As I watched them walk to their car parked on the street, Eva looked over her shoulder and waved at me sadly. I gave her a small wave back as I forced myself to turn and walk towards the parking lot; my feet weighed down with every step I took away from her.

How could I possibly tell her why I had to give her up? How I had given her up for adoption because I had been broken at the loss of her father. How a horrible man had killed him because he had helped me after making a stupid mistake.

Grabbing the keys from my pocket with shaky hands, I opened my car door and got in. I let out a breath I had no idea I was holding in and started the ignition, just as Jay pulled his car into the spot next to me.

"Hailey." I heard his muffled call as he quickly got out of his SVU. I knew he was my partner and I should fill him in on everything. Right now I couldn't. My mind was overloaded with thoughts I couldn't seem to process. I needed time to think about my daughter coming back into my life. I needed time to think about what I was going to tell him and everyone else about my past with Garrett. Not even my family knew I had been pregnant. All they knew was I had been deep undercover. Now that part of my life was coming back to haunt me, and the situation was a lot more complicated than I thought it would ever be.

He rounded his car as we shared one fleeting look before I pulled out of the precinct. I knew by the concern in his eyes that he wanted to talk and see how I was doing. However, I was not in the mood to talk to him right now. Instead, I made the automatic drive home, ignoring my phone each time it rang and ended up home before I wanted to be there.

When I pulled into my driveway and turned off the ignition, I felt like I could no longer function. My mind automatically raced towards what it would be like to be a mom. What it would be like to have somebody to come home to. How strange it would be to have someone living with me.

By the time I got inside, I had three missed calls from Jay. Instead of calling him back, I set my phone on the counter and sat back against the living room couch with a hefty sigh.

Would I really be able to be a mother if Eva came back into my life? I never had parents who tucked me into bed at night or made me a good meal when I was hungry. Instead, I helped make the meals, helped tuck my younger brother into bed and comforted him when he had nightmares. I had grown up only knowing what I never wanted to be as a parent. That's why I fought so hard to give Eva two loving parents who could give her everything she wanted or needed.

Oh, how my mind was spinning with thought after thought similar to the last. I wanted her to have the chance to grow up in a good home, even if that meant sacrificing and not seeing her grow up.

My headache had grown worse than this morning and I felt the urge to lean my head back and close my eyes. When I woke again, three hours had passed and I now had six missed calls from Jay. Someone was incessantly pounding on my door, which probably was why I had awoken in the first place.

"Come on, Hailey. I know you're in there." Came Jay's muffled but irritated response from the other side of the door.

"Want to tell me why you're banging on my door like a crazy person?" I hissed as I crossed the room to open the door to let him in so my neighbors didn't witness some shouting match with my work partner. "I told you—"

"Yeah, I know." He interrupted, raising his eyes to mine. "You're fine, right?"

"I didn't say that." I closed the door behind us before walking back to the living room and sat back down in the place I had fallen asleep.

"You didn't have to." The smell of his cologne filled the room as he settled on the couch beside me. I wasn't liking where this conversation was going. "Hailey, when I saw you this morning, you looked completely scared out of your mind. Now that doesn't seem like it should matter, except I know you. You don't let much rattle you, even when things get hard." He turned his head like he was collecting his thoughts about all this. "Not to mention you have an insanely annoying intuition about what others need." I cursed the fact that I couldn't lie. Even though I wasn't ready to reveal that I had Eva, I longed for the day I had someone to trust enough to reveal she existed.

"Last night you asked me if I loved Garrett." I drew in a deep breath, curled my legs underneath my body as I moved away from the fact I was hiding the biggest secret I had ever kept. "I loved him so much I thought we had a future together." Another fleeting look told me he knew that feeling all too well, yet I wasn't quite ready to expand on that thought just yet.

"How did you two meet?"

"We were paired together by my boss, Arthur Carson. From the moment we met, were assigned to work with Jeff Rafferty and gather intel on Booth. The four of us spent months trying to find a way in. When we finally realized he had a thing for pretty women with a past that's when we knew how to get in with one of the dirtiest criminals."

"That's when you became Kelly."

"I traded being undercover in Michigan to Chicago. Garrett and I had worked together a few times before going undercover. So when we paired up on this case with Booth, we started acting like a real-life couple so we didn't have to pretend around Booth."

"Considering Booth was hard to get in with the first place-"

"Booth did everything he could to test Garrett before letting him in, and every time he passed with flying colors. I think it made Booth crazy that he couldn't find anything to show Garrett wasn't who he said he was."

"I'm guessing you didn't have to do as much on your end."

"Booth asked questions to make sure I was consistent with everything he found on me as well, but nothing like he was doing to Garrett. He would find little ways to make sure he wasn't around more and more and would send him on errands, like picking up packages from his P.O. box. When he wasn't doing that, he was grilling him with questions in hopes somewhere down the line he would mess up."

"Sounds like he was trying to pin anything on him."

"And he got what he wanted. I should have never been alone with Booth in the first place, but we were getting so close to nailing him and getting the evidence we needed."