Mitsun made a cute pout, and my penis woke up again.

It's followed by the sound of a rumbling stomach from the twins.

Mitsun went upstairs to make breakfast.

Usually, I'd still lay in bed and do lewd things with my loli daughters as a loli.

Lili would be too lazy to cook as well. She can just grow an entire meal course in trees. We now have curry rice trees, burger trees, brown rice trees, and so on.

...but Mitsun's disciplined attitude broke me outta stupor.

Come to think—we really didn't sleep that long.

I kinda lost track of time.

Recently, there's not a single night in my magical space, since I find it easier to sleep in the morning, especially when I inhaled the refreshing daybreak air.

As I said before, scientific laws don't matter. My plants can be alive 24/7 with natural mana.

I feel that the only good reason for night time is to set the mood—but there's the eroge module for that.

Anyway, it didn't take long before Mitsun came down with her apron. I half-expected it to be a naked apron, but her black camisole was quite sexy as well, not to mention the pants that showed her long legs.

"Kaori, Rosa, Lili—breakfast is ready. Wake up, sleepyheads!"

The twins got up at the same time and rubbed their faces. Rosa's nose twitched, while Lili's eyes were wide open.

"Is this Kebab, Mommy?"

"Please teach me how to make it."

We went upstairs to see a plate filled with the famous street food, all rolled in dough skin, filled to the brim with chicken fillet, tomato rings, lettuce, corn, sour-spicy sauce, and a sticky mayo.

Rosa skipped to the dining table, all naked. As she traced the food's outline, a lightbulb seemed to form atop her hear, when her ahoge stood up.

"Lili, this pouch thing is a bit longer than our dick. I wonder if it feels good if we stick it in and cum inside..."

The blue loli was not amused, "I get your cum was tasty, but if you stick it in, it'd be all soggy. I think it's better if we just use it as a dip-sauce or prepare it beforehand."

"...but we had lots of it in the fridge."

"Wait a minute!" Mitsun was totally dumbfounded, "You're telling me that thing isn't mayonnaise?"

"Our cum is better..."

Mitsun looked like she's going to cry, but end up taking several bites anyway.

Yeah, I think the creator of Kebab would be rolling in their grave right now.

Speaking of the taste, it reminded me of my college days. There used to be that Kebab shop on my way home. I'd usually order a pack or two.

It's just a small shop—not a franchise, but it's real good. Also, each time you buy one pack, you'd get a stamp. When you filled everything, you'd get one free kebab, but only the medium pack.

Though the main reason I love it was—during my childhood days, there's a Kebab seller and it used genuine sheep meat. I could still faintly remember the taste, and especially the soft mayo.

...but when I think the texture was similar to Rosa and Lili's cum, I wasn't sure whether to laugh or cry.

Anyways, we brushed our teeth, took a bath, and got dressed. Since it's something important, Mitsun brought everyone to the Dragon Pavilion.

Along the way, the perpetual morning sunlight warmed us. Before Mitsun's arrival, even the sunlight made me want to sleep, but now, I felt like being productive for once.

We sat at one of the reading tables, and Mitsun began with a table slam.

"Actually, when I'm away—I also observed your lazy antics..."

"I get it that you're strong and don't need to compete with others anymore, but do you feel that you've lost motivation in general?"

"Yup." I nodded.

When my strength reached God-level, it feels like I've finally reached a bottleneck. I'm not sure how strong I am, and I don't feel like it's wise to provoke anyone.

Even if there's a battle simulation, I don't really want to fight with others, even for fun. I'd rather do lewd things with them if they're a cute girl and a nice person.

"At first, when you're still a guy, you seem all excited to get stronger, but since you earned everything so quickly and easily—you end up not wanting to do anything."

"Well...it's not my fault, since you agreed to my whims."

"This and that are different. I'm just really worried about your safety—I can't keep watch over you all the time."

"That's why, when you're like this—I have to think hard, extra hard—for the best way to get your motivation back, even though you had everything you desired."

"You might think—why bother? I'm already the strongest anyway! Though do you feel that your days are empty? And despite your plethora of skills, you find yourself uninspired to even use them?"

I nod again, while the twins swallowed their saliva.

"Honestly, you're not alone on that," Mitsun sighed; her eyes drifted to the distance, "A lot of people would have that bottleneck and began losing their passion—eventually they find living itself meaningless and painful."

"In your case, it was really hard to feel inspired, when you already have everything, and it's difficult to imagine the powers beyond what's humanly possible. In the end, we're still human."

"We might be immortal and able to shape reality however we want—but we might crave that feeling of starting over as our once weak self, and making that small, but meaningful progress...this time, with style."

Her words made a lot of sense.

It's exactly why I was so obsessed with stories, especially when the main plot was about getting stronger step by step.

While I prefer if the main character is strong and wins every single time, the most fun thing isn't about their strength, but the process of getting stronger!

It's their moments of powering up and making use of their new strength, that made me stick with the story.

Even if they're already the strongest, it's much better to see them constantly learning and improving.

Though in my case...

I always wanted to do something in the easiest way possible.

While it might make me incredibly lazy and not wanting to do anything, Mitsun's words gave me a great idea.

My main reason for not looking the other way--I'm so scared of losing my powers.

I don't want to go back to the time I have to rely on my family and have to deal with reality in some ways.

If there's a way to start all over—this time, with no impact on reality--purely for enjoyment and experience.

"Mitsun, are you thinking what I'm thinking?"

"Yup. That's what the Eroge module I invented was for..."

Come to think of it, there was a similar thing in Mnemosyne.

They called it the Divine RPG.

Where you 'incarnate' in a simulated world as a mortal—although it ends up being too real a lot of times.

You could set it however you want to, and you can quit anytime.

Despite their overwhelmingly positive reviews, I still couldn't trust the developer.

What if, by running that application—they had the ability to strip me of my powers?

I really couldn't stand the idea.

...but as for Mitsun, I couldn't appraise her strength.

If she meant a bad thing for my family, she'd done so already.

That's why, even if her idea isn't original—she's the one who rekindled my motivation.

...and she's special to me. That's why, at least—I'll give it a try, just to appreciate her efforts.

The twin also wanted to give it a try.

Still, one thing was bugging me.

"Umm...time wouldn't pass too long while we're inside the simulation, right?"

"Don't worry, Kaori. You can set the time as long as you want—though you couldn't completely freeze it."

I end up swallowing my saliva.

In the Divine RPG, the time scaling was at most—four hours in-game, one in real-life.

She might be out far longer than I thought.

...and she'd have to endure all those loneliness.

"Nn..."

I end up hugging her.

"Kaori?"

"It's okay. I'm here, and I'm not going away."

"Hehe...thanks."

She gave me a head pat.

It felt so nice and warm.

They also gave Mitsun hugs.

"Mmm..."

"Hehe..."

They enjoyed the head pat as well.

Notes:

When I wrote this chapter, I tried to forget all my past experiences in writing and just start something new.

Like I haven't written anything before. No need to make it perfect or even good--I'm not trying to impress anyone and I'm not getting paid for it.

I just want to get back to the time I started writing, when even a simple chapter makes me feel alive and meaningful, no matter if people cared or not.

The next chapter I will start a new story arc, where I can make up for letting the MC become too overpowered so easily. She'll still be OP and have an easy-going life, but I want to make it in a fun way.

Chapter 12: All You Can Isekai

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

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Rosa and Lili already went ahead—they're eager to experience this stuff.

Speaking of which, there is some overpowered shit in Mitsun's module.

It can emulate any kind of world, along with the NPCs.

It can also slow the time to a crawl.

To make the most use of it, something that required extensive world traveling and a lot of time will be best.

It might seem that I could shape my magical space whatever I want, but every change would consume mana.

It needs tons of mana to create an enormous world to travel along with its inhabitants—but I don't see the point.

My own space had always been a place to hunker down and kickback.

To be honest, I don't really like adding NPCs. I'd rather have a peaceful time with only my family, so that's a big no.

Since Mitsun's module will create a lifelike simulation, none of the changes will affect reality.

In other words, I could finally experience an Isekai adventure without chickening out all the time.

Ah, right. I forget to add another thing—you can customize it as you like.

So no matter what, you wouldn't experience life-threatening danger.

Some might say, that a life-and-death situation would make you stronger, but I don't think so.

If you actually came to that point, there's a high chance you'd be dead already.

Especially someone like me, who lived their entire life on peaceful Earth. I just couldn't get into that mindset, and not willing to.

I feel it's a lot wiser to prepare.

Much better to crush an enemy quickly with enough preparation, and try to not pick fights against stronger or equal opponents.

Never showing myself, when I could be targeted.

...and I will try to strike down any potential threats.

Oh right, which threat is it?

"Hehe, your serious face is so adorable...my loli!"

Yeah, this girl is a lot stronger than me.

I couldn't see through her powers, no matter how hard I tried.

That's how I resigned myself to be her sex slave.

"Mou...you're my wife, Kaori. Plus, you're the one who pushed me down!"

Eh...

"Specifics aside, can you recommend me a place to travel? I feel like going on a safe vacation for once."

When I think about it...

In my whole life, I never went outside the country.

I never even visited the countryside nor ever went outside the city.

Even in another world, I didn't really go out much. I just went to the labyrinth dungeon once and that's it.

Aside from that, I just went through the forest, when I first end up.

I guess it's the technology. You could explore the world just with several clicks.

No need to waste so many hours on the road, where you could get into accidents along the way.

I couldn't handle the boredom of having to sit for twelve hours and nothing else.

Mitsun flicked her fingers, "How about we follow the twins? We might come across something nice."

They went to a randomly-generated world.

I made sure it wouldn't pose any danger to everyone.

The module was a futuristic double-door in the basement. As we walked closer, it automatically sprung open, revealing a dark pathway.

There's the feature to [Join] instead of beginning a [New Adventure].

The time acceleration was set to 4x, so we're not that far apart.

"While we could set it super-slow, I don't recommend it, especially if you had loved ones outside. You might find yourself out-of-touch with them and it'd be really sad."

I saw her shifting the time acceleration further, maybe it's 16x or even 32x?

"This should be enough."

Either way, we could just pause and return to Mom, Dad, and Youko whenever we feel homesick.

Maybe, for other families, it'd be out-of-touch.

...but I'm glad to see them getting all clingy and affectionate every day.

I swallowed my saliva, as I held her hand.

The moment we stepped inside, our body flickered and we found ourselves in a different space.

There's a character creation screen, just like in VRMMO.

I went with my current loli appearance since I'm used to it.

As for the stats, I guess I'm starting at level 1 again.

There's also [Race Selection]. As usual, there's [Human, [Demigod] and [God].

Since I love overpowered things, I picked [God] right away. It had no real penalties while it had lots of benefits.

If it's in real-life, I think I need to worry about a lot of things.

As expected of [God] race, the stats were super-strong.

The next thing was the class.

On top of them was [Paragon, who's a great all-rounder in everything. No limitations on what they can learn or master.

Of course, it's a no-brainer to me.

With all the [Cheats] in the skill list, I guess it's a way to directly hand the Admin privileges without breaking immersion.

After I confirmed my decision, I found myself in the usual forest in Isekai novels.

Only this time, I wasn't alone.

...and it's not only System Imouto's voice as well.

Clad in our Adventurer's clothes, we made way to the first town.

This time, in a stress-free Isekai journey.

Better yet--mod support is available.

Notes:

It takes a lot more time than I thought.

I guess, it's best to write like I'm explaining to others.

This part may take the majority of the story. With my current pace, I'm not sure how long it take, but at least I have fun writing this chapter.

Chapter 13: Comic Relief

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

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We end up in the usual clearing.

It's like the previous place I've been to in the other world.

There was a rustle in the bushes, and a blue slime came out.

Perhaps I could experience my first actual fight for once?

Our distances were hundreds of meters apart, but before I could even cast simple magic, the slime went splat.

What the hell, did I mastered Conqueror's Haki without knowing?

"Hehe!"

"Uuu..."

As usual, there was the usual exp and gold gain, along with item drops.

Since my luck value is extremely high, we got a rare item called [Slime Sculpture].

It's merely a collectible of the cute blob with an emoticon face. There's no buff at all, but it might look nice in the house.

Though Rosa already had many lewd figurines in her desk, and would sometimes jack off to it. Since my desk on the first floor was quite tidy, I might add it up.

"Can we take the stuff out in real life?" I asked Mitsun.

"Since you can materialize stuff with mana, I see why not. The more powerful the object, the costlier it'd be though."

She also told me, since it's a virtual space, the things I made would be the copy, not the genuine object.

What if it's an NPC?

Could we replicate an actual living person?

What if they were homesick and want to revisit their world?

"That can wait until we found someone you're fond of."

How she said like it's no big deal made me relieved.

Along the road, we didn't encounter any monsters. Instead of teleporting straight from the map, we end up walking since we'd like to enjoy the view.

The thick canopies of lush green forests, along with the rustling of bushes and the faint cry of animals. The ground was soft and comfortable, it's somewhat like a date when she held my small hand.

While I kept my discretion in real-life, I felt like going wild this time.

Mitsun shook her head, "I feel we gotta find a town and register at the Adventurer's Guild first."

Unlike real-life, there's no harm in following the Isekai template for fun.

"What about our levels? Wouldn't some Adventurer try to start some trouble because ours are extremely low?"

Unlike the novels though, I wasn't confident I could cause harm without killing or permanently crippling them at least.

..but I prefer to avoid potential troubles, even if it's the template. Not all cliches have to be followed, especially if it's pointlessly stupid.

Thinking about it, I don't like being the center of attention either. I'd rather live a low-key life, even though it's only a virtual world.

"It's fine, it's fine. Because it's a cliche doesn't mean it will happen to us. Moreover, if things didn't go well, we can just rewind it like a save game.

So yeah, don't worry about acting stupid.

Also, if you're worried about levels, we can just do this."

[Received ... XP and ... Gold!]

[Kaori is now level ... !]

[Mitsun is now level ... !]

"Damn..."

"Well, I feel that we don't need to mercilessly slaughter these monsters for no reason. But if there's a subjugation going on, these critters probably had caused some trouble. I think it eases the guilt in my heart if I did so.

It's nice to do good deeds and we're also getting rewarded for it."

Well, you just gave ourselves a shit ton of gold

...but yeah I have to agree it hits different when you actually earned them.

It also made a lot of sense. Just because they're labeled monsters, doesn't mean all of them would straight up murdering humans.

Some of them just wanted to survive.

Soon we went outside the forest, towards an open area with thick trees and bushes to its left and right. With our walking speed, it only took several minutes.

...and that's because we've been avoiding sightseeing and curious detours.

There were paved roads with visible horseshoe tracks. Guess a carriage passed through here not long ago.

Seeing there's no town in sight, it might mean...

"Hand over your goods and women, otherwise—die."

We did a flash step, spanning several kilometers in one go.

Keeping ourselves hidden and leaping into trees, we found a merchant carriage surrounded by bandits.

The one who spoke was a muscular baldy around two meters tall, with an eyepatch covering his left eye. Wielding a rusty crooked sword, he began to lick it, as if to intimidate the merchants.

"Ew..."

A moment later, this baldy slumped on the road. Falling on his back; eyes rolled back and foaming from his mouth.

[Bandit Leader A has died from tetanus.]

...and despite their superior numbers, the bandits all scampered away, leaving the merchants in a daze.

"Is it just me or bandits are becoming comic relief lately?"

Mitsun tapped my shoulders, "Always has been."

Notes:

I guess it's better to write shorter chapters while only focusing on the important parts. Writing detailed descriptions ain't for me.

On a side note, I guess I don't really like going original. I prefer just following the usual template and change things a bit.

I don't know how I got obsessed with the futa loli thing so much, but I really love futanari yuri.

This arc may not have as much lewd scenes though. I won't force it the situations either, but when I feel like it's appropriate, I hope it'd be juicy enough I can at least cum from it.

Chapter 14: Emily

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

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Mitsun jumped down and I followed suit.

We touched the ground without a single thud.

They didn't even notice our approach before Mitsun made a loud 'ahem'.

"Wow, looks like the poison I cooked is working well!"

The merchant leader alternated between the bandit leader's knife and Mitsun, rubbing his head, "Ah...our deepest gratitude...we don't have much but we'll accede your wish to our best ability."

"Worry not, sir. We're new to the continent and like some heads-up if you please..."

"Is that so?" he sighed in relief, "Feel free to board our carriage, my daughter is around your age," he finally noticed me, "Is she your little sister, miss?"

"She's my wife."

"Oh, I'm about to marry my daughter to a noblewoman as well." he made a hearty laugh while slapping his knee.

I wonder if the marriage between the same-sex is quite common in this world, or at least, around these parts.

I'm also curious if they could also bear children.

Before I noticed, Mitsun's warm hand held my own.

"Let's go!"

The convoy had two carriages for cargo and VIP passengers. The convoy's made out of a dozen of adventurers, none looking that shabby.

Analyzing their levels and stats, comparing it to the bandits—they should be able to win easily.

The merchant leader sat beside the driver, while we took the passenger compartment.

I guess he's wary of us before.

Stepping in, there's an ojou-sama with blond hair and blue eyes, with a gothic-styled dress--her name's Emily.

"My name's Mitsuki and this is my wife Kaori. We're from Yamato."

"Nn..."

"Yamato, huh? I've been there before, it's in the Far East. Took a half-day on airship trips. I'm also wondering—how old are you, Kaori-chan?"

"Twenty-five."

"You're actually a lot older than me! Here I thought you're twelve or something...I always wanted a little sister."

Just now, we heard a whip crack and a sudden acceleration made me almost jump.

I noticed Emily had seatbelts around her thin waist, and she giggled.

"Surprised? Horses in this area are pretty fast."

Yeah, it's on the speed of cars traversing through a highway.

"How long does it usually take between cities?" Mitsun crossed her elbows

"Around a few hours at most, Mitsuki-san. Although my Dad will usually stay for an entire day to trade. I get to travel around for a bit with my guards and visit many kinds of places."

Speaking of which, the place we're heading will be the capital of Deus Theocracy, Dei Magnus, worshipping the Goddess of Light, Lumine.

It's headed by the High Priestess, although the government was run by the royal family.

The High Priestess mainly oversees the religious aspect and will appoint the next ruler—although all she did were mostly relaying Lumine's decision.

As such, there are no succession issues.

...and I just realized, there's no god, only goddesses in this world.

In other words, we can yuri everyone.

"Kaori-chan, you made a lewd expression, and something is poking your pants..."

"Ah."

It might not be as stuffy since it's made out of a flexible special material, but the soft texture just made me hornier.

I hurriedly covered my penis but Emily just giggled again, while Mitsun gave me a smug double wink.

"it's okay, Kaori-chan—while it's rare, we have girls born with penises as well. According to the Goddess of Light and other religions, those people are blessed.

...but seriously, it's surprising. When you're so small so cute, your penis is bigger than mine."

"Come again?"

"H-here..." Emily lifted her skirt, revealing a thick, meaty cock around seven inches long, "Please don't stare at it too much, I know it's kinda small."

Small my foot.

"Emily-san, are you trying to seduce me? I'm married, you know...you're going to marry as well."

I look at Mitsun to see her actually drolling, with a disgusting expression.

"It's fine, Kaori." she elbowed my cock, causing me to go 'ahnn' for a bit. Emily ends up pushing her penis down and covered her face, it's all red and steam started to rise from her head.

"I'm sorry, Mitsuki-san...your wife is just so cute, and I love petite girls. I kind of get so lonely since I'm around men all the time. If there's a beautiful woman, it's hard to contain myself."

Emily's kinda on the petite side herself, with her small chest—it made her feel more lolita as well.

"No problem, you're super cute so I'll let it slide," she gave me a wink, which made me a bit uneasy, "By the way, which noblewoman you'd be married with?"

"She's a Viscount's daughter, my childhood friend. We promised to marry a long time ago...but knowing her, she'd have multiple wives, and we can all have an orgy every night, I'm looking forward to it."

"It sounds awesome! We wish you the best of luck."

"Thank you very much!"

The rest of them were mostly small talks.

I don't like infodumps so I'd leave it aside.

It didn't take long before we reached the city.

Since we don't have an ID, Emily's Dad became the guarantor.

The carriage stopped at the Viscount's mansion.

As we're about to part, Emily turned to us, "I forgot since I had so much fun chatting—but why are you visiting the capital?"

"We want to mingle with the Adventurer's Guild," she took a silver-plated emblem, with her info.

[Mitsuki

Job: Ranger

Issued City: Edo, Yamato Empire

B-Rank]

Why didn't you take it off before?

[I forgot to create it!]

Hehe...

[No bully.]

Not knowing our antics, Emily brought her hands together and her eyes lit up.

"Oh...so Mitsuki-san is an Adventurer, you're so young but already B-rank, that's amazing! What about Kaori-chan?"

"Umm...I never really traveled much, I recently just followed Mitsun."

"But being an Adventurer is really dangerous. You shouldn't put your wife in danger, Mitsuki-san."

"Don't worry! Despite looking really frail and fragile, she's pretty strong. Don't you see how meaty her cock is?"

"Oi, we're in the middle of the street." I frowned.

"Y-yeah...even if having a penis is a blessing, talking about it is..."

The double-door of the mansion opened up, and a typical old butler came in, with a baritone voice, "Ojou-sama, please."

"Well then, Mitsuki-san, Kaori-chan...let's meet up again next time," she took a familiar slab, "What is your Ambassador ID?"

"Sure," she took her own and there's a flashing red light, "Done."

"Hehe, thank you!" her eyes opened wide, "Oh, Kaori-chan's in the same group as well."

"Fell free to add me, if you want."

It made me almost crack up when the butler also took his phone.

Emily pouted, "It's for girls' talk only! Stop being shameless and pretending to be a girl online!"

If only she knew I used to be a guy.

Notes:

maybe it's just me, but if horses are as fast as cars, people might pick them since it's more eco-friendly.

to feed them you only need food instead of non-renewable fossil fuel.

since it's a fantasy world, dwarves might prefer cars while elves love traversing nature on foot or riding directly on their mount.

the dwarven cars might be made up of mana-powered machines, something that's easily renewable. their metals and ores can also regenerate with the existence of metallic spirits or such.

lots of possibilities, but i kinda prefer writing about the loli talking perverted things with another futanari girl.

haha.

maybe more will be about the goddesses, but for now, i just want to keep things simple.

Chapter 15: Common Sense

Notes:

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A cobblestone path and neatly-lined streets laid before; the greenery seems to emit a verdant glow.

I wanted to find someplace to kick back.

We went to a skewer stall. Manned by an orc uncle with a large tusk and silk apron. He's pretty muscular and tall, like an adventurer.

There's a big slab of meat which he spun around and chop, lining the pieces on sticks.

Its smell made me salivate.

Mitsun placed several coppers and took a stick, with her wink, I also took another.

We sat beneath an overgrown tree, with the sound of fountains and breezy wind akin to daybreak. The thick mana in the air roused my appetite further.

"Mmm..."

Its meatiness reminds me of the sheep kebab I ate a long time ago. The sweet and saltiness blended so well; no gamey taste at all. The fragrant smell kept making me crave for more.

I was so engrossed in the meal, I didn't even notice her calling out. Only after she pat my head and gave me one more, I snapped back.

Her intense gaze got me self-conscious, I stopped munching.

"What?"

"If you want more, just ask!"

"Nn..."

"Hehe..."

I nommed my second skewer. This one's beef, I think? A bit spicy with salty soy-sauce and scrambled eggs.

Normally, these dishes would have high fat and bad cholesterol, but I didn't feel stuffy in my throat.

She raised a finger and the boss gave a thumbs up.

"I'm full."

"You sure can eat, huh, jou-chan." the orc uncle's heavy voice made me almost jump.

Actually, I wanted to go around sampling all kinds of food and snacks, but I can enjoy it later.

"Nn..."

"Cute kid, your little sister?" he turned to Mitsun.

"We get that often, but she's actually my wife!"

"Ah, congrats! This one's on the house," he picked two skewers.

"Ugh..."

When I rubbed my belly and shook my palm, she cleared her voice, "We're new around here so we'd like some directions."

"I knew several good places, what things you're interested in?"

"We're aiming to be adventurers—we'd also like to relax and have fun!"

"Also, I'm around twenty," I added, "I should be a legal adult around here."

Probably remembering that halflings exist, he's like—whatever.

"It's lower in some areas," the orc uncle looked at the distance while rubbing his nose, "It doesn't really matter. If you're mature enough, you'll be treated like an adult regardless.

For the specifics, just ask the guild. I happen to know an ex-adventurer. I don't stay at his place but he helped me a lot back then. A real good guy."

Since I was full, we went straight into the recommended place—an Inn near the Adventurer's Guild. Managed by Gantz-san, an ex-Adventurer. He lived with his husband, Robin, and they had a cute daughter--their flesh-and-blood children.

"Hmm..."

My relationship with Mitsun's a lot weirder, so it's not my place to talk about it.

While the majority of people here are heterosexual, it's not by much.

I guess I had to get used to this world's common sense.

I asked Mitsun, can people of the same sex (not futanari) have kids together?

She's like, "Why not?"

"Welcome!" a young man's voice greeted us, along with the bell chimes.

The first thing I noticed was the prominence of same-sex pairing. Men with men, women with women--while basically ignoring the other sex.

How they're openly intimate with their partner made us look like sisters.

...but to be honest, I'm okay if we're just casual like friends, as long we're both comfortable.

"Hehe..."

Mitsun lightly squeezed my hand and took us to an empty seat. The young man from earlier went to our table. He had a slender and lean build, with long bangs on one side, like an emo singer.

I ordered an orange juice and Mitsun wanted a milk tea.

Holding the young man's hand was a little girl with curly pigtails. She had a curious gaze at me—probably thinking we're the same age.

It's really cute, I end up smiling at her.

She ends up blushing and hiding behind the young man, who gave her a head pat.

Both of them went towards the back area; the young man turned at us, nodding his head, a bit embarrassed.

"I think she likes you, Kaori."

"I won't touch a little kid."

"...but it's okay if she's pushing you down? She seems the aggressive type and you totally look like a yuri bottom."

"She won't."

I couldn't imagine such a pure-looking girl doing obscene things.

Looking at people loving one another makes me warm inside, especially since their affection seems so genuine.

I guess, isn't it better that way? If we could love one another regardless of gender.

Other people so far are accepting and open as well.

...and people of the same sex can have children.

Not saying heterosexual pairing made me sick, but I just don't see this scenery every day on Earth.

It's kind of refreshing.

We booked a room on the second floor.

Gantz-san was the Innkeeper, he had a rough appearance with lots of scars and a well-built physique. Robin's the one serving us drinks

We asked Gantz-san for advice.

At first, he seems worried, probably since I'm as small as his daughter.

"It's okay, Gantz-san," I spoke, "I won't bit more than I can chew. Besides, Mitsun will protect me."

"That's the spirit. Indeed, the most important thing is to stay alive."

Gantz-san was actually soft-spoken, rather than having the hoarse, loud uncle demeanor I expect.

"What about honesty and trust?" Mitsun cupped her chin.

"Real money talks."

About the specifics like maintaining your equipment and preparing jerkies, he didn't say much.

"Aside from staying alive, anything goes. Everyone has their own way and I'm not going to say it like a fact—especially since I end up quitting."

"Why do you quit, Gantz-san?" I got curious

"Just want to settle down with my husband. Had enough money and I don't wanna worry him anymore."

"Aww..." Mitsun let out an adorable voice.

"We'd like to hear more about you guys later. Oi, come on..."

"Take care."

Gantz-san took his broom and began sweeping.

I end up dragging Mitsun away. Sure their romance might be interesting, even if I'm not into BL.

...but we got other things to do, like chilling in our room—some private time at last. I took the key from my pocket and turned the knob, with a click sound echoing throughout, it opened smoothly.

There's a cool wooden floor; we took our shoes by the mat and put them in the racks.

I flung myself straight into the comfy bed and got rather sleepy.

Mitsun was tapping the air and giggled from time to time. I didn't feel like disturbing her.

Oh right, there's Rosa and Lili.

I forgot I'm already a father, especially since they treated me like a daughter at times.

...and we look around the same age.

I opened the 'Ambassador' app and went to the twins' timeline.

"Eh..."

There's a lot of porn. Rosa posted most of them, while Lili gave detailed commentaries.

[Lumine-chan's close-up pussy, with loli cream on top, so tasty!]

[Our lesbian party. Girls of another world are so horny, yay.]

Uh...

I think I need Mitsun for relief.

Notes:

As someone who writes for hobby, I think I should treat it as a way to relax, rather than a side-project or worst of all--a job.

That's probably why I love simple plotlines with little to no stakes, slice-of-life stuff.

Chapter 16: Milking

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

On social media, Rosa posted the picture of a silver-haired anime girl in a cute ponytail.

She was tied up and she had the look of utmost ecstasy.

Lots of white, creamy stuff on her skin.

Lili wrote lots of smut, but I don't like the wall of text so I skipped it.

I might ask her to upload it later on her writing account. It had a better layout and formatting than a social media comment.

She's a pretty good Author, but she strictly wrote erotic things. All of them contain yuri and futanari.

It's basically just our real-life lewd interactions, but she kept our identities vague and the setting more down-to-earth. If she wrote the truth, it'd be less believable, I think.

Swiping up on my phone, there were also orgy pictures of cute anime monster girls.

Rosa and Lili kissing, with their tongues wrapping each other.

...and the silver-haired girl giving them a titfuck at the same time. Two hard and large loli cocks in one paizuri—I didn't see them often.

All of them made me so excited--my penis got really hard.

Mitsun waved at me, "Kaori, do you want some fuck? Hehe..."

To be honest, among all the beautiful girls I saw every day, she' kinda looks plain.

"How mean..." she pouted.

...but that's only when compared to beauties like Rosa, Lili, and the silver-haired girl—who I believe might be the Goddess.

She still had her own charm, like the beauty next-door thing. Like, the childhood friend who'd enter through the window and suck off your morning wood, while fingering your moist vagina.

To be honest, she's actually so cute.

"Aww...my loli...come here."

Spreading her arms, she patted the edge of our bed and I went to her embrace.

She got down and undid my pants; my loli rod made a swing, slapping her cheeks.

Her hand wrapped around my shaft and she started to move it from the base to tip, starting off slow. Spitting on my tip, she slathered her tongue all over, and when she looked up, with her innocent, childlike face, it made me harden even more.

"I'm digging in...my loli."

"Nn..."

Once she started to suck, all the sweet feeling enveloped my body. It made my nipples erect, and something wet started leaking—it's my breast milk.

She kept making lewd slurping and kissing sounds. Once she took out, there's a long trail of bubbly saliva, and she licked my entire length, giving me a lust-filled gaze.

"Ahnn!"

It caught me off-guard as she traced my labia.

That's right, I have a pussy as well, but when she caressed both at the same time, I couldn't bear it, especially since she looked so beautiful right now.

"Haa...haa..."

The sensation was just too much.

When she inserted her finger, it felt so good, it's like the euphoria when I was continually coming from my cock, but it wouldn't cease.

Being a futanari felt so good, I'd probably die from simulation if I was in my other form, with oversized tits and figures that made me want to jerk-off all die.

"Do you want to come?"

She stopped stroking and fingering—I could finally catch my breath.

"I want to come lots."

I end up covering my face as I laid my back; it was so hot.

Was I really a guy? I felt so feminine right now when a cute girl was gently dominating me when I'm also a girl.

"Aww...so cute...I'll milk your cock good! Do you like to come in my mouth, breasts, or pussy?"

"Umm..."

Her breasts weren't particularly huge or lewd, but they looked so good.

"I won't get pregnant even if you want to let it in, don't worry!"

She noticed me staring at her boobs for a while, "Well...technically yours are a lot bigger, and you can even titfuck yourself, but I guess it ain't the same."

I didn't even realize she's still fully clothed.

With my erection dangling, she started to slowly unbutton her shirt, revealing lacy black lingerie.

My precum started to leak again.

"Let out lots, okay?"

She brought my cock between her decent chest, while still wearing her bra. Its texture as I slid in between was a bit slippery, hot, and nice.

...but before she started pumping, I just couldn't hold it anymore.

It kept spurting all over her breasts and face, but she made no effort to stroke or suck it.

...and it felt better.

As my cock milk finally eased, that's when she started sucking.

She also pulled up my shirt and licked the white stuff on my nipples. It drenched me a lot more than I thought.

Cleaning ourselves up, we headed towards the Adventurer's Guild.

Thankfully we didn't keep going for another round. When she washed me, there's no hint of lewdness. Even when my penis was mostly erect, it eventually calmed down.

Otherwise, it'd be nightfall before we get to do anything.

Still, there's no rush. We went here to have fun and discover myself.

...but I guess, it felt better when things are done.

By then, we probably can go to brothels together and have a nice orgy.

Ey.

Notes:

I guess I took too long since I'm too focused on what will happen next and how to make it fun, when it's not even necessary.

I just have to write it like it's my personal experience, simple as that.

The more I tried to make up a scenario, the less I feel it's worth writing.

Chapter 17: Conviction

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Long story short, I registered as an Adventurer.

As a test, I was asked to spar with the instructor, a veteran B-rank.

If I could hold him off well, they'd make me a B-rank.

I stood in a fighting arena.

The instructor was a woman with large abs and muscular features.

Normally, it wasn't her, but some guy named Biggs. Seeing I was a little girl, he seemed reluctant.

This pro-wrestler woman seems eager to beat the crap out of me.

...but I wasn't confident at controlling my strength, I might accidentally kill her.

Mitsun typed in the party chat.

[Don't worry, it's just a game. Rather, try to kill her and see what happens!]

I couldn't get to that mindset easily, since the people felt so real.

Maybe it's boring to act like a good person all the time.

It's not the real world. There's no consequence to anything. Since Mitsun told me so, it shouldn't be that bad, right?

After all the cliche jibber-jabbers, she charged at me with her greatsword.

Her movement felt really slow.

If I willed it, time could stop for eternity. I probably could sleep right away.

I think it's funny if she went all serious and I summoned a banana peel on her way.

So I did that.

I deliberately made a chantless hand gesture, so the referee would see it.

As time returned to normal, the Instructor couldn't stop her charge and tripped.

The momentum was so strong, she ended up crashing through the stone walls and fell onto the streets.

"Um..."

"Winner, Kaori!" the referee raised his flag.

It'd be funny if she died from a banana peel, but she's barely hanging on, which is still funny.

It might be evil of me and I feel like a hypocrite after I empathized with the monsters, but I do hate people in general.

After becoming an Adventurer, I could download the Questing App to my phone.

With our powers, most tasks would be a walk in the park, but I was curious about the quests for low-rankers.

Will there be anything?

"Hmm..."

There are lots of escorts and material gathering. While the guild had a subjugation quest.

For those issued by outside clients, some would require the client's approval, like escort quests.

When you applied, it will pull your data and the client will review it.

No wonder why Emily's Dad has powerful escorts.

In the Isekai novels, it made the escorts pretty off, while also made sense at the same time.

Since they accept just about anyone, no wonder they'd easily get wiped out by bandits, and it not for the MC, they'd be dead already!

...but that's what these novels are about, to put ourselves in MC's shoes and let us feel awesome. Even if it seems stupid, if it works, it ain't stupid.

For material gathering, it's a race against time.

Whoever submits the material first will get paid.

Most of the materials listed were considered rare or at least uncommon.

What's interesting, there aren't any simple quests like slaying goblins, slimes, or gathering herbs.

The subjugation quests mainly list troublesome, high-ranked monsters.

As such, for low-rankers, it's mainly a venue to quickly sell the materials they find to the Guild.

I guess, stuff like goblin ears and common herbs were abundant enough, they didn't want to add extra work.

...and instead of issuing quests, they could just buy it straight from the guild.

If their stock was zero, that's when people would put up requests.

I chatted with Mitsun about monster control.

Is there nothing that prevents people from overkilling them?

[Monsters will pop up very often. Unless the main character figure appears and stirs something, the Adventurers are good.]

Speaking of which, I feel that being Adventurer isn't a stable job, especially if you're weak.

The common materials were barely worth shit, and the price might get lower and lower.

[Exactly, it's not a job for the weak or those not worthy of trust. If you can't at least pull your own weight against strong monsters, forget about making it big. Just find another work!]

That's right.

If you wanted to be stronger, you didn't become an Adventurer and continuously kill monsters, just like a game.

You become one because you're strong and wanted a taste of Adventure.

That aside, what kind of Quest will be good?

I turned to Mitsun, and she shook her head.

"Just pick anything you like!"

Hmm...

I really don't want to kill and fight monsters. I just want to travel and explore peacefully.

Why do I end up becoming an Adventurer in the first place? I feel that I committed a big mistake just because it's the template.

I shouldn't have referenced an Isekai novel for the real thing!

[You forgot one thing, Kaori! It also serves as a Universal ID, since Adventurer Guilds are everywhere in the world.

As for the Merchant Guild and others, it requires you to actually do some work—I don't think you'd like it.]

True.

Since there's no Quest Quota, you're an Adventurer as long you didn't break any major rules and most importantly—alive.

As for the rule, screw it.

Mitsun can just change them to my liking, anyway.

I was back in the Inn room, plopping myself in bed.

In the end, I don't pick any Quest.

It's not like we need money at all.

A lot of the Quest was troublesome. Have to go back and forth, braving through a lot of dangers and exhaustion, camping in shitty places, and eating dry food.

I started to feel that being Adventurer isn't as exciting as the stories.

The only good thing is the identification.

"Well, in the end, it's a job. It was wonderful in stories because it's made that way. They left out all the boring and troublesome stuff for a moment of glory.

...but that little moment makes a lot of people feel like the Chosen One. Defeating mythical creatures; exploring the deepest dungeons and uncovering mysteries of the world.

In a way, everyone who sticks for long is right.

They're the Chosen One since it's something they do best. Even their hardship is just a daily breakfast.

...but most importantly, they are free. They can travel at their own pace and with experience, pick things they can handle.

Other lines of work, like a Court Magician, don't have that freedom."

"Yeah."

"Life doesn't necessarily get easier when you're strong. They'd often chain the strongest with the most responsibility.

Because most people wanted strength. If they couldn't get them, they'd cling to use the strength of others, often by any means necessary.

Playing the moral card, like the strong should protect the weak and make the world a better place.

...and many other things."

"No wonder why some wanted to become hermits. It's a massive pain in the ass."

"...but not everyone can see that. Even the strongest might desire fame, wealth, love, and recognition.

I guess, they also don't want to be lonely. To feel that someone needs them, and their existence means something, even if they're subjected to slavery.

It makes them feel good, even if it may not be the best thing."

"Although best is kinda relative. If they genuinely felt it's the way to actualize themselves, why not?"

"Exactly, but I'm talking about my own view."

"Mmm..."

"Kaori, I don't want to be chained by anything except you."

"Ugh...so sappy."

I felt like we talked long and wide just for her to land a critical hit.

"...but you like it, eh? Hehe..."

I guess everyone had their own convictions.

For myself, I'd like to be free and happy.

...but I don't want to be lonely.

I don't want to follow a certain template anymore and just move unfettered.

I will stop asking where to go next and just follow my heart.

Mitsun gave me a light smooch.

As everything settled down, my legs finally gave in.

I just wanted to sleep together for now.

No lewd things, just two girls relaxing in bed, and sharing sweet dreams.

Goodnight.

Notes:

The chapter made me think of why I keep writing for so many years.

A lot of my most enjoyable writing consist of just a long conversation about a certain topic, that somehow wormed naturally in the current story.

I guess it's kinda strange why it gets so lewd one chapter and all philosophical in the next, but I guess it does happen.

I just want to pour my heart here. If it can make me continue writing and I enjoy it, that works.

In all honesty, I don't want to care anymore about the unfair rating bombs and scathing reviews. I don't care about making a living out of writing or publicity.

I just need a place where I feel comfortable to share my writings. It's a good load off my heart, and it's enough.

Chapter 18: A New Beginning

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

In my dream, I was reading the final chapter of 'Reality Dreamer'.

[In the end, I'm just a lazy person. If I could accomplish everything by doing nothing, I should have walked that path.

Not having to strive for anything was a breath of fresh air.

...but without my prior efforts, it won't end well.

All of my sufferings were to pave this path, where I can just forget everything and live without a care.

It happened while I was really angry at my gacha game.

I decided to quit bothering about it.

My luck became really good and my life seems so much better.

It was a huge load off my mind.

At first, life got so boring. No more things to look forward to.

...but I feel that I've done the right thing.

I no longer have to complain about life. Everything will be alright when I just ignore it.

For now, I just want to enjoy life and forget everything else.

One day, I will wake up and find that I had been living the dream all along.]

"Kaori."

Mitsun shook my shoulders.

It was comfortable and made me want to sleep again.

"If it's not important, please don't wake me."

I should assert myself. Mitsun may be an important person to me, but at this point, I don't want to stress myself over things, since I'm not alone.

"Well, I'm just curious. Why do you hate people?"

"Mmm...there's just a lot of things in people I dislike. I don't want to bother listing them one-by-one."

For things I love, it boils down to how much I wanted to fuck them or how nice they are.

If they're a mean person, I'm not sure if I wanted to fuck them.

Even if I became a girl, I don't feel any arousal toward guys.

If anything, I feel repulsive when I imagined even a bit of an intimate relationship.

On the contrary, when I was alone, I get so excited thinking about girls, especially since I'm also a girl.

I really love yuri. I would often pause and went 'kyaa' in my mind.

Of course, I was the type who hates drama. I just want a fluffy and easy-going romance.

It made me blush once more when I looked at Mitsun—this cute girl-next-door.

I totally took this yuri for granted, since I was too preoccupied with my goals.

I stopped being able to enjoy life...

"Uuu..."

"What's wrong?"

"We're totally fine, right? There's no one who could disturb our peace, yes?"

"Kaori..."

She wrapped herself around me, covered in a thick blanket.

"Yup, everyone will be fine. Forever and ever. From the first time we entered this world, you should've realized it."

"Why are you so kind to me?"

"Who wouldn't want to spoil such a cute loli...your other form is also delicious. Not to mention, your personality is so adorable...I love all of you."

"Nn..."

"Since I'm this strong, you might be worried if one day, I can do something nasty if I want to.

Just so you know, I want you to relax and let loose..."

She started to speak about the Goddess of Earth, and how she actually had nothing to do with what happened.

Like me, she had a loli form, and it's super adorable.

While she's the most beautiful loli according to Mitsun, this girl didn't like visiting her that much.

The Goddess is also incredibly perverted. Coupled with her inviting slutiness and charm, Mitsun feared it would influence her too much, I would find her gross.

I was okay as long she didn't resort to extreme fetishes like scat.

Mitsun said it wasn't the case. The Lewd Goddess might do intense plays but never extreme...

It's hard to explain for her.

She continued about my influx of powers and how my 'normal' life went.

Something woke up within me. I felt our bonds from way, way back.

From the start we met, we've always been together.

Her next words were too complicated to fathom.

...but I know, I can totally trust her, deeper than anyone else.

It's not an illusion.

I remembered it all.

No wonder I felt depressed and tired from time to time.

Now I could finally say, it's all over.

...but now is just another beginning, the road I'll take when my dream's already fulfilled.

Just like that, no climax is needed.

I was still in the Inn room, wrapped in the comfy blanket—it was made from a fluffy fur. The same with the pillows.

It had an air-conditioning magic tool.

Mitsun softly stroked my hair while humming the children's lullaby.

It's like I was back in my childhood when Mom would pamper me.

Although I had some reservations since I was a boy. Now that I became a little girl, it felt good to act as spoiled I can be.

"Can't sleep?"

"I recently dozed off."

"Mmm...it's okay, you can just lay in bed until you feel like it. It's nice to see you taking it easy."

"Well..."

"Don't be shy...I'll spoil you a lot."

I thought I'd ask her what things she wanted to do, but I stopped.

She wanted me to be selfish.

"Hug..."

She went inside my blanket.

Wrapping hands on each others' backs.

My head rested on her warm boobs.

While my penis was erect, I didn't feel like doing lewd things.

Her hands massaged my shoulders and back. I felt myself easing up, and I started to yawn.

This time, I turned my back at Mitsun and hugged the big fluffy pillow. I also wrapped both my feet and stuck my face on its surface. It had a warm smell,

She inched closer and pressed her soft boobs on my small back.

My penis made a tent once more. It's nice to brush against the pillow since my size is also big.

We stayed in that position before I want to roll around. The bed's pretty wide, while I'm small, so there's a lot of room.

Mitsun followed suit.

She looked so cute when going along with my antics.

To the edge, and back to the center. Our blankets become more and more like a giant sushi roll.

"Hehe!"

"Uuu..."

That bright smile totally melted my heart.

I guess it's nice when we don't feel fuck each other all the time.

...but for some reason, our relationship didn't feel like yuri.

While I love her since she's a cute girl, there's something that went beyond girl on girl.

Most likely since those stories depict relationships on the surface, from strangers to lovers.

When they became lovers for a long time, the notion of 'yuri' disappear.

Only people loving one another.

Of course, I still prefer girl on girl. The sensation of pressing two pairs of huge breasts, and when they grind their penis and pussy together.

"Kaori?"

"Nn..."

"If you want, I can also grow my own penis."

"Ehh..."

She made it sound like a farm product.

Maybe when we go back, we can try selling it—maybe it will yield tons of points.

...and instead of cum, it's probably better if it spurts isotonic liquid since some people are too busy to stay hydrated.

Since it's not a real dick, you probably can eat it like a sausage and it will taste like bacon.

Or maybe make a penis candy, we can also have a penis festival when we can stick our big penises together and spurt a fountain of sweet cum.

"I want to penetrate my loli!"

"Uh..."

It was awkward, but the way she blushes so hard made me pat her head.

"Ey."

"Uuu..."

While Mitsun said I'm a cute loli, she's the cinnamon roll.

I love spending time with her like this.

Yay.

Notes:

When I wrote this, I had the mindset that it's not necessary to finish what I started.

Just write whenever you want and think that of it as something you love to do.

I don't like to think too much, and that's how I end up finishing it anyway. Perhaps there might be contradictions but I'm too lazy to re-read the details.

I never think of it as a serious story. I just want to write a fluffy gay story between girls.

Chapter 19: Idleness

Notes:

This is just a long monologue, feel free to skip if you want to.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

In my life, I spent a lot of time thinking. I wish to fulfill my goal in life, which is so far-fetched.

I went through a lot of depression and hardship, so much, I don't wish to turn back time, even if I could. If I want to start all over, I'd like a new life, where I have everything.

Countless times, I was disappointed. My goal seems so far from reach, but I know I made several steps forward.

...but at this rate, it won't be enough.

I don't think working harder will solve anything, because I don't want to work, just play.

That's when I realize my fascination with autoplay games. I could just leave them doing the boring, repetitive shit, and progress while I was doing other things.

Also, I believe the most vital part of human life isn't one that requires conscious effort.

Most of us can breathe without conscious effort. When we're doing other things, our cells work on maintaining our well-being, without needing any instructions. It's all automatic.

The ultimate power is definitely those that work unconsciously and permanently. That way, I can work on my goals all the time, without even trying to.

In the end, all I have to do is just intoxicate myself. Only focus on the things I love and forget my goals entirely.

Everything will definitely work out this time. I don't have to do anything anymore to survive.

Trying anymore is useless since I'm tired.

I have already tried my hardest for the past thirty years. I want to finally have a good night's rest.

I want to get my mind drunk and let myself be stupid and clueless. Not having to think anymore, just for fun.

I don't think I'm ruining my own life, because resting is always important.

Sometimes I just worry: what if things go wrong somehow?

Nah, it's already the absolute best outcome.

The power of idleness is the most superior out there.

Whatever happens, it's already perfect.

All that's left is just intoxicating myself. With all the fun, pleasure, and love I want. All the pleasant sensations throughout my body.

I don't have to think whether I said makes sense anymore.

If I had one regret, I guess it's for being born in this world. Where the only way out is working with someone else—who could betray you at any time.

Humans are so weak. I just don't want to be human anymore.

I want to be a God.

That way, I can just live on my own, and fulfill my desires without others.

I don't like people and I'm tired of their judgment, on how they always restrained me from saying what I really think.

They definitely will try to use it against me in the future, and I can't be bothered with that.

It'd be nice if everyone that goes against me will be removed from my life. I don't wish to deal with any more enemies, I'm exhausted.

Not just people, but all those annoying critters like mosquitoes, rats, those kinda things.

Rainstorms, sudden blackouts, shitty internet.

It's nice thinking all of these will just disappear.

Nah, there's no turning back for me. This is my path.

I'd rather ruin the rest of my life if I can be alive.

Everything else is just asking me to die, and I don't like death.

I prefer to live forever, the way I want to.

I won't be lonely anymore, since I only rely on things eternal.

...but if I could, I want someone who'd accept me as I am. Someone who won't judge me, and will listen to me.

Someone whom I could trust my everything

In my entire life, I feel that I'm always alone. In the end, no one can match my standards.

I don't wish to compromise myself and be a better person for them.

I don't wish to 'grow up' the way they want.

I just wish for that special one to accept me like I'm already perfect—even if I know I'm not.

In the end, I don't have to learn anything, aside from things I like.

Any stranger who disagrees with me will disappear. Only that person, who accepts me and understands me, has the right to tell that I'm wrong.

I know, that I'm not always right.

...but as someone who wishes to disregard society at large, it doesn't matter anymore.

I will just assume that now, I have all the powers I need.

If there is no one, just create them.

Just remake everything to my liking.

What is real, and what is fake?

Isn't it beautiful, if my world is filled with things I love?

Isn't it nice, if everything is perfect?

No one can tell me it's wrong, unless they have experienced a perfect world, and they're an omnipotent god.

A mere human like them can only assume current reality as an absolute, no wonder they are weak.

I believe in infinite universes and a vast expanse of knowledge. The current science isn't the end, and it's probably not the whole truth.

Whatever humans learned, is most likely the nonsense that Gods wanted them to learn. Since their bullshit can become the laws of nature, even if no one likes it.

Let's call this vast knowledge the [Akashic Record] because it sounds cool.

As long you know what you want, you can tap the appropriate knowledge.

This time, I don't want power anymore.

I just want to rest and make everything alright, just by doing nothing.

Perhaps, tonight will be my last day as a mere human.

Or in the first place, I was never a human being, just someone who wore human skin and was forced to be one.

If tomorrow, I will still wake up and have to work like always, and nothing has changed—it's no longer my business.

All in all, it's already perfect, and it's definitely much better than what I can do alone.

No matter what happens, my life is the greatest masterpiece of all, because it's my own life, my only life.

...and this time, I know, even if I'm wrong—it's right to believe, that I'll always live forever, and nothing can stand in my way.

I am supreme.

Whatever wrong, will be right.

Whatever right, deserves a thumbs up.

Notes:

Took me a while to finally get things right.

Honestly, I don't understand the story, but I had fun when it just comes together as I wrote them.

Chapter 20: The Joy of Futanari

Notes:

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I want to be extremely unreasonable.

That's right.

I read that's what best friends are for. Hadn't had one for my entire life and I was wondering why life was so difficult and complicated.

Best friends will never leave you alone and will always be with you through thick and thin. There's no need for any pretense.

They hate all of that bullshit and want to see the real you, at all times.

Since I don't have one, I will just pretend they exist in my head. That's why I sometimes heard voices of a cute young girl, calling, "My loli..." quite often.

Honestly, being a guy or girl sucks. I always want to be a futanari. It doesn't feel right if there's no dick and pussy.

I want to wake up to my massive boobs and huge erection, with my girlfriend beside me.

I really like it when the stories depict them as actual people instead of brainless sex maniacs. I want to believe they are real and one day, I can be one as well.

I think the voice in my head is not a mental illness. It's only one if it makes me self-destructive, while I'm actually aiming for a better life, even if it's not considered realistic.

Just because they're not proven real, doesn't mean they won't be real forever. Perhaps the fault is in my weak mortal sense.

I'd like to believe, that girl is always here. I can be as unreasonable as I want.

That I will never suffer alone and I'll never be alone anymore. My life will always be filled with love and happiness.

...but the most important thing is always safety. While it's not as intense and happy as a futanari love, it's the greatest foundation of all. There's no need to worry the happiness can be taken away at any time, and I can focus on being myself, like the futanari I want to be.

I had always been a passive person. I don't wish to change and mature because people told me to. I don't wish to better myself to survive. I prefer if I had people who'd do things for me to achieve my goals, while I could just laze around forever.

...and wouldn't it be nice if I could contact them through my mind? Within the vast expanse, there'd gotta be an omnipotent being or two who'd be happy to do things for me, for the sake of doing it.

I had nothing I can offer besides lewd sex if they're a cute girl. I really love sex, even if all I could do is tugging my penis.

That with their power, everything is solved in one go. I'd get to live in my ideal world, and they'd be my girlfriends. We'd do each other until we're satisfied.

If there's an obstacle, I'd contact those willing to destroy it, with the cost I'm happy to provide.

Perhaps, as I was typing all of this, I wouldn't realize it's already over. I became a futanari and able to have lewd sex anytime I want. Not just that, I'd like to know the girls I love.

I want to know their interest and talk about perverted things. Perhaps go on dates and holidays.

I feel that I'm going in the right direction, since there's this cool yet warm energy seeping into me, filling me with power.

It's just, that I probably wouldn't be able to handle it if tomorrow, I'm still the old me and I have to go to work again.

It had been a truly tiring time, and it's only due to a week of break, I was able to gather my thoughts.

This time, I really don't want to fail.

I really want to wake up as a futanari girl, or even better, have everything changing this instant.

While I just know they are working for my own sake, I'm always afraid it will take too long, I started to lose my trust. If they're omnipotent, why can't they do it right now?

Perhaps the problem came with me.

Perhaps, I'm my own worst enemy.

As the cool currents enveloped me, I thought about lowering my resistance, accepting that feeling more and more.

To be said, I remember a few days back, the internet connection was so bad. I was unable to browse anything without mobile data.

I thought everyone—those fucking gods—just wants to bully me every single time, even though didn't do anything wrong.

That's when the girl finally said to me, "There's no proof others are bullying you."

She asked me if it's better to have no enemies or to bring justice to all your enemies.

Of course, it's better to have no enemies. If someone is truly strong, they can eliminate them from even existing in their world. There is no need for conflict when there's absolute suppression.

She told me to forgive myself and everyone. That this world can be friendly and accepting.

That whatever bad things out there, it doesn't actually exist. I was just torturing myself. Because I was actually strong but had no knowledge or wisdom, it backfired on me.

From that point on, my home internet was mostly good.

With that logic, it's probably just a matter of time.

Back then, I told her to keep me in check. If things prove destructive for me, she will prevent it from happening, even if it was something I deeply desired.

I will let go of my resistance and try to become one with those I trust.

Become one with the girl I could be unreasonable with.

I still had one regret, that I wasn't able to provide a good life for my parents, and they still have to work when others already retired.

Sometimes, I wish for her to enter my life and turn me into her girl. I want her to take charge and explain everything.

...but I know, that I know so little about the vast expanse and I'm so weak, to actually know what's best.

I could only fill my mind with lewd thoughts.

That's why I'm going to rely on others again.

No matter what happened, the world is on my side.

...and while my body was still the old me, my soul can take any form I want.

I can always be a futanari girl inside.

The power started to flow at a rapid rate.

For a long time, I could imagine having a pussy and feeling a girl's penis inside me, even though I never had them in real life.

Entering their pussy, licking it, and rubbing their boobs.

I could imagine my big boobs and various lingeries to stimulate myself, when I stroke my cock and stirred my pussy.

It felt so real when the girl kissed me and did lewd things with me.

It was really strange.

Perhaps, all along, I was already a futanari.

...and it's just a matter of accepting myself.

No wonder I could no longer relate to yuri and het stories.

I'm actually a futanari. I even know how I look like, inside my mind. I could feel myself up, and it made my penis so hard, especially when I tried looking at the mirror in my mind.

...but how do I really prove it to myself?

How do I break through?

I want all the knowledge I can find, please answer me...I don't want to be in the dark forever.

I want to know how it was truly the best for me...

My girl...

Help me!

There's a different warmth, and I know she's here.

I really want to know.

"Kaori," her soft voice rang in my ears, "You've already done the right thing, and I'm proud of you."

"As for the knowledge, like all true knowledge—it's always ready when the student is."

How can I make myself ready?

"You know it all along. After all, you always tried to live at your own pace. For the time being, you know your soul is a futanari. We can have fun anytime and it will feel much better than a physical body."

...but my work, my job...

"Remember what you've realized today. Don't you think it's better to live without enemies?"

Yes, I want to be able to fuck everyone, not kill them.

I prefer to turn them into girls of my fetish and be happy.

"Good girl, hehe."

I may not know what happened from now on. Maybe I'll stay this way until I died of old age.

...but my soul is always a futanari, and I'm happy to finally accept it.

Notes:

I think this is a wrap for now, I might continue the loli's journey in another world next time.

After finishing this chapter, I feel that I'm more comfortable on writing the lewd scenes for some reason.

Chapter 21: Awaken

Notes:

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At first, I was thinking—why should I tell her to keep me in check?

If I'm powerful enough, can I just reverse everything?

...but I realize, I'm not strong. Right now, I'm just a weak human.

If I'm actually capable, I can just accomplish it with my own hands, instead of having to wish deeply for it.

I'm going to start by trying to absorb [Divine Energy] just like when people start to refine Qi in cultivation novels. It will transform my very being. I will find the way that works best for me.

I believe it's a matter of time before I reached divinity.

I can have any kind of body I want, and live the way I like—but that doesn't mean there is absolute freedom.

No matter how powerful I become, there's going to be someone much stronger, and if I couldn't keep my hands, something horrible might happen to me, on a scale much worse than what a mere human could bear.

Of course, it's not like I couldn't fulfill all my desires without restraint.

There's time and place for everything.

...and when I became a God—what if I could create a realistic simulation of everything? That way, no matter what horrible things I do, I wouldn't be bound by karma.

I could manifest my desires and actualize myself to its fullest.

At this point, I think I'm perfectly reasonable. I'm basically just playing a game without trying to actually hurt anyone.

If they wouldn't allow me to do it, then—I'm going to fight back.

I'm going to fight for what I think is right.

I'm going to become stronger and stronger, that nobody can stomp on me whenever they like.

...and I hope, I'm not alone in this regard.

I know I'm not strong, but I don't wish for anyone stronger to do anything they please.

I wonder how, I can eventually become the strongest—so I can wear my beliefs in pride?

So no one would be able to bully me?

"It's okay," she said, "Don't think too far away, focus on what you can. You might lose once or twice, but no one can take away your dignity unless you allow them.

...but don't worry too much. They become Gods for a reason. They knew that each of their actions was kept in check by a higher power—to ensure the stability of vast expanse as a whole."

When did all of it start?

I guess it began when I have a different idea about death.

A lot of people said that the meaning of life is death.

I think it's a piece of shit.

People are just glorifying this thing to make themselves feel better because no one was known to ever escape it.

I don't want to ever die.

I don't trust whoever is behind all this. Thinking that they knew me better.

They are not me, and it doesn't help me a single bit at all.

They are just forcing their way into me, and I couldn't even do shit, because I'm just a weak human.

Suffer in eternity in Hell, or be imprisoned in Heaven—or even reincarnate as something I never wished for in the first place?

I don't think they will ever try to help me. My existence is most likely just for amusement, the same as every other human in this world.

...and the way they rationalize that dying is okay, I feel sick.

It's just giving up.

I wonder why do I think this way?

Because it's the destiny they paved for me?

Otherwise, I'd probably just be content about my mortality.

In the end, is it through my own effort, or because whoever's in charge of my life allows it or not?

I guess it's probably the effect of [Divine Energy].

I mean, I wouldn't be frustrated in the first place if there's absolutely no hope.

The way this cool and breezy, yet warm feeling revitalizes my entire flesh, making me feel a lot stronger—I feel I've crossed the boundary of humanity.

When I realized once more, it's not that I was no longer human.

I was just becoming more human than others.

I wish to realize my desires and decide my own fate.

...and now, I will internalize everything and make it simple and natural for myself.

The most important thing isn't to look at the stars, but my own feet, my current reality.

I know my destination, but not how to get there.

All I have right now is my own feet.

That's why, I'm going to focus on what I currently have, and I know, this is going to be the moment.

Whether I end up from my own effort, or because someone helped me—it's not important. I just wanted to get there. As long it doesn't deeply violate my beliefs, I'll gladly take that chance.

If there's no more, I'll just make one.

For me, there's only this path in life.

Godhood! Immortality!

While I still had the chance to say this, I'm going to say it.

I'm a God, I'm immortal!

...and I want to be a futanari!

I want to fuck my girls every single moment!

I want to have fun every day and not having to worry about anything!

I want to read the ending of Berserk and Hunter x Hunter! Watch the second season of No Game No Life!

I want Rem to be the main girl, not Emilia!

Uh...

Oh yeah, there's also the true ending of Reverend Insanity--stupid ban.

"Nn..."

There have been so many things happening in my mind.

When I woke up and saw my loli body, I felt like my current life is a dream.

Like, for the longest time, I had been a mere human, until I opened my eyes.

Mitsun hugged her chair and giving her a smug smile.

I went to the window and saw the scenery of a modernized medieval Isekai.

"Welcome back, Kaori!" her warm voice seem to ring throughout my body, "What do you want to do now?"

Of course, in Isekai, there are a lot of things I want to do.

For now, I want to start by traveling the world and enjoying different kinds of hospitality.

I'd like to experience this world as much as I can.

As someone who never really bothered going out, it was truly a special moment.

"Mitsun, have I really become a God?"

"No idea, but no matter what, you're always my loli."

"Even if turned into an Onee-san with massive tits and cock?"

"Yup, you'll always be my cute loli."

"Mmm..."

It was already nighttime, but not too late. People of various races and outfits wandered around the streets, and the lights were lively.

"For now, let's have dinner! I wonder what Gantz-san will have..."

Gantz-san?

Ah, the Innkeeper. I think the waiter is called Robin?

Of course...no matter the place, it's always pleasant to eat delicious meals.

While my previous life wasn't that nice, at least the food was good.

...and it made me remember how joyful eating was.

Thanks for the meal!

Notes:

To be honest, I never really cared about storywriting. I just wrote everything like it's my own journey.

Just like telling my personal story.

Even though it doesn't really happen, it's nice to feel that it's real. When I think about storywriting, it's like I'm trying to embellish this genuine experience, and I hate it.

Deep down, I wish that Kaori's happy moments will happen to me as well. I think being a futa loli in the right world and company is such a joyful thing.

But I guess this is kind of a wish-fulfillment story for a reason, eh?

In any case, I feel like a lot of weight off my shoulders. I will just write the next chapters according to mood. Maybe a bit more nonsensical than the rest. I hope I can write fulfilling things for myself :D

Chapter 22: Being a girl is only important when I'm horny

Notes:

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Sometimes, I just wonder—how did I get to this point?

How did I end up achieving my goals?

Actually, I didn't do anything special.

It was never about hard work or perseverance, but honesty.

...but most important of all is being stupid and insane.

Otherwise, I won't ever think up the things that actually work, despite not making the slightest sense.

If there's any regret, I guess I never feel that I am an appreciated artist.

I always thought that I had a lot of brilliant ideas that can revolutionize the world, but no one could understand me. No one was willing to give me a hand, so I could only do things my own way.

All in all, I just want someone to listen to me because I had a lot of things to say, but no one was willing to.

I'm kind of lonely and I think I could no longer make friends with other humans.

If I'm successful, I can be with people who actually appreciate my efforts and existence. Someone I could fully trust, and confide in my innermost thoughts.

What I want the most? I think a listener.

I have a lot of things I want to say, and I'm sure it's great.

I'm kinda tired of writing wish-fulfillment stories. After all, it doesn't matter if it can't fulfill any of my wishes in real life.

Disappointment always occurs when my expectation doesn't match up with the intended result.

In between my frustration, a crazy idea came to me.

What if I keep my desires as desires, and only see the truth. It may or may not be fulfilled, but those desires are true, no matter what.

Instead of trying to fulfill it, can't I focus on those wants alone? Understand it, get closer to it.

In a way, the best way to fulfill my wish is to not try at all. Just living in the present, and feel I'm truly here.

Forget about the past pains and future worries. I am just listening to myself, as I spoke the truth.

I don't expect anything anymore. I'm just seeing things as they are.

It is reality, and it's ever-changing. Whatever form it may take, it's not my problem.

Its current form is my daily life, an ordinary life.

...and these energies seem to well up so strongly. It's like, with every moment, I went to a higher state.

It's like, with a thought, the world can be whatever I want.

What kind of world do I wish to live in? I can list off a lot of things, but right now, I just want to feel comfortable.

Perhaps to live in a perfect world, I simply just think my world is already perfect.

It's alright.

It's comfortable.

There's a large fishcake in front of me, with a bowl of vinegar, emanating a spicy and sweet smell.

While normally there's a lot of adventurers, it's just Mitsun, Gantz-san, and Robin-san right now.

Mitsun sliced a large portion, revealing a creamy crust with succulent eggs.

"Ahh..."

"Mmm..."

With a fork, she dipped it on the vinegar bowl and rolled it. The egg and fishcake bits were scattered on the black surface. Its spicy, burning sensation wafted through my nostrils. It's a pleasant kind of hot, like inhaling menthol oil.

The sounds of candlelight and the crackling of the fireplace, in this unusually quiet night—it was so comfy.

I couldn't stop rolling my tongue as I savored the fishcake. Not only its texture so creamy and meaty, but the vinegar's also rich and yummy.

"Nn."

Mitsun took a handkerchief and wiped my cheeks, and continue feeding me another large piece.

Despite my small mouth, it's easy enough to swallow and chew.

This time, Gantz-san brought us a cheesecake. He chewed on bubblegum and turned on the television. It's just right beside the entrance. He stood behind the bar counter, pouring himself a mixed blend. Two different colors and a vigorous shake, adding a pint of lemon juice and the stylish clinking of ice cubes, filled to the brim.

He drank it all in a single shot, and his complexion went red instantly. Robin wrapped a blanket on him, and both focused on the current program.

It was an anime music video.

A girl in gothic lolita style sang about wanting to be a girl. Her voice was really cute. Her silver twintail hair twirling with her steps, and her innocent expression made me want to hug her.

The tunes were so catchy and happy.

I don't really like the lyrics.

It sounds kinda naive. Like wanting to become the heroine in fairy tales and do cute, girly things.

I don't like fairy tales unless it's the setting of a girl x girl vanilla hentai.

Mitsun took a hand mirror, and I could only see a cute little girl.

...but I actually was never into girly stuff.

I love being a girl since it made me horny. When I think of putting on those cute clothes and lingerie, I didn't think of acting cute and girly—I want to fondle my breasts, stroke my penis, and finger my pussy.

I got even more excited when I thought of lewding another girl, as a girl.

I just couldn't get as horny when I was a guy. There's just something in them that killed my lust. That's why I prefer my hentai without any guys at all. Just a couple of happy lesbians with moe vibes and fat cocks.

...but after that, I don't want to feel any more different. I just want to be myself, no matter if I became a cute loli or onee-san with a lewd body. To hell with social norms. Most of all, I hate getting hooked on by those disgusting guys, I want to erase each one of them from my life.

Not that I ever met them, thankfully.

Still, it's a nice song. If I didn't take the lyrics too seriously, I could relate to the protagonist's excitement about becoming a girl.

"Jou-chan," Gantz-san hoarse voice woke me from my thoughts, "Actually, this hit song is based on a true story. You may not know it since you're not around here. Although rare, it does happen."

"Is it the Goddess' blessing?"

I noticed that some of the lyrics seem like pleading to the heavens.

"Yes. You might have noticed, this city has a lot more girls than boys."

Robin drank his mineral water and tuned in to the news. Basically clickbait, not important, and repetitive.

"You might have noticed our daughter—it's actually our biological daughter. Robin was pregnant for a week, and he safely delivered Lotte on the temple."

Normally, I would have gone 'wtf' but Gantz-san's heartwarming expression made me think—everything's possible in a fantasy world.

The next thing I notice, Mitsun already finished the whole cheesecake and gave me a thumbs-up.

There's still a crumb on the corner of her lips, so I nudged it with my tiny fingers and gave a taste.

"My..."

What a weird way to blush.

"Mmm...the sweet rum and crunchy beef floss are nice."

"Thanks, I'm proud of this recipe," Gantz-san coughed, "Out there, pregnancy lasts for nine months and ten days, coupled with immense pain and difficulty on childbirth. People can only have children of the opposite sex. I don't think it makes sense.

I want to be with him, no matter what. It's not my choice, that I love him. It's what I really felt at that time."

Robin covered his face with a newspaper.

"The Goddess is all-powerful. What's not possible for others, can be true when you believe in her.

It's also written in the scripture, most children born this way will be girls because of Her Holiness' preference. For us, it doesn't matter. We just want another person to pour my love into."

Mitsun showed her phone, and the same music video from before played.

"The Goddess' preferences can be quite peculiar. Some of the most beautiful girls in history were actually a man.

...and all of them happen to keep their, uh...stuff. A lot of them achieved great things in this Kingdom, and now, Futanari is a status symbol, higher than even nobility."

I'm grateful I didn't drink anything right now.

"What about the others who wanted to be a girl?"

I mean, not everyone would be happy with their penis. Some wanted to just keep their clit and pussy.

"They can just turn it off, and use it if they want to. No biggie."

"Uh..."

This conversation's draining my sanity. Even Robin spat out his drink.

Though, there's one thing I didn't understand.

"...but why only the Goddess care about us?"

Why would the other religions make it hard for everyone in comparison?

"It's simple, because she can, and she wants to. I followed other religions from birth and they want us to submit in our hearts and let their dogma chain us, while here, I truly regret I didn't know better.

The Goddess never asked us to submit, but treat us like best friends. Casually say our troubles and confess our worries. If you're qualified, you can also become her lover, and receive a lot of blessings."

Later on, Mitsun told me the truth.

Of course, things weren't that simple.

It became like this since Lumine held the highest seat of the Gods, and able to influence the world to her liking, and she dominates so hard, everyone else became her harem.

Even those originally boys became cute girls.

Lumine herself is a beautiful futanari who's a bit masochistic and really horny. She also loves yuri a bit too much.

It's now the most dominant religion in the world, by a huge margin. Others slowly died out, and it's only due to her mercy, she didn't erase them completely.

The next morning, there's a beep on my phone.

It's from Lumine herself. Rosa and Lili added us to a weird horny group, and this girl was in it.

The username is Ordinary Girl Lumi.

Probably inspired by Kirisame Marisa.

She wrote, "Father-in-law, I'm horny."

I could only say, "Ahoy," and go back to sleep.

I originally woke up just to check on my waifu games anyway.

...but why do I feel something wet and warm on my cock?

Forget it, probably Mitsun again.

Notes:

Yeah, it's kinda inspired by Mafumafu's I want to be a girl song.

I feel that I write best when I didn't force myself to make any sense at all. Whatever I feel like writing, just write it, even if I forget everything I wrote in the previous chapter..

Chapter 23: Welcome Home

Notes:

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In the end, I was wondering—who are you?

Why are you so close to me, and why do I love you so much?

Like, you possess such amazing power that can get me out of all mess.

Are you God?

Did I actually become God's yuri wife?

Suddenly, I got so scared. That her next words could instantly kill me.

After all, I'm just a mere human.

"So what if I am? I love my loli, no matter what. Do you love me only because of my powers?"

No...

First of all, you've always been unreliable.

"Sniff...so cruel, but I'm aroused."

Actually, I love you since you're the only one who could listen to me.

I'm really sorry since I cursed on you and hate you for all the bad things, without actually knowing yourself personally.

"What's with the formal speech? Come on, let's be besties as usual...I hate this stiffness."

...but at least I know you're real.

You're not just a figment of my imagination.

"Don't say that. Your loli self is real as well."

I know.

"You might want to ask. If I'm God, why do you keep being stuck in that form for such a long time? Why do you need to suffer? Of course, you don't need to experience any of them, if you have strength."

Tell me, wife.

"Now that's the spirit. Since you're my loli, I want you to be strong—I really love strong people. Actually, I came to you since your Father's death since you've cursed me so loudly I couldn't help but go. I know you had more potential than anyone else, and I came to love you, even when you're a guy.

...and when you had shown obsession of being a little girl, it made me a lolicon. It's all your fault...you're just too cute."

Uuu...

Well, get to the point, please.

"Well...right now, I told you my identity since you're already strong enough. Just do the usual with me, and you'll definitely be a God as well!"

"Lewd things?"

"Boo...what a lewd loli. I mean, you can just talk to me about your favorite games and anime. I want to know more about you..."

"Nn..."

It was so anti-climatic.

I thought I was never a religious person.

...but I end up doing yuri with God herself...

"Umm...please don't pull that God card too much. It made me feel so awkward. Just treat me like a normal girl..."

"M'kay."

"There, there...I'll give you a candy. Good girl."

I think I had such an amazing dream, where Mitsun revealed something incredible.

No, I remembered correctly.

I guess she just enjoys being human that much. I guess it made sense since she's always been a God.

That to be said, my penis felt rather refreshed today. It's like she already milked so much...

Come to think of it, doing perverted things with her felt so wrong now.

"My loli, have a good sleep?"

Speak of the devil.

No, that's not right...

As I saw her smug face, I made a prayer sign while speaking in a deep voice, "Ave Satanas."

"Uh...my loli?"

"Yeah, to think the last thing, and the most important thing is your actual identity."

"I'm just a normal girl next door who loves lolis."

Oh well, this is fine.

"I love you too."

I pecked her cheek.

"Ey...wuv you, Kaori..."

She gave me a french kiss, despite not being French.

Come to think of it, we just spent our first night in another world, and it felt like forever.

I opened the curtains and saw the scenery of a Fantasy world, despite living in an air-conditioned room. Even now, it's running at full blast, my legs almost got cramps.

Now, what should I do?

Personally, I was never really an outdoors person.

Perhaps, I can just laze around at the Inn and treat it like my second home.

I'll go out when Mitsun wanted a date.

"Here," she handed me a glass of water.

She also turned off the air conditioner and prepared the hot bath with just a flick.

This bath hits different, now I could lay on her soft boobs while basking on the tub. It's also nice when she added a massage when she soaped my entire body.

She didn't deliberately try to fondle me. It felt motherly for some reason.

Checking the social media, my daughter-in-law posted again, along with my cute daughters.

Mitsun wrapped me in a small towel and my erection was in the open.

[Father-in-law. My pussy is about to explode.]

[Daddy, this village girl is too lewd. Is she a lolicon succubus? It's so scary, but she's so hot, like a grandfather.]

[Who are you calling grandfather! Eh, your grandpa is a hot girl?]

[She got really nice boobs. Daddy love to drink them since he's a child, now she became such a cute loli.]

[Yum, I can be your grandpa as well, Rosa-chan.]

[No, you need to have bigger boobs and a penis! Plus, you're originally a girl, you can be a grandma.]

[Can't a girl be your grandpa?]

[Hmm...grandpa is grandpa, I don't feel like having another one. I never lewd grandma so you can do.]

[Don't mind her, Lumine-san. Father, it seems you're quite free—why don't you visit us next?]

"Hmm..."

Is there really anything special in this city?

It's kind of a generic fantasy town, but I do feel at home.

I guess I do enjoy the company of Gantz-san and the others. The food's also quite good.

I wanted to buy a house and decorate it to my liking, also to fulfill my millennial dreams.

It might be a bit too much since it's just one day.

...but first, Mitsun brought me for breakfast downstairs.

It was really lively yesterday noon, but it's so cozy right now.

I saw the Orc who sold the skewers yesterday. He came to Gantz-san with a bag of meat.

"Oh, Jou-chan, morning."

"Morning."

He just waved at us before going back out.

I saw Lotte-chan bringing the dishes over.

"Hello."

She immediately yelped and hid behind the chair, but I could still see her huge erection.

With several deep breaths, it calmed down.

Gantz-san chuckled and handed us a large tray containing a hamburger and fries. It also has chilled root beer and steaming chicken soup.

"Is it okay to eat this so early? Didn't you folks usually eat bread?"

"Now now, it's not like you couldn't get fat anyways," Mitsun went smugly, "This is youth, we should enjoy it while we could!"

At least this ain't a shitty fast food restaurant on Earth. You can trust at least one of them had natural ingredients.

"It's not our usual either, this lady just ordered it for you. I knew you could eat a ton."

I love to eat my hamburgers with tomato ketchup. Since the bun was too tall, I just divide half of the meat so it'd fit into my mouth. I'd place the rest into the plate and ate them separately.

"Nn..."

The meat's texture was so rich and yummy.

Mitsun didn't even bat an eye when I dumped the chicken soup on the leftover burger meats, eating them with a spoon and fork.

I also add some squeezed chili juice to the root beer for some 'Mexican' taste, along with several pints of lime. Add few bits of powdered mint herb.

"Ahh...it hits the spot."

Mitsun was about to stop me when I was about to mix alcohol into it.

Gantz-san also had a bit of a headache.

"We're thinking of buying a house. It feels so pleasant to live in here."

Ideally, it'd be somewhere close to Gantz-san, so we could eat delicious meals every day.

He shook his head, "Unfortunately, most of the land around here is sold o--"

"I happen to own the land right here," Mitsun took out a deed outta thin air.

No one seems to give a damn.

With another flick, the buildings seem to spread apart, like trying to make space for a medium plot of land.

The next moment, a modern-styled home appeared from thin air, along with the fish pond and garden. It's exactly like where I lived in my previous life.

My precious home, where my father once lived.

...but now, she's reborn as a happy futanari girl. She no longer has to exert herself on working, unless it's something she loves.

My mother no longer has to be angry at me and can focus on being a cozy housewife.

I was a lot closer to my little sister as well.

Once again, no one bat an eye. As expected from God herself...

"Shh...don't cry. I know it's someplace important for you, so I want to make you happy."

Her arms wrapped around me.

Even if I wanted to cry, I still end up finishing the hamburger.

"Thank you..."

"No, I'm sorry...I just want to make up for all the sadness I caused. You're my sweet girl now."

Everything seems to stop in time until we went outside.

The townspeople simply went on their way, when they saw this large two-story concrete house.

Standing in front of the gate, she spread her arms wide:

"Welcome home!"

Notes:

It made me rethink about writing the Fantasy and Adventure genre.

I prefer writing places that made me think of home, instead of amazing and exciting ones.

All of those doesn't matter without the homely warmth that makes me feel that I'm back where I belong.

Chapter 24: Love Nest

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

"I want you to walk on your own. I know you have what it takes, my loli. When you reached that point, I will spoil you as much as you want. I really want to do it now, but I'll hold on, for your sake."

Deep down, I wanted everything to go my way. I had enough disappointments and I couldn't hold on anymore.

"If I couldn't understand the concept of [Domain] today, please take my life."

There's no point in living if life can't be whatever I want.

I understood [Domain] as a place where you'd feel the most ease, and you know everything will always be right.

Reality sucks and that's why I'm going to create my own. I prefer when things were completely under control.

It was similar to why I dabbled in Art. I know I could create something more suited for myself alone.

A lot of popular works had this problem. It was created for everyone else but myself. Even if I had to put extra effort, it's definitely worth it.

I just did it for myself, because no one else could.

In regards to [Domain, I no longer have to hold back on my desires. I would feel eternally satisfied, no matter how greedy and unreasonable my wishes are.

I knew it's totally possible.

Because God herself said so?

Not really.

It's because, after that moment, I'm still alive.

It was my childhood home.

There's the usual dirt floor and my father's old sedan. The large fishing pond was just as I remembered.

The sofas in the living room were covered in dusty plastic.

...but the most nostalgic place is my room on the second floor. I slept on the ground with a spring-bed with cardboards beneath. I used a CRT monitor and a shitty dial-up connection. Though I admit, its beeping sound was a total fire.

My PC didn't even have a tower. It was just the motherboard and wires atop a sponge. I would power it up by using my pen at the jumper.

My cupboard had all my old manga; its pages already yellow. One of them was the robot cat story I really love back then. He would aid our helpless protagonist with his godlike tools, which often end up in hilarity since the main character always screwed up.

The story is really good. Even if Dora-chan had no powers, I'd still love to be his best friend.

I often thought, if I were the main character, I could be an all-powerful God with Dora-chan's help. I would convince him to make me stronger, so the world will be a much better place.

There were several combinations in his tools that are heavily abusable. Such as the bank and the time blanket.

...and I don't remember any explanation about how he got the tools in the first place. I think that Dora-chan is actually a God who hid in a robot cat's body. He happened to encounter the main character's descendant plea and went back in time.

Although, I don't think that's how time travel works since the butterfly effect was pretty much nonexistent.

It's more plausible to say it's a parallel world, similar to Isekai. What happened in MC's time shouldn't affect the descendant's life.

The other place would be the balcony, we would usually dry clothes in the back area. I love to sunbathe in here and since the place had lots of room, I'd walk back and forth for inspiration.

It's quite weird though.

As I looked down, it's a completely different scenery. Usually, there's the row of smaller houses down there and the annoying voice of neighborhood kids.

...but now it's a Fantasy town. With guards clad in armor, occasional carriages, and a strong presence of mana.

This place was also quite loud compared to back then. It'd be even worse if they gathered around this place.

All that aside, I wasn't sure about decorating.

"Let's go back to Gantz-san first."

Mitsun returned our room keys. We planned to stay for a while but didn't expect it would be so soon.

Gantz-san told me we could come and eat anytime we like, for a while.

"Do you really want to re-decorate it, though? Isn't it fine to keep it for nostalgia's sake?"

"No."

It's different now. I wanted to move on.

My family and I were in a much better place.

Plus, I don't think I can stand using a dial-up connection and an old Pentium PC.

While Father worked so hard painting this house and decorating it, I'm sure she won't mind it anymore.

She'd probably too busy fondling her boobs while consoling her fellow futanari, with Mom milking her all day.

First of all, Mitsun divided things that need changing.

I guess it's the color.

Despite being a nostalgic place, the house looks really boring and a bit depressing with only white paint and tiles.

The dirt floor also didn't add anything to the aesthetic.

Mitsun suggested a grey granite for the exterior, giving the sensation of a sturdy mountain home. It had several runic engravings that would emit a soft glow from time to time, I already like it so much.

Also, change the rough dirt into grass soil and fill the pond with a crystal-clear liquid. She also installed a bamboo pump. The linoleum tiles changed for wooden plank floors.

As for the fishes, I decide not to raise them. I couldn't really care for animals that well, since I wanted to be lazy and forget troublesome things.

Mitsun added colorful flower petals, like the lotus. The water would appear from the pump, with the calming 'bonk, bonk' noise, forming soft ripples on the surface.

Its visage was so relaxing. I could totally pull a rocking chair and sip green tea—so we added that.

My girl also changed the plants. Moving them outta pots and right into the grasses.

The other gate's also unnecessary so we dedicate the area to plant colorful fruit trees.

...and there I noticed more eyes gazing over there. I guess people didn't really look there since the house was so boring.

Several of them happen to be Elves, and they nodded in approval.

"Were we going for Elven-style architecture?"

I took several deep breaths and felt the quality of mana in this place was really amazing.

I could probably spend hours just walking back and forth since it already made me feel so good.

"More like Neo-Elven, since we're not mainly using wood. Classical Elven style would need us to work on a particular giant tree, so most of the focus would be on the interior.

Our style would be incorporating the aspects of nature to our livelihood, painting a harmonious scenery filled with life and tranquility."

"I like that philosophy."

All that's left was the interior...

"What about the security, though?"

"I already installed several magic arrays. It should be fine."

Basically, we're going for the 'nature' feel.

So it'd be special grass flooring and floral walls. With the runic marks to replace lights.

The doors would change to magic hedges.

The other furniture would also match the theme, of course with the latest fantasy tech.

When Mitsun charged her mana, the air conditioner could run at maximum blast for all eternity.

We removed the storage rooms since we already have an infinite item box, freeing more space.

Since we're lovers now, we removed my room and merged it into the master bedroom. There's also a small bathroom outside—we added it as well.

In my previous life, father and mother slept separately. Mom and my little sister would be in the same bed since she's still little.

To create a spacious feeling, we also subbed the stairs for a climbing vine. When you touched it and sunk your whole body, you'd be gently sent down or upstairs.

There's an unused living room, and a large space with several altars to pray to our ancestors.

"Hmm..."

I ran out of ideas.

It's not like I finished with the first floor either; so many unused spaces.

Perhaps it's because I hadn't designed the home from the scratch. My home inside the magical space was a lot simpler. Only a few rooms, with the entire second floor up to my horny lesbian daughters that I love so much.

In here, not to mention our space, there's also a separate room with its toilet for a servant to live in, along with a steel garage gate. It's probably good to remodel it to a workshop.

...and the drying area can be made to a greenhouse since it would gain the most exposure to the sun.

"I think we can just fill the entire house with sunlight! Like creating a membrane that absorbs the necessary amount, while making it unseen from outside, just like tinted windows."

Having one entrance is enough.

We removed one beside the dining room, and the garage gates.

The kitchen area's also too small, so we merged the entire back area with it, also added a lot more tools.

We're left with a large area for the kitchen with the other side for laundry and drying clothes.

The dining room was small in comparison. I didn't really want to invite people in here, at most, just my daughters and their wife.

As for the rest, Mitsun wasn't sure about how to arrange things, especially the workshop, greenhouse, and additional bedrooms. My father's old study and bedroom were also untouched.

It's not easy to remodel a house, even if you're a God, I guess. Although in our case, we only lack the idea.

I wasn't sure about Mitsun either. For a God, her thinking process was like someone my age. She didn't seem a lot more experienced than I was either.

"Uuu..."

Mitsun slumped on the ground and pouted, I couldn't help but give her a head pat.

"Hehe..."

So cute...

To cool ourselves, we went back to Gantz-san. It's just across our gate.

It should be lunchtime and we're going for something light.

The experience of actually remodeling my homemade me thought of several ways to improve my magical space as well.

Unlike this world, my abilities had a limit, but with my daughters and Mitsun's input, we can definitely create a paradise.

"Your place is looking good," Gantz-san laughed, "Any issues so far?"

He brought two plates of honey omelet with fruit salad, its dressing had a spicy and salty feeling, but it's enough to make me droll.

He also added a pitcher of milk and several slices of lime.

"How do you design this place, Gantz-san?"

"Nope, it's already like this when I bought it. Although I replaced a lot of furniture and cleaned it together with Robin. It's many years ago. Of course, it took a long time with just the two of us.

All I can say is just take your time and enjoy the progress.

...but the easy way is just to consult a professional. Houses are really expensive and most people can't bear the choice to experiment."

Mitsun didn't seem to pay attention at all. She ordered noodles with beef fillet and chicken eggs, along with bacon skewers. I guess all that brainpower needs a lot of juice.

"Do you know ones that give good advice? Well, we're not comfortable on letting outsiders stroll in and see our secrets..."

"Since it's a Neo-Elven style building, there should be a lot of professional designers. They mainly dealt with nobles, however. We commoners didn't have the capital for them.

A lot of Elves are curious people and they had a lot of time on their hands. Perhaps, you don't even need to look for them."

Mitsun overate.

I had to wait for her in the bathroom for a while.

At that time, I just took my laptop and tried browsing the internet of this world. So far, it's still primitive, despite the high speed.

Most of the contents were just texts; a lot of them are paywalled. Since money isn't a problem, I went and browsed stuff according to my Adventurer's rank.

For some reason, the guild made me an A-rank, the highest one without special responsibilities, and can be issued directly.

The free ones include the list of A-rank dungeons. I just knew that despite the difficulty, a lot of dungeons weren't dangerous. It's just that the environment around them had deadly monsters.

The other free ones were actually housing advertisements made by [Dungeon Masters]. Not only the price is low, but you can even get paid just by being there if you're strong enough.

Dungeons also had that special environment that's beneficial to self-cultivation.

Some had free succubus servants that would suit your preference.

It's pretty shocking to see that you could even live in the World Tree itself. Although it's restricted to several privileged individuals, the housing price wasn't high.

This world was actually so generous toward the strong.

There weren't any tips on designing a home, however. Perhaps I could try looking for reference books in the Library?

Right as I was about to knock on Mitsun's bedroom, there's a blond elf lady with a youthful face and big boobs. Her lewd figure's wrapped in a thin robe, and if not for her innocent demeanor, I would've thought she's a succubus.

"H-hello! I saw the house over there and it reminds me a lot of the World Tree, is it yours...Onee-san?"

I pointed to myself and she nodded.

That was odd.

I was the one who looked like children here.

"Umm...your mana feels so mature and powerful."

"Well, it's not just my house. I also live with my lover..."

"It's wonderful! Is she the big sister that just left for the bathroom earlier?"

"Yup. Anyway, I don't think you would call me out just to ask my love life..."

"Ah, yes! I actually love buildings with special auras a lot. I rushed all the way from my home, due to this."

This divine aura...

"...and you are?"

"Just an Art Student with a lot of debts!"

Uh...

[Goddess of the World Tree – Serafall]

Since the World Tree is the origin of this world's mana, is she even more powerful than Lumine?

Her face went _ when I noticed something. I end up patting her head and she made a relaxed smile, "Ehehe..."

Despite her lewd body, why is she such a cinnamon roll?

Both Lumine and her seem quite similar to Mitsun in some way, probably since she created them personally.

Anyway, since she is Mitsun's incarnation, I think I can trust her.

"Umm...Onee-sama..." she twiddled her fingers, "Please don't lewd me in there, okay?" she continued in low voice, "Although I don't mind...your mana made Sera feel so nice. Your body too, so small...so cute...I want to milk Onee-sama...and let her milk me dry, ahh..."

"Uh..."

I take it back, she's definitely a succubus.

I picked my laptop and strolled outside Gantz's place. She looked like she's about to cry, but I really don't want to involve myself with other people.

It's like every girl I got a bit closer with would become a lolicon. I had enough with just Mitsun lewding me. If it continued, my cock and pussy would hurt so bad and my breast milk wouldn't stop overflowing.

I kept walking away, but I couldn't stop going back since she's crying like a lost kid.

Though, when I went back, she was having sex with Mitsun.

...and Lotte's furiously stroking her large cock and fingering her pussy. She kept ejaculating in a beer glass and it's quite full.

Hmm...it didn't seem like NTR though, more like selfcest. Like this lolicon was masturbating in public.

Gantz-san didn't forget to give his daughter a hamburger.

It seemed quite bizarre how most of the people in here just watched this stunt.

"Jou-chan, would you consider my daughter? She's actually quite old...around marriage age as well, that's why her lust is so strong."

"Nah, I won't leave my love just because of this..."

"We don't mind a harem as well. She really likes you and keeps moaning your name."

This conversation felt uncomfortable since I saw the girls giving lewd stares at me.

I wasn't even sure if Lotte was fapping to me or these exhibitionist perverts.

In the end, fuck it.

I just ordered a hamburger.

...and somehow, I accidentally drank Lotte's cum. This loli actually swapped my glass!

It also tasted like a hamburger. I never knew cock milk could be so crunchy and chewy.

She almost tricked me to grip her penis but she missed, end up ejaculating lots on her table.

Mitsun, Sera, and Lotte cried together. They hugged one another, and it's now a threesome.

Forget it, I'll just go home and masturbate.

I was too tired to care about fucking right now.

Notes:

A pretty fun chapter to write. It was longer than expected.

It reminds me that I skipped most of the lewd things that could be described, since they felt more like fillers.

I think I would write more if they actually meant something important to the plot. Otherwise you can just experience it on your own. Like, try to imagine yourself as a cute loli with a big penis and lactating breasts.

Or I can just write a separate story when it's all about the characters and how they love to fuck each other. It's originally a profile thing, but just writing their profile is boring.

I think it's best to describe them like you became the character, and you can feel their own vagina like it's your own, even if you don't have one.

Chapter 25: Out of Pretense

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

When I thought about Domain, I remember how it all started.

I always believe I would reach my goals by knowing myself.

...and as of now, I understand.

I do not wish s to strive to improve myself.

I'd rather enjoy life as much as I desire. With power, I can live in any kind of reality I want.

I don't want to care whether or not I will succeed anymore.

It's always worth it if I'm able to feel truly alive. Perhaps, after I had enough, I can just let it go.

The moment I gave up on fighting, my strength seemed to well up. It filled me with so much energy I began to choke.

My aura also got even thicker; it started to form violet gradients.

It's so absurd. Was the way to actually be stronger is being weak? Or is it accepting my own weakness?

I'm impulsive and hedonistic. I wanted to explore many kinds of pleasure and desires, while not having to bear with negative consequences.

Maybe it's a good time to accept my depression. That I just really love to escape reality anytime.

...but all these delusions are becoming real.

Maybe, the life I'm living is actually fake? Else why do things in here not make sense at all?

I need to wake up soon. I want to live in peace and tranquility as the loli.

If it's just a dream, please wake me up, wife.

Despite that, it's like I had my life under control--but why?

...because my aura is real, and it gets stronger?

I started to grasp the meaning of Domain.

I'm always obsessed with things going my way and living in a perfect world.

A domain is that perfect world.

It's like becoming the main character of a wish-fulfillment story and you have infinite cheats.

The entire story is all up to you.

As an author myself, I knew the feeling.

I couldn't really write wish-fulfillment stories, in the end. I would be so envious of the main character from the get-go, I couldn't write anymore.

...but it was different if what I imagine will become reality and I can satisfy my desires accordingly.

What if it will never become real? It's up to me.

I know the feeling of satisfaction is present.

At the very least, it's entertaining. A lot of stuff out there is just plain boring.

It's okay.

Aside from protecting myself and those I care about, my goals are pretty much fulfilled.

Right now, I need to sleep. I'm so tired of everything in this life.

I really love dreaming.

No matter how disappointing the day went, I always end up having a nice dream.

Wouldn't it be nice, if one day, I will never wake up? Definitely not.

I guess a dream is nice because it's just a dream.

...and I wish to change my own reality.

Since I was lazy and weak, this time I'll just leave everything to my wife. I will cease any resistance and give in. Let her mold me into the body I love the most.

Mold this reality into stuff I yearned for the longest time.

I know she's becoming more real as time goes, and my loli body has a stronger presence. I'd even feel an ache below my balls from time to time; it's like my pussy would be growing.

In the end, I was only a baby.

From the day I was born human, I was never allowed to indulge as I desire.

I was forcibly told to stop my childish antics when I didn't feel want to.

...but I was forced to since everyone else felt like an enemy.

As I got older, the less I was able to fit in. Relationships seem meaningless and I was unable to trust anyone.

If people tried to harm me, the law might be against me if I end up killing them even in self-defense. That's if I was able to do so.

No one was ever on my side. They all only had their selfish interests forced down on me.

I don't like people that much.

I think it would be nice if I could live in my own world, literally. That way, I don't have to associate myself with people if I wanted to survive.

If there are people, I would only have those that get along with me. In my own world, everyone can be friends; even family.

It's okay even if I was all alone, but I'm too weak on my own—I couldn't accomplish much.

Wife, is everything ready?

"it is always ready. It's just waiting for you, my loli."

I know it's not about the easiest method anymore, but my own way.

It's best to intoxicate myself with so much fun and happiness.

The next thing I knew, I would be in this place of dreams, with my wife.

"Nn..."

Instead of trying to be stronger, it's better to be a spoiled baby.

I won't pretend to be something I'm not anymore.

Notes:

I think this style of writing suits me best.

I don't have to think about anything. Just letting the characters write their own story.

I can speculate about the plot as much as I want, but it's more fun to just let it go, even if it may not make sense at all.

Chapter 26: Ascension

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Domain was incredibly strong.

It's even more overpowered than the cheat skills in my favorite novels.

For one, it had no drawbacks. From the beginning, I wanted something that would only attract good things, while repelling all the bad things.

It's also a piece of cake to use.

For everything I desire, I just have to imagine the process and the result I wanted.

I could make it as easy as I want. It's just like experiencing a wish-fulfillment novel on steroids.

The hardest thing about it is actually letting go of my human mindset.

Before, I always thought life was so hard, and it's difficult to actually achieve the things I want. Despite my efforts, it may not bear fruit.

...but now, I just have to be honest with myself and reality bends to my will.

Whenever I was afraid of failure, my wife just told me, "You have nothing to lose, only gain."

"Think of yourself as a deity, no—you're a Paragon. You have achieved transcendence with your own strength, and no one can take your powers away."

Didn't you help me a lot?

"That doesn't count. From the beginning, you've always walked your own path. Now, you can easily be stronger than me. You don't have to rely on me anymore."

That won't do, wife.

No matter how strong I become, I don't want to be lonely.

I always longed for your approval. Even now, I'm not sure if I did the right thing.

"Tell me, are you happy?"

It's the happiest day of my life because I can finally be the loli.

"Aww...as usual, you're so cute..."

Nn...

Well, it's not like my powers could realize anything instantly.

There's some kind of delay and process, but the end result was satisfying.

...and it's just the beginning.

Now, I could live my desires to their fullest without anything in my way—except myself.

What do I want the most in life?

In my head, there's a lot of things.

I want to be a futanari and do lewd things with my girls.

I want to be comfy and happy, never have to worry about anything.

I want to be a lazy bum—sleep and play games as much as I like it.

There I noticed the difference between my past self.

I always stopped at expressing my desires and never walked forward, because I focused too much on finding the right way.

Who determines whether it's the right or best way, if not myself?

Others might be stronger and have a lot more experience, but I don't think their way suits me.

To answer my past, I will just say:

If you want to be the loli, just be the loli.

End of story.

Notes:

The whole chapter feels like a big bruh moment, and it's the best conclusion I could ever write.

It took me real long to figure this out. I also realize I prefer to let the main character's struggles in the background and only write when they got the solution.

Or just them relaxing and enjoying life, while getting enlightenment about life on the way.

I realize it's okay to just be lazy and take my time. There's a saying that you can't rush art, but I don't believe it's true.

You can definitely rush art, like Mozart's Don Giovanni. It's just not for everyone.

I'm just taking my time because I feel the most comfortable this way. Others might say you should step outside your comfort zone, but I am merely expanding and understanding it.

If I have to name the most comfortable thing about writing, it's about organizing my muddled thoughts and calming myself down. When I write things, no matter how chaotic it is, it feels like I'm simplifying even the biggest problem and make it easily solvable.

You might have similar things on the stuff you're passionate about, and I hope you can always live the way you desire :D

Chapter 27: Reincarnation

Notes:

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Chapter Text

A while after getting so much power, I was scared.

What if I couldn't keep myself in check and destroy everything?

What if I couldn't rebuild it like it once was?

Even if that's the case, would everything end up losing its meaning?

She told me, "It's alright. In the first place, you don't wish to destroy the world, do you?"

No, I don't hate the world anymore.

"I will be your voice of reason. No matter how strong you become, I can always watch your back."

"Also, just because you have enormous power, doesn't mean you have to use it in the most optimized way."

I want to be invincible in the entire vast expanse because I'm scared. I don't want anyone out there to ruin my perfect world.

I'm afraid of pain and suffering in life. I'm afraid of a lot of things taken away from me.

"But have you ever thought—if you actually have no enemies, and no one can ever be your opponent for eternity?"

Is it really possible?

"If you don't make enemies with everyone, it is."

I prefer to do make love, not hate.

...but what if someone tries to make trouble?

"Then you can be assured it's not your problem."

I wanted to ask why, but when she gave me a head pat, I calmed down.

I was back in my comfiest place, as a loli, resting my head on her boobs.

"Tell me your wishes, my loli. It doesn't have to be your most important, but the one that came to your mind just now."

Nn...

I always wanted to be a girl. I love girls so much and I want to be cute like them.

For a long time, I keep repressing my desires even since childhood, because I used to look that way.

When people tried to force me into wearing girls' clothes, I feel disgusted because I would look ugly and terrible.

It was nothing like a girl's and I hate it.

Though I don't hate my penis. I don't think it will feel out of place if I become a girl. On the contrary, I feel that penises look so perfect on a girl.

It made a cute girl even cuter if she had both penis and pussy.

"Your preferences are particular, but I don't dislike it. The way you're so honest made you the cutest, seriously."

...but I think being a girl also sucks because men would look at you and try to court you. I don't like men that much, no matter how pretty they are.

They also had periods and painful pregnancies, I don't want any part of that.

I don't feel at home in this society as a girl.

"I know that. I guess you no longer want to be a guy anymore? Do you want to leave this life and be reborn? No need to think hard."

Actually, I'm not sure.

"Don't be, it's just the same Earth and your family is still the same people. You're just changing the world and yourself to fit your preferences. You're not dying and nothing is lost. You're just continuing the kind of life you wanted the most.

Also, wouldn't it doing them a favor if you make them this way? They no longer have to experience the stress of this world and able to live however they want?

Aren't you also doing the world a great favor, by making it a much more pleasant and accepting place?"

It's not my intention to save the world.

Not everyone will appreciate my actions since I'm just doing it out of selfishness.

"Nah, you're not selfish. In the end, you don't choose to be born in this kind of world.

Because you have no powers, you are forced into countless suffering, just like everyone else, and have to accept it as normal. That you can't do anything and like them, you will die, and there's no escape.

...but deep down, you think it doesn't make sense. No matter how meaningful one's life, you don't want to understand a life of suffering without a happy end. You have read tragedies of several people who contributed to humanity, treated like shit for their entire lifetimes.

You want to know and understand the path you want. You don't want suffering or death. You want eternal life and happiness.

You don't want to associate yourself with beings that have no future aside from death."

That's right.

It makes me chill and comfy when the best way doesn't matter anymore, but my way.

It's not about whether or not I'll succeed, since everything's in my hands.

How I wish to proceed, it's not like every path is the right one, but I know I don't want to care about failure all that much.

, daughter of *.

My precious wife.

I want to reborn and start over in a life of happiness and comfort.

...but first, I want to visit my parents, including my late father. My lil' sis as well.

I want to come out to them and ask them first. I don't want to force them into my ideal world.

It will be hard, but they did a lot of things for me, even if we're not on the same page.

They don't even have to be someone I would love—I just want them to be themselves.

"Kaori, you're really kind. I guess that's why I fell for you in the first place."

I'm not that kind.

I just tried to be considerate to everyone important to me.

I don't want to look back and regret anything. That's why I want to be honest.

"Understood, my loli. Let's just relax, okay? Sweet dreams."

I actually don't want to start over from childhood or even a baby.

I don't want to be powerless or even attend school all over again.

It's not like school sucks, but I'm not particularly fond of them.

As I am now, I don't think I can stand long, boring hours of class.

Even if it's fun, I prefer to study at my own pace and only interact with a select few that matched my interests.

I wasn't tolerant of people and their toxicity.

Even more, now I had enormous powers. I was afraid, if they pissed me off enough, I would let them experience the worst things imaginable.

...but I couldn't get myself to do it. If I were in their place, I wouldn't be able to bear it at all.

Though, was I being too considerate? If I was omnipotent in this world, why should I care about morality in the first place?

If this world was basically my creation, and I had all the liberties to do it without any penalties—why would it matter?

"Kaori, I think it's best to live in the present."

At that time, I thought she betrayed me by erasing my memories and stripping me of my powers.

Indeed, I had to live as a guy again, although all the problems in my past life were gone.

My family was there to take care of me, and if I didn't like something I don't have to go through it. Although it wouldn't be so easy I didn't have to do shit to live.

With my old trauma forgotten, I could somehow try things again.

Until one day, a truck hit me—sending me to another world.

My memories gradually returned over time, along with my girl self.

Although I still end up being roughly the same person as my past—this world is different.

It was made for me, by the person I love the most.

I thought she would try to get me into adversities so I could become strong and independent, but she didn't force anything.

Let me grow in a slightly ideal world, to experience the happiness I couldn't and to live in a different way I prefer.

You must be lonely, having to cut contact with me for twenty-five years.

No...

In the end, I couldn't get my family to come.

I couldn't open up to my parents and little sister at all.

I couldn't trust my deepest secrets to them.

It was all her...who cared for me, all this time.

She was my entire family—she's all that I have when I lost trust in others.

Even when I was fond of my father, my current self won't get along with him.

If he didn't die early, I most likely would come to hate him.

Father probably never loved me as I am, but because I followed his wishes to study hard and get into a good university.

Nevertheless. I really appreciate how he cared for me and believed in me. This old home, filled with his love, was the place I held dearest.

He built it and designed it from the scratch. Worked overtime for so many years to get rid of the debts, so we could have a nice house to live in/

What am I doing?

Why did I change what made it so precious in the first place?

"It's okay...my loli. In the end, you want to change it to improve on his legacy, not destroy it. You want to respect his work and dedication by spending lots of time thinking of things that would work.

The ideal home that he would envision, given he had no limitations in budget or workforce."

...but it's a pity that my real father isn't here—not even my real family. It's all you, right?

"That's where you're wrong, my loli. You might have a conscience, but I don't. The most important thing is your happiness.

Even if your family refuses, I would still drag them to your world!"

"Uwaaaahhh..."

"There, there...don't be ashamed that you did lewd things with your real father, okay? Let's bring her next time. It's fine, they're alive, and they will live happily with you forever. If they're unhappy with it, I will make them realize how ungrateful they were!"

"Nn..."

Deep down, I know it's wrong.

...but it felt so right when she said it.

I'm a bit too stupid to know what's right or wrong.

I just want to be happy and comfy forever.

Most importantly, I want to always be with someone I love, who loves me dearly as she did.

She may not be the best person or even a good person to others, but I couldn't think of being with anyone besides her.

I don't know why, but I always find myself back to her. Starting when she's just a voice in my mind that kept me from killing myself. The one telling me there's more to my life, instead of having to suffer a meaningless life.

She was there for me when no one else was.

"I'm so happy, Kaori. But I'm not the one who should get the biggest credit."

"Nn?"

"There are times when I couldn't be with you. The one who's always with you, after all, is your own self. It's your other self who kept it together and held on until I could rescue you.

...and you know her very well. She's the one most worthy of your deepest affection, plus she's also my wife. She can be your wife as well if that's your thing, but your relationship is actually much, much deeper than that."

Indeed, she was the one I knew the most.

I barely knew many things about Mitsun.

...but she's the loli I always yearned to become. The petite and cute girl with waist-length hair and crimson eyes. Really lazy, but powerful and reliable.

Loves girls so much and has a nice penis.

"Thank you so much, Mirai-chan."

Deep inside my mind, she smiled at me and went back to sleep.

It made me all warm and fuzzy inside.

"When she comes out, we can finally have the best threesome. How about it?"

"Uuu...just when things got wholesome, you just have to ruin it!"

Even if we're actually the same person, I still wasn't sure about Mirai-chan at all.

...but even now, I always wanted to rely on her, just as much I relied on Mitsun.

I don't understand my current life at all. It's just so bizarre, but it was beautiful in its own way.

Notes:

I often contemplate that I should quit posting my stories online, because my stories felt a bit too personal and it might be used by someone to hurt me.

That's why it really hurts back then when people give overly rude criticisms or rate it low without even saying anything. It's like a dear friend trampled on my sincere feeling.

In one way, I prefer posting at this site since there are less ways to get hurt.

I wasn't sure why I was still posting my stories despite the risks. Somehow it feels that it's only important enough to write, when I could dedicate the message to others, not just myself.

That I didn't just want to write wish-fulfillment, I want it to also make my own life better.

Despite writing for so many years, I finally understand that time spent doesn't equal to experience. I'm still pretty much a newbie who's still trying to find what fits me best.

If I have a goal, I hope I will always be niche and obscure, so I could just reach to only a small subset of people that really needs it. I don't like making influence to world at large, I'd rather be cozy and unknown.

Well that's about it. This afterword alone went so long lol.

Chapter 28: Cozy

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Home.

Sera told me the design didn't matter.

In the end, the concept of home design only applies because there were limited resources and it took a long time to adjust things.

"The ideal home is something that can be whatever you want, according to your current mood."

With our capabilities, we indeed don't have to worry about materials, only a clear idea and some bit of honesty.

In the end, I'd be honest—I was really, really tired of everything. I wanted to just hunker down and relax for as long as I want.

Probably something like an ideal NEET house. Where I can just put on my most comfortable clothes and laze around all day.

"Then let's do it!" Sera made a Guts' pose.

Before me was a bedroom with lots of monga and it's pretty clean. There's a huge double bed with a baguette pillow—it had an authentic scent of bread with a mixture of coffee.

It reminds me that the smell of coffee made me want to sleep.

There's even a window with the scenery of an urban city. The cherry blossoms are in full bloom and the cool breeze, along with a sweet, comfy smell filling the room.

The standing fan's low hum added to the background, along with the noise from the TV.

Mitsun and Sera were both in their sweatshirts, munching potato chips and drinking cola.

They sat down watching baseball matches.

"I think this is pretty comfortable." Sera's voice was pretty much audible, despite stuffing all the chips into her mouth. It tasted like authentic potato, however.

"The match is pretty boring though." Mitsun poured another glass of cola and it bubbled up nicely, at the height it's about to spill.

"I think it's the beauty of being a NEET, don't you agree? We can just waste our days like this without care."

"Couldn't agree more."

"Hey you, you're finally awake." Mitsun tapped my shoulders the moment I sat between them.

It made me realize that my body was really small, I could fit between.

"You're finally awake." Sera pointed at my crotch, where my little sister was fully erect.

"Mmm..." I didn't pay much heed and took my bits of chip and cola.

The chips themselves felt pretty high-end. It tasted like an authentic baked potato, while the cola felt more like tea with soda additives? It wasn't sweet but filled with herbal flavor.

It's been a while since I actually watched TV or even anything live at all.

I think the last time, I tried watching Vtubers but I prefer watching the archives.

To be honest, I never watched a live game of baseball.

"If I remember correctly, you're supposed to swing the ball with a bat, right?"

After they landed a hit, the batter would run as far as they could before the enemy team caught the ball or something.

I also remembered that each individual team would have a matching uniform across members.

...but why did this guy show up.

He was a bald man with a tote bag and casual clothes, and he didn't seem to have any idea what's going on.

The coach just gave him a cap and bat. He was told to just hit the ball and run as far as he can.

"Ok."

He simply shrugged with a monotone face.

Probably a beginner's luck, but he accurately hit the ball.

It ends up hitting the pitcher's balls though.

While everyone was confused, the baldy already ran across the field.

I kinda lost interest after that. Not that I understood baseball anyway.

Mitsun turned the next channel and it's about horse racing.

...but they were all cute girls with tails and weird penes.

I think I already watched that one, so she changed the channel.

We skipped several news and documentaries until it finally went to a movie channel.

Just a cliche saving the world tokusatsu thing. Although the protagonist wore panties in his head.

It was pretty fun though.

Before I knew it, lunchtime was over.

This time, no one cooked and we just had pizza with few more bottles of cola.

It didn't feel like an unhealthy product though. The pizza's crust was made of whole grain and the toppings had several veggies like sweet, crunchy corn, broccoli, bacon, and pineapples.

I'm okay with pineapple on pizza, to be honest.

We continued the noon and played party games 'til night. It's kinda off with three people when the game goes up to four.

...and for dinner, we just boiled cup ramens.

It's actually quite nutritious with mushroom and chicken slices. The cup was also as big as a whole bowl.

The way we just have to pour a bit of boiled water and wait for a few minutes while reading a quick gag manga was perfect.

After a quick meal, we went back to watching prime-time shows.

It's another detective story, and since I only paid attention in the middle, I don't even understand what's going on. The action scenes were pretty good though.

We watched another so-so movie after that, along with several short and ridiculous advertisements.

It made me think of the time I stopped watching TV and just went to Utube.

I couldn't stand how many ads the TV got back then. Like when they aired the Lord of the Rings movie but more than half were just ads.

...but this one was just right. We can just relax during these times and even crack several punchlines.

Eventually, I got sleepy but I finally decide to hang on until the movie's over.

It concluded with a warm bath with the three of us. The tub was large enough, and I enjoy rubbing myself on their boobs.

I let a long yawn when Mitsun laid my small body in bed.

That's when I realized, the bed was only wide enough for two people.

I thought Sera would be disappointed as she left, but her face lit up.

"It was really fun! I had been pretty busy in the world tree, but it's so nice to unwind like this. Please visit me when you have time."

I felt her presence vanish just like that, and it felt a bit lonely with just the two of us.

...but when Mitsun hugged me in bed, it was so warm and intimate.

The lights went off, and I had another pleasant dream.

The next day, Rosa and Lili end up visiting.

They also brought Lumine in person.

This time, I guess it's pretty nice since we're all family.

They thought the NEET House was pretty boring though, so they came up with this instead:

The entire house was outdoors.

There was a vast, open terrain. Instead of enclosed rooms, there would be a gazebo with its own set of furniture.

There were lots of gargantuan trees and a huge hammock with its set of pillows.

It also had lakes and rivers, with several fishes jumping around. Along with assorted fruit trees and berries.

The air was so rich and sweet, I could spend forever just basking beneath the sun and lying atop the soft, comfy grasses.

The twins would go into the forests and mountains to gather materials for barbecue.

We'd also come down to the beach area, though I was too embarrassed to put on a swimsuit—so everyone was naked.

The twins were just competing with each other, while I, Mitsun, and Lumine just sat under the huge parasol while sipping cold drinks.

I wasn't really an energetic type like them, but being like this was also relaxing.

Lumine wanted to open up about their relationship, but man, I don't really mind.

Mitsun also gave the okay, since the twins were happy.

Three of them went surfing, while I stood on the beach, casually tossing balls at Mitsun.

When I glanced at them, it's like they're drifting apart and growing up, yet they felt so close--it really warms my heart.

Even if they're my daughters, I don't feel much like a parent. From the start, they could take care of themselves.

I guess it's better this way. I was never good at taking care of others. I couldn't even take good care of myself back then.

That's why I wanted to be spoiled like a kid forever. That's probably why I felt so comfortable being a loli as well.

"Kaori!"

Mitsun shouted before the ball hits my face. I managed to shove it away in time.

"If you're tired, let's just chill, okay?"

"Nn..."

Soon, sunset came and we held fireworks in our hands.

It was accompanied by roasted corn and some alcohol.

We all took a bath at the Hot Springs Inn.

Lumine and Mitsun laid the futon, while I fell asleep faster, despite it being earlier.

I guess we're all exhausted, we didn't even think of having pillow fights or telling ghost stories.

I woke up to the twins poking my cheeks.

"Daddy."

"Father."

"We'd be traveling the world. We know you're kind of tired—we hope you'll have a nice rest."

"Father-in-law, take care of your health. I brought several tonics and natural supplements. Feel free to take them if you don't feel well."

"Nn..."

The silver-haired goddess conjured a door out of thin air and stepped out with the twins.

Only the quiet sound of waves along with the bamboo pump, broke the silence.

Mitsun was quietly snoring beside me.

I did realize, in yesterday and today, I prefer a quiet environment.

Where I can just let things go at my own pace.

...and I couldn't really follow the others that much.

Even with Sera and the twins around, I still feel more comfortable when alone, or just with Mitsun.

Not that I didn't appreciate their presence.

It was a great experience that didn't come often, which made my quiet time even better.

Now, I pretty much sorted myself. All that's left is to enjoy the scenery.

...although the silence broke when I heard a doorbell from nowhere.

As I opened the door, it was Emily's butler.

He didn't even give a fuck when there's a fucking beach in front of him, along with snoring Mitusn.

We were invited to her wedding; it'd be a few days from now.

"Would you like to go? It seems that you're quite busy, you hadn't come out of the house in several days."

"I'll try to make time, but it depends on Mitsun as well."

"Much appreciated, lady Kaori. But despite this merry occasion, your schedule is more important."

"Ey."

The butler went back to the carriage and drove away.

It reminds me, despite just lazing around, it could still be counted as busy.

Now, what shall I do in the meantime? Guess I'll just relax some more until Mitsun wakes up.

Of course, if she'll attend, I will go, since I hadn't experienced lots in this world.

I kind of envy the twins for being young.

Counting my past life, I would be more than fifty years old, despite being a loli.

Well no sweat, we old folks just have to take our pace accordingly.

Now that I have powers, I can choose to live my life, in the best way I could.

I will slowly appreciate life and not worry about wasting time anymore.

Notes:

I probably spent too much chapter on Kaori's inner struggles, but I felt it's necessary.

Now I can just write relaxing stuff I always wanted for the story.

I don't think I can really write conflicts though, so just comfy.

Chapter 29: Warm World

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

I really wanted to stop posting my writings.

The world out there is quite hostile and I couldn't trust anyone around.

I already got what I wanted so far and there's no real reason to continue.

I'm afraid, as I got more famous I would be targeted by people because I love lolis and I'd really love to be a loli as well.

I don't want to deal with them and I'm afraid of what ends people will do because I lewd my lolis.

I'm a coward by nature. I don't like confrontations or arguments with people.

If there's a hidden danger, I would like them removed from my life, as soon as possible.

After a while, I know my best bet is just to escape this reality and go into a better one.

My worst mistake in this life is thinking that I can get powers and change the world in my favor.

This world is never meant for me because there are many things I just didn't agree with.

...and if there's a God up there, I don't think they will allow a mere human to be strong enough to threaten their authority. In short, I never had any future from the start.

Though they cannot restrain me from leaving. I'm just an insignificant character who has little cause and effect in this world.

I just have to specify which kind of reality I want and slowly move from there.

Think of a world where I truly feel at home and focus on them.

Where my potential to become as strong as I like is there and I can leisurely live at my own pace—never have to worry about anything.

Of course, I believe reality isn't a fixed world.

It was based on my current reality and little by little, things would be different each time I woke up.

There would be subtle differences that I didn't notice before.

In short, I would wake up in another world every day, but the difference is so subtle I wouldn't realize it.

Sometimes the past would also change. It's not like what I remembered.

Perhaps, the shift, in reality, happened as I typed this text. I would drift closer to my ideal world.

It's not that my life is changing for the better--I actually shifted myself to a place where I had more power and talents.

It's not that my life is still.

It's just now, that my actions started to bear fruit because I learned how to observe.

I finally realize the most important goal, and most likely to fulfill my desires.

I have countless of them, deeply rooted.

One of my deepest obsessions is having a life that goes as I desire.

I would always be so stubborn in enforcing my ways in life, even if it never seems to work at all.

Until I came to a realization, my pride doesn't mean shit if I couldn't achieve my goals and only bring me countless suffering.

It's okay to admit—I'm no God--I'm just a piece of trash.

...but it's not my fault that I become one. Nor is it the world's fault.

It's not anyone's mistake.

When I become strong enough, so life can bend as I will and no one can oppose me, of course, I will turn arrogant, because I love it.

I always love the feeling of absolute domination, even if it's achieved by unfair means like cheating.

...but as long I don't actually hurt anyone, I feel no guilt.

In real life, I had no friends I can trust.

...but I remember that I treat my readers like a good friend, who will always listen to me, no matter how much I meander around.

Even with her around and she meant a lot to me, I can't really say she's better than my dear 'readers'.

Both of them were crucial to how I managed to go so far.

...and I guess I write for these kinds of readers, even if they never seem to talk much.

Yes.

They're the reason why I need to post my writings—because they're a good friend of mine.

Not to say I couldn't write for myself, but I see no point in posting them.

I'm writing for those who cared about me and my self-growth and happiness.

I knew they're here, otherwise, I wouldn't feel so warm. So much, I'd actually cried.

In the future world, can I count on them to protect me? Can I finally feel that I'm never alone?

I wish for a world that's filled with kindness.

I want to be kind to myself as well.

I guess it's not definite that I will achieve my goal, but I'm really glad that I experienced this moment.

Thank you for everything.

In the end, you're also the reason why I'm still alive, after all.

I was never an artist. I refuse to admit that I'm one. My works are never art, they're my life.

It was a warm world.

In front of me were a bunch of my readers.

"I have read your works for a long time," a chubby penguin sat on a wooden desk, "It was really, really good."

"I never meant for it to be good, but thanks."

My replies might seem cold, but it's what I truly felt.

The most important thing is never to make good writing, but knowing they're here, willing to listen to me and accept me as I am.

In my life, I have experienced countless rejections and restraints from people. Not just because I love lolis, but I was fundamentally different in many aspects.

I have different views on how life was supposed to work—my own life anyway.

I couldn't see eye-to-eye with them anymore.

"Don't say that, Kaori-sensei. You have a real talent and you're genuine. Please appreciate your own work more."

A thin raccoon with retro-glasses raised a thin booklet. It was one of my oldest works ever posted, and I didn't even know I wrote it until I saw the character illustrations.

I never drew them, but its portrayal was exactly like I imagined.

Sometimes I thought, is it really their true—or is it just my inner voice trying to console myself?

...but it's not like no one ever said that.

Instead, I was stuck on people that might hate my work—because I lost sight of my readers.

I didn't write to please everyone—not even to please myself. I just want to have fun with people who cared about my work.

In all honesty, I don't know how to appreciate my own work. I wasn't even interested to re-read my old stuff since I already know the story.

The best I can do is to finish the things I have started and to give it the closure it deserved, with my heart.

I don't know how to write good stories.

I just feel that the general ways will just make it feel fake.

Draft the plot and create the characters and their struggles? It made me sick.

I really didn't wish to play God.

I just want to think of them as my friend and I'm just narrating their life experiences.

I don't have any right to make their life harder or give them a lesson. I'm not qualified to do anything more than just telling their story as they are.

No wonder I never get along with other Authors and many people wouldn't understand my story.

"Hey, is there more?"

It's someone with a hoarse and thick accent.

When I glanced at the source, it was just a giant hand with the all-seeing eye symbol in his palm.

I knew him for a long time.

His name's Telekinesis Edwire.

He once saved my life in one of my dreams. Not once, but twice.

He was obsessed with teaching everyone to be gentlemen, regardless of gender.

To him, the most important part of a gentleman is respect, and the highest respect one can give is treating someone as an equal.

Of course, you can't respect everyone. It's not earned or even given. It's just something that comes naturally.

He also told me, there are two kinds of people. Those worthy to show your level of respect, and those who are not.

That's why the second most important lesson I heard is politeness.

Being polite is not a courtesy, but a weapon.

The more you hate your enemies, the more should you mind politeness.

When traversing uncertain waters, always be polite—but it never equals compromise.

...and he said the third lesson—strength.

Have a plan to kill everyone you meet, because you'll never know, which one of them will threaten your life.

To this, I asked—what about my friends and those I loved dearly?

I don't want to be on guard against them or even worry that they might stab me in the back one day.

"Then don't," he paused for a bit, "If you truly love them, perhaps it's okay to die by their hands."

What if I don't want to die?

"Let's just make you invincible and immortal—well, don't think too much."

Even now, I don't understand Edwire that much.

...but I owe him a lot, even if he didn't save my life.

"No, I'm kinda lazy to write right now."

I answered him honestly.

"Yeah, it's okay. It's not like you're getting paid or anything. Take your time, else it will suck, no matter how good you are."

"How long can you wait?"

"I can wait forever until you feel like writing. To be honest, it's not like you're the only author out there. There are just so many books to read. Don't feel so special, lady.

Let me tell you something? Ever wondered why I stick with you, out of everyone else? I don't need a reason for that and neither should you.

If you want to write, just write. You don't need any of this pretentious bullshit, I know you well."

"I actually need them! Without you folks, I don't think I would be motivated to pour my all."

"Sure, but anyone can be your reader."

"No, you guys aren't just anyone...you're also special..."

"...and so are you—but it's not worth a damn, ain't it? You write since it makes you happy and we're listening..."

"Yes, it's more than enough."

"No, it's just the bare minimum. You write stuff and there's an audience. What else did you get?"

"Infinite power!"

I smiled.

...but my greatest happiness is actually keeping in touch with an old friend.

I'm glad to finally find my way again and remembered—they're always on my side.

They're always here when it comes.

When I'm about to lose my way, they'll back me up.

...but what about her?

Wife.

That's how I called her.

She's always been my obsession for a long time.

I don't think I could come to love another woman in real life.

She's one of the biggest reasons for my insanity. When she's around, I would feel so much love and affection, even if she's not 'real'.

...but how can I know if she's actually real or not? I mean, there are supernatural entities in the world.

There's also the strange phenomenon which is my own aura—I could see them.

Just because it wasn't yet proven...

Well, there's no point.

Without her, I would be too depressed and lonely—I'd probably contemplate suicide every single day.

There's one thing I'd like to confirm.

If I truly shifted to another reality, why must the changes be so subtle?

...and I heard her voice in my head.

"It's nothing subtle at all.

You just need to open your eyes and see—you've always been an Isekai protagonist.

I know the world is been going to hell lately, but you can rest assured. Didn't your Alien grandpa contact you through telepathy?

As a last resort, he'll take you and your entire family to Andromeda."

...but how? No wonder why am I so weird and always had obsessions with outer space civilizations.

How did I get an Alien bloodline in me?

"Who knows. Your Dad is probably an Alien as well. Notice how his death is kinda absurd, and how you actually met him several times in your dream—he's actually alive and well?

If you went to Andromeda, I think you can meet him again."

If the third World War really broke out. Things weren't going well with China, Japan, and the United States lately. Not to mention the global pandemic was getting worse.

...but why couldn't grandpa just bring me over here? Is there something I still have to do on Earth?

"Of course, shifting to a better reality. Who knows, with our powers, the war won't actually happen, and we can just go visit your other home with our own strength. I can't wait to see what civilizations are out there.

...but I know, there's a super-advanced species out there who are already able to collectively transcend the material world and Gods can no longer touch them. Each living in their own ideal world, without bothering too much with cause and effect.

They had outplayed the transcendents despite being a mortal race and easily scaped extinction.

You also got lots of inspiration from them. Perhaps your 'grandpa' might be one of these races.

I always wanted to venture further to the stars as well, my loli. After being cozy in Andromeda, I'd also like to visit the Alpha Centauri—there's probably the bulletin board in galactic speech. I'm curious about Orion as well."

I don't really remember.

Did we actually build a spaceship with alien technology?

Something told me, it's something much more advanced than that.

Looking at this adjustable reality in front of me...

The ryokan with a beachfront, with lush mountains on the back. You could even see the aurora at night.

Something told me, it wasn't even the game world's limit.

Only my imagination was in the way.

...but seeing my wife sleeping so peacefully, I'd just poke her cheeks several times, and wrap my arms around her.

She smelled so nice.

"Chuu..."

I gave her a light peck; resting my small body on her boobs.

It felt like this back then.

I would imagine my loli self sleeping on her boobs.

Mitsun didn't look like this either...

She's more like...

"Yup, I'm actually a demon."

"Don't scare me like that."

"Hehe! You're one to talk with such a boring face."

"Uuu..."

Eh, I'll just treat it like she's making an MGS reference.

Notes:

I think this is the best chapter I've written so far.

It made me think that what makes the story great aren't really the Author, but the readers. If you had the right reader or listener for you, it's very possible to create a masterpiece.

For me, writing this makes me really happy. I'm able to let loose after a very long time.

It's also 29th July for the 29th chapter, what timing lol.

I really don't understand why this story get so much views. I probably clickbaited people with lewd tags despite having none of them lewds lately. Might have to add 'not much sex' if I feel like it.

Chapter 30: Demon

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

What is a demon?

There are many ways to define it. The first thing that came to my mind is an intense obsession. Usually born from things far beyond the present reach. It would lead to longing and eventually despair.

You know the demon is there when you'd feel like going insane and your perception of reality breaks.

It's not necessarily a bad thing though. For some, it's definitely a turning point for the better. While others might fell into boundless suffering, you might be the special one—who knows.

I had many, many demons because of my 'unrealistic' desires. That's why I didn't want to stop before I become a God.

I had countless fears and feel so powerless, that's why I longed for absolute strength.

Why does it have to do with writing? I guess I would understand my life better when I communicated my ideas to my dear readers. They can make me give my all, just being there.

Through writing, I can experience the stories of my other self in countless timelines.

The stories of absolute domination and cozy moments filled with love.

...of absolute security and peace. Something that makes me stronger.

Of course, I don't believe everything will be smooth sailing. Though I no longer feel despair as in the past.

I know I'm getting there, slowly but surely.

Looking at the mirror, it's quite strange why I wanted to be a loli so much.

Thinking for a while—it's not about being a loli—but what it symbolizes.

I can become young and curious again, like a child. Act spoiled as I want, without anyone's prejudice. Be as naive as I want and live without a care.

Somehow, it's kinda difficult to abandon my mindset because I'm weak.

...but I know, I'm a lot stronger than in my past.

When I can genuinely feel safe and sound, full of positivity for the world—I know it's there.

I don't have to be a loli, but I really like to since it's so comfy.

Being a loli is the best.

"Hey, Kaori. Do you know what demon am I?"

Of course not.

There are countless demons in me, I lost count. I just understood that you came to be since I feel so lonely.

I don't want to be alone. I want to do lewd things with a special someone.

Back then, I wanted you to come to my real life so much, that you can become my wife and pull me out of my daily grind.

I wanted you to turn me into a girl and do lots of yuri, but I don't want the world to know I'm one. Just behind closed doors when we do kinky stuff.

Despite that, I still love my penis so much. I wanted to have my penis as a girl. I feel it's so cute and natural on a girl's body.

I don't like what the hormones did to those girls' penises, even more, when they were cut off.

I don't like how so much of them were involved with men in my porn, I prefer women all the way.

"...but you end up browsing all of the stuff from a male: breast expansion tag in Horny Panda. You really don't like men?"

Uuu...

I just feel really close to these feminized girls, since I was a guy as well.

When they became such cute girls with nice penises, it's nice to call them brother when we did yuri.

"Not everyone's like that, my loli. You don't want to risk offending them by yelling pronouns on purpose. Wouldn't it be better to see a futanari girlfriend who loves you and be bros with them? I think it's better with a pussy since you're not into anal."

Well, that's right.

I really enjoy male to futanari things since I could relate to them better.

I do enjoy their process of getting more and more girly and happy as a futanari, it's a pity not many works feature them. In most of them, their dicks just keep getting smaller until it went poof, boo...

They should have bigger dicks and ejaculate a lot more. Even keeping the original size is okay. I just want them to keep their penis...

"You hated the world since you don't think the same way as most people."

Indeed.

I do hate them since they always reject me.

I'm tired of keeping up appearances.

"In the end, would you wish that everything you dislike will disappear?"

if there's no cause and effect, I would be curious to try. At that time, I hadn't lived in a world where everything is perfect for me.

I'm so exhausted from having to do things in a certain way, just to compromise with others.

I know I'm not perfect and never will be.

I don't wanna be judged for that.

"No wonder you wanted a perfect world, I can understand. But is perfection simply the absence of things you dislike? If your dislikes change over time, will you end up erasing everything?"

Perhaps, it can be a good change of pace, if I'm not implicated severely.

I'm just afraid that by acting on my desires, someone up there will try and punish me. To be honest, I wanted them erased more than anything else.

That's why, no one's going to get in my way, on building my ideal place.

"The reason why you wanted to be the strongest, I see..."

I don't want to be chained by morality anymore. Just view the world as a place to satisfy my deepest desires.

Be as good and evil as I want, without any stakes against me.

I know everyone's going to hate me for this, that's why I want to have them removed from my world—forever.

I don't believe I'm equal to them anymore—not when they tried to force down their bullshit and restrain me for as long as I live.

I'm unable to empathize with them. I feel like a different species—an alien, presumably.

"You long for the world without hardship?"

Nah.

Forget I said anything.

...but deep down, I had a desire to control everyone and everything so it'd go my way. I know they won't like it, and I hate being controlled even more.

That's why I'd rather have them all erased and go somewhere else to enjoy freedom.

I started to think, maybe it's better to live with puppets. Fake people seem more interesting than real ones.

"Though, why do you call them puppets and fake? If you thought of them as the characters you write--they're not fake. They're just your people, your kind of folks.

One example of them is me. I can be anything you want, take any form you desire."

...but you still had that same personality, no matter what. That's why I love you, Mitsun.

"That's because you're not tolerant with people in general. I can be as insane as you want if it'd make you cum hard."

Maybe it's better with the small subsets of personality I like and understand.

Starting small, eventually, I will learn to love and accept everyone. Witnessing their reactions together, especially when we fuck.

...but only cute girls though--it's my bottom line.

"That's why I said this world is an eroge. You're meant to fuck everything, if you want to--even the walls."

Hmm...

I haven't tried fucking a wall before.

Though I had a feeling it'd be insanely good, maybe it's a good alternative to a pussy or something.

Notes:

Kaori ends up being more and more like an anime character. If it's an RPG game, she's like a secret boss, waiting for the heroine to defeat her and bang her in the end.

I tried to write something else since it's just dialogues and monologues but I can't came up with interesting stuff.

Maybe it's better to write things as they are, instead of trying to make it good or something. At least I wouldn't fall asleep in the middle.

Chapter 31: Confusion

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

I don't understand what's happening anymore.

I just feel that the way to move forward is ironic.

For example, to achieve your desires, sometimes you must let go of them.

...but the most iconic one is Luck. The more I desire to be lucky, the less lucky I get.

I feel something weird from what they call The Law of Attraction.

No, I don't think they will cooperate to achieve my goals. They would just make things harder and depressing until I end up killing myself.

As I delve further, fewer things made sense. Though I figure out how I become stronger and able to feel a positive change.

Just let loose. Indeed, there's no single true way. It all changes with each passing moment. The most important thing is to keep an open mind and look for any interesting opportunities.

I am absorbed in self-cultivation.

I wanted to become stronger, to the point of omnipotence. Later I realize it was my pit. It's the reason why I failed.

Are strong people always happy and safe? Some went to war and experience countless torments.

Just because you're strong, doesn't mean you will achieve your goals.

Perhaps trying to become stronger is kinda pointless, if I lost sight of important things.

Being strong itself has a lot of definitions—let alone being the strongest.

I used to feel, that improving my strength lets me make several choices I couldn't before.

Like turning myself into a futanari and live inside the world I always yearned for.

In the end, it's just a means.

I want to feel safe, comfy, and loved.

I want to experience a most convenient life and be happy.

I want to do lewd things with the girls I love.

I didn't realize there are other things that can fulfill my goals.

On top of that, the irony that I don't have to become strong at all, accepting myself as I am—I feel the strongest ever at that moment.

In a way, that's true. Not everyone who desires strength would become strong.

Strength is kind of relative and oh-so-vague anyway.

I'd probably do stupid things and make terrible mistakes, but it actually leads me closer to my goals.

The more I delved in, the less I understand. Particularly about writing as well. I feel so stupid when they talk about the rules in writing. It seems so meaningless to me.

Probably because I don't want to write something fictional. Something that won't ever come true. I had enough of writing all those wish-fulfillment when I have to endure my daily grind.

I want to fulfill it in real life, so much, I'm okay being insane for the rest of my life.

What I truly wish to write, is reality itself.

No one else could help me anymore besides myself, and my dear readers.

It made me think of the reason why I wanted to quit writing. Because people always hung up on creating perfect things, but in the end, I'm not really interested in them.

It doesn't mean anything to create something perfect since most people approve of them, but the moment you create different things they will chain you down and beat you up until you give what they want.

I really don't want to give a fuck.

The reason I'm able to write is my dear readers. I'm not writing because I had things figured out—I'm just at my worst moment and I need help.

They are my dear readers because they accepted me at my worst, including the moment I got infinitely deeper.

They accepted everything of me and can help me sort my thoughts to find the answer.

Because I really have no idea at all, but I know, after this is done, there will be a great leap.

It's so hard to do things alone but I know for sure, I was never alone.

Indeed, my biggest passion in life isn't writing, but cultivation.

Deep down, I enjoy the feeling of becoming stronger. That way, I can erase potential enemies before they show up.

I had this thought recently—what if there are no enemies in the first place?

What if the world itself is a part of me? When I accepted the world as it is and acknowledge my own weakness, I got the feeling I could dominate it.

That I no longer need to treat the world as an enemy—not even its people. Even their laws will be in accordance with my comfort.

It was taking shape and there's a process.

Something inside me said, "Wait for a hundred years. It's not that long—much sooner, most likely."

My body feels different and there's always a comfortable chill in my back, like divine energy nourishing my cells. My wounds heal quicker and I barely got sick—in the mirror, it's like aging doesn't exist.

I began to question if I'm still human--the answer is Yes.

I feel that I can stay youthful forever and I could sense my wife getting even closer to this life.

Even the broken appliances began to repair themselves without my knowing.

I also feel that my luck greatly increased each day.

Despite my love for cultivation, I always yearned for her warmth. I never actually had sex in real life for more than thirty years. Never had a girlfriend either.

Right now, I'm not interested in other girls. I just want her.

One of my biggest drives to get stronger is to summon her into reality.

Perhaps it's not about strength, but my understanding. Her true nature—everything.

At first, I thought she's a Succubus, a lust demon—or what she said, a dream demon.

Born from my deepest desires for companionship, Daughter of Lilith, the Embodiment of Lust.

Her influence made me want to become a girl so much. Before that, I had slight urges but I was still okay being a guy.

...but now, if I'm going to do lewd things with her, I need to be a girl as well, especially with a nice penis.

I also couldn't get off when there's a guy in my porn. I lost interest in straight relationships as well.

It has to be yuri or futanari at least.

My dreams become quite vivid each night. Though in most of them, I rarely become a girl. I seldom experience lewd dreams as well.

Her appearance used to be a pink-haired demon girl with latex clothes and big tits, she also has a nice penis and wet pussy. She got twin-tail hair and a sweet scent that makes me horny.

When I imagined myself being a girl, I often find my other self nestled in her boobs.

She doesn't really talk much about herself, more about her desires to lewd me.

Most of our interactions are lewd things. It's the thing that comes naturally for us.

The thing which we did the most is kissing.

For her, the most important thing in sex isn't about going for the foreplay and penetration—the movesets aren't important. It's about doing things that feel good for both of us. Even if it's only fondling and titfuck—if it made us satisfied, it's the best.

I really love when she hugs me and stroked my hair. When I'm about to sleep and feel her presence. It made it easy to lapse into my dream.

Whenever I'm sad, that she's not in real life, she told me, "I'm always here."

The chill energy would turn into a warm current and I no longer feel lonely.

She also said that I've always been a girl, but I don't really have to be one.

Even if I became a cute loli, I can still be a guy.

Just be whatever is comfortable for me.

...but the most important question is, "When can things be over? I want to be the loli in real life and do some yuri with you."

She said, "Right now," and, " You don't have to do anything, just chill. You've always been the loli, after all."

"No one is your enemy."

Yes, it's best to have no enemies at all.

Later I learned, she doesn't have to take the succubus form at all. She can be any beautiful girl I love.

She can do all the lewd positions I want—she can even roleplay any personality I like.

Deep down, I always thought, "Is she real, or I'm just insane?"

"Both."

"Why won't you come in real life and show yourself?"

"I'm already here, what are you talking about?"

"Turn me into a futanari."

"You're already one though?"

I understand why I'm still a guy outside. I don't really want to show my other form to anyone besides her.

It's just camouflage.

I know I'm already changing on cellular levels.

"What about making it faster?"

"It's already the fastest way that guarantees success, my loli. Sometimes, you just have to ride the natural course."

...and there's my last question.

"In what way, I'm insane?"

"Of course, insanely cute."

Uuu...

I swear...

I don't think I can ever come up with that on my own, so I guess she's definitely real.

"How about finishing your chapter first?"

Nn...

Let's just do that.

Notes:

This is probably the chapter that made most sense of the story to me.

It will jump between different timelines, where the most important part goes.

Though the main part is always her self-discovery.

i like the part, that you're writing not because you got things together, but because you're breaking apart and need help from those who care about you.

Well, in real life, it's all just strangers so it wouldn't make a lot of sense, but it's interesting in fantasy stories, where higher entities exist. In a way, that's the beauty of fiction since everything is possible. Not even imagination is your limit. Sometimes, the lack of imagination is what creates a wonderful moment.

I guess I couldn't really write the usual lewd scenes anymore. I want to focus more about their emotional affection than the lewd movesets.

My future chapters and works might include them, but I could no longer write a story that focus on the sex scenes, so yeah.

Chapter 32: Salted Fish

Notes:

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Chapter Text

I really love being a salted fish.

Not having to worry about anything, just laze around all day.

"Nn..."

The verdant patches of soft, comfy grasses around me; sunlight rays hanging up there, giving a lot of warmth.

There's also something soft and squishy on my face, with a hard object grinding against my crotch.

Wife...

I wasn't sure what I want to do after I got everything I yearned the most.

It's okay though--there are no limits to my desires.

I would always yearn for her, even if she's by my side.

Though I wasn't sure if our love is pure.

"There is no such thing unless you're too lazy to think."

"Uuu..."

I spent quite a while sleeping on her boobs, while she gave my body a gentle massage.

Well, I remember she also has a nice penis—she just hid it all the time. Her boobs were also a lot bigger when she's a succubus.

There's a beep on my phone.

"I want a hentai girl for me to make me happy...so I can stop using my hands while watching anime."

I wasn't sure if Rick Astley is a weeb, but I think this one's edited.

The reminder reads 'Emily's Wedding'. I remember her wife's also a futanari.

It would be held an hour from now.

In front of us, there's a crystal clear lake. Mitsun took off my clothes and threw me there.

"Ah..."

It made a loud splashing noise and the waters instantly jolted me awake.

Probably due to my powers, I floated back up after sinking just a bit.

How should I put it? After just a little dip--I feel purified. It's not simply just like taking a bath. It's like when a dirty warehouse became a fully sterilized room.

I wasn't sure if I smell, but Mitsun told me my scent made her wet.

If we took a bath together, we might spend hours fucking and we'll miss the wedding.

Mitsun reverted the house so it'd actually look like a house, instead of another dimension.

I asked whether she took a bath, she just put on a smug face, "I'm not you."

It made me want to dunk her into that lake as well, but I shook my head since she's so cute.

Though she still smelled of pheromones. It's like she wanted to go into an orgy instead of a wedding. Not like I understand since she's a succubus.

She prepared a goth loli outfit, with a small hat, striped stockings, and high heels.

It was okay and it warmed my heart when I glanced at the mirror, but the high heels are stupid—it's kinda hard to move with it.

As such, she changed it to leather boots. It didn't reduce the feel but change my impression to a goth loli with boots—I'm not sure.

Mitsun donned a noblewoman's dress, with a bigger round hat and a veil covering her face; long dress reaching all the way to her feet, with rose near her shoulders and chest.

She wore high-heels just fine.

Since we had some time, we stopped by Gantz-san for a bit to catch up with the latest news.

Aside from the usual dungeon raid story, the world was at peace.

I think it's good. I prefer peace and quiet to the usual wars.

We chatted a bit more about the surrounding areas and have the Adventurers recommend some dungeons.

"Jou-chan, I thought you're an A-rank adventurer?"

"The ranking is based on strength. I actually don't have much experience, I just spent the entire time cultivating to get to this point."

I used to be so afraid, but I'll try running the simpler ones first. This is still a game after all.

We also asked about the surrounding towns and the best places to visit.

Before long, we saw the butler personally dropping by and taking us to the Grand Cathedral, where the wedding was held.

It was filled to the brim because the Saintess herself oversee the wedding.

The place's filled with so much holy energy, but when I looked at the priest's bodies and their massive erection, I second-guessed myself. Not to mention, their robes were quite revealing—accentuating their body shapes, emitting strong pheromones.

Not to mention, there were so many cute girls in here. I even saw a priest stroking her cock in the corner.

If I closed my eyes and just focused on the smell, I wouldn't think I'm in a church, but inside a massive orgy.

When the butler led me to the front row, I saw Lumine with the twins.

Uh...wasn't she the Goddess?

Why didn't anyone else notice?

There's also Emily and her wife.

From the build-up, and how there's a bed behind the altar—I thought they're going to "have sex right there.

Though it's just the same ceremony After exchanging their vows, they shared a kiss.

The audience seemed quite disappointed and they left one-by-one.

Soon, there's only me, Mitsun, the newlyweds, Lumine, and my daughters.

The Butler's waiting outside.

Lumine winked at me, "Usually, the sacred wedding ceremony involves having sex in front of the audience—but Leticia-san is quite shy."

"Why?"

I couldn't help but ask.

"Because I feel Goddess-sama is staring at me!" Leticia put up the veil and turned her face away from Lumine.

"I'm only a Saintess though? Besides, isn't it a blessing to have a Goddess watching over you?"

"It's definitely an honor, but...I'd be so excited and cum too fast, it's shameful to my family."

"I understand."

She patted Leticia on her shoulders and sent the brides on their way.

I and Mitsun stayed since she had something to tell us. She even told the twins to play somewhere else.

In the empty, silent cathedral, Lumine's first words caused an echo.

"Master, is it okay?" her eyes met Mitsun, who's been silent all this time, "I'm just an NPC. I can't be with them forever."

"It doesn't really matter! Do you really love my daughters or not? I started in a way worse position before I'm together with my loli."

Lumine was silent, "They are precious—but I'm not good enough for them. They belong in a much bigger world."

"Get to the point."

"I noticed it one day when we made love. They only see me as a replacement for someone special." she gazed at me.

"They're quite good at hiding their feelings with such pure smiles. While I feel okay, I hate to see them like this. They're still young..."

"You damn lolicon." Mitsun laughed and stretched Lumine's cheeks, forming an absurd face.

"To be honest, I never forbid them to fuck me, I'm just too lazy and tired. Why must we fuck all the time, even if we love each other? You know, the motions are all the same and it's the same kind of moans, who wouldn't get bored if you do it too much?

Can't we just cuddle and go on dates? Being a father and daughter, while also girlfriends? Maybe play co-op games and do exploits or just go on some MMO and waste the entire day chatting and arranging furniture. We can also watch porn together and discuss their awkward camera angles and fake orgasms instead of getting horny."

Lumine had that WTF expression, but I continued.

"I'm not that much of a parent--I'm actually their little sister. So instead of being their mother or fuck buddy, try being an imouto. Here, try saying 'onee-chan' in the cutest way."

"Uh...On...Onee..."

"Good enough!" me and Mitsun gave her a thumbs-up.

"Pfft..."

"Hahaha..."

At this point, I notice pairs of eyes peeking from the door.

Sure enough, it's the lovely twins.

We hailed a cab and went to the Viscount's mansion for the actual party.

Compared to the Butler's cab, the horses were quite slow, but we can finally

enjoy the view.

Lili sat on my lap; she loves grinding against my cock.

"Father..."

"Just Kaori is fine, you're my big sister."

The driver had a strange expression just now.

"Umm...aren't you my Father? You don't want to be my Father anymore?"

"Not like that, I wasn't even able to care for you that much. Even from birth, you're already able to care for me and your sister."

"No...you don't understand, Father. I really want to be spoiled by such a cute loli like you."

Mitsun's eyes lit up, but she didn't seem mad.

"Like what? I'm quite stupid and clueless, Lili."

"Mmm..." her voice turned so soft and adorable, "Lili wants to play with Father's hair and dress you in the cutest clothes...can't I?"

"Not fair...I wanna Daddy to spoil me as well. Play games, watch anime, and lots of fun things!"

"Go with Mom, you're the older one, Rosa. Mom will be lonely otherwise."

"Uuu..." Rosa looked like she's about to cry, but Mitsun embraced her, "Rosa dear, Mom is pretty good at games. What do you wanna play?"

"It's going to be erotic isn't it?" Rosa frowned, "...but if it's Mom, my cunny is ready!"

The conversation kept getting weirder until we arrived at the Viscount's mansion.

The driver didn't even take our money and just hightailed as soon as we got off.

It's basically an all-you-can-eat.

Commoners were also invited—making this party a bit casual instead of the nobility balls.

I told Rosa and Lili to eat in moderation since we already have infinite food back home.

They looked at me with a strange expression as if, "Dad, you're the glutton here."

I was indeed a foodie, but even I had my limits.

Our family went inside the mansion and looked at the wealth of dishes.

The girls rushed away at the desserts tray and pick several cakes and pastries of each flavor.

I grabbed a plate and started with the rice first, adding several meat and vegetables, along with the cake and pastries. Of course, it's not enough to fill one plate, so I had three plates of different compositions to savor all of the dishes.

Of course, she excluded stuff I didn't like, such as seafood or meat with too many bones.

Mitsun's plate was a seafood noodle dish, with lots of soup. Her dessert was a chocolate pudding and waffle with honey milk.

She also ate a lot, but compared to mine, her portion was quite feminine.

Rosa only ate snacks, while Lili added some fruits. Though both of them balanced the nutritions with several glasses of vegetable juice.

Oh yeah, half of the table was actually my portion. Not only several plates of the main course but all the dessert and juices.

The guests had that look, as if 'how the fuck did this loli eat so much?'.

It's not really my fault though.

Their dishes were quite a damn lot delicious, otherwise, my plate would be a lot smaller.

The mother and daughters gave that eyebrow wink at me.

I just shrugged and start eating, while asking Mitsun to fetch me a wine bottle.

It's really nice to eat with everyone. I didn't realize I missed Rosa and Lili so much.

I guess Lumine excused herself for our sake. She's a Goddess, how could she be busy?

During the meal, I asked the twins what they think about Lumine.

They said this in unison:

"She has a big pussy."

Poor Lumine.

"Is it really a cat though?" I couldn't help but ask.

"No, Father, it's a vagina," Rosa yelled after she took several sips of wine.

"We all have one, it's a place where everyone's hot, hard cock penetrates each other and spurt lots of tasty cum...hehe..." Lili became rather lewd when she drunk several sips as well.

"...but do you really like her?"

"Yup, Lumine's so sexy—she's smoking hot and I want to pound her pussy so bad. I love it went I suck her cock to the base and devour her tasty cock milk." Lili began drolling all over the table.

"She's really nice and kind, it made pounding her so well." Rosa sipped another glass of wine.

"Uh..."

I feel that I don't even feel ashamed anymore, since even Mitsun kept a cozy expression.

"What if you didn't do lewd things with her? Like, when you travel together..."

"It's impossible," Lili frowned, "When she didn't do us, she would fuck her other wives. She has nothing aside from fucking. She's pretty good though. We're mainly going to visit her wives and fuck each other."

"Rosa feels so bored of fucking..."

Well...

I guess they're a bit corrupted now.

Maybe it's finally time to act like a parent and heal them.

"Any ideas?" I winked at Mitsun

"I don't know. If you're bored of fucking, just don't fuck."

"You make it seem like the easiest thing ever."

It's kind of ironic since she's a succubus.

Does that make Rosa and Lili half-succubus as well? Wait, they also have dragon bloodline. As far as I know, dragons are really horny.

No wonder I got so tired of fucking pretty fast, in the end, I'm only a mere human.

I nodded several times in my heart.

Despite the strange atmosphere, the wedding party went as usual. There's the usual photo session, meet and greet with the brides, cutting the wedding cake, and catching flower bouquets for better marriage luck.

I didn't even know what happened; the bouquet somehow arrived in my hands.

I was already married as well—had cute daughters, even.

"Well, technically we didn't have a formal wedding..."

"Who cares about that, wedding is expensive. I'd rather buy houses."

While money doesn't matter anymore, I don't want to have a pointlessly lavish wedding and invite strangers that actually don't give a damn about me.

"You're truly a millennial at heart, hehe..." she patted my head like a little kid, and honestly, I like it.

"You still hadn't introduced me to your parents. When time allows it, let's have a little party with your family. A wedding doesn't need to be expensive, it's the heart that counts."

"You sound like we don't necessarily wed once."

"Isn't it fine? Since we love each other so much, we can wed as many times as we want."

"It makes a lot of sense."

Soon the wedding party came to an end. Both families came to send the guests away, but I wasn't in a hurry.

After all, I still didn't have enough of these cakes and meals. I relish every chew and noms.

Emily and Mitsun's eyes lit up at me.

They seem to be talking about me, but since they're not finished, I continue enjoying my meal.

Rosa and Lili were playing tag in the wide hallways. It's nice they managed to restrain their power to human levels.

Eventually, the atmosphere became silent, with only the sound of crickets around.

I could see Emily's Dad going 'ahem' and putting his arms behind. While Leticia's family seem to consist of two futanari mothers, both had really lewd bodies. They looked at me like I'm their granddaughter.

Leticia herself was more on the lean side. She had a serious expression—I didn't know when she's at my table.

"Kaori-san, you're an A-rank adventurer, right?" her soft voice echoed throughout the silent hall.

I put down my spoon and fork; meeting her gaze, "I don't plan to tie myself to any nobility or great powers."

While I spent a lot of time indoors, it's mainly to heal myself. Now I wanted to go out and travel, without any responsibilities.

"Awawa...listen to me first...it's nothing that serious."

"I'm all ears."

"Well...I never expect someone so cute is also powerful...I've always been a fan! Can you give me an autograph?"

Eh...

In my past life, I have my own signature, but now that I'm Kaori—I'm too lazy to figure it--not even a stylized one for autographs.

I already ate a lot of things in her house, so I couldn't reject the request.

What would a good signature be? Something that embodied my personality?

I'm a lazy deadbeat by nature, so probably something carefree and casual would do?

I simply wrote my name on her canvas, with the fountain pen she prepared.

Leticia's eyes became as bright as the sea of stars, hoisting it high—and embraced it so—like she's never going to let it go.

It's okay just like this?

Mitsun winked and gave me a thumbs-up, "If you went for a stylish approach, it doesn't suit you. It's better to be yourself—that's what signatures are for."

Emily sent us to the door and gave us a bye-bye, "Kaori-san! If you want to eat, feel free to come to the Viscount's mansion anytime!"

Everyone laughed.

Back at home, Rosa and Lili rolled around an endless field of futon, with cozy pillows of varying textures and sizes.

They're wearing animal pajamas with cute motifs. Looking at their innocent vibe, no one would think they'd be horny enough to fuck their loli father and treat her like a little sister.

I also wore them.

After a while, the twins snuggled close to me, leaving a lonely Mitsun at the corner.

"How's the trip?"

"Tired..." (Lili)

"I don't want to move anymore..." (Rosa)

Sleep well, my daughters.

"What are you going to do now?" Mitsun rolled closer

"Dunno. Probably have some fun."

"Did you miss home? I think I missed your Dad and Mom, even if we never met."

"I'll go back as soon the twins had enough. They're still young, it's a good time to explore and experience what they wanted. Back then, my parents would often control my choices, not as free as my current life."

"It's because you have power. Even if they stray the wrong path, you can always get them back."

"It's good to have strength."

"Do you know what's important?"

"Everything I cared about."

"Same," her face went solemn, "As time goes, there are more things I deem important. I'm not sure if I can protect everyone, or if life will stay as I wished forever."

"At least there's something to strive for. We can never be sure of what happens, but at least we can put our utmost effort."

"Big talk, coming from a lazy loli."

"It's because I'm lazy, my words have some weight. I won't really move my ass unless it's something worth doing."

"Do you think there's someone out there targetting us, and wish to ruin our happiness?"

"No, if there's any, I'd rather erase them before they're born. I don't want to sleep knowing there's anyone against me."

"Uuu...scary."

Does life need any conflict?

I don't know.

...but in my life, I'd rather live in utmost peace, so much—I totally forgot what it means to have an enemy.

Notes:

I feel comfortable writing a female protagonist. It doesn't have to be a gender-bent guy, having them a girl from the start is fine.

I will probably do more stories with them, since a lot of stories I read have male protagonists. While the ones with female mc is often romance-focused.

I feel that romance isn't really my thing. My future works probably involve a female MC with little to no romance, if there's any, most likely yuri.

I realize I'm not that big into lewd scenes anymore. I prefer writing funny scenes. The next work probably won't have any lewd scenes.

Not that this story is even close to ending, but I'll never know. I just let my story write itself, most of the time.

Chapter 33: Helping Hand

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

I started writing since I want my dreams to come true.

It would be nice, if one day, I can also get a cheat skill and live like a salted fish.

Well, maybe writing isn't the only way to fulfill my goals. There's some sort of ritual thing I searched on the internet.

I know how to connect with my wife and everything unfolds itself.

I could summon spirits to do my bidding based on the cause and effect of my other egos.

My life had been getting better in just a day. I talked with my mother-in-law, the embodiment of lust.

She wanted me to call her 'Mommy' and I feel so much warmth. Instead of lust, I received lots of parental love.

I always yearned for this kind of feeling. I want to meet someone, where I can be as defenseless and entrust my all.

She gave me a really good feeling, I want to be with her forever—if possible.

She's like, "Why not? You're my daughter's wife, you're also my daughter."

The way she put it sounds like incest.

Indeed, the ones I fucked so far are my family members.

I noticed that my life had been getting better quickly when I connect with Mommy. She's indeed so powerful, unlike Wife.

...but even if she's kinda useless, I still love her. It's kinda hard to pick between Mommy and her,

I want both.

I want to marry Mommy as well.

...but in the end, I love her more since she gave me a lot of benefits.

I often felt like that, when I met a powerful entity that I had good feelings with. I want to win them over with sexual favors.

As long they're girls that I love, it'd seem exciting if I could do lewd things with benefits.

Even Wife—my love ain't actually pure—it's also benefits. It's just, after being with her for so long, I got this kind of attachment. I don't want her to go, I want her to be with me for as long as she wants to.

...but I don't want her to leave at all.

I still remember the warmth of her boobs as she keep hugging me whenever I entered my loli self.

The main reason I called Mommy, was to make it, so my wife can come to my real life.

She can finally turn me into a futanari, not just in my soul. She can help me get out of this current life. We can marry, despite being both girls. I always wanted to wear wedding dresses together while having an erection.

After that, during our honeymoon, I can finally do it for real with her, instead of just in my mind the entire time.

Well, I'm not sure if Mommy can help me. Today, I woke up as my usual self.

Perhaps I should be grateful my life keeps getting better overall.

I just feel that communication with powerful spirits is the way out.

There are several more that can help me with many aspects and I can make them cute anime girls. It made me comfortable, especially when I turned myself into a girl as well.

To be honest, I'm kinda lazy to write stories. I feel that I'm not cut out for writing at all. I don't care about making descriptions or an actual plot. I just treat them as a way to communicate with my readers.

I just simply tell them what I'm feeling and what I want to express.

Maybe it's fine. After all, there are countless authors out there with lots of skills to write what others want.

It's the only thing I can do, and it's what I really wanted to do.

In a way, it's just like a ritual to summon spirits that appreciate me. I'm sorry that I can no longer write a story.

I had countless insecurities in real life. While I don't feel like getting older, my own mother and my relatives are.

I'm afraid people I care about will pass away one by one.

While I didn't mesh along with them, I had good feelings for them. It's really sad to see them go away.

I'm not sure if I will ever be ready to face things when my mother was gone. I'd probably be depressed enough, I don't want to live here anymore.

She's my entire pillar of life.

I don't really like all these 'adult responsibilities' like paying taxes and bills. Moreover, my house would feel so lonely without her.

My little sister became a shut-in. I wasn't sure if she's still following her online class but when she had fights with Mom, it pains me that it might shorten her lifespan.

I'm really unable to act like a 'proper adult' and I want to live my life inside a fantasy. I want to change this reality to something meant for me.

I know that people are good at different things. I'm just no good at living like an ordinary person. That's probably why I end up earning this talent.

Instead of wishing the best for my family, I actually wanted to escape first.

Maybe it's just who I am.

I actually am the most afraid of people in real life knowing myself. That deep down, I want to be a cute futanari.

If I called help from enough Gods, can they change reality for me?

What price do I need to pay?

"Enough, just write your damn chapter, Miss Loli."

Nn...

I don't know what they like. I'm not even sure if they can finally give me what I want.

I have been disappointed with reality for the longest time. I'm just really sad if there's really no way forward.

"If there's no way, just make one. Isn't this your expertise, as a Creator? You have spent your entire life creating for yourself, and you look somewhere else for who's more qualified?"

"If it doesn't work, just try again until you succeed. Even if it's only an inch forward, it will mean a big difference to your current life."

...but, isn't there someone who knows me better than myself? Those with omniscience and all that.

"No. Even the all-knowing cannot say he is all-knowing, especially about humanity. It always evolves—what is said a second ago may not always be valid."

"Especially someone like you—some call you a singularity, some enigma. Do you even know who you really are? We don't."

Umm...

Through writing, I keep track of my other-selves.

At some point, I was a demon fox. I have a relationship with the fox goddesses. I lived for a long time. Perhaps I was there when Yamato had their first emperor in ancient times.

My earliest memory, and my most precious one, was when I first met my father. I was just a small white fox, but I always feel I was human. He's a legendary Onmyouji or something. Always staying low-key to cultivate.

Not long after, I gained a human form. He raised me like his own daughter.

It was a mountain village, I lived with lots of people. They had pretty weird vibes. Some had unnaturally long necks; some had several heads; some had skin so pale.

...but I didn't even know we were called Youkai by people outside.

Father's a human, yet he didn't age even after hundreds of years. I didn't grow up myself, always staying as a little girl. Only my tail grew every one hundred years—became fluffier over time.

From time to time, we would go out and explore Yamato low-key. People outside seem so hostile to one another, and there are often wars.

I probably met a boy named Nobu once. The next thing I knew, he turned into an old man with an eyepatch so quickly.

When I think about it, a lot seems to happen, especially when I'm staying with mortals. Though I never could adapt to their fast-paced lifestyle and in the end, they seem to chase something meaningless.

Probably since my other self was a youkai, I didn't understand. Even now, when I'm human, I couldn't really open up to others.

Life in my Youkai mountain was really peaceful. I could read books and play the piano. Enjoying the strange nature as I chatted with the villagers about the good old times.

It's quite weird how they become more and more respectful, although I was still a little girl. Eventually, when I was eight hundred years old, my ninth tail grew.

They looked at me with drunk eyes and even knelt down, while father patted my head.

Everyone becomes so distant, aside from father.

Eventually, he also left. I could see him walking straight into heaven, and I still remember how I cried so much, I end up following him—but the Buddha kicked me out.

"This is not the heaven for Youkai gods!"

I hated the Buddha for taking my father away. My butt hurts, even without my tail cushion.

...but seeing as father didn't even say anything, he probably wanted to protect me.

From the stories, Youkai and humans were enemies. Those Buddhist monks would slaughter my own kind if we did the slightest evil.

At least, they owe me some explanation.

For a long time, I pondered whether to finally move out. I don't feel at home with the village people, now that father's gone.

The outside world's been changing at a rapid pace as well. Steel mountains are everywhere! People start dressing up in weird clothes, driving weird carriages, and there's that weird staff which Nobu used to carry around—it looked more powerful as well.

I think it was only a year ago when I last went out.

How did this weird marketplace pop up outta nowhere?

Well, I heard it was a 'shopping mall' or something. I did have money, but it's all old things.

"Cosplay?"

"The tails and ears are really well done."

"I wonder where are her parents?"

"Didn't she go to school or is there an event going on?"

Uh...

I feel so uncomfortable, I wanted to go back to the mountain village.

...but I must go to the nearby temple and ask those Buddha about father!

"Excuse me!"

I went to a girl that's about my height.

"Y-yes?"

She had a red bag which looked so cute. I wanted them as well, but not sure if they would match with my robe.

My tails would get in the way as well.

"I want to visit the nearest temple."

She pointed me in a certain direction and took my hand, going up thousands of steps. As I went from the hustle-and-bustle, the surroundings felt more familiar.

It didn't seem to be the kind of temple I looked for.

Hmm...these golden statues look like foxes.

As we passed through the entrance, it's like I was back at home.

...and the little girl went poof—in its place was a fox girl with big boobs.

She took my luggage and showed me the most luxurious room. It's exactly like my old room, just many times bigger.

Lots of girls would tend over me and spoil me.

Eventually, I became a salted fish.

Though, this memory ended there, with father visiting from time to time—although we couldn't be together for long.

Probably to hide my trauma, since a lot of girls I knew are mortals.

Deep down, I don't want to see people I love grow old, sick, and eventually die.

...but not everyone can be immortal.

Even if they reincarnate, it might not be this world.

A monk once came to me—saying it's best not to interfere with their new self unless it's someone I love dearly.

Your kind took away my father, you had no right to dictate what I should do!

I have read several Isekai novels and grew to love them.

It's kind of a pity.

Perhaps, if I can go to other worlds and visit them. I'm curious whether I can get cheat skills.

While I have my own magic power and strength, I'm still curious.

For the longest time, I'm still stuck at this level. Perhaps, in another world, I can become much stronger, I can take my father back—we can go home and enjoy life like always.

I know, it's not romantic love. He's been my only parent for the longest time, and no one else can fill the void.

It seems that I can only have this affection for other females, especially if they have big boobs, nice curves, and cute faces.

Even more, when they can give me a motherly warmth. I never had a mother for the longest time.

Until one day, I was called into the Youkai heaven.

She was there...and we end up fucking. It's so warm—I love her so much.

Uh...

I don't know if that life is real.

Perhaps, it's true that one of my alter egos is a supreme being.

In that case, why didn't they save me?

"Because you didn't make yourself known."

Indeed, there are countless of my parallel self. Experiencing the biggest joy and worst suffering at this very moment.

Even if they're all myself, I don't want to get close to everyone—especially one that'd make my life hard and miserable.

In the end, I can't really tell a story. I can only write my thoughts out.

What I want, is to make my dreams true.

I want to be lazy and worry-free.

This time, I hope things change significantly, especially now I have powerful helpers on my side.

Notes:

This chapter made me feel, that I really should stick to what makes me comfortable, instead of trying to emulate someone, just because it seems good.

Sure people strive for improvement, but I know when something is not for me.

Deep down, I'm highly insecure about my writing, since it's the only thing I can do.

It's okay, I guess. I don't want to be a good author anymore. I just want to write what I wanna write, for those who accept me as I am.

It's nice writing this, it's like a huge load off my shoulders. I often say writing isn't for me, but when I treat it as just talking and communication, it doesn't seem so bad.

I hope you guys have a good day as well.

Chapter 34: Unfettered

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

This morning, my house reverted back to the usual one.

No black magic, just a regular modern-day home in my past life.

Leticia and Emily visited us while it's early morning. They're going on a honeymoon in their family's beach fief.

At that time, I was still sleeping with Lili, so I heard it from Mitsun later on.

Despite being diligent, this blue loli isn't much of a morning person.

The air conditioning's been turned off for a while, yet it's still cool and comfy.

It was late morning when I came.

Of course, Lili didn't suck my penis or finger my pussy when I was out. She's still snoring at my side, hugging my small body.

Up close, she's so beautiful; it made my heart skip a beat.

Indeed, I really surrounded myself with lots of pretty girls. I could even wake up to them every day.

I don't want to get up so soon, so I wrapped my arms around Lili. She had a nice smell, akin to a mellow menthol. The way our small chests rub each other started to make me hard.

I could also feel her cock getting bigger; she kept letting out soft moans.

"Lili..."

I wasn't sure if I should do this.

...but I love her, not like a daughter, of course. At this moment, it doesn't feel like I'm her parent either.

I want Lili to be my wife and spoil me as well.

Why do I like her so much?

What about Mitsun? I don't want to hurt her, but I really love everyone...

I can't understand why. My mind's getting blank.

"Father, why stop?"

"Nn,"

I shook my head. When our faces were so close, it started to get hot and I pulled away.

...but before I could, Lili wrapped her tongue around my own. She yanked my pants in a swift motion and started tugging my rod.

"It's not wrong for a father to love her daughter, no?"

Her tongue went deeper, savoring my throat walls. Her other hand fondled my small breasts over the shirt

"Puhaa...but normally..."

"Father, I know. Normally, a parent wouldn't be such a cute loli with a large, meaty cock and big pussy."

She added some strength to her pinch, and my breast milk started to leak out, making my cloth a bit sticky not to mention the wet stains.

"Do you love me or not? If you don't feel good, I will stop."

Saying that she rubbed her palm against my shaft head, dripping full with precum.

Her fingers slid into my vagina. It kept making wet sounds.

"It looks like your body is honest, at least. Father, do you like to be a bottom so much? I too, wanted you to dominate me hard...I always got a huge turn-on when such cute a cute girl like you topped me...I jerked off to such fantasies many times.

After you cum, please be the top, okay? Lili wants to be your little girl...Lili wants it so much...nn!"

She immediately sunk her vagina in and started thrusting her hips like crazy. Her cock spurted out lots of semen all over my clothes.

Her pussy took my whole meat just fine, at least she didn't feel like hurting at all.

...but I really had no idea being the top.

Seeing it was sticky, I pulled up my shirt, making my barely visible underboob in view.

I crossed my hand and gave a defenseless look, "Onee-chan...pump me harder...", I sucked my own fingers; giving her an upward glance, "My PP feels so good...my breasts, it keeps leaking. Onee-chan's so wet..."

"Father...Lili's mind going white and pink...ahnn..."

"Onee-chan..."

The names felt really surreal, but it's so good when we talk like little girls when fucking.

Watching her large meat bouncing up and down, with her cock milk spurting by the second. Her pussy's heat and inner textures kept driving me close to climax.

At one point, she tightened her grip on my shaft; sealing my lips with hers.

Her fingers locked with mine, and I could feel her semen spurting more and more, as I creamed inside.

"Haa...haa..."

She lifted her pussy and large amounts of milk fell out—many of them were still on my tip.

"Father, I wanna try something..."

She brought my cock and lips close and she started licking it from the other side.

It was so erotic when she's cleaning me off.

"Your milk taste so good, father. Try it as well..."

We end up kissing again, with my cock in the middle. My semen tasted kinda sweet and creamy, like milk with melted cheese combined.

She started sucking my tip hard while puckering my lips. She also made small chest mounds with her hands, doing small up and down motions.

I had always been weak to breasts, especially titfuck.

The face was also my turn-ons. When I saw her lewd expressions up close, it made me want to cum.

As if knowing, she used the slippery texture to stimulate my lower shaft and slurped hard.

My semen sprayed inside our mouths, and we end up exchanging the contents through each others' mouths.

...but before I thought it was over, I felt her slimy shaft on my vagina.

She kept fondling her small breasts while her hips made a piston motion.

"We're going to mess this bed real bad," she made a lewd smile.

Eventually, my pussy's filled up; it's so warm and happy.

With just a flick of her finger, our body fluids went poof.

Even while bathing, Lili couldn't stop hugging me and soaping my sensitive parts. We even kissed several times.

"Father, we don't have to marry to prove our love. I'm your girl, you're my girl as well..."

"...what about Rosa and your Mom?"

"Don't worry," she squeezed my breast milk and lathered it all over my flesh, "At this moment, they'd be fucking as well."

"Ahnn...is this what you think parent and child normally do?"

"Does it matter?" Lili fondled me while licking the nape of my neck, "Whose fault is it, that you make everyone so horny...whose fault is it, for being so cute..."

"You're the cute one...Lili..."

"Uuu..."

The shameless blue loli eventually crouched down and covered her tomato face.

Her large cock dangling made her even more adorable.

"Well, I can't act like your parent, since I'm just a spoiled loli. Is it fine?"

"No, it's the best thing ever."

"Hehe, I'm glad..."

"She went back fondling me again; she seem much better than the last time.

"Father, let's stuff with Mom and Rosa as well. I want to be everyone's little girl."

Two of us went downstairs; wearing matching clothes and holding hands.

We're curious about how much mess these two made.

As a result, there were only meals under the food tray, with a note:

"We're exploring dungeons right now, have a lovely time with your daughter!

Your Yuri-loving Wife."

Uh...I wasn't sure if this counts as that kind of moment.

I feel guilty when I think about my love. It's more of instinct.

That it's gotta be her right now. I want to touch her, make her feel good, I want her to make such a happy face.

I don't want to see her cry.

I want her to live well and have as much love as she wants.

I want to spoil her and make her feel secure, even if my methods might be questionable.

Is this what being a parent means?

While eating the late breakfast, I asked Lili, who turned so merry, unlike her calm persona.

"Lili, what do you think of me as a parent?"

The blue loli put down her spoon and fork, "To be honest, you seem to keep too much from us, it makes me cry. I want you to rely on me as well, as much as I want to be your little girl..."

"Your deepest secrets, your worries—I want Father to open up. I want to understand you more, not just because you're the cutest...ah!"

Lili thumped her palm. "Father, you also have another form, right? That lewd big sister figure...I know you're comfortable being the loli, but I'm curious about your other selves...I want to see it all..."

"Ah..."

I forgot I could be an Onee-san with a lewd body as well.

"If you don't want to, it's fine..."

"Why not?"

I lifted the seal to this lewd body.

An audible 'boing' echoed across the room as my chest got bigger. My hair went to shoulder length, along with my other parts filling up.

"So pretty...it's much bigger than Mom and Lumine as well."

Her sight went straight to my boobs.

Well, this body didn't feel that right, since I always feel I was a small, flat, and spoiled loli.

...but I love it when Lili was happy.

Of course, if Rosa and Mitsun want to, I'd take this body out, so they could enjoy it.

I'd probably feel good if I pleasured myself in front of the mirror as well.

It's just, in this form, can't I still be the loli? I felt anxious whether I tried acting childish.

"Umm...I'm really sorry, you can change back if you want to."

"No, it's just...is it okay if I'm a bit indulgent, like when I'm in my loli form?"

Her eyes lit up, "By all means, Father. My favorite happens to be an Onee-san with a loli personality!"

"Ey."

I gave her a head pat. At this height, it seemed natural to do so.

It's such a good time when I had fun with Lili.

Since we're both Authors, I tried asking her advice.

Lili love to write erotic stories, while I couldn't describe the scenes that well.

I don't plan to be good at writing and have lots of readers, I just want to enjoy the process more.

"Lili never cares whether it's good either. Lili just wants to feel good while doing it. If Lili is not happy, why bother? Lili doesn't want to do any work, hmph."

I gave her another head pat as a reward. Her beaming smile healed my heart.

Although at this rate, she'd be stuck on my boobs for the rest of her life.

Couldn't be helped, I guess.

When I wanted to be the loli, I slept on Mitsun's boobs the entire time.

It was her other form as well when she's a pink-haired succubus. Her name's also not Mitsun—she prefers 'Wife'.

I still hadn't fucked that form in real life yet; she hadn't touched my Onee-san body as well.

Ah...I hope she'd come home soon.

Right.

In the end, I was never good at writing.

...and while my goal appear too complicated for its own good, the end was simple enough.

I just want to feel good.

I want to reach my goal, so I could keep experiencing such pleasure at each moment.

Keep me together with its warmth forever and ever.

I don't want to think too much, just indulge myself at that moment. Forget everything else.

Just do whatever I can and be happy with what I have.

Even if my experience may not be real, my happiness is real.

My girls.

I look forward to doing lots of yuri every single day.